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MekhaelaEPISODE 40, The Finale : December 18, 2009 - Farewell, Mahal!MEKHAELA wrote a letter a day before MILES' birthday. Maybe it was HER way to finally close HER doors and bid farewell to HIM, and also to reconcile the whole “hoping for him to come back to me”.
"...I have loved you. That’s all that matters."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 39: December 16, 2009 - Miles Is Over MeA common friend had told MEKHAELA that Miles had dropped the towel and moved on. It was painful news to bear… how did SHE cope with it?
"...I remembered he said to me (and I still keep that SMS he sent) that he was being honest and all. So, was all of that a lie? Was it just a joke all along? "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 38: December 7, 2009 - The Final Letter Drafted Under the SorrowsMEKHAELA has been so clueless on what’s the true purpose of HER existence. Is SHE just here to pay the bills? To be happy? To suffer?
"For years I have been wondering what’s the purpose of my being here. I had no clue before. All I know is that I need to live and die like the rest of the lot."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 37: November 29, 2009 - “Who’s That Lost Soul?”MEKHAELA wrote yet another entry referring to HERSELF as a third person. Under a microscope, what does SHE mean by that? Whois SHE? What has become of HER? Let’s find out in this entry from 12 years ago.
“…and so another round of hangover begins!”, exclaimed Mekhaela as she continues to sip her Russian Vodka with a lemon twist.
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MekhaelaEPISODE 36: November 28, 2009 - The StrugglesDreams, do they make everything so real or do they make you confused the very next day? This entry speaks about how MILES had been in MEKHAELA'S dreams repeatedly and that’s quite concerning because let’s face it, SHE was in the middle of moving on.
"Recurring nightmares of him? How the hell? What the hell? Why the hell?"
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MekhaelaEPISODE 35: November 25, 2009 - Mekhaela Declares: We Can Never Be Friends AgainWhat’s the use of becoming friends with an ex who has hurt you a lot? Was MEKHAELA bitter? Was SHE still hurting? Was it still a good idea to open HER doors if he would like to extend a hand for friendship?
"He’s dead. He made me think he’s dead. "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 35: November 25, 2009 - Mekhaela Declares: We Can Never Be Friends AgainWhat’s the use of becoming friends with an ex who has hurt you a lot? Was MEKHAELA bitter? Was SHE still hurting? Was it still a good idea to open HER doors if he would like to extend a hand for friendship?"He’s dead. He made me think he’s dead. "Cover art by: MONIQUEVoiced by: MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-07-0407 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 34: November 18, 2009 - On Public EyeDreaming about someone that hurt you makes it a lot harder to just shrug the feelings off. But what had MEKHAELA done to move past it?
"After all the crap he’s been saying to me, I finally see what others have tried to warn me about. "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 34: November 18, 2009 - On Public EyeDreaming about someone that hurt you makes it a lot harder to just shrug the feelings off. But what had MEKHAELA done to move past it? "After all the crap he’s been saying to me, I finally see what others have tried to warn me about. "Cover art by: MONIQUEVoiced by: MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-06-2705 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 33: November 16, 2009 - Little Miss HoudiniAn ex from college had suddenly reached out through social media asking why MEKHAELA disappeared and what could have gone wrong? Did he scare HER of his proposal? Let’s find out!
"Let's call him CARLISLE."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 33: November 16, 2009 - Little Miss HoudiniAn ex from college had suddenly reached out through social media asking why MEKHAELA disappeared and what could have gone wrong? Did he scare HER of his proposal? Let’s find out!"Let's call him CARLISLE."Cover Art by: MONIQUEVoiced by: MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-06-2006 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 32: November 15, 2009 - On Drinking BingeThe date? November 15th of 2009. MEKHAELA couldn’t remember the time. But SHE just realized SHE spiraled back to HER weakness. How did it happen? This entry would surely explain, or probably not. It’s up to you to decide.
"The only good thing about me getting drunk is I stop talking the minute alcohol reaches to my brain. I don’t flirt, I don’t talk, I just sit there and stare at the people around me as if I’m plotting a massacre in two hours."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 32: November 15, 2009 - On Drinking BingeThe date? November 15th of 2009. MEKHAELA couldn’t remember the time. But SHE just realized SHE spiraled back to HER weakness. How did it happen? This entry would surely explain, or probably not. It’s up to you to decide."The only good thing about me getting drunk is I stop talking the minute alcohol reaches to my brain. I don’t flirt, I don’t talk, I just sit there and stare at the people around me as if I’m plotting a massacre in two hours."Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA2021-06-1307 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 31: November 10, 2009 - My Sancta TerraWhy did she call it Sancta Terra? A sweet escape? Or a better one? Did MEKHELA create an invisible separator glass from the judging eyes of others? Let’s find out in this entry on Monday.“Take me to a place where no one can follow”Cover Art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-05-3007 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 31: November 10, 2009 - My Sancta TerraWhy did she call it Sancta Terra? A sweet escape? Or a better one? Did MEKHELA create an invisible separator glass from the judging eyes of others? Let’s find out in this entry on Monday.
