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Awaken into Love PodcastHow I Saved Myself and My Relationship (ft. Kim)In this new episode, we sit down with Kim, a beloved member of the Awaken Into Love community, to talk about her powerful journey through ROCD (Relationship OCD), anxiety, and healing. Kim opens up about discovering ROCD later in life after years of uncertainty, perfectionism, and self-doubt—and how the Awaken Into Love course and peer support community (formerly KIC, now HOME) helped her find clarity, resilience, and ultimately, love. Kim shares: -Her early experiences with OCD, spiritual scrupulosity, and hyper-responsibility -The grief of missed connections and a life spent waiting for certainty...
2025-06-191h 14Awaken into Love PodcastI Thought I Was Crazy...Until I Found About ROCD (ft. Sherin)In this new episode led by Manon, our Director & ROCD/RA Expert at Awaken into Love, Sherin (Awaken into Love Graduate & Member of Our HOME peer-support group) shares her struggles with Relationship Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (ROCD), detailing the shame and guilt that accompanied her feelings of disconnection from her partner. After two years of suffering in silence, discovering the existence of ROCD brought immense relief and a sense of validation. Through her journey at Awaken into Love, she learned the importance of self-trust and self-compassion, recognizing that her intrusive thoughts do not define love. » ROCD FREE C...
2025-06-1841 min
You Love & You Learn Podcast#122 - Navigating Motherhood with Anxious & OCD Tendencies with Kiyomi LaFleurIn this heartfelt episode, I sit down with returning guest Kiyomi, with Awaken Into Love, to talk about her journey into motherhood and the powerful inner transformations it brought with it. She opens up about the spiritual and emotional journey of becoming a mom, and how she navigated postpartum challenges while maintaining a sense of self. We explore the parallels between motherhood and relationship anxiety, and how both call us into deeper compassion and trust. Whether you're a parent, on the path to becoming one, or simply going through a big life transition, this conversation is for you.
2025-06-0337 minAwaken into Love Podcast17 Years Later: How ROCD/RA Changed My Life (ft. Kiyomi)In this deeply personal episode, Kiyomi reflects on the journey that began in 2017 with her first vulnerable video about Relationship OCD (ROCD). She shares how that one act of courage has grown into a global movement through Awaken into Love, helping thousands find words for their pain and a path toward healing. Kiyomi revisits her journals, old Facebook photos, and memories from 17 years of living with ROCD. She shares how her pain became a portal for transformation—not just for herself, but for thousands of others around the world. She introduces the four core pillars of...
2025-04-2518 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWhat if ROCD Ruins My Partners Life? (Ft. Isla)🎙 In this powerful and vulnerable episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, Manon sits down with Isla, a graduate of the ROCD course and former member of HOME, our peer support group (formerly known as KIC). From a small seaside town in Scotland, Isla opens up about her six-year journey with ROCD, retroactive jealousy OCD, neurodivergence (ADHD and exploring autism), and the hidden grief beneath obsessive thoughts. She shares how ROCD impacted all of her long-term relationships, how not knowing what she was experiencing made her feel broken, and how finally putting a name to it transformed her...
2025-04-091h 01
Awaken into Love Podcast"How I Broke Free from Relationship OCD/ Relationship Anxiety" (ft. Monica)In this heartfelt episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, host Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits down with Monica, a cherished member of the Awaken into Love community, to discuss her transformative journey through Relationship OCD (ROCD). Monica shares her story of discovering ROCD after a challenging period in her relationship and how she learned to navigate OCD, anxiety, and depression. Through supportive community and personal exploration, she moved from a place of fear and self-doubt to one of empowerment and self-compassion. This episode explores the power of community, the importance of self-awareness, and...
2025-02-1450 min
Awaken into Love PodcastNavigating Big Life Decisions with Your Partner (ft. Jillian)How do you navigate big life decisions when you experience Relationship OCD? How do you make "big" steps when you experience thoughts that tell you to run? Maybe you're thinking about comitting deeper, moving into together, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, getting a pet together or maybe it's another transition that doesn't seem "big" in societies standards. Whatever it is! This is for you. In this podcast episode, Jilian, our Awaken into Love Coach and Colorado therapist talks about how to use this period as a way to come closer and not further apart. Meet J...
