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My Spouse Died TooEpisode 96: Ride Or Die: Loving Through Tragedy, A Husband's Memoir (3 of 3)The last doctor visit, and why Jane’s doctor cries. Hope discussion. Did Jarie have a hope stopping point, like I did? What love is. Jane’s last written words, delivered to Jarie, after Jane dies. Now, how Jarie lives each day, even if it’s a shytty day. Try this. Love after Jane. Is soon, too soon? Define soon. Dating and guilt. No one else knows your path. If you’re uncertain (scared to death) about dating, hear what Jarie says, because you might not have ano...2024-04-161h 10My Spouse Died TooRide Or Die: Loving Through Tragedy, A Husband's Memoir (2 of 3)Vaping to cope. THC and CBD. Jane needs Jarie to be her ROCK. Failure lump in Jarie’s throat. The feeling…how anxiety and stress manifest themselves. When Jarie, the man who loves a plan, asks himself “How am I going to fix this?” And then realizes “I can’t fix this!” Chemotherapy ravages—Jarie buzzes off Jane’s long black hair. Freezing your embryos. Jarie and I have a gut-wrenching intimate discussion. Discussing death with your dying spouse. So hard. How a guardian angel social worker puts t...2024-04-091h 14My Spouse Died TooRide Or Die: Loving Through Tragedy, A Husband's Memoir (1 of 3)If you marry, and mark your day with ceremony, you might include these wedding vows: To have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love, cherish, and to obey, till death do us part. Half-easy to recite, but fulfill—a Sisyphean effort. Widowed guest co-host and author Jarie Bolander joins us. Jarie’s book is titled: Ride Or Die: Loving Through Tragedy, A Husband’s Memoir. Jarie’s memoir, a poignant tribute to his late spouse Jan...2024-04-031h 03My Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (3 of 3)Gut-busting, emphatic, grand finale. First, listen someplace where it’s safe to pee your pants. Why Susan’s Uber driver advises her to lock the hotel door and under no circumstances come out until morning. Pretending all is okay--when it’s not. Telling your family to shut the fuctuplets up. Is God kept on retainer? The High School Provocative Classmates Widow Group. Susan Can’t imagine falling in love again. Oh God, I’m blushing. Can you say vi-vi-vibrators? Life’s three stages a...2024-01-231h 04My Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (2 of 3)Morphine, ahhhhh. Mark’s last days. Wait, what about Sofie, Mark’s dying dog? The last goodbye. Mark and Sofie wear American football team Green Bay Packers sweatshirts. From the Woo Woo and Taboo Department: before Susan’s birth, her mom bore a son. He died at birth. Like a shameful secret, never discussed. So how does Susan’s four-year-old son know about Susan’s late infant brother? Now alone, Susan says “F#@k it, I don’t want to cook!” After Mark dies, Susan is pissed off at Mark. Susan discu...2024-01-1654 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (1 of 3)Widowed dynamo Susan Yelton jumps into action as my guest co-host in this first episode of a whirl-wind 3 part series. The series makes you: question, agree, cry, laugh, piss you off, shake your head and your fist, say oh my gosh, and holy shyt. Susan even makes me blush! In a later episode we talk about sexuality…just listen for yourself. You hear me turn red. A Baptist preacher’s daughter, at age 16, Susan meets Mark. A long-haired guitar-strumming 19-year-old. Akin to a 60’s folk singer. Instantly in love. Three years later t...2024-01-0952 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Ex Died. Grief Ambushed Me. (3 of 3)“Are you sitting down?” When you answer your phone and the caller says this, does lousy news always ensue? Kady ruminates over how to deliver bad news to her teen daughter. Grief ambushes Kady. Kady details her what-ifs. Mourning what you thought could be. What Kady believes causes her grief—an eloquent explanation. Can death deliver relief? Kady’s fear-filled recurring nightmare about Mikey. If you haven't listened to Parts 1 or 2, link here: Part 1 Part 2 More EX grief stories? Listen to my sister Vickey's episode 11: Three Weddin...2023-08-0852 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Ex Died. Grief Ambushed Me. (2 of 3)Kady gives Mikey an ultimatum. Mother’s little helper (the Xanax kind). Granting extra chances (breaking boundaries to stanch your pain and unease?) Kady says, “I don’t need a man." Meet Kady's condominium complex busybody matchmaker, aka, Miss Pat. Wisdom from grandma. A suicide threat. Might Kady move in with a man? A poignant proposal. And Kady gets an unforeseen telephone call about her ex, Mikey. If you haven't listened to Part 1, here's the link: Part 1 More g...2023-08-011h 06My Spouse Died TooMy Ex Died. Grief Ambushed Me. (1 of 3)You might label Kady’s Ex a “major dyck head.” Today, Kady and her new husband celebrate ten-plus years with two kids—a teen and a five-year-old. (The Ex fathered Kady’s teen). And then Kady’s Ex dies. Grief ambushes Kady. Secretly grieving, Kady struggles to make sense of it. Embarrassment and shame pile on. Kady doesn’t want to tell anyone. And why might someone grieve the death of a major dyck head? This three-part series details awkward young love, endearing qualities, substance abuse, loss of innocence, te...2023-07-2555 minMy Spouse Died TooLOSS and GRIEF: Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals (2 of 2)Welcome to part 2: Loss and Grief Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals, with my guest co-host Linda Klein. Linda is co-editor of the book Loss and Grief Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals. I shamelessly ripped off the book’s title for the podcast episode title because it makes sense. If you haven’t listened to part 1, please do that first to avoid brain freeze. Here's the link. In this final episode, we pick up where we left off from part one. I finish reading a once-upon-a-time stor...2023-03-2148 minMy Spouse Died TooLOSS and GRIEF: Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals (1 of 2)Why do professionals, surrounded by death, loss, and grief, think they must hold their shyt together for their patients, family, and themselves? For years, these professionals have been expected to bury their emotions, suck it up, and move on. Present stoically. No one must know if you seek therapy. Any sign of grief is weakness. A liability. A career impediment. What will my colleagues think of me? What will my patients think of me? What will my family think of me? I’m a pro. I can’t lose my shyt. But...2023-03-1450 minMy Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (3 of 3)Do men only care about this one thing? Putting up with abuse for too long? The Devil you know vs. The Devil you don’t. Is online dating a parade of emotionally bankrupt individuals? Reality check: Recovery from losing your spouse… is bloody and painful. Debbie’s next devastating loss—her girlfriend group abandons her. Hear why. Beware, the astonishing power of loneliness. Waiting too long to move out of the home where you lived with your spouse? The length of time to find joy after loss...2022-09-2954 minMy Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (2 of 3)After George’s death, Debbie feels she doesn’t deserve a future. Here's how she conquers that poisonous head trash. How colossal loneliness leads to a first intimate encounter. What really helps Debbie. How Debbie gains feedback to repair her life. Life