“Take me to a place where no one can follow”
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MekhaelaEPISODE 30: November 9, 2009 - Saved Messages: Bitten By The Ugly TruthMEKHAELA kept Miles’ messages maybe because SHE wanted to prove to HERSELF that SHE wasn’t crazy and he really existed, or probably SHE was just being creepy. Yeah, it was funny though. Or Maybe because those messages were the only thing that’s left of him.
"I used to think of him as someone who would never hurt me. But he just did, and it scared the crap out of me."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 30: November 9, 2009 - Saved Messages: Bitten By The Ugly TruthMEKHAELA kept Miles’ messages maybe because SHE wanted to prove to HERSELF that SHE wasn’t crazy and he really existed, or probably SHE was just being creepy. Yeah, it was funny though. Or Maybe because those messages were the only thing that’s left of him."I used to think of him as someone who would never hurt me. But he just did, and it scared the crap out of me."Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to...2021-05-2310 min
MekhaelaEpisode 29: November 8, 2009 - On Fighting TemptationMEKHAELA wasn’t good at dealing with HER emotions and SHE tends to hurt HERSELF. Maybe because when SHE gets herself wounded up, hurting HERSELF conceals the emotional pain SHE'S going through. Little did SHE know that this isn’t healthy.
"Why do I have the urge to hurt myself yet again?"
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MekhaelaEpisode 29: November 8, 2009 - On Fighting TemptationMEKHAELA wasn’t good at dealing with HER emotions and SHE tends to hurt HERSELF. Maybe because when SHE gets herself wounded up, hurting HERSELF conceals the emotional pain SHE'S going through. Little did SHE know that this isn’t healthy."Why do I have the urge to hurt myself yet again?"Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://ancho...2021-05-1608 min
MekhaelaEPISODES 28: November 7, 2009 - Alarmed: On Changing RoutesWhen the universe conspires, it does and MEKHAELA thought it was one of those instances that SHE felt the universe hated HER. SHE had to change everything. What happened to HER with Miles had affected everything. But how did it distress MEKHAELA as a whole?"Do I need to change my route as well? "Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a v...2021-05-0907 min
MekhaelaEPISODES 28: November 7, 2009 - Alarmed: On Changing RoutesWhen the universe conspires, it does and MEKHAELA thought it was one of those instances that SHE felt the universe hated HER. SHE had to change everything. What happened to HER with Miles had affected everything. But how did it distress MEKHAELA as a whole?
"Do I need to change my route as well? "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 27: November 4, 2009 - Confession Blues: Lesson LearnedThe next entry speaks about the last two entries ago about MEKHAELA meeting this guy named ZIGGY. She's being asked what’s her ideal guy? A question that was asked more often every SINGLE time. Did MEKHAELA had one back then, or not? This guy's question that got MEKHAELA frozen for a bit."Why can’t just a guy be man enough to say to a woman’s face that it’s really over?"Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easie...2021-05-0208 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 27: November 4, 2009 - Confession Blues: Lesson LearnedThe next entry speaks about the last two entries ago about MEKHAELA meeting this guy named ZIGGY. She's being asked what’s her ideal guy? A question that was asked more often every SINGLE time. Did MEKHAELA had one back then, or not? This guy's question that got MEKHAELA frozen for a bit.
"Why can’t just a guy be man enough to say to a woman’s face that it’s really over?"
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MekhaelaEPISODE 26: October 24, 2009 – IN TROUBLE: The Suicide AttemptWhat the hell was MEKHAELA thinking? Was suicide the only solution to everything? Or was SHE being slapped by the reality and pulled HERSELF together?"It was a very stupid idea, I know. But have you ever gotten the feeling that problems have become so overwhelming and yet there’s no one to hear you out but yourself..."Sound by JABSCover art by MONIQUEVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Sen...2021-04-2608 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 26: October 24, 2009 – IN TROUBLE: The Suicide AttemptWhat the hell was MEKHAELA thinking? Was suicide the only solution to everything? Or was SHE being slapped by the reality and pulled HERSELF together?
"It was a very stupid idea, I know. But have you ever gotten the feeling that problems have become so overwhelming and yet there’s no one to hear you out but yourself..."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 25: October 21, 2009 - The Element of Moving OnUp to what extent did MEKHAELA go through just to heal?"Guys leave you just like that without any word and that hurts especially if you’ve given your 101%."Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-04-2509 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 25: October 21, 2009 - The Element of Moving OnUp to what extent did MEKHAELA go through just to heal?