2024-01-1626 min
PreconceivedLove and Anxiety - Relationship OCDThere are so many adages in regards to love and relationships. Many hinge on the notion that we must be absolutely certain in our choice of a romantic partner and that there should be no doubts when we ultimately decide on 'the one'. But is that a realistic framework for love? And how can the search for the Hollywood vision of love, in some cases lead to severe cases of relationship anxiety, otherwise known as relationship OCD (ROCD)? Kiyomi LaFleur, founder of Awaken into Love, joins the podcast.www.awakenintolove.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com...
2024-01-1043 min
Awaken into Love PodcastChange the Way You Relate to ROCD/RA (ft. Kat Williamson)Could changing the way you relate to Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety help heal ROCD? Understand how parts work, art therapy and acceptance commitment therapy can help your own healing journey with ROCD. This is especially important for people who are looking for new ways of healing. Meet Kat Williamson, our Awaken into Love coach. Kat is here to help you move through the storm of relationship anxiety and ROCD. She is currently completely her second postgraduate degree in counseling psychology with her initial training being in art therapy. She draws on her own personal and professional experience...
2023-11-2940 min
Awaken into Love PodcastThe REAL Reason You Have Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety (the blessings and gifts of ROCD)Could there also be a deeper, mysterious reason for why you're experiencing Relationship OCD and Relationship Anxiety? Could Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety in someway be helping you? What if the reason wasn't because you were bad, wrong or a reason that there was something fundamentally wrong with you... What if Relationship OCD / Relationship Anxiety was there to tell you something DEEPER and GRANDER about yourself and partnership? Watch this inspiring video for some deeper peace and ease on how Relationship OCD / Relationship (even though debilitating and extremely challenging) could be teaching you something that you will be f...
2023-10-2023 min
Awaken into Love PodcastDo You Ever Feel Like Giving Up? Listen to this FIRST (ROCD/RA) (ft. Manon)Do you ever feel like just ENDING your relationship? Maybe the ROCD/RA has been there for a while and you question why you keep going. You tell yourself that "it's taking too long", "its not worth it" and other thoughts that make you feel like you should just break up. In this podcast episode, I interview Manon Lamarque who flew all the way from France to Colorado to sit with me to help you. Manon is my longtime client, friend and now, team member at Awaken into Love. She is now here to talk to you about what...
2023-09-2214 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow to Heal ROCD/RA Through the Body (ft. Erin Logan)In this podcast episode, I interview Erin Logan, former awaken into love and as she expressed, proud former KIC member, holistic somatic coach and certified mind body coach who is also certified in somatic attachment therapy. We talk about the power of healing through the body, why you can't "heal" through the mind (through thinking) and why the body is the gateway toward true integration and expansion, not only with yourself but with your partner. If youre interested in learning more about what Erin does or working with her, you can find her on instagram @the.humm
2023-09-1438 min
Sacred Self, Radical Healing17. Navigating spirituality with OCD/extreme anxietyLet’s discuss navigating spirituality while having OCD or extreme anxiety & repairing self trust. I’ll give you some things I've done in the past to help soothe and get to the root of my anxiety as well as what I’m currently doing to continue the healing cycle as it relates to spirituality. I’ll also get into what OCD actually is; it isn’t the trendy way of saying “I have OCD” because they’re obsessively tidy or clean. I know people will continue to haphazardly say they have OCD, but OCD is more insidious than being super particular...
2023-09-0131 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWhat to do if ROCD/RA has been present for YEARS (ft. Maya)If you feel like ROCD/RA has been there for a long time, and it’s felt lonely, then this one episode is for you. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Maya from Germany where she expresses how she’s experienced ROCD/RA for 8 years. Her determination to do her inner work and embrace healing has reshaped her path. Discover how she found the strength to over come, and gain insights into thriving with ROCD/RA all through Maya's inspiring experience. Learn about... Maya (from Germany) has been with her partner for 8 years and likes challenging the...
2023-08-3144 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWhat Does ROCD/RA REALLY Feel Like?What does having ROCD/RA REALLY feel like and what does a person without ROCD/RA do? In this podcast episode, I talk about the extraordinary difference between both. This episode isn't meant to bring about negative comparison but to help you empower yourself to recognize that these feelings, thoughts, and sensations are NORMAL. It is not the thoughts that matter, but how we REACT to them that makes the biggest difference. Join me as we dive in to help you find some understanding, empowerment, and clarity on this awakening journey.
