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Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: WordsRecording on the lsp4 and I'm still getting used to it. Not the best choice when going walking around without a lavier mic. I wish I had something that can record me on spot without all the hassle.
Yeah. 2020-08-2306 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Catching up with myself10.08.2020
How do you inspire loyalty in people?
A friend of mine visited for the weekend. I went naked on a nudist beach. Finding out next steps.
:)2020-08-1610 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Be there when it happens07.08.2020
Johannes left on the 6th. Another friend came on the 7th. I came back from a hiking trip with the boys from the 31st to the 2nd.
I reflect on leaving the job, next steps, and contraband substances like truffles.
It's life, there's mistakes, it's alright.
Best,
K2020-08-0933 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Being Let Go28th of July.
I had my "End of Probation Chat" at 6:30 pm Tuesday 28th of July. I went in with a solid frame of mind, after 2 weeks off to re-calibrate and doing two solid days of work. I re-framed the situation and went in knowing exactly how I'd ask for a raise.
I was let go.
"We have bad news." were the first words she said, as empathetically as she could muster.
I was really calm throughout. And it didn't bother me so much. I listened well, I told them my pi...2020-08-0223 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Tuna Fish PizzaHope he enjoyed it.
26.07.2020
I almost forgot to say that.. for the longest time I had anger. And I'm not angry anymore. Wonderful how I forgot to mention that.
I almost forgot what it was, to be here, real, me and myself.
I wish I talked about my finances more. Instead of just saying "I'm broke." or "I have till then and then to be broke"
I will talk about my finances.
To see something, not articulate it in that sense, but to know how to dance w...2020-07-2632 minMidnight WisdomReflections: Bathtub and Games15.07.2020 Recorded on my new lsp4.
I had to admit I might be a bit mad when I listened to the first few minutes of this. I had the recorded next to me in the bathtub as I stood in cold water. Then I started shadow boxing in the bathtub.
I went through in my head about things that I've been thinking about.
How love brings out the worst in people, and how lovebirds can go to being distant fiends in a single breath. Not that I particularly loved this girl, but I can se...2020-07-191h 26Midnight WisdomMidnight memory: Takaschi KovacI must have recorded this back in may or april.. hmm donno2020-07-122h 40Midnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Metro: Last LightFriday night after a long week, took it completely for myself.
I got a new pocket microphone that I set in front of me but I was pointing it to the tv and not to me, so that gave more focus to the game audio and not me.
Smoked a big bong hit and played Metro: Last Light. Fun game.
Communists living in the metro underground after nuclear fallout.
I reflect about a lot but I haven't listened to it yet.
Will do, and transcribe it actually just for the fuck...2020-07-051h 15Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Creating stories in our headsI'm creating a type of suffering in myself I don't need to experience.
I hurt myself with my anger. I hurt myself with thinking the world we are in will collapse soon. I feel like we're not doing something so fundamental right. I can't point my finger on it. And that doesn't help at all.
As if I can find and hold an answer. And once I do everything is going to be okay.
That's not true.2020-06-2847 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: The ups, the downs, the falls on writing21.06.2020 Ups downs, falls. The weight of my life, the weight of writing.
Been trying to hold on to it all together but damn. The weight that I tell myself I carry as the cost for my awareness.2020-06-2126 minMidnight WisdomTo 2412.06.20202020-06-1226 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Pissing me off10th of June. 2 days till 24.
I woke up early, in a time period where it's always bright. And I hate the lack of balance in that. I hate a lot of the patterns I've been going through lately, of thoughts, in work, with the phone, with things.
I see this rage reflecting into damage that goes straight into me.
I cut my hand breaking a plate.
Fuck everything.
I didn't even care to record something about how I felt about turning 24 soon. Who cares really. I am what I am...2020-06-1020 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Back PainIt's the 6th of June 2020. And the main circulating topic in my being right now is my back. It's been hurting for so long now. 3 and half months of not moving properly, not being able to stretch completely and wholeheartedly, not being able to exercise completely, getting tired quickly and feeling a damn stinging pain at the core of being so often.