"Guys leave you just like that without any word and that hurts especially if you’ve given your 101%."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 24: October 7, 2009 - ON LAYING LOWLaying low after all of those things that happened to MEKHAELA was a good decision, or so SHE thought. Maybe it gave HER time to think and to pull HERSELF together."Some will be retained but there are some that are going to be forgotten forever. .But have they sympathized with me at the lowest point of my life?"Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- 2021-04-1106 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 24: October 7, 2009 - ON LAYING LOWLaying low after all of those things that happened to MEKHAELA was a good decision, or so SHE thought. Maybe it gave HER time to think and to pull HERSELF together.
"Some will be retained but there are some that are going to be forgotten forever. .But have they sympathized with me at the lowest point of my life?"
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MekhaelaEPISODE 23: October 6, 2009 - On the “Loser’s Routine” and “Lip Service”MEKHAELA decided to simply withdraw from the people who wouldn’t understand HER. SHE thought it was all for the best. The less SHE sees them, the little they will see HER vulnerability. Was it a good decision or did it take turn for the worse?"I’m the type who clings to every word a person says."Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send...2021-04-0408 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 23: October 6, 2009 - On the “Loser’s Routine” and “Lip Service”MEKHAELA decided to simply withdraw from the people who wouldn’t understand HER. SHE thought it was all for the best. The less SHE sees them, the little they will see HER vulnerability. Was it a good decision or did it take turn for the worse?
"I’m the type who clings to every word a person says."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 22: September 2, 2009 - PICKING UP THE SHATTERED PIECESSeptember 2009 came and MEKHAELA decided to set HER sorrows aside and start regaining HER old self. SHE knew it was a difficult process to take but SHE has to start somewhere. Did it do HER any good?"I’m alone in my battle now and the least I can do is to protect myself against those people who take advantage of my being emotionally frail."Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm...2021-03-2807 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 22: September 2, 2009 - PICKING UP THE SHATTERED PIECESSeptember 2009 came and MEKHAELA decided to set HER sorrows aside and start regaining HER old self. SHE knew it was a difficult process to take but SHE has to start somewhere. Did it do HER any good?
"I’m alone in my battle now and the least I can do is to protect myself against those people who take advantage of my being emotionally frail."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 21: August 29, 2009 - CONDEMNAs August came to an end, MEKHAELA wrote an entry as though SHE was just speaking to MILES. As if he was just in front of HER, but he wasn’t. SHE was just talking to a wall, pretending it was him.Painful to know I can’t have you forever but deep inside, how I wish I could be, for once in my life.Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://ancho...2021-03-2108 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 21: August 29, 2009 - CONDEMNAs August came to an end, MEKHAELA wrote an entry as though SHE was just speaking to MILES. As if he was just in front of HER, but he wasn’t. SHE was just talking to a wall, pretending it was him.
Painful to know I can’t have you forever but deep inside, how I wish I could be, for once in my life.
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MekhaelaEPISODE 20: August 16, 2009 - A Ghost Haunts AgainMEKHAELA never thought that August in the year 2009 plays a significant role in HER life. A ghost was haunting HER and SHE will not fully recover until MILES leaves HER in peace. Torture or what?“It hurts knowing that I can’t have what I want, but if that person is happy with where he is at now, then I guess, I should be happy for him.”Cover art by MONIQUESound by JABSVoiced by MIA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podca...2021-03-1406 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 20: August 16, 2009 - A Ghost Haunts AgainMEKHAELA never thought that August in the year 2009 plays a significant role in HER life. A ghost was haunting HER and SHE will not fully recover until MILES leaves HER in peace. Torture or what?
“It hurts knowing that I can’t have what I want, but if that person is happy with where he is at now, then I guess, I should be happy for him.”
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MekhaelaEPISODE 19: August 9, 2009 – MY LOST BOTTLEIt was a cold and rainy August of 2009 and all MEKHAELA can talk about is HER one precious bottle. This bottle that gave HER life and happiness. But why is it so important?
“I know it’s going to be impossible that my bottle will be returned to me, however, I’m still clinging on to the hope of finding it soon. Nothing can replace it. That’s how I love that container.
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MekhaelaEPISODE 19: August 9, 2009 – MY LOST BOTTLEIt was a cold and rainy August of 2009 and all MEKHAELA can talk about is HER one precious bottle. This bottle that gave HER life and happiness. But why is it so important?“I know it’s going to be impossible that my bottle will be returned to me, however, I’m still clinging on to the hope of finding it soon. Nothing can replace it. That’s how I love that container.Sound by JABSCover art by MONIQUEVoiced by MEKHAELA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest w...2021-03-0708 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 18: August 5, 2009 – ON GRIEFWas MEKHAELA battling this all alone or did SHE have some friends who were with HER all along?