2023-07-2722 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWhat is Retroactive Jealousy? (ROCD/RA/Conscious Love)Do you get obsessive and compulsive about your partner's romantic history? Do you fixate on if your partner thinks about other people and if they'll cheat? Do you compulsively ask your partner for reassurance about yourself and their romantic history? Do you look through their phone and fixate over people they could be speaking to? Maybe you also feel controlling about who they can speak to and who you feel they cannot speak to. THIS is not just a regular form of jealousy. When it becomes obsessive and compulsive, it's a form of ROCD called Retroactive Jealousy and it's...
2023-07-2210 min
Awaken into Love PodcastAnswering the Questions I've Been Avoiding...I've waited long enough, and it's time. I feel as though I owe you all an explanation. I have so much to share with you. I'm ready to finally dive in and come clean to you about where I've been this past year and what's happened. In this episode, I tell you what I've been doing, why I haven't been as present on social media, other very personal questions you've been asking me, and more. My intention isn't to talk only about me and my life (of course), but to help you understand...
2023-06-2321 min
You Love & You Learn Podcast#15 - Is Resistance Blocking You From Healing Relationship Anxiety/ROCD? w/ Kiyomi LeFleur of Awaken Into LoveIn this episode, I sit down with Relationship OCD expert and founder of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi LaFleur, to talk about resistance and how it shows up in our journey to heal relationship anxiety/ROCD.
We cover:
three common ways resistance shows up in the healing journey
how to view resistance with more compassion (and even to celebrate it!)
how to begin working with resistance
self-empowerment and self-trust
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More of Kiyomi’s work:
Awaken Into Love website
Awaken Into Love YouTube
Awaken Into Love Instagram
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Additional resources:
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2023-04-1840 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow To Get REAL ROCD/RA Help (part 1/3) (ft. Jillian & Lindsey)*Disclaimer: Jillian and Lindsey are both therapists but are doing ROCD/RA Awakening Coaching for people when working world-wide* Hi everyone! We are back, and we are back with GREAT news! Lindsey and Jilian are our new therapists/coaches on our Awaken into Love team and they are here to chat with you and answer YOUR questions. This is part 1/3 of the youtube/podcast episode with 2 more to come. In this podcast you'll learn about Jilian and Lindsey with the two others about... - if they've experienced a therapist that didn’t understand ROCD. Wh...
2023-03-2121 minAwaken into Love PodcastIs ERP the ONLY way for ROCD/RA? What does it mean if ERP doesn't work for you? (ft. Erin)ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) in the world of OCD is labeled as the "gold standard for OCD", and while it may work for many, it MAY not work for everyone... and that's okay. In this podcast episode, I interview Erin, a member of my Inner Circle (KIC) who brings her wisdom and knowledge through ROCD/RA. We talk about why ERP was more traumatizing for her and why it's important to remind people that just because a method doesn't work for you doesn't mean you or your relationship is doomed. We talk about what's helped her, what other...
2022-12-2233 minAwaken into Love PodcastAre You SECRETLY Waiting For The Shoe to Drop in Your Relationship?"Waiting for the shoe to drop" is something that will resonate with you if you're constantly on alert waiting for the next OCD thought to come, or you feel uneasy in safety, connection, and peace with your partner, feeling as though something could be ALWAYS BE WRONG. Waiting for the shoe to drop almost feels secretive, like something that's hidden because the behavior is usually so deeply ingrained in our unconscious. This unconscious behavior usually goes unnoticed, continuing to spiral us into obsessive thinking and rumination that takes us by surprise. When I learned about the concept of waiting f...
2022-12-0725 minAwaken into Love PodcastWhy loving-kindness is CRUCIAL for ROCD/RASelf-compassion and kindness is one of the most crucial and important pieces to finding freedom from Relationship OCD and Relationship Anxiety. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi takes you through a loving-kindness meditation practice to help you kick start your week with self-love and gentleness for your heart.
2022-10-0715 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow Projection is Tainting your Relationship w/ ROCD/RADid you know that unconscious projection in a relationship can cause suffering and ROCD/RA? When I learned about the psychology of projection years ago, it blew my mind and I have a feeling it'll BLOW your mind too. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Dani from Germany all on her healing around Projection. We talked about what projection is and how it may be showing up in your relationship. How our childhood and adolescent wounds show up in partnership through Projection. Learn why projection is primarily a protective mechanism protecting us from something we are afraid...