At first I prided myself for being able to handle the pain as I tried to work it out by stretching and massaging the area.
Now I'm just sick of it.
I t...2020-06-0723 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: The Branch01.06.2020
I was a little high in this one. Fell off a chair from the start.
That's what reflections are about. That's what all these are about. My states at certain moments, certain memories.
They pass, they change, they fade. But I'm still me.
I decided I'm going to start a community. The Branch.
I met some wonderful people, Eric and Charla.
I'm here.2020-06-0739 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Internalizing States24th of May 2020. I noticed I tend to try to internalize different states that I find relevant to where I am at the moment. Right now, it's presence and being able to hold on to larger amounts of tension without being fazed by any of it. Without flinching. Let freedom reach its form because of your ability to contain it. 2020-05-3112 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Pure CoreInternalizing the state. Pure of being. Of awareness and truth.
I write it down, I react to it no longer. I remove my shackles, and I find myself pure with momentum, pure with force.
A core burning with inner-peace.
"Keep your attention. Boredom is a lack of attention."
"It's fine."
"It'll come back to you."
"I don't know what I won't."
"I will no longer hold on to sand."2020-05-2612 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Nothing: Arabic, breathing, and systems21st of May 2020. I breathe. Sitting on the bench behind my apartment in Oberland after throwing the trash. Wearing my grey long sleeved T shirt. I started with Arabic, and ended with thinking about how we can really fundamentally change systems, to no fruitful conclusion. Prophet Mohammed began his message at 40 and died at 63. If I asked Alan Watts he’d tell me I worry too much. Jesus would tell me to love. Krishnamurti would tell me it’s moving in the direction it’s moving with or without me. I breathe, feeling every moment ad the air passes in and ou2020-05-2425 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Holding on to Sand17th Of May 2020
I went to the old guys place yesterday, he almost forgot who I was, but then made it clear he didn't want much to do with me.
Finished filling an entire notebook with dreams. Insane. I always think about how I could write them differently, because words can only say so much. I draw the space the dream happened in a lot of the time. Let's see.
I wrote in my green (bio)leather dear notebook for the first time. I liked how it felt and I like what was wr...2020-05-1725 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflection: Own Your Shit14th May 2020
And stay with it.
No matter what you feel, when you know where you are is right, you learn and you find a way. Sometimes you feel you can’t breathe, other times all you find is air. What’s the difference between the two really. In and out. In and out.
I was holding a leaf when I recorded this, I usually do when I'm taking walks. Makes me feel centered and calm again somehow.
Like I'm safe. 2020-05-1739 minMidnight WisdomImmediate Reflection: Old and Alone ManI saw an old guy in front of my appartment carrying bags and barely being able to walk.
I help. I leave.
He falls.
Breathe.
And let him breathe.2020-05-0919 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Green LeavesAnd if it happens, if I happen to leave this life before I finish what I feel I need to, it's alright.
It wouldn't bother me if the reality of the life I believe in applied to me.
I'll try to keep my mind free of unnecessary attachment. From the idea of knowing.
I will try to keep my beginners mind. One free of judgement, and always open to the potential of a hopeful future. 2020-05-0539 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Quick Update"To be a king is but a curse you have all mistaken to be the only blessing."
"Here we are, reinforcing our own realities."
Here I am, keeping up and strengthening my foundations.
I'll talk more in detail about how I'm working towards my goals and habits in another one.
Take care.2020-05-0312 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: My WordsIt felt like a reflection. I loved doing this one.
I missed a point, I'm going to live like I'm living till I'm a hundred.
I'll always try to be a good person. And I'm very glad that I'm doing this.
I'm just trying to experience all of this as fully as I can.2020-04-2635 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: As Quick as a DreamThe mic in front of me.
A fan to my right. Two notebooks to my right. Elephant and deer.
The mop arrived from amazon today. I get to clean my floor properly for once. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe yeah.
Smoke to Mo Owais today about my communication idea, I thought it was a really funny interaction coming from him.
life doesn't need to be difficult. We don't need to suffer before the world decides to give us something.