when you are used to being half of a couple. Debbie Joins a Car Club. Why? Why Debbie named her web and blog site: TheHungoverWidow.com. How to meet Mr. Oedipus complex. Why do mothers damage so many sons? The patriarchal dating game. 2022-09-221h 11My Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (1 of 3)Widowed guest co-host Debbie Weiss joins us. Debbie is an author and blogger from the San Francisco Bay area. Debbie just published her memoir: Available As Is - A Midlife Widow's Search For Love Since Debbie's high school prom, George is her man. For over 30 years, Debbie and George dine together almost every night—then curl up in bed to wake up each morning beside each other. After meeting a mission-critical deadline, George, a silicon valley workaholic engineer, finally seeks medical attention for a strange lesion on his chest. Resul...2022-09-151h 03My Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (3 of 3)In this final episode, Derek goes back to work and details his challenges as a single dad. Then Derek describes how his impulsive Facebook birthday wishes to a former high school classmate four months after Emily passed, turn into a coffee date…and more. Now, Derek contemplates dating, the timing since Emily’s death, and the confusion he feels, mixed with grief. Derek tells us how he meets one-on-one with his extended family to announce he’s dating. Derek gingerly admits and explains family “mixed reviews” and “a little backlash.”2022-06-2148 minMy Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (2 of 3)Deep into treatment, Derek’s young wife Emily seeks a second opinion with the world-renowned cancer specialists at MD Anderson in Houston Texas. You’ll hear what the doctors say, their plan. How Derek compartmentalizes: One moment he’s a husband, the next, he’s a caregiver, and at the same time, father to their baby boy. Wearing three hats, how does he do this? You’ll hear why Derek had to smuggle his baby boy INTO the hospital. And with conflicted heavy hearts, we contemplate how, with cancer treatment, it feels as if we choose...2022-06-141h 24My Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (1 of 3)Newlyweds in their twenties, Derek and Emily dreamt of parenthood with a kid-filled home. For six years, pregnancy eluded Derek and Emily. One afternoon, during the summer of 2019, Emily gives Derek miraculous news “You’re going to be a Dad.” Infinite joy unleashes. Six months later, it’s January 2020, right before the Covid-19 pandemic erupts. Emily’s textbook perfect pregnancy progresses. Just three months until the due date, but something isn’t right. Emily has breast pain. Prescribed antibiotics can’t fix it. Emily is biopsied. Derek and E...2022-06-071h 08My Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (4 of 4)“How does one recover from narcissistic abuse?” Molly explores the question. You’ll hear how, despite the years of psychological abuse, Molly conjures the courage, embodies resilience, and chooses to face her new life to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix. When I shared with Molly the words “…to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix,” she laughed nervously because this is unbearable. A Sisyphean task. You don’t “fix” yourself overnight with a couple of Brené Brown books and ten insurance-approved therapy sessions. (I own and recommend Brené’s books.) The trust issues. Will Mol...2022-05-3147 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (3 of 4)Warning: Crash helmet is required for this mind-bending episode because Molly blows the roof off! If you haven't listened to parts 1 and 2, do that first or you'll be lost. Here are the links to Part 1 and Part 2. Elusive puzzle pieces and climactic revelations clearly appear. The breadcrumbs, all the clues MolIy drops, lead to what I call the inconceivable twist. Molly grieves Dick’s death. But, barely a week after the funeral, Molly is summoned to an emergency meeting with her husband’s business department heads, accountant, and attorney. One l...2022-05-241h 03My Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (2 of 4)In this episode (2 of 4), Molly’s husband Dick makes one last-ditch effort to counter his failed treatments and inescapable prognosis. Dick receives a fortuitous referral to visit an eminent cancer doctor specializing in Dick's exact diagnosis. This doctor is at a top research facility globally—Sloan Kettering Cancer Center in Manhattan, New York City. You’ll hear what the doctor says about Dick’s prognosis—and where Dick ends up. Put on your seatbelt as Molly details relationship strains from the past, to present odd behaviors. Molly drops more breadcrumbs, more clues....2022-05-1751 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (1 of 4)Widowed guest co-host Molly Murphy joins us. But there’s a catch. Molly Murphy isn’t her real name. Molly tells her story with an alias, a fake name because she must protect the truly innocent and the potentially guilty. Every widow or widower's story and grief is custom-made. And yes, all our stories share similarities, including Molly’s, but in the end, Molly’s story has a twist, and it’s is an absolute jaw-dropper. But Molly is not our average guest—because of the eye-popping discoveries Molly makes AFTER her husband...2022-05-101h 06My Spouse Died TooI’m Dating—Hear Me Sign-Up Live for Match.com (2 of 2) Stumbling and bumbling, Barb Flynn and I finish my Match online dating application. This is part two. If you missed part one, you can click and listen to it here. Barb and I read and comment on actual women's profiles matched to mine. If someday you might consider dating, or if you’re already active with a dating app, listen carefully because Barb gives loads more insight, tips, and warnings. Please enjoy our random raw banter in this last episode of I’m Dating—Hear Me Sign-Up Live for Match.com Bullets...2022-05-0352 minMy Spouse Died TooI’m Dating—Hear Me Sign-Up Live for Match.com (1 of 2)WARNING. This two-part series is R-rated. If curse words and sexual innuendo don’t send you running, then stick around. Guest co-host Barb Flynn kindly walks me through the actual live sign-up and setup of the Match.com online dating profile. We set my profile up because after four dates with the first woman I dated (since my late spouse)—things ended—she rekindled a past romance. Great experience. I have zero regrets and no resentment. You can hear all about that in the two episodes of Dear Donna, I’m Finally Dating. Here are those li...2022-04-261h 10My Spouse Died TooShould I Make My Online Dating Profile Now? (2 of 2)Beer-infused evening ramble continues! Barb Flynn and I recorded just twenty-four hours before my upcoming third date with Miss Kayak. In this episode, I share what I believe is the most important part of an online dating profile— the written summary—this is where you say something about yourself. My list exhausts. I'm told by "dating experts" it's too long. You might be amused or alarmed by what I say. What my nurse practitioner sister warns me about sexually transmitted diseases—my naiveté is exposed. Why Barb dresses differently to shop this un...2022-04-121h 03My Spouse Died TooShould I Make My Online Dating Profile Now? (1 of 2)Should I Make My Online Dating Profile Now? Returning guest co-host Barb Flynn helps set up my online dating profile. Barb’s deadpan sense of humor plays well with mine—naturally, we go off into the weeds (figuratively). We discuss