2022-09-0829 minAwaken into Love PodcastI'm Trying To Fix My Partner (ON-THE-SPOT MINI COACHING on ROCD/RA)Do you notice yourself trying to FIX or CHANGE your partner? Do you fall into a codependent dynamic of trying to heal your partner and vice versa? In this podcast episode, Kiyomi takes Manon through a mini, LIVE coaching session. They talk about why people fall into fixing roles, resentment in relationships, the energetics of being in this dynamic, and many a-ha moments as to why what ROCD/RA is teaching and showing her. *Please keep in mind that this is not a therapy or full coaching session but a snippet into her situation and her journey...
2022-08-1152 minPreconceived165. 'Relationship OCD' - The Anxiety of LoveThere are so many adages in regards to love and relationships. Many hinge on the notion that we must be absolutely certain in our choice of a romantic partner and that there should be no doubts when we ultimately decide on 'the one'. But is that a realistic framework for love? And how can the search for the Hollywood vision of love, in some cases lead to severe cases of relationship anxiety, otherwise known as relationship OCD (ROCD)? Kiyomi LaFleur, founder of Awaken into Love, joins the podcast.www.awakenintolove.com Hosted on Acast. See acast.com...
2022-08-0942 minAwaken into Love PodcastWhy You Need To Work With Trauma To Heal From ROCD/RAWhat is trauma and why is trauma connected to ROCD/RA? Are specialists missing a key component piece if they don't address trauma? Why true and deep healing takes place in the body and how to start the process yourself. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Lara, a ROCD Academy course and AIR graduate with 7 years of wisdom and knowledge in bodywork. Join them in this special podcast episode as they talk about why and how you need to heal trauma to heal ROCD/RA!
2022-07-0132 minAwaken into Love PodcastIs My Partner "Enough"? (Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety)Is your expectation of your partner realistic? Are they actually "enough" or are you playing into expectations that will keep disappointing you? Learn some of the expectations that are guaranteed to keep you stuck and awaken further with us in this episode. For more, download our FREE ROCD/RA checklist at awakenintolove.com
2022-06-0322 minAwaken into Love PodcastCOMMUNITY: Healing ROCD/Relationship AnxietyIn this unique, three-person podcast episode, Kiyomi, Alexis, and Manon speak about the ONE surprising thing that will help you heal and integrate faster with Relationship OCD & Relationship Anxiety: Community. They talk about why group and community work is so crucial for healing, why we aren’t meant to heal alone and why we need others, the science behind community and healing, why we need community with ROCD/Relationship Anxiety, why people who don’t have a strong community, are more prone to project to their partners to fulfill that gap, why lack of community can lead to more ROCD...
2022-05-1326 minAwaken into Love PodcastROCD/Relationship Anxiety during engagement and proposal (ft. Shauna)People usually talk about the proposal and engagement period as being... incredible or HAPPY! Some say it should be one of the best times of your life! But, maybe you're feeling something very opposite. Is it really okay to feel feelings and thoughts aside from happiness and ecstasy? What if these feelings you're feeling are wrong and not "normal"? Join Kiyomi as she interviews ROCD Course & AIR graduate, Shauna, as they dive into the topic of engagement and how you can transform the thoughts, doubts, and anxieties you feel into something powerful for your relationship with your partner and with...
2022-04-2930 minAwaken into Love PodcastWhy Holistic Health is SO Important for ROCD/Anxiety (ft. Sarah Hook)Have you ever wondered how your physical health may be connected to your mental health? Have you noticed your mood and ROCD getting worse around your menstrual cycle? It's true! Our physical health is incredibly connected to our mental health and it can immensely affect ROCD, anxiety, and our overall mental health. In this episode, Kiyomi interviews Sarah Hook (@the_healing.place) a holistic expert working 15 years helping women nourish their bodies & nervous system!
2022-03-1737 minAwaken into Love PodcastAre You Spiritually Bypassing ROCD/Anxiety?Are you triggered by spirituality? Do you get anxiety about your relationship when you hear phrases like "trust your gut", "intuition", "higher power" or even activities like tarot cards, astrology, or dreams? What if you're unknowingly using spirituality to disempower yourself and your relationship? In this podcast, Kiyomi & Manon (subconscious mind coach, trauma-informed certified with expertise on ROCD & spirituality) sit down to talk about spiritual red flags, how you may be using spirituality in a way that may be hurting you and your relationship, and their new Awakened Class next all on Spirituality and ROCD next Tuesday (2/22/22) Reserve your...