We can simply enjoy what we're already given.2020-04-1824 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Ahmed - The Meso-PaqI got to catch up with Ahmed "Meso-Paq".
A teacher, an athlete and a badass. A very nice badass.2020-04-131h 42Midnight WisdomMeditation: Deepest WisdomI sit on my bed, cross legged with a slightly tilted back, with the microphone in my hands as I breathe.
"What is my deepest wisdom?"
"What is my deepest truth?"
"Am I listening enough?"
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"What is your deepest wisdom?"
"What is your deepest truth?"
"Are you listening enough?"
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To be the divine masculine essence. To obtain the divine feminine essence. To reach balance with both.
To know my truth, and give my love fully at every moment, regardless o...2020-04-1207 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Ibraheem Mahameed - Nothing In ParticularWe talk about ourselves, our lives, a business idea.
Nothing in Particular.2020-04-031h 10Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: OpportunityI’ve been remembering my time in Madrid lately. Exactly two years ago, broke and in internal pain I couldn’t understand. It was sunny, and I was trying to connect but I really couldn’t. I got out of it with the ability to approach anyone, Spanish, and Johannes. I talk about the opportunities rising as things shift and people realise we can do things differently. A lot of potential, but how am I going to use it? Should I?2020-04-0222 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Wisdom: Journey's Beginning IIA reflection of what I am, and what this podcast is. Promises I make to myself and anyone listening.
Absolute integrity. Detachment from images. Being truthful to my being.
Reading the whole, seeing it all, with a glance, with feeling. The experience. The only truth is the one we experience. Until it isn't anymore.
Understanding Intelligence: A Framework to Being will be finished by my next birthday, the 12th of June. And so will the two online courses, Understanding Communication and Understanding Learning. Finally finish these things and put them behind me so I...2020-03-2935 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Thank You AppleSifted through a lot..
Changed a lot of things.
22nd of March.
It's a good time.2020-03-2256 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Messages: To A BrotherMy brother was always a big part of the ideal I strived towards. He was unnecessarily rude to me the other day over texts. Who knows why. I reflected on it, after writing out my feelings for him in a 3 thousand words letter, that was often rude and inappropriate, there was no use in sending that to him, when all he deserves is love. And a little straight talk. I only sent it when it felt right to. Who knows if it was. He still hasn’t answered. But I know he loves me to bits too. He’s a soft...2020-03-2205 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflection: On the 15thElite.
Dreams.
Writing.
Lifestyle.
Brother.
Reflection.2020-03-1544 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: COVID-19When a word travels faster than a disease.
When a global effort comes into effect to halt a common enemy.
When Isolation becomes the norm.
Toilet paper is the answer.2020-03-1515 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: 3 LitersHassan Al Wer.
Beer.
Pushups.
Contanze Jordan.2020-03-0625 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: It starts with breathingMy uncle died two weeks ago.
The job is going well.
I'm on a good path.
I just need to own myself more. Take myself more seriously.
My perspective has value. 2020-03-0136 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Johannes - Daylight Savings IIJohannes and I catch up exactly two weeks after our last episode.
We talk about our progress in fighting, children, writing, karma, drinking alcohol, coding and eventually I go on a monologue explaining my meta goal in life with the books I'm writing.
Johannes has been writing 2000 word essays once every two weeks about different topics for the next six months, and I've been writing 3000 words a week for the past while to get my writings done and to establish the habit.
He's also been learning how to code and take advantage of a...2020-02-2358 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: KinktastishIt's close to miiiidnight and I reflect on the past few days. I'm grateful for the job I got and the people I get to spend most of the day with. Amd I went to a weird party that was pretty weird.2020-02-1641 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Johannes Jolkkonen - Daylight SavingsJohannes joined a Jiu Jitsu (JJ) grappling class two weeks after I joined mine.
We both had weird grappling dreams and we're facing off in 4 to 6 months :D
We talk a lot about fighting. We talk about Jordan Peterson and what he's going through right now.
That leads us to talking about self-esteem and what we base our characters on.