gobs! Warning: Barb and I drank beer before and during recording, but I sound like I beer-bonged espresso—maybe because I was both anxious and delighted to record. Also, to add context, we recorded after I had gone out twice with Miss Kayak. Some discourse is similar to what you hear in the two episodes of “De...2022-04-051h 10My Spouse Died TooDear Donna, I'm Finally Dating (2 of 2)In this final episode of Dear Donna, I’m Finally Dating, we pick up where we left off from part one. More Miss Kayak dates! Alcohol dissolves conversation filters. Head trash ups and downs. When should I kiss my date? Head vs. heart—which wins? Are my wardrobe issues irrational? Why you CAN'T arrive early to pick up your date. Downward dog yoga incident rears its head. Peculiar feeling—what does the gut say? Dating makes me soul-search my principles and core personality—here’s my concrete discovery. Where do things g...2022-03-2936 minMy Spouse Died TooDear Donna, I'm Finally Dating (1 of 2)“Dear Donna, I’m Finally Dating” Eight years after my spouse Donna died, I wrote this heartfelt letter to her. In the first of this two-part series, I read the letter—it’s about our first date (and how it almost ended in blows), dying, my improbable number one bucket list item, and what Donna wanted for me after her death. Along with my vulnerable random ramblings, I share intimacies—never revealed—even to those closest to me. And to top it off, you’ll hear anxious awkward details about my first dating exp...2022-03-2239 minMy Spouse Died TooBook Recommendations for The WidowedFour book recommendations for the widowed. Three authors have been on the podcast as widowed guest co-hosts. The fourth author is not widowed. Her book was recommended to me by one of the widowed guest co-hosts. Now, I’m not going to have an author on the show if I won’t recommend their book. That would be awkward. And I only recommend books I have read. When I read, I underline. Write notes and questions in the margins. If I feel the book gives enough value (sorry I can’t define...2021-09-0722 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Good Widow (4 of 4)The psychic prediction that came true—Is this mere coincidence? Listen and decide for yourself. After the death of her husband Tris, Jenny describes her first romantic kiss—what she didn’t feel, but what she felt. All of a sudden, he got possessive. A switch flips and jerk behavior ensues. The ethical slut: defense of a slutty widow. This references the poly community (polyamory is the practice of, or desire for, intimate relationships with more than one partner, with the informed consent of all partners involved). Jenny brings this up because if you wer...2021-08-3145 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Good Widow (3 of 4)Why Jenny feels guilty and embarrassed (about most of her book). Jenny goes on thirty-six first dates. More thoughts on psychic healing. Widowed with stepkids. Your spouse is gone, will your stepkids drift away? The problem with perfectionism. Critical emoji texting etiquette: This emoji will get you into trouble or into fun. I read Jenny’s essay How To Date A Widow. It’s a true tutorial I believe anyone considering dating a widow should read, and there are lessons here for all of us (male or fema...2021-08-241h 13
PodtalkNuance with Emeric McClearyHow can curiosity and nuanced listening enhance meaningful conversations, particularly in the context of podcasting?
A podcaster reveals how embracing curiosity and patience leads to unexpected and powerful storytelling.
"The beauty of finding nuance is that it trains you to be a better listener, and it helps—at least it helps me—because I'm just infinitely curious. If you're infinitely curious, you're probably going to ask questions, or let people talk or give you more information, or again— looking for that gold nugget." ~ Emeric McCleary (5:04)
This conversation explores the value of nuanced listening and Eme...2021-08-2020 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Good Widow (2 of 4)I read essays from Jenny’s book The Good Widow - A Memoir of Living with Loss. In one essay, titled Bone Cold, Jenny musters the courage to expose her innermost thoughts—pure raw vulnerability. When I ask Jenny, you’ll hear her explain what was really going on when she wrote the piece. You might wonder if Jenny’s a masochist. Jenny the psychologist sees a psychic— are psychic mediums helpful or are you playing with fire? Brutal self-punishment. How we conflate health and weight. Why angry Jenny exercised like a meth hea...2021-08-171h 09My Spouse Died TooThe Good Widow (1 of 4)Widowed guest co-host Dr. Jennifer Katz joins us. Dr. Katz is a tenured Professor of Clinical Psychology at the State University of New York at Geneseo. Dr. Katz just published her book: The Good Widow - A Memoir of Living with Loss. Dr. Katz goes by Jenny. It’s August 2018, Jenny and her husband Tris have a fifteen-year-old daughter, Maddy, and a twenty-seven-year-old son, Jonah. Two relaxed weeks before Jenny’s university work starts full-force for fall, Jenny and daughter Maddy go out for an early-morning breakfast. Life is good. After brea...2021-08-101h 25My Spouse Died TooOn Bended Knee (3 of 3)Didn't the world stop when your spouse died? Letting go of friends and family--even if only temporarily. Since your spouse's death, are you more empathic or less or both? Glimpses of how Julie and I parent our respective kids without their respective Dad or Mom. Hint: It's not easy. There's no do-over. And sometimes, you have to keep your mouth shut. Julie's engaged without a wedding date. Why? Julie reveals the real reason. Can this be worked out? Is sabotage on the horizon? Okay, so Julie's engaged, but has she...2021-08-031h 15My Spouse Died TooOn Bended Knee (2 of 3)Julie and the supernatural hummingbirds--can you find comfort in supernatural signs. Are they God sent, serendipity, or something else? Julie and her fiancé John courageously move into a new house together. Fearing adult kid mutinous protest, can Julie and John figure out how to celebrate their first Thanksgiving and Christmas like one big happy family? Or does it turn into a cluster-f? Julie reveals her biggest hang-up. Julie is the outsider in fiancé John's decades-old social circle. Will John's friends accept Julie? Does Julie compete with John's late spouse? John's late spouse was also...2021-07-271h 08My Spouse Died TooOn Bended Knee (1 of 3)Julie Metzger returns and pulls back the curtains for you to see the messiness and beauty in life. Exhausted from years of holding and lifting everybody else up, who’s holding Julie up? Who holds you up? Vibes about people—how Julie trusts her gut. Julie’s zero-calorie vampire tendencies. Julie the Olympic Hugger. Are adult kids sabotaging your new life? Netflix and Chillin'—Hmmm? Wait, is Julie getting married? God-winks, serendipity, reincarnation, and more! Bullets Vibes--A Woman's Intuition Vampire Diaries Best Hugger G...2021-07-2056 minMy Spouse Died TooWidowed, Single, and Happy? (3 of 3)Does widowhood define you? A therapist told me that’s not so healthy. But when you first meet someone new, how do you introduce yourself? What are your biggest widow fears? Here’s ours. Quirky sleeping habits (when no one else shares your bed). What kind of pity might you have for couples with problems? Especially when they choose not to seek professional help? I reconcile with past issues I didn’t resolve with my