2022-02-1938 minAwaken into Love PodcastIs This ROCD or Relationship Anxiety? (ft. Sarah Yudkin)Labels, labels, labels! Are you experiencing Relationship OCD or Relationship Anxiety? Is there a possibility to experience BOTH? In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews the amazing Sarah Yudkin (@youloveandlearn on Instagram and youloveandlearn.com). We decided to come together in today's episode to talk to you about RA and ROCD, the differences, the similarities, empowering yourself, what to do when you feel disempowered, labels and diagnoses!
2022-01-2735 min
Awaken into Love PodcastTOP Awakening Reminders for 2022!May you have an Awakened 2022, loves! In this podcast episode, Kiyomi talks about collective grief and sadness, new years expectations, the trauma response, leads an inner smile meditation to help the nervous system, goes through different aspirations and reminders Kiyomi will be speaking about for the year of 2022. She also ends with some journaling questions to kick of this new year in awakening!
2022-01-0733 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow To Handle the Grass is Greener Syndrome w/ ROCD (ft. Alexis)Do you constantly wonder if there's something "better" out there? Do you notice yourself thinking of a better partner, better career, better location? Do you notice yourself especially dreaming during these challenging times collectively? Well, you're not alone. Join Kiyomi and the co-founder of Awaken into Love, Alexis, as we dive into our own personal challenges and how we've been experiencing the grass is greener syndrome. How we've been working with it, and how you can work with it in a way to help you awaken.
2021-12-2441 min
Awaken into Love PodcastA Guide to Healing SELF-BLAME for ANYONE (ft. Dehlia)Do you easily fall into self-blame and shame? Do you feel guilty over things that cause you to become obsessive and make you feel unworthy? If so, you're not alone. In this podcast, Kiyomi interviews Dehlia, who speaks about her journey with shame, self-blame, and ROCD. We talk about how to unpack self-blame, how to recognize when you're in the loop, root causes, internal vs. external focus, religious traumas connection to shame and how to start working on it and break free!
2021-12-0958 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWant To Feel More Connected To Your Partner?Do you have questions and doubts like... "What if I'm not connected to my partner?" "Why do I feel so disconnected from them?" "How long is too long to feel disconnected?" "How do I feel connected to my partner?" Understand the hidden meaning behind "connection" with ROCD/anxiety, our view of what connection is, why you feel the need to always be attached, and how to do exposure work with "connection", and how to continually build connection in a relationship.
2021-12-0228 min
Awaken into Love PodcastONE Thing We Do Everyday That Can Hurt Your Relationship (And How to Fix it)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi dives into the ONE thing most of us do every day that can hurt ourselves and our relationship: Overuse of social media. She talks about her own challenging journey with social media, her dark night of the soul, why we get so hooked on social media, and how we can use it in a way to make it work for our relationship and for us.
2021-11-2543 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow to Find the Right ROCD Values (ft. Jamie Lee)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews ROCD advocate, Jamie Lee (jamielee_rocd). They speak about Jamie's journey being a ROCD advocate, how to work with feelings and sensation that feel challenging, the problem with labeling and boxing our human experience as a compulsion, falling into the trap of judging feelings & sensations, the power of becoming awareness & the observer, moving toward values vs. feelings, how to find your own values and the importance of seeing relationships as art and creation.
2021-11-1356 min
Awaken into Love Podcast"Not Enough Syndrome" with Social Media & ROCD/Anxiety (Kiyomi's Awakened Share)Do you notice yourself comparing your life and relationship to people on social media? Do you get overwhelmed knowing there's an endless amount of choices instead of your partner? Do you notice yourself feeling anxious, depressed, and obsessive after being on social media? You're not alone. In this podcast, Kiyomi talks about the negative effects of social media, how it could be contributing to your ROCD/anxiety and what you can do to set boundaries with this platform.
2021-11-1228 min
Awaken into Love PodcastGetting EMPOWERED from ROCD/Anxiety & LDR (ft.Piera)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Piera from Chile, South America. This is probably one of the most empowering episodes on this podcast, and even though we speak about LDR (Long-Distance Relationships) this episode is going to apply to all of you! She offers you so much of her own wisdom, healing, and how she's using ROCDAnxiety as a way to be her highest version of herself and in partnership.