That carries into me talking about my financial planning into the next two years and we decide we're going to burning man before the end of 2022.
If we'd ever start a...2020-02-091h 20Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Self Esteem III'm in my room. The cool monkey is in a corner in my house after I brought my things back from Hamburg. I'm sick. My first day of work is tomorrow. This is where I am.2020-02-0235 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: Self-EsteemThis one's about self-esteem.2020-01-2615 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Kampfst Du?I talk about fighting.
I love it. I'm getting the instinct for it.
Kampfst du?2020-01-191h 28Midnight WisdomMidnight Limits: All and lonelinessThis one is about us and loneliness.
How we'll take care more of someone who's a part of us, like our own child, but neglect to take care of our own self.
How we wait to be seen through the eyes of someone who we also see eventually only to see ourselves. But then we'll lose that anyway.
The universe feels like it's desperately trying to find itself only to instantly lose it.
Is that what we are? Loneliness?
2020-01-1213 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: Problems to fixWe pay attention to the problem, the mistake, and forget all else.
Are we listening enough? Are we slaves to our own idea of our mistakes?2020-01-0501 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Inner PeaceFive days after New Years. I'm in the office on a Sunday night keeping a promise to myself.
I talk about inner peace, karma, and my experiences these past few weeks.
We're always trying to find problems to fix. The reality is there will always be problems.
Past them is peace.2020-01-0522 minMidnight WisdomWriting.2019-12-2917 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: Need a hug?If you could ask God one question, and you had all the time in the world to think about it, what would it be?
You'll only ever see the world through your eyes. It's a lonely thought.
Makes me feel like we could all use a hug.2019-12-2204 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Feeling StructuredI feel more structured right now, and I talk about that in this one. I'm more patient about what I need to accomplish and I'm more okay with doing a lot of little things over a longer course of time that amount to a lot more than I can imagine.
At least I find that works for me the most. Focusing a little bit on a lot of things and then sometimes focus a lot on one thing seems to keep my attention and focus going, all in the effort of understanding myself a lot more.
I...2019-12-2241 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: We are waterJust as we are life, we are water.
We reflect the qualities of how water moves. The one constant thing about us is the one thing constantly changing, water in and water out.
The balance it exists within. The death and rebirth. Destructive storms and calm oceans.
How can we think that the small influences the far stars and the rest of the universe has on our water, on our own flows, doesn't effect us?
It has to. For we are mostly that. 2019-12-1514 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Caroline - Don't be a dickAn episode centering around Carly's experiences being sexually abused.
It's explicit, it's raw, and it's real in the best way it can be.
Thanks for sharing Carly.2019-12-141h 33Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Deliberate RandomnessOnly after the fact did I feel like I was exactly where I was meant to be.
Everything is moving and there's so many successes and failures along the way, yet somehow the sum of all of that seems deliberate. Where we are right now as a species, and where I find myself right now in my life.
Randomness underlies our reality, one relationships and patterns. And through that randomness we are represented as intelligent beings.
Fun stuff.2019-12-0826 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: Fitting CreationEverything somehow fits, and that coherency is what attracts us. That coherency is what we are.
Are we pursuing that alignment? Or are we already all exactly where we need to be.2019-12-0110 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: It has been spokenI reflect as I wait for my cold bath to fill out.
It's easy to feel down when everyone around you is depressed and putting limits in front of themselves. I can't blame them. The company is shutting down and they have to continue milking a dead cow. It doesn't mean that I can't find ways where I can help or do good here and there.
I recorded on the 27th of November but I'm writing this description on the 11th of December. 2 weeks difference. Nothing changed but it feels like everything changed. Funny stuff. ...2019-11-2748 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: Do I Deserve My Life?I'm terrified of losing the life I lead. I'm dreadfully aware of how easy it is for things to go wrong.
I can't help but question what I did or who I am to deserve this life and all the good that's in it. And I'm not so sure that's a question I can answer.
As long as I get to move, I will do my best to make the most of the life I lead. But is there a reason for me to be proud of who I am and what I've accomplished?