spouse. Now, because I'm widowed, the best I can do is forgive, release and move on. But my...2021-07-1336 minMy Spouse Died TooWidowed, Single, and Happy? (2 of 3)Seven years ago, while on a phone call with his boss, Sherri’s husband Greg suddenly died. Sherri wants to call the boss and ask about that call. Can I convince Sherri to call Greg’s boss while we record? Sherri reveals why you won’t find a framed picture of her boyfriend in her new house. Facebook problems for the widowed—heed this warning before your pic is plastered or tagged on Facebook. Does Sherri have spies surveilling her boyfriend? Angry make-up sex. Have you ever had any? Definition and example...2021-07-0653 minMy Spouse Died TooWidowed, Single, and Happy? (1 of 3)Seven years ago Sherri’s husband Greg suddenly died. Today, Sherri lives alone. Can you be single, widowed, and happy? Consequences if you remarry before age 60 (if you are eligible for American social security retirement benefits). Is Sherri’s current relationship like high school—on-again-off-again-on-again-off-again? We unravel some complexities of Sherri’s current romantic life. Can you enjoy the moment, or do you dwell on the future? How do you measure love? Setting boundaries so no one gets pissy—at least not too pissy. And a whole lo...2021-06-291h 04My Spouse Died TooYou’re Worthy Because You’re Alive (3 of 3)Barry bares his heart and shares his biggest fear. Might this be your fear too? How Barry thinks he comes across on first dates. In other words—why Barry really thinks his first dates don’t usually lead to second dates. The sting of rejection. This has nothing to do with transplants. But finding love again requires taking risks—and that means facing uncertainty—the fear of rejection. We talk about this in terms of unhappy vs. uncertain. Because according to my unreferenced research, most people choose unhappiness versus uncertainty. Do you choo...2021-06-2257 minMy Spouse Died TooYou're Worthy Because You're Alive (2 of 3)Barry’s face glows with promise and hope when he explains what one thing he’s working on—building the rest of his life around—where he finds meaning and beauty. You’ll also hear about Barry’s ninety-day date-cycle. How Barry landed on the roof of a barn. The frustration of six first dates (and no 2nd dates), and what Barry thinks it reveals. How much should you share on a first date—like a liver transplant? Dark humor for coping. When to go dutch--this might surprise you. How Bar...2021-06-151h 03My Spouse Died TooYou're Worthy Because You're Alive (1 of 3)Widower poet Barry Johnson returns! I first met Barry when we recorded about a year ago. Just four months before we recorded, Barry was almost dead. Three months before that recording, Barry’s life was saved by a liver transplant. In this episode, Barry makes a confession—I urge you to listen with compassion and empathy. Barry bares his heart about his depression-where it comes from-rough stuff. Is Barry still pissed at God? How work helps Barry cope. Barry reads his poem. And Barry’s person...2021-06-081h 01My Spouse Died TooWhat I Learned (by doing the podcast)What I’ve learned by doing more than fifty My Spouse Died Too podcast episodes. Not all-inclusive, just a taste of what I’ve discovered by talking for hours and hours with courageous widowed guest co-hosts. You’ll hear my self-accusations, personality quirks, views on life and death. How I make deeper connections with just about anybody. How to find gold in a conversation. How to listen better. And I’ll suggest a resource, if you take simple action, quickly changes your life in a profound way. And more. Bulletos2021-06-0150 minMy Spouse Died TooComedian Widow: How Dark Humor Eases The PainWidowed at twenty-eight, Tawny Platis is the queen of dead husband jokes. Tawny is a comedian, voice actor, and host of the podcast Death Is Hilarious. Tawny’s podcast explores how comedians and creatives use comedy and dark humor to cope with grief and trauma through storytelling and jokes. In this episode, Tawny discusses her botched suicide plan. Why laughter is like her heroin. PSDD--Post Spousal Death Disorder. Pennsylvania Serah (she’s a lifesaver). Covid isolation perils. Bumble and honest dating profile advice. Tawny thinks something is wrong with her b...2021-05-251h 23My Spouse Died TooThe Rebellious Widow (3 of 3)The Rebellious Widow Jill Johnson-Young packs this final episode with personal experience and generous professional advice. What you’ll discover… Stacie the Mortician—Jill’s new (and current) love connection. The reticent minister who refused to officiate Jill’s next wedding, and the baseless reasons why. Jill has a stroke on tax day—A real one. Will you grieve forever? What I was wrong about (it has to do with grieving forever). How to be like ninety-nine-year-old actress Betty White (she was widowed 40 years ago and hasn’t remarried)—o...2021-05-1842 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Rebellious Widow (2 of 3)Part 2 of The Rebellious Widow with guest co-host, twice-widowed author, therapist, Mom, and entrepreneur Jill Johnson-Young, LCSW. Taste Part 2: How Casper comes back into the scene and what she asked Jill's Mom. How to break the widow rules so you can live life on your terms without guilt and shame. The three-page bucket List. Introducing your dead spouse. Finishing relationships—how a therapist helps you. People uncomfortable with death: which friends or family suddenly disappeared? The Snow Goose Dress—the things you’ll wear for a dying loved one. Antici...2021-05-111h 27My Spouse Died TooThe Rebellious Widow (1 of 3)Jill Johnson-Young guest co-hosts. Jill is an internationally known grief therapist, Mom, author, entrepreneur, and LCSW (Licensed Clinical Social Worker). While in her 40’s, Jill lost her first wife Linda. Then, Jill lost her second wife Casper. Casper was first wife Linda’s hospice nurse. And now, Jill is married to her third wife Stacie. Stacie is the mortician who cared for both Linda and Casper. Reread and wrap your mind around that! But that’s not all… Jill is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. In her own trial by fire, what surprised Jill is...2021-05-0459 minMy Spouse Died TooThree and a Half Years Since (4 of 4) Got psychotherapy? Freud’s field day on the couch. Tim revisits a childhood memory. Over and over and over. The last time we made love. Tim recollects. Covid loneliness. Emeric struggles. The first thing you should do each morning, no matter what. Prescribed by a world-renowned clinical psychologist and a Navy Seal. Let’s talk codependence. Cooking for One, Eating for Two. Emeric lives alone now, and it's not so easy, yet. Tim's late spouse Donna's last written word, and more. If you haven’t listened to parts...2021-04-271h 08My Spouse Died TooThree and a Half Years Since (3 of 4)Three and a Half Years Since (3 of 4). The marriage question—are you all in? I wonder why my widowed friends say they’ll never marry again. And does that mean they’ll never be 100% “all-in” on any relationship? Who was sleeping with the librarian? Three and a half years since Donna died, what’s Tim’s identity now? After your spouse died you’re invited to a wedding. But now the invitation says You and guest. Gut punch? Is Tim still pissed at God? Woo Woo? Tim explains how he senses his la...2021-04-2051 minMy Spouse Died TooThree and a Half Years Since (2 of 4)Three and a Half Years Since (2 of 4). How not to end a relationship—Never do