2021-10-291h 09
Awaken into Love PodcastThings You NEED To Hear ("Tough Love") About ROCD/AnxietyIn this episode Kiyomi talks to you about things you need to hear but feel resistant to hearing about Relationship OCD/Anxiety. Think of this episode like the "tough love" you need to hear for you to truly find freedom from ROCD and anxiety. It's an episode you didn't realize you needed!
2021-10-2127 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHealing ROCD/Anxiety Through Compassion (Guided Meditation)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi takes you through a transformational guided meditation through the power of compassion. In the beginning, she speaks about why compassion is so important for ROCD/anxiety and mental health, why she keeps seeing the healing benefits of compassion with her clients and why she believes it's crucial for deeper intimacy in relationships. *Skip to 7:30 for the meditation*
2021-09-2336 min
Awaken into Love PodcastCan Uncertainty Be A Good Thing? (Kiyomi's Personal Awakened Share)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi talks about how uncertainty, although uncomfortable and sometimes scary, can be a good thing. She speaks about how her current events in her life have been pushing her grow and how to make uncertainty work for you. Instead of seeing it as something scary, uncertainty can push you into your deepest growth, expansion and awakening.
2021-09-1623 minAwaken into Love PodcastAre You Afraid What Others Think of You & Your Partner with ROCD? (ft. Katie)Are you worried or fearful of what others think about you and your partner? Do you constantly obsess about what they've said or haven't said about your relationship? Have you had an experience with a therapist who said something triggering? If you said yes to any of these, then this podcast is for you! Let's dive in!
2021-08-2154 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow to make ROCD/Anxiety Work For You (ft. Nicholas)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviewed Nicholas, founder of @thewaveandtheocean on Instagram. In this powerful episode, they speak about what it's like being a male and having Relationship OCD, the stigma attached, and common characteristics that come with being a male with ROCD. They also talked about marriage, commitment, feelings of boredom in security, attraction. They also spoke heavily about what Relationship OCD has taught him, how it helped him awaken and how you can make ROCD/anxiety work for YOU.
2021-08-061h 11
Awaken into Love PodcastThe Power of Impermanence (Kiyomi's Personal Awakened Share)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi reflects on her recent, personal journey with impermanence. She speaks about how her recent experiences have allowed her to be more grateful, aware, and alive even though the experience have been painful. She shares how you can use the awareness of impermanence to have greater peace, fulfillment, and love in your life with yourself and your relationships.
2021-07-0924 min
Awaken into Love PodcastWhen Spirituality is Triggering: With ROCD/Anxiety (ft. Christianna)Do you get triggered by spirituality in your relationship? Do you look at astrology, psychics, and angel numbers and believe it tells you to leave your relationship? Do you feel triggered constantly believing that your intuition is telling you to leave and feel disempowered? In today's podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Christianna, an Awaken into Love graduate on spirituality. They talk about their own journey with spirituality and ROCD, why spirituality can be so triggering for people with ROCD and anxiety, and how to start using spirituality to empower you and your relationship!
2021-07-0151 min
Awaken into Love PodcastThe Power of Healing the Inner Child to Heal ROCD/AnxietyIn this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews an Awaken into Love graduate representing her healing from ROCD/Anxiety from the Middle East. She talks about what inner child work is, how she started, the resistance of inner child work (she felt crazy starting so if that's you, you're not alone!), how inner child work has helped heal her ROCD & OCD, and how you can start the inner child work process by incorporating self-love and self-care and what that really means.
2021-06-1056 min
Awaken into Love PodcastAre You Resisting Healing with ROCD? (ft. Manon)Are you experiencing resistance in your healing with Relationship OCD/anxiety or your growth? If so, what does that mean? Maybe you don't know what resistance is and you're thinking they're "true" thoughts. In this podcast, Kiyomi interviews Manon on her journey on how to help you understand thoughts and feelings that were part of the resistance, how resistance is part of healing, what it's showing you, and how to work through it in a way to empower and awaken you and your partner!
2021-05-2047 min
Awaken into Love PodcastAm I healing with ROCD? What Is Healing? (ft. Alexis)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi and Alexis talk about healing with Relationship OCD. They talk about what they believe healing to be with ROD, what it looks like, misconceptions on healing, normal blockages, and resistances that happen when we're going into the journey of healing, what worked best for Kiyomi during her journey of ROCD, our views on ERP and why we are slightly different and toward the end... a BIG announcement about AIL that you don't want to miss!