...2019-11-2412 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Jan Apel - BankruptcyI catch up with Jan on the 24th of November to tell him about what happened at the company I'm at.
Jan did theater back in school, and is one of the most emotionally intelligent people I know. We talk about how I feel like everything's an act, and as long as you say the right thing at the right time, things will probably work out.
But what are they but empty words at that point?2019-11-2458 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: The Fear We CarryWe're more than this inherent need embedded in us. The fear built within us to guarantee our continuation as individual beings.
The fear that allows us to continue, but also holds us back from developing. That holds us back from 'really' moving forward.
And when we're held back like that, stagnant in our own lives, we eventually find ourselves depressed.
Sometimes you have to do something you think will hurt you to feel really good again, to see progress.
It's your duty to push against that limit, you can't be passive with...2019-11-1714 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Beginner's MindMy reflection from the last two weeks.
I felt like I've lost my beginner's mind here. A part of the freshness I came into Berlin with.
It's good to remember to be more genuine and more in the moment.
Alignment, disalignment. Life.
I have a talk with Carly in an hour about her experiences regarding sexual abuse in the past. I'm nervous, but I'm clear on what this is.
A conversation to try and understand how another human being feels. 2019-11-1725 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Limits: The Questions We AskThe filter we see things through. The magnifying glass that seeks. Our questions to ourselves and others.
Our questions direct our search for information, the same information we use to build the model that is our world.
How will we go on interacting with the world through the questions we impose on it. 2019-11-1009 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: LazimI talk about my last two weeks in Berlin.
How I feel like I'm not being as genuine as I can be and how being more genuine and innovative with my approach to finding a job gives me more energy and perspective.
I've been here for almost 3 weeks now and I'm running into people I've met almost daily. Goes to show that at least something I'm doing has to be right.
Lazim, I have to, continue.2019-11-0325 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Jan Apel - The Corporate AnimalI recorded this with Jan back in January but didn't upload it until now. At the time I didn't feel like I had Jan at his genuine best. I want you guys to see him the way I do. But hey, for now you'll only hear his majestic voice.
This was right after our final exams for our 5th semester out of a total of 6 semesters for our entire degree.
We're keeping this one for the memory book :)2019-10-2755 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Setting LimitsI feel like a seed under concrete.
Being the type of person ready to push against a city full of potential.
Alongside of that, I realized that a bad feeling was looming over me for the longest time, and after sitting down and focusing on that feeling, I realized it's my relationship to Midnight Wisdom that's causing that. I haven't set limits on my recordings. I haven't set anything to grow against, so how am I supposed to grow?
After a year of free style recording, now I'm going to set different limits o...2019-10-201h 29Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: My Life is My MetaphorI'm off to see my brother and his girlfriend in Berlin tomorrow and I'm taking this chance to record maybe the last episode I can in this park. My life is in some form of interlude and I'm waiting to see in which direction it can go.
It feels overwhelming when you build up the things you have to do in life instead of simply sitting down and chipping away at them little by little. And it doesn't help that I've put so many different things on my plate and built such huge expectations of when and h...2019-10-1342 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Losing the MomentI'm afraid of losing the moment. To forget how it felt, to let go of the experience I had.
It's my job as a writer to hold on to the moments I think that matter, and put them together in a way that creates more meaning to anyone willing to listen. So I can't let myself lose the things that happen around me. But it just gets so overwhelming keeping track of it all.
In the plane from Jordan to Prague, I came up with a new idea for a novel, and during my two da...2019-10-0638 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Right Choices?I was supposed to be at my graduation, but here I am, back home with my family.
Did I make the right choice?
I think so. 2019-09-2950 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Yazan Al-Qawasmi - One True ThingYazan and I were inspired after visiting the Van Gogh museum in Amsterdam. A trip he invited me to after we both graduated from university.
We recorded in the Amsterdam Vondelpark on a beautiful Saturday afternoon on the 21st of September 2019.
Yazan was the person who convinced me to drop university in Jordan and come to Germany directly. One of the biggest decisions in my life that turned everything around, in a good and bad way at the same time.