this chicken shyt thing. Was I right to be judgy? Why Tim mourned after his very first date. SCIENCE! The science of dating: Got chemistry? When will your family be ready to see you with another woman or man? Tim’s 30-year-old adult kid says she’s not ready. Hear what Tim says about this. Are you afraid to die? Not enough words from my Indian tribe—am I talking on borrowed time? Why are you here? (o...2021-04-1359 minMy Spouse Died TooThree and a Half Years Since (1 of 4)Previous widowed-guest co-host Tim Schneider returns and updates us. What life is like now—three and a half years since his spouse Donna died. How Covid-19 relieved Tim. Introducing Ziggy and Georgia, the two naked ladies in the basement. Tim gets set up on a blind date by an obvious Yenta—Tim's first date since Donna died. Listen to this head trash avalanche. Facebook stalker. Might you be one too? Hear the evidence. What to do when dating feels like work. What's in your eulogy? And a whole l...2021-04-0651 minMy Spouse Died TooBoldly Into The Darkness (4 of 4)Welcome to final part 4 of 4, Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness Autumn Toelle-Jackson. Final episode appetizers... Might judgy people rule your decisions? Why one love doesn’t and can’t replace another. Autumn’s transformative coach. Finding the right therapist. What the coach says about Autumn’s fear of forgetting her late spouse. How to accept grief and not be ashamed. The puzzling marriage proposal (sentence contains clue). Should we have a kid? Autumn and Kyle decide. Courageous Miracle. The walk of ho...2021-03-3055 minMy Spouse Died TooBoldly Into The Darkness (3 of 4)Welcome to part 3 of 4, Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness Autumn Toelle-Jackson. You might be perplexed if you haven't listened to parts 1 and 2 first. In this episode, you'll meet Autumn's "grief person." His name is Kyle. The Japanese art of Kintsugi, and how it reflects your true beauty. Admitting you need help. Does grief ambush you? When you least expect it, in the worst places--smack! It hits you. Autumn's fear of falling apart in business meetings drove her to a simple counterintuitive solution--it works....2021-03-2351 minMy Spouse Died TooBoldly Into The Darkness (2 of 4)Welcome to part 2 of Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness Autumn Toelle-Jackson. We pick up right where we left off from part 1. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do that first otherwise you'll miss a critical part of Autumn's story. In this episode, we examine self-imposed grief starvation and Autumn's shocking weight loss. Intimate suicide discussion. Do you have permission to live a life well-lived? Why killing Grandma is funny. The crazy giant hole in Autumn's memory. Autumn discovers a...2021-03-1655 minMy Spouse Died TooBoldly Into The Darkness (1 of 4)Proof there can be hope, healing, and love after loss. Widowed author Autumn Toelle-Jackson joins Emeric for part one of an epic four-part series. We savor her memoir Boldly Into The Darkness: Living with Loss, Growing with Grief & Holding onto Happiness--a treasure trove of wisdom, observations, and actionable lessons you might expect from an ancient Tibetan guru widow. Autumn is barely in her thirties. A taste of part 1: Love. Loss. Hope. Repeat Autumn is a fierce self-professed planner (aka control freak?). Joe is a handsome cattle rancher and engineer. They marry in their mid...2021-03-091h 04My Spouse Died TooI Found Another Soulmate. Then He Died. (3 of 3)The last Valentine's Day together. Elida shares intimate heartfelt details. Rick's doctor makes a gut-punch prediction. We smash the toxic head trash myth of becoming a good person--you'll want to become this instead. Also, does a fantastic sex-life have the staying power to keep your relationship going? How to avoid a dreadful unfulfilled life--what you must do or else. Elida reveals the deathbed promise she made to Rick, but can't keep. And there's plenty more. Please relish this final episode with my friend and guest co-host Elida Myers. The Last Va...2021-03-0254 minMy Spouse Died TooI Found Another Soulmate. Then He Died. (2 of 3)Elida Myers and I continue where we left off from part 1. Elida lays bare the consequences of living together. What legal rights does Elida have? Family turmoil--judgment, shame, and legal. Elida's extraordinary relationship with Rick's young adult sons. Rick's executor--wicked sister? Leaving California, leapfrogging America for a fresh start. Four years after Rick's death, how it feels to get noticed again by a handsome man. And lots more. Curious? Read the episode bulletissimos below for more clues. Why Do We Say--Still Living? My Family Refused My Partner Mexican Christian Judgment Shame...2021-02-231h 08My Spouse Died TooI Found Another Soulmate. Then He Died. (1 of 3)Elida Myers found another soulmate. Then he died. Elida shares vulnerable details how, after previous marriages and splits, she conjures the courage to take a reluctant risk and allow herself to see the beauty in life with another man--a man with an unquenchable zest for life--another soulmate. His name is Rick. Elida and Rick are inseparable--madly in love. Elida moves-in. Life is a sunny beach until Rick gets sick. Shacking-up has complexities and consequences, before and especially after Rick dies from the insidious disease he always had but didn't fully disclose to Elida.2021-02-161h 01My Spouse Died TooMacho Man Truth About CryingImportant personal announcement you must know. Plus my heart is laid bare in this solo episode. Deeply vulnerable insight into my past. I talk about how my Macho upbringing fights with crying. My personal head trash shows itself. You'll learn why science says crying and orgasms produce similar healthful results. Makes perfect sense. And there's more. Not So Many Bullets Aristotle on Crying Why I’m Not Supposed to Cry What Crying and Orgasms Have in Common Macho Macho Man I Made Myself Lie to Her Tears of Joy Exponential Emotional Growth Was...2020-07-3136 minMy Spouse Died TooWhen Do You Get to Fall Apart?Vulnerable ruminations. In this solo episode, I come up for air, pull my personal curtains open, and expose my latest vulnerable ruminations. Is there hope on today’s horizon? Find out. Bulletations Ruminate Like a Boss Socially Distant Hugs Withholding Affection—Ouch Life is Obstacles Mentally Exhausted Man Champion Enabler How To Black Out Like a Pro Tattoo Yourself Like a Jailhouse Artist Do You Ever Get to Fall Apart? Hot Donuts at Night Exercising My Heart Carbohydrate Palooza Tons O’ Hope Beauty in Life Thanks for indulging me. Are you ruminating? You can te...2020-07-2130 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Phoenix is a Poet (3 of 3)Heart-bared grand finale of The Phoenix is a Poet with my widowed guest co-host, poet, and Renaissance Man, Barry Johnson. If you haven’t listened to parts 1 and 2, please do that first because you don’t want to be lost. In this episode, Barry and I rock-on with our late-night chat. We hit heaps of heavy head trash hindrances. You’ll hear: Are you enough? Enough to date. Good enough. Attractive enough. Manly enough. Enough. What a Praying Mantis taught Barry about Life. Can you ever be comfortable in your o...2020-07-1353 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Phoenix is a Poet (2 of 3)Welcome to part 2 of The Phoenix is a Poet with widower Barry Johnson. If you haven’t listened to part 1, please do