2021-04-2241 min
Big Conversations with Haley Hoffman SmithFeel to Heal: Emotions as a Catalyst for Change & Transformation with Kiyomi LaFleurAre you scared of your emotions? So often we avoid what we KNOW we need to do because we're scared we won't be able to handle the grief, sadness, pain, anger, you name it. What if you could not only take the power back, but USE these emotions for your healing? You will never view your emotions the same way after this episode - it's one of total transformation! I'm joined by my dear friend Kiyomi LaFleur, who is in the mental health field, to discuss new ways of coping with emotions. Connect with Kiy at @awakenintolove
2021-04-2046 min
Awaken into Love PodcastThe Joel & Kiyomi Episode (Interviewing My Husband!)In this podcast episode, I interviewed my husband and we got really vulnerable and personal (and at times, very emotional). We spoke about our journey together with ROCD, what helped him during my journey with ROCD, ways to build deeper intimacy through difficulty, things we wish we did back then, our sex life during ROCD, what ROCD can teach you, and how to make it work for you (yes, it can build deep connection!) We also spoke about how to be in a long-term, fulfilling relationship by speaking about honest emotions and thoughts about our relationship, big...
2021-04-011h 07
Awaken into Love PodcastHelp and Support For You & Your Partner w/ ROCD (ft. Halley and Bryce)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Halley and Bryce, a couple navigating and growing through the challenges that come with Relationship OCD. The three of them discuss the challenges, "mistakes" that they've learned from when working with Relationship OCD, hidden compulsions, how to work through the importance of boundaries and taking care of oneself, and additional empowering tips on having a more fulfilling and loving relationship.
2021-03-111h 00
Awaken into Love PodcastIs this "normal" with Sex & Intimacy w/ ROCD? (ft. Lauren)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Lauren, a ROCD Course/Community graduate and AIR member on sex and intimacy with Relationship OCD. Kiyomi and Lauren discuss the shame that can come with the topic of sex and intimacy and how this shame fuels Relationship OCD and anxiety. They discuss topics such as media influence on sex, ROCD behaviors such as avoidance during sex, sex, and compulsions, intrusive thoughts, obsessive thinking with sex and intimacy, and other topics like sexual trauma, shame, and blame "is what I'm experiencing normal?", insecurity, self-criticism, self-pleasure, surprising emotions, how to use the difficulties that...
2021-02-1145 min
Awaken into Love PodcastLeaning into the Grey of Sexuality (SOOCD) ft. HeatherIn this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Heather, an AIR member and ROCD Course graduate on her experience with sexuality and sexual orientation. Heather speaks about her own experience with sexual orientation OCD/HOCD and how epiphanies and realizations that she's had during her journey entwined with ROCD.
2021-01-0844 min
Awaken into Love PodcastAre These Difficult Feelings Part of ROCD?In this episode, Kiyomi speaks about difficult feelings you may be experiencing with Relationship OCD. How one technique and perspective can change your relationship to your emotions, how this perspective changed her life and ROCD, the core emotions that fuel other difficult feelings that you didn't realize you were experiencing and how to start integrating the emotions to create deeper intimacy with yourself and your partner.
2021-01-0132 min
Awaken into Love PodcastPeople Pleasing in ROCD (What You Need to Know) (ft. Eszter)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews ROCD Course Community graduate and AIR member, Eszter from Hungary. In this episode, Eszter talks about her surprising journey with people pleasing in Relationship OCD. We learn about how anxiety and ROCD has helped her, what it's taught her, how to know if you have a coping mechanism of people pleasing, ways it shows up in ROCD and your relationship, how it begins, how society encourages people pleasing and how you can use people pleasing as a path to awaken in your relationship with yourself and your partner.
2020-12-1043 min
Awaken into Love PodcastTransforming Anger in ROCD (ft. Palak)In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Palak, an AIL ROCD Course Ambassador and AIR member. They both speak about the importance of anger, how anger may be showing up in your relationship, in Relationship OCD and how to transform it in a way where it gives you a greater sense of awakening and freedom within yourself and your relationship.
2020-11-2234 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHopeless to Hopeful in Times of UncertaintyIn this podcast, Kiyomi addresses emotions you may be feeling with the climate of the world. If you're feeling hopeless, anger, sadness, fear or despair due to external situations like politics, then this podcast is for you. In this podcast, Kiyomi talks about 3 truths to hold on to during these times, different tools you can use when things feel uncertain and what to do if you and your partner have different political beliefs.