The episode starts with Yazan sharing his perspective on Van Gogh, someone who sp...2019-09-2223 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Shifting ShadowsNow I'm sitting here, in the Hamburg airport waiting for my 13 hour transit flight to Jordan to visit my family for one week before coming back.
Amsterdam was insane. I love it there. I love how open the people are. I felt like I could be friends with anyone around me and deeply connect with people I've only seen for the first time. A feeling you don't get too often in Germany.
My flight from Amsterdam to Hamburg was at 6:55 in the morning and I was at a rave I had to leave at 2 am to...2019-09-2215 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: All OutA full moon. The microphone and me in an intimate embrace for two hours. 2019-09-152h 00Midnight WisdomMidnight Stories: Shifting ShadowsLike clockwork. Tick. Tock.
I wrote this short story three full years ago and I wanted to share it with you all.
A story of a sleepless man, a black box and a shadowy figure. All coming full circle.2019-09-0854 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: bumkkWhat's bumkk?2019-09-0128 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Four Days LeftFour days left to submit to the thesis and here I am smoking in a park talking about how all of this fits into my plan.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not out darkness that most frightens us. What's your deepest fear?2019-08-2537 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Nothing to ProtectWith the moon ahead of me, a tea in my hand, myself and my thoughts. I roam.
I'm getting bored. And it's time to start having more fun with what I'm doing.
There's no reason to be afraid, there's nothing to protect.2019-08-181h 05Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Quick ConfessionsIn this one I confess two things. And I go into my compulsive need to find a problem in my way of being or way of thinking. Which is funny and ironic because I'm basically identifying that as a problem.
We're usually our own worst enemies. And frankly, I'm terrified of myself.2019-08-1149 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Gay PrideAfter spontaneously deciding to go to Berlin for a night, I'm back in Hamburg.
On the way over there I was like "What the hell am I doing on a bus to Berlin right now.. All I want to do is eat and sleep." But obviously I couldn't eat or sleep, I broke the day to day pattern of everything I was following, and now I was hungry on a bus with only time on my hands and a party to look forward to.
I came back to Hamburg to find a gay parade going on...2019-08-1117 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Half A MindThe need to be liked, the patterns of thoughts in my head, the narrative I believe and doubt at the same time. Desperately trying to find a problem about myself to fix. Who am I?
If I had half a mind I'd book a bus to Berlin and party my ass off. 2019-08-0443 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Millionaire MindI go through a lot in this one. Last weekend I went to a money management seminar for 2 days and it felt like they were trying to brainwash us a lot of the time. I did learn a lot though.
I also had a weird moment while meditating the other day. I detached myself from the meaning the word "Meaning" had. And realized the only meaning it really has is the meaning I give it. At the end of the day it's just another arrangement of a form of energy we call "Sound". It's a beautiful sense of detatchment, but it...2019-07-281h 19Midnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Dominic Eskofier - Extended Reality XRI ran into Dominic in an event in Amman, Jordan, that I broke into with a friend of mine.
Representing Nvidia at the time as the head of Virtual Reality, Dominic went on stage with his VR Head-set with a huge screen behind him that showed us the experience he was going through. From his voice alone you could tell how passionate he was with what he was doing.
As he gave his talk, he took apart the engine of a car and showed us how easy and intuitive it was to move and control th...2019-07-211h 57Midnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Cut ShortBefore sharing the conversation I had with Dominic, the former head of Virtual Reality in Nvidia, I reflect on a few things that have been bothering me. Mainly my attempt at being clear and aware of the things I'm putting my energy in, and how I feel like I'm not sharing that clarity as best as I could.
At the moment, I feel like I haven't been developing the level of knowledge that I want when it comes to the things I'm involved in. I feel like all I know I know superficially, like this general knowledge t...2019-07-2120 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: The Chain Breaks"I fell without falling, I was somewhere else I always was, I was someone else I always was, but I was also still me."