that first because it gives you a terrific context. In this episode, Barry and Emeric continue their open-heart conversation. You'll discover the number one reason why you should really keep a journal. The sensuous-ethereal-sex-dream that became Barry’s first poem. Deep dark places. Dating conundrums. Finding meaning.And you won’t want to miss Barry’s mesmerizing voice as he reads his poems, and so much more. Bulletos Why I Really Write in My Jo...2020-07-0653 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Phoenix is a Poet (1 of 3) This is a story of unconditional love. Widowed poet Barry Johnson details how he met Beverly, the love of his life. They couldn’t have kids but had the courage, when most couples balk, to adopt Megan, a beautiful young girl who for years was stuck in Kentucky’s foster-child system. All Megan ever wanted was a Mom. Tragically, Beverly dies. Megan is nineteen, and Barry must forge ahead as a newly minted widower and single Dad. But there’s a cruel twist because Barry will die too, unless this one thing happens. ...2020-06-301h 21My Spouse Died TooYou Never Forget How a Person Made You Feel—Five Quality of Care Stories“People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel,” Maya Angelou said. In this solo episode, I share 5 quality of care stories. Even though my wife Donna passed away in 2013, I’ll never forget how these people made me feel. Stories about two doctors, plus Toni the nurse, and Maggie the speech therapist. And how the Head of Neurology at Ohio State University Medical Center finally learned, from yours truly, why you should never serve a dying patient the hospital roast b...2020-06-2347 minMy Spouse Died TooOnly The Good Die Young (3 of 3)How long will you shield your broken heart? High-risk first real kiss. How many kisses does it take to reduce your head trash? How many licks does it take to get to the Tootsie Roll center of a Tootsie Pop? How an average widower even considers going gay. Why you should make amends now. Should you grow a big pair before it’s too late? Diverse dating deeds. Why you should never date this kind. Why I called Steve judgmental. Am I too judgmental because I called Steve judgmental? An...2020-06-151h 24My Spouse Died TooOnly The Good Die Young (2 of 3)Widower Steve Jacobs tells us why—after 9 years since his spouse Sheila passed away—why he still attends widowed grief group dinners. Tips to avoid gossipy neighbors. Why Tampons confuse dads. Asking your late-spouse for advice. Friends with benefits, and tons more. This is part 2 of 3. If you haven’t listened to part 1, please do so for Steve’s Once-Upon-a-Time story. Bullet Points Nine Years Since How to Avoid Gossipy Neighbors Goofy Things People Say You Can’t Know How I Feel Can You Expand Your Empathy? Your Loss is Your Loss D...2020-06-081h 05My Spouse Died TooOnly The Good Die Young (1 of 3)Steve and Sheila are in their 40’s. Gifted teen daughters and son. Solid jobs. Lovely home. The good life is on cruise control. Then one day without a hint—life blows-up. Join me and my widowed guest co-host, Steve Jacobs, in this man-to-man multipart conversation. Read These Riveting Bullets Once Upon a Time Police said “Minor Accident.” We Did Everything We Could Fix That Issue Before Someone Dies She Was the Cougar The Foggy Year Were There Signs? Sadly, Most Women Have This Playing Mommy’s Impossible Role Let’s Get the Routine Going...2020-06-0252 minMy Spouse Died TooFORBIDDEN EPISODE — How My Faith Impacts My GriefFORBIDDEN EPISODE — Please Don’t Listen if you can get arrested for the mere mention of Jesus, or if Jesus triggers you. How my faith impacts my grief. My simple uncluttered belief system. How I got here. How I stay. This is not a sermon. Call it a testimonial. Please ponder. Los Bullets Drink the Kool-Aid Are You a Jeezus Freak? Luggage Loaded Label Prejudices Make Sense Wooden Biblical Cruise Ship Once Upon a Time The Cult (not the band, dang) Child-like Belief Silicon Valley Jesus YouTube and the Bible Peace Patience Wisdom Discernment Th...2020-05-2545 minMy Spouse Died TooSearch for Meaning (2 of 2)Paige and I continue our late-night foray. Should you marry for convenience? When you’re ancient and have no helpful family around, should you marry someone just so you’ll have a nurse? The #1 best way to die: why getting hit by a big truck is a bad option. A Mom’s warmhearted wisdom for her widowed daughter. Paige reveals her scary basement incident. Crooked ear crystals (not like the healing crystals you buy in Berkeley). A not-so-common sex position, and mucho mas. ‘Mucho mas’ is Spanish for a 'lot...2020-05-1854 minMy Spouse Died TooSearch for Meaning (1 of 2)Now almost seven years after our respective spouse's deaths, Paige Wilson and I debate finding meaning and purpose. We ponder pandemic personal practices: why do some people wear a mask, and some don’t seem to give a sh*t. Are stay-at-home orders a welcome warning or a lonely look into your future? And much more. Please enjoy this meandering late-night jabber, with my widowed guest co-host Paige Wilson. Los Bullets My Flock of Seagulls Hairdo Poopy Personal Pandemic Practices The Selfish Man Why Won't You Wear a Ma...2020-05-1259 minMy Spouse Died TooPain Lessens Over Time (2 of 2)Tasty head trash-filled episode picks up right where we left off in part 1. Commitments and playing it safe because of your fear of getting hurt again, your fear of not being (fill-in-the-blank) enough, your fear of all your head trash. Why you should accept grief as part of you. Situational Quarantining: Are you a cheater? Too late. Or is it too soon for a boob job? What will you miss about the pandemic? Can you grieve and be happy? And a whole lot more. Imagine...2020-05-0550 minMy Spouse Died TooPain Lessens Over Time (1 of 2)Sherri Rose confesses a death-induced funky phobia. How grief pain really feels as the years roll-on. Why you might want a phony wedding ceremony. Irrational widow wackiness, actionable Stoic wisdom, and tons more. Read These Bullet Points Sex Kitten Velvet Voice Each Year Gets Better Honor My Spouse with a Cheeseburger? Details We Didn’t Know Anxious Anticipation Why I Like April Again Confess The Funky Phobia Exiting the Cave Sh*t, There’s Emeric! Seneca the Younger (Stoicism) “I DO” Means Baggage The Bachelorette Being Single Isn’t a Death Sent...2020-04-2857 minMy Spouse Died TooWant to Feel Normal?Want to Feel Normal? Emeric and returning guest co-host Tim Schneider unpack the blindly accepted words ‘Normal’ and ‘New Normal.’ But what do those words really mean? We dig deep to discover the hidden desire behind the word normal. A desire you long for? Maybe. We: Discuss our hang-ups, debate God of the Christian Bible, COVID-19, we ponder “what counts as sex.” And did Tim ask God for a lap dance? You decide. Plus generous advice for the freshly widowed. And so much more. Fairly Decent Bullet Points Fee...2020-04-211h 28My Spouse Died TooGood Cancer, Orphaned KidsIn this episode, I discuss my biopsy, and every crazy thought my mind conjures the moment I answer a phone call. It's my doctor’s office calling with biopsy results. Terror. Flashbacks. Reminisce. Ruminate. Lessons and more. The Bullet Points Dreaded Phone Call My Biopsy Results Parents Die Before Kids Telling The Kids — Flashback! Are You Fit for Duty? Mommy is Dead. My Turn? Smells Like The Beach SPF - Did They Lie to Us? French Cut Bikinis. Hello 1970’s. Little Surfer Girls How to Make a Frankenstein Face Phantom of The Opera How to Ruminate Like a...2020-04-1331 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Loss of Innocence (part 5)Emeric and Tom finish the Loss of Innocence marathon! If you haven’t listened to parts 1 through 4, please listen to those first, otherwise, you’ll miss out on the Once-Upon-a-Time back story. In this final episode, you’ll hear: Why Tom avoids therapy. Battling anger. Can you choose joy? Why home projects never get completed. Heroic generous cousins. Why Tom’s daughter might be related to Harry Houdini. Cathartic family group crying. And tons more! Final Bullet Points Everything Methodical Tom’s Dad’s Ironic Eerie Death Grief Hasn’t Caught Up to Me Battling Anger...2020-04-071h 57My Spouse Died TooThe Loss of Innocence (part 4)Pandemic: Early Spring in the Northern Hemisphere, the year is 2020 and that means no matter where you are in the world, you and your loved ones are in the midst of pandemic from COVID-19, also known as the Wuhan Corona Virus. From the bottom of my heart, I hope the My Spouse Died Too podcast gives you a brief diversion. I pray God gives you patience, peace, wisdom, and discernment. In this episode, Tom struggles with not having spent a quiet moment with his just passed wife Tina. Now, 8 years later...2020-03-3057 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Loss of Innocence (part 3)Tom and Emeric keep going in part 3 of ‘The Loss of Innocence.’ You’ll discover what Tom Verst stole from Tom Hanks. What happens when Tom is in the middle of a sh*t storm, and his stable predictable job of 23 years is terminated? Feeling stuck, God stuff, Brené Brown, and tons more. Messy Random Bullet Points What We Stole from Tom Hanks More Dragons to Slay Who Should You Blame? A Test with No Grades Muslim Conundrum Brené Brown 50/50 Unqualified to Parent It’s What Defines You Chinese Water Torture Do...2020-03-2359 minMy Spouse Died TooThe Loss of Innocence (part 2)Tom Verst and Emeric McCleary continue with part 2 of ‘The Loss of Innocence.’ We talk about PSDD (Post Spousal Death Disorder), watching your kids heal, the stress and difficulty of always putting your kids first, waiting for elusive calm, neglecting yourself, not ready-to-date, and much more. Bullets to Ponder Daughter Graduates-Now What? Escape from Momhood Checking-Off the Boxes Consumed by the Current First Four Years Sucked She Laughed, After 4 Years She Was Cutting Herself? PTSD and PSDD- WTF Birds and Bees Fear Not a Good Father Waiting for Calm Thanks for listening. I...2020-03-171h 03My Spouse Died TooThe Loss of Innocence (1 of 3)The unthinkable happens. Tom Verst joins Emeric in a heart-wrenching, heart-melting conversation. Tom and his spouse Tina had 3 kids under the age of 13. The youngest requires special care and attention. And always will. Tina ran the household. Tina was the manager of nearly….everything. Then one warm spring day…the unthinkable happens. In this episode, Tom painstakingly shares what happens when your young healthy spouse in an instant, is…gone. In a matter of minutes, Tom’s life goes from bliss to utter chaos. Who does what now? Who...2020-03-1047 minMy Spouse Died TooPretending to Be Happy (3 of 3)Emeric’s pre-marital sex snag stumps widowed guest co-host Paige Wilson. We also talk about grieving what hasn’t happened, zero energy, how your kids really learn about sex (awkward conviction), excuses to be reckless, intolerance for complainers, hope, silver linings, and much more. Bunch o’ Bullets: Who's Getting Married Again? Sex Before Marriage Controversy Happy with Companionship Father-Daughter Dance Grieving What Hasn’t Happened Not the Best Parent Running on Empty Crockpot vs. Crackpot Brothers Protect Sister A Date with Voldemort What's in the China Cabinet? Excuse to be Reckless Virginity Renewal Giving Away His Stealth C...2020-03-031h 25My Spouse Died TooPretending to Be Happy (2 of 3)Paige Wilson and Emeric continue with part 2 of 'Pretending to Be Happy.' We riff about grudges, explore if the Batchelor Show can kill you, stupid life insurance advice, family members too busy to visit the one who is dying, leaving your youngest kid far away at university, lingering guilt, things your spouse couldn’t say to your face, and a whole lot more. The Bullet Points: Life Insurance No One Mentions AWOL Family Support It's What Makes You Human Grudges Really Grind? Brain Seared Images Can the Batchelor Show Kill You? Stupid Sh*t People Say...2020-02-251h 09My Spouse Died TooPretending to Be Happy (1 of 3)Warning: Not for the faint of heart. Paige Wilson joins Emeric for an untold confidential chat. Paige shares private heart-wrenching details hardly anyone knows… so nightmarish… unimaginable, even by Quentin Tarantino. Paige describes her late husband Marc’s diagnosis, his barbaric treatment plan, and demonstrates how love, faith, and hope sustain you when most humans cower and crumble. Listen to how Paige was faced with Marc’s ultimate request, and how Paige treaded those ethical waters. Paige’s ability to navigate amongst the horror and yet conjure the courage to continue shows a si...2020-02-171h 02My Spouse Died TooI Love You Too, Babe (3 of 3)Barb Flynn and Emeric finish the final episode of “I Love You Too, Babe.” We rip-off the bandage and jump headfirst into dating, why Barb wanted to date, using a “wingman” (ignore this at your own risk). We discuss feelings of guilt and things you wish your spouse would’ve said to you. Who are you, now? Forcing yourself to do things and activities, relying on others or not, The Smash Party, and so much more... Bullety Bullet Points: In Case I Disappear Daughter Fixes Mom’s Dating Profile Ted Bundy-ish Concerns What’s a Win...2020-02-101h 07My Spouse Died TooI Love You Too, Babe (2 of 3)Barb Flynn and I continue with part 2 of “I Love You Too, Babe." Our conversation meanders around supernatural signs from the beyond, lessons on running your business with calamity on your back. Face it, when your spouse dies, you are now the sole decision-maker. “Widow brain” irrational decisions, why Barb really decided to put their home on the market. What it feels like to purge years of accumulated stuff. And more! Out-of-Order Bullet Points: Supernatural Signs - Weird or Normal? 1st Year Nothing Seems Real Widow Brain Decisions They Always Say…Who’s They? Running a Business i...2020-02-0338 minMy Spouse Died TooI Love You Too, Babe (1 of 3)Barb Flynn joins Emeric for a heart-felt chat. Barb details late husband Darren’s sudden-strange symptoms, devastating diagnosis, and roller-coaster treatment quest. You’ll hear what Barb and her family did to keep things cobbled together on their surreal ride, and how her husband Darren wanted everyone, even at the worst moments, to have a good time. Bullet Points for You: Scratch Like a Monkey Too Much Garlic? You Have 6 to 8 Months Opening a New Business Acts of Love The Will to Hike Visiting Colleges Let’s Just Do It Nike! Still Not Believing No Sle...2020-01-281h 15My Spouse Died TooBeauty and The GriefEmeric details his grief ambush, rumination, asking real questions, finding meaning and the unexpected beauty in life. Random Bullet Points: Grief Wipe-Out Game Oops, I Did It Again Self-Ambush, Huh? Ruminations Flip Grief the Bird? Hanging in There, WTF! Wonder Bread Answers Be Alert When Suffering Forget Nemo, Find Meaning My Prayer for You Thanks for listening. You can ask, judgment-free, something you might not ask in a grief group, email me at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com. Some day, you'll be able to simply leave a voice message at https://www.myspousediedtoo...2020-01-2116 minMy Spouse Died TooThree WeddingsEmeric and his Sister, Vickey Chalumeau, record a mind-blowing episode. Vickey married three times, widowed two times, and her U.S. Marine son, while deployed to Iraq, gave the ultimate sacrifice. Vickey opens-up about what Emeric never knew: Con-man husband. CIA conspiracy. Not giving up. Grieving multiple losses. Sunny the psychic. Personal baggage. How to find happiness and a whole lot more. These Bullet Points are Not Click Bait: How to Find Happiness The Marriage Triple Crown Sunny the Psychic Said So I wanted #1 Husband to Disappear #2 was a Con Man Was it Homicide? 