2020-11-0527 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHeartbreak in Relationship and Why It's Normal (ROCD) ft. EmmaIn this episode, Kiyomi interviews an ROCD Course & Community graduate and AIR member, Emma. Emma talks about heartbreak within one relationship, why you may be experiencing heartbreak, why heartbreak is okay and normal, societal pressures and expectations that worsen ROCD, how heartbreaks have helped her and 5 ways you can work with heartbreak.
2020-10-2150 min
Awaken into Love PodcastStart Your Day in ConnectionIt can feel lonely and isolating having Relationship OCD and relationship anxiety. In this podcast, Kiyomi takes you through a guided practice to help kick start your week feeling more connected and less alone. This podcast episode will make you feel understood, and is geared to inspire hope as you start your day and move into a new week of awakening in connection.
2020-10-0519 min
Awaken into Love PodcastIs ROCD Really About My Partner & My Relationship? (ft. Beau)In this podcast, Kiyomi interviews Beau, an Awaken into Love graduate. Beau talks about her own healing with Relationship OCD /anxiety and how her healing journey really surprised her. We go over how ROCD really isn't about your partner, why ROCD helped her, what created her ROCD, guilt and shame while doing the inner work, perfectionism and projection, the most surprising thing about healing and awakening and what ROCD is really about.
2020-09-2155 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow Cancel Culture is Negatively Affecting Your RelationshipIn this episode, Alexis and Kiyomi talk about into how cancellation culture is negatively affecting your relationship and how it's making your Relationship OCD worse. They also talk about how to recognize cancel culture and how you can use this awareness to awaken and deepen your connection in your relationship to your partner, others and yourself.
2020-08-1825 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow Childhood Abuse/Trauma Can Create ROCD (ft. Montana)In this episode, Montana joins me to talk about how her childhood abuse/trauma created and affected her Relationship OCD. In this very informative and inspirational podcast, we dive into her own success and healing with ROCD work, her own past and how it's shaped who she is today. If you are a survivor of childhood abuse, or have the triggers around "what if my partner is abusive?", "what if my partner is toxic?", "what if my partner is narcissistic?", "what if my partner is evil?", then this will be an eye opening podcast for you.
2020-07-2946 min
Awaken into Love Podcast5 Hard Relationship Truths That Will Set You FreeIn this podcast, I go over 5 Relationship Truths that will set you free if you experience doubt, anxiety or relationship OCD! At the end, I will give you exercises to help you awaken deeper in your relationship and your life.
2020-07-1432 min
Awaken into Love PodcastHow Relationship OCD Helped me AwakenIn this podcast, I talk about how Relationship OCD has helped me awaken. Although ROCD was one of most difficult things I've encountered in my life, it taught me lessons that I would never want to take back. In this podcast, I talk about what I learned, how the suffering has helped me, our clients and members at awaken into love and ultimately, how it can help you and your relationship.
2020-06-2625 min
Found Family Podcast010: Answering All of Your ROCD Questions with Kiyomi LaFleurHow do you know if it's ROCD or if the person just isn't "the one"?Is it "normal" to think about leaving your partner?Is it "OK" to think about other people, like an ex?How can I find relief of all these intrusive thoughts?As a current sufferer of ROCD, I have asked myself a variety of these questions (and more) many, many times. This soul chat with Kiyomi was therapeutic, educational, and so incredibly comforting and I cannot wait for you to feel the same way after listening!Kiyomi is the Founder and Creator of Awaken into Love...
2019-10-231h 00
Black, White & In ColorEpisode 23-Awaken Into Love with Relationship OCD expert Kiyomi LafleurKiyomi LaFleur is the Founder and Creator of Awaken into Love, an online community for people who experience Relationship OCD. With over half a million views on YouTube and over 1,000+ course and community members, she dedicates her life to raising awareness on Relationship OCD, anxiety and relationships. She has experienced debilitating Relationship OCD, Hypochondria, panic disorder and general anxiety for years, and used to suffer with every thought, emotion, feeling possible. Once she overcame ROCD, she knew that she needed to be an expert in this field to help others. Kiyomi's background is in Social Work, Yoga therapy and Mindfulness based work. S...
2019-08-2148 min