I passed out this Wednesday doing Bikram yoga. We were doing yoga in a 40 degree room, and as I followed the movements, the chain of who I thought I was melted away, and I became something else in a moment that felt like a lifetime. A lifetime that passed in less than 5 seconds.
I didn't know who I was, what I was or where I was. It was a completely new sensation for me. I always t...2019-07-1429 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Genuine Artificial WorldEven the attempt at being genuine comes off as artificial.
I look into a few stupid things I've done when it came to the podcast, courses and the book.2019-07-0728 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: The Next StepLetting go is a part of our ability to get to continue. To create space in our homes, our lives and our minds to move on to the next step.
I start this episode by randomly showing appreciation to my microphone and it all carried on from there. As much as we consume and as much as we use in our world today, we disregard how we couldn't do a lot of what we think is very normal for us without the things that let us do them to begin with.
To take a good lo...2019-06-3038 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Inner DialoguesIt's hard for us to know which thoughts define us and which thoughts don't.
The inner dialogue constantly running the backstage of our minds. It's an interesting aspect to us to take a look at.
The thoughts and opinions we form without ever giving it a thought. About the people we love and the situations we find ourselves in.
Thoughts that come and go so quickly, almost impossible to hold on to and grasp..
We have certain expectations, resentments or feelings that bother us and we never bring them up with ourselves or...2019-06-2356 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Born Among Us Just like that, I’m automatically on his side. He had no choice in that, he had nothing to do with that. But here we are, in a place where I’d do anything for someone who’s never ever done anything for me.
I’ve always wanted to be an uncle, and now I am.
We need to be careful now, another Gemini is on the loose ;) 2019-06-1631 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: 3 days to 23I recorded this yesterday right after finishing writing the last chapter in my book. I have 3 days left till I turn 23 and I promised myself I'd be done with the book beforehand. Let's see how that goes.
I was going to record this episode in the same football field I recorded in 6 months ago, and I was planning on reflecting a little bit about what changed the past 6 months. It's crazy. But when I got there there were people partying there already and it was too noisy, and without even thinking about it I went to a s...2019-06-0932 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: The Good That Comes III submitted a speech to the United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime .
I'm almost done writing Understanding Intelligence. The book cover looks amazing (I think :D)
I filled in a few details I missed mentioning about my mushroom experience. 2019-06-0228 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Oliver Wojahn - a.k.a Doctor "W"I managed to convince my economics and finance professor of three years to record an episode with me.
I wouldn't say I "convinced" him because he was always down, he's always up for a new experience.
He's an investor, an analyst, a consultant and funny enough we didn't even bring up finance throughout the entire episode, but it was one of the more fun Midnight Talks we've had so far.
2019-05-261h 14Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Continuous RepresentationEnergy will always move.
Energy will always find more complicated representations of itself moving.
An endless representation we embody. An endless representation we exist within.
The way we talk, the way we dance, the way we dress.
The sports we play, the abstract thoughts we discuss and debate.
The changes in ourselves we see throughout our lives, the personalities we adopt, the situations we adapt to.
We are very much the same as chameleons that can change their colors. But we don’t change our colors by changin...2019-05-1947 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: The Good That Comes IHow much can we attribute to ourselves from the good that comes?
Is it something that we do or happens through us?
I'm finding it harder and harder to attribute anything to myself, or identify with many of things around me.
How much choice did we really have with us being ourselves?
And how much choice did we have in the little choices we did have?2019-05-1251 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Unexpected ConsequencesI've been accused of something I didn't see coming. It shook me for a moment but I gave it a lot of thought and tried to take a lesson out of it.
I'm home a day earlier than I should be. But I explain it all throughout the episode.
Thanks for giving me the chance to feel heard.
I love you all and this is just one more lesson to learn throughout this journey.2019-05-0559 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Free-FallWhat would go through your head as you take a step out of the plane?
Would you remember to breathe?2019-04-2856 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Foggy LensThis is between me and the microphone.
You get to watch. 2019-04-211h 03Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Cool MonkeyI got a pretty cool monkey poster I put over my bed.2019-04-1419 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Understanding HappinessWe're all keenly aware of how happy we are, or how happy we aren't. Happiness is something we're all chasing, yet sometimes it feels so out of reach.