3 Weddings 3 Funerals...2020-01-141h 52My Spouse Died TooDreams About My SpouseEmeric shares explicit dreams about his late spouse Donna. What might they mean? Disappointment. Regret. Redemption. You’ll discover what every woman really wants to hear. A hard lesson for men. A hint for women. Hope is here. Random Points, Incomplete: How Did She Look? That's What She Said Cruel Irony Chicken Legs One of My Regrets How I F'd Up Looking Good, Not Good Looking What Every Woman Wants to Hear Thanks for listening. Ask a question, judgment-free, something you might not ask in a grief group, email me at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com.2020-01-0618 minMy Spouse Died TooToo Soon?Julie Metzger joins Emeric for beers on the couch in this courage-filled grief talk including permission to date, toxic judgment from others, awkward first kisses, freaky coincidences, and stupid questions men ask. Julie’s blog: https://www.returningthegift.org Random Discussion Points: Who's Your Sword Today? Being Alone, Again Grief Group Romance Widow's Date Night First Kiss A.D. (After Death) Got Permission to Date? Dating Too Soon? Who's Judging Who? Your Timing is Yours What if He Could Hear You? Beautiful Grief Thanks for listening. Ask a question, judgment-free, something you might not...2019-12-3045 minMy Spouse Died TooOut, Damned Spot!Julie Metzger joins Emeric for an intimate eve chat in Julie’s very cool hipster home, curled up on a big comfy couch, drinking beer. Gobs covered, plus: Why Julie decided to do what she did with their home. Sentimental purge. Do you get to fall apart? Who gave you the sword to face your dragons? Random bullet points, almost inclusive: Once Upon a Time Bull in a China Shop We Worked Well Together The Lung Spots. Not a Punk Band. But, His Brother Just Died! Can Coincidences Be Lovely? Courageous Boys Too Soon to Move? Gr...2019-12-231h 09My Spouse Died TooScent of a WomanImagine the smell of your late spouse's signature scent. What memories show up for you? But what do you do with those not-empty, bottles, sprays, and tiny vials? Reminisce with me for a late-night mellow meander. Listen for the small confession and shameless what-ifs. WARNING: You might feel the same white-lie guilt. Some episode bullets intended to amuse you: Al Pacino: Scent of a Woman Smells Like Honeymoon, Not Teen Spirit Shameless What-Ifs If It Smells Like Pine-Sol... Chanel No. 5 Didn't Smell That Good Your Books Should You Give Away the Fave? Ruminate with Me Got Ba...2019-12-1721 minMy Spouse Died TooMr. Mom and the Prom DressesSherri Rose joins Emeric in a vulnerable, R-rated, thought-provoking grief and hope talk. Riffing on a ton o’ topics, plus how it’s “still weird”, brazen dating stuff, what tomorrow might mean, and a courageous, yet a controversial way for you to manage grief. Some of the Click Bait Worthy Conversation Bullets: How Do You Feel...Today? Mr. Mom Are You On The Market? The Prom Dresses Things Your Spouse Will Miss Shameless Tease: Maintenance Below Your Eyebrows Why Aren't You Married? Feels Kinda Weird...Still Living Under the Ayatollah: User's Guide Grief is a Gift? Are You...2019-12-0946 minMy Spouse Died TooGrand Finale - Two Widowers Talk Part 3 of 3Emeric McCleary and Tim Schneider cover a ton in this hope-filled heartfelt session for you. Enjoy this Grand Finale Part 3 of 3. Totally Incomplete Conversation Bullets Three Dog Night The Buttcrack of Dawn - Who's Dawn? Who Takes Care of You? 5 Stages of Grief - LOL The First Christmas - How Many Trees? Anticipation. Thank You Carly Simon What If She Could Hear Me? Another Weird Thing Smelling Her T-Shirts Streaking (Running Naked Like the 70's) Thanks for listening. If you would like to ask a question, something you wouldn't dare ask in a...2019-12-031h 03My Spouse Died TooTwo Widowers Talk Part 2 of 3Emeric McCleary and Tim Schneider continue the caffeine-fueled laughter and heartfelt discussion. Enjoy Part 2 of 3. Incomplete Conversation Bullets Dead Spouse Poster on Mantel Non-negotiable Dating What Facebook Post? Becoming a Monk: How to Make a Fruitcake What's Normal? The "D" Word: She's (dead) Going Lesbian? Here, Trigger, Trigger, Trigger Bi-Polar Emotions Midnight at Walmart Cheatin' Scandal? Thanks for listening. If you would like to ask a question, something you wouldn't dare ask in a grief group, email me, judgment-free, at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com. Coming soon, you'll be able to simply leave a...2019-11-261h 07My Spouse Died TooTwo Widowers Talk Part 1 of 3Join me, Emeric McCleary, and my widowed guest co-host Tim Schneider, as we drink too much coffee in Tim's man cave. Quick Incomplete Discussion Summary Once Upon A Time Get Out of Jail Free Card Romp Under the Kitchen Table Her Gym Shoes The Flashbacks Starting All Over What's in the Mason Jar? Thanks for listening. If you would like to ask a question, get something off your chest, or just ramble, email me, judgment-free, at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com. Coming soon, you'll be able to simply leave a voice message at h...2019-11-1940 minMy Spouse Died TooWhat's in Mommy's Purse?When you decide to give away your late spouse's purses, each purse tells a story. Join me, Emeric McCleary, for a late-night In-My-Closet recording. Quick Incomplete Summary Mi Closet es Su Closet Simon & Garfunkel No Front Teeth Tampon Man Buns Biscoff Cookies (this is the correct spelling) Weighing Memories What's in Your Wallet? Thanks for listening. If you would like to ask a question, get something off your chest, give advice, or just ramble, email me, judgment-free, at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com. Coming soon, you'll be able to simply leave a...2019-11-1225 minMy Spouse Died TooJust Yank The WeedsJoin me, Emeric McCleary, and my widowed guest co-host Sherri Rose, as we riff over wine. Quick Incomplete Discussion Summary Once Upon A Time Who Was There for You? Do You Get Something Out of Being Mad? Acts of Love. Or Not. Pasta Again? Almost Disappeared Who Ghosted Who Just Say No Yes Eating After Death Third Wheel Flat Tire Invitational Fatigue Is There Hope? Thanks for listening. If you would like to ask a question, get something off your chest, or just ramble, email me, judgment-free, at myspousediedtoo@gmail.com. Comi...2019-11-0443 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Spouse Died TooThe My Spouse Died Too podcast gives you hope, so you can heal, find love again, and give grief the middle finger. You're not alone, because My Spouse Died Too. My name is Emeric McCleary. I'm your host. Join me and our widowed guests. This ain't your Grandma's grief group!2019-10-2901 min