What is it that truly makes us happy? The things that satisfy us or the things that give our lives meaning?2019-04-0739 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: True IntentionsWe impose our will on the world with every action we take, trying to mend any imbalances that exist between our internal state and our external state.
Behind every intention is a meaning we're trying to translate from within ourselves to the world around us. Like drinking water to quench thirst or throwing a dart and trying to hit the bulls-eye.
We don't have a single intention at any one time, multiple intentions exist within us and we can only act on one.
And as we act, others around us act according to th...2019-03-3139 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Finnish MeatI met this white Finnish dude a week into my time in Madrid, and we acted like a married couple ever since.
We saw each other like 6 times a week and took dancing classes together.
I dub him "The Zenmaster" but our Cuban salsa teacher always called him "Rubio!" because he couldn't bother remembering his weird Finnish name.
He ocassionally called me "Rubio!" too, even though I'm not blonde.
I mean my name isn't much easier than his.
Not a lot of people know me as much as this dude does, maybe I'm a little stupid for sharing so much wi...2019-03-241h 32Midnight WisdomMidnight Reflections: Calm and NiceI'll be releasing a Midnight Reflections episode once a month alongside the normal episodes I'll be uploading. It just makes sense to off load a lot of what's going on in my life and through my head in an episode like this. It keeps me sane in a lot of ways.
With everything going on right now it can sometimes feel overwhelming. Writing a book, recording podcasts and filming online courses, all along with the normal university work during my last semester and needing to write my bachelor thesis.
And when you're focusing on so mu...2019-03-241h 15Midnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Theories of Existence IIWe give meaning to what we interact with, and we're interacting with everything that our brain manifests for us in our journey through this world.
Our mind is a weird place, we're constantly in a struggle to understand ourselves and the things around us, and somehow give meaning to all of it, especially ourselves.
The universe is intelligence understanding itself.
Let's explore why. 2019-03-1753 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Moments: Childlike Bus ridesA loving but random encounter happened on my bus ride home.
I had to share it with everyone here, so I started recording fresh out of the experience.
2019-03-1036 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Paths Taken IIHow we live our days, is how we live our lives.
We make decisions every day, every single one of us, that can branch out into a million others. And as time moves forward, we move forward with it, not by ourselves but all of us.. together.
Every decision we make builds up into the path we're taking throughout our lives.
There isn't one person who decides where humanity is going.
It's on all of us. And that's something we shouldn't let go of. That's something we should hold on to de...2019-03-0337 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Thoughts: Paths TakenWe live one life, and we always have so many choices. Choices that branch out our life into directions we never expect, but always try to imagine.
And no matter which path we take, no matter how beautiful, surprising or eventful our path and journey was, we will always think about the path we didn't take. The path we can't take any more.
That's part of the reason to why we feel that way. We're curious beings, and now we can never know what might have or could have happened if we did things slightly d...2019-02-2431 minMidnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Son Of GodMy guests story begins when his great grandmother traveled to Brazil as a Christian missionary from Finland.
Still alive to this day, a strong willed and loving woman, his great grandmother managed to connect two very different worlds together and create something beautiful.
With deep Finnish and Brazilian roots, He shares with us what it means to be himself, a brave, beautiful and kind soul. And why he feels like God is walking beside him on the path he's taking, a son of God.
Add in a few bad jokes and a lunch break, and you have the newest guest...2019-02-171h 36Midnight WisdomMidnight Talks: Alya AlHamad - Earth Warriors!!The 20th episode of Midnight Wisdom and I get the chance to talk to Alya Al-Hamad, one of my favorite people on this planet.
Alya is an adventurer, Yoga Instructor, a Holistic Health Coach and soo much more.
She's passionate about so much and she has even more to give, and we talk about all of that.
We mainly cover her experience collaborating with Green School, a progressive school that raises "Earth Warriors" :D Something we should all strive to be.
Enjoy Alya's majestic and beautiful voice and let's look forward to...2019-02-101h 40