“I can’t imagine he’s fading away from the picture. Still shocked, unable to believe. But what can I do?”
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MekhaelaEPISODE 18: August 5, 2009 – ON GRIEFWas MEKHAELA battling this all alone or did SHE have some friends who were with HER all along?“I can’t imagine he’s fading away from the picture. Still shocked, unable to believe. But what can I do?”Sound by JABSCover art by MONIQUEVoiced by MEKHAELA--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-02-2807 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 17: August 2, 2009 – A LETTER TO MILESWas it a smooth process of getting over MILES? Were there any roadblocks along the way? Did MILES suddenly make his presence known and made it too difficult for MEKHAELA?
Please say “don’t leave me” and I will stay. I will continue to love you even if it hurts more than you’ll ever know.
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MekhaelaEPISODE 17: August 2, 2009 – A LETTER TO MILESWas it a smooth process of getting over MILES? Were there any roadblocks along the way? Did MILES suddenly make his presence known and made it too difficult for MEKHAELA?Please say “don’t leave me” and I will stay. I will continue to love you even if it hurts more than you’ll ever know.Voiced by MEKHAELASound by JABSCover art by MONIQUE--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voic...2021-02-2108 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 16: July 31, 2009 - Scared and DementedDid MEKHAELA still continue to fight a losing battle and hope for a better day?"I’m lashed, slashed, and crushed. "Voiced by MEKHAELASound by JABSCover art by MONIQUE--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-02-1407 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 16: July 31, 2009 - Scared and DementedDid MEKHAELA still continue to fight a losing battle and hope for a better day?
"I’m lashed, slashed, and crushed. "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 15: JULY 29, 2009 - Taking One Step At A Time (I Don't Know How To Go By It)Will MEKHAELA be able to slowly get her feet back and start fresh?"Where have all the good people gone?"Voiced by MEKHAELASound by JABSCover art by MONIQUE--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app--- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2021-02-0707 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 15: JULY 29, 2009 - Taking One Step At A Time (I Don't Know How To Go By It)Will MEKHAELA be able to slowly get her feet back and start fresh?
"Where have all the good people gone?"
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MekhaelaEPISODE 14: July 22, 2009 - RANTING (Just for Today)MEKHAELA started to think that there’s no hope for happiness left of her anymore. Was it because SHE's too frustrated that SHE didn’t get what SHE wanted or was SHE just too weak to fight off the pessimism that’s been burning in HER heart?
...It’s a shame that people have the guts to hurt a person like me who does nothing but give them love and emotional support all along.
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MekhaelaEPISODE 14: July 22, 2009 - RANTING (Just for Today)MEKHAELA started to think that there’s no hope for happiness left of her anymore. Was it because SHE's too frustrated that SHE didn’t get what SHE wanted or was SHE just too weak to fight off the pessimism that’s been burning in HER heart?...It’s a shame that people have the guts to hurt a person like me who does nothing but give them love and emotional support all along.Voice: MIASound: JabsCover Art: Monique--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to ma...2021-01-3108 min
MekhaelaEpisode 13: July 21, 2009 - ON BEING IN LOVE AND BEING HURT AT THE SAME TIMEThe only mistake MEKHAELA did was that SHE clung to the memories and hoping that MILES will come back. SHE had never forgiven herself for being too hard on herself. MEKHAELA still saved all the memories MILES left.
"Submissive is the word of the day. That’s me. I allow myself to be eaten by my feelings unknown to the fact that I’m slowly being killed by them in the middle of the chapter."
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MekhaelaEpisode 13: July 21, 2009 - ON BEING IN LOVE AND BEING HURT AT THE SAME TIMEThe only mistake MEKHAELA did was that SHE clung to the memories and hoping that MILES will come back. SHE had never forgiven herself for being too hard on herself. MEKHAELA still saved all the memories MILES left."Submissive is the word of the day. That’s me. I allow myself to be eaten by my feelings unknown to the fact that I’m slowly being killed by them in the middle of the chapter."Voiced by MEKHAELASound by JABSCover art by MONIQUE--- This episode is sponsored by 2021-01-2410 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 12: July 16, 2009 - DO YOU EVER? (A Poem)July 2009 has been a rough month for Mekhaela. But despite it all, she was able to channel her inner poet and turn her sadness into poetry. Cheesy? Quite."..Of the way I touch your face,Kiss you on the lips and play with your earWhispering words you always long to hear,And hear me make a giggling noise when you say you love me?"Voiced by MEKHAELASound by JABSCover art by MONIQUE--- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a...2021-01-1706 min
MekhaelaEPISODE 12: July 16, 2009 - DO YOU EVER? (A Poem)July 2009 has been a rough month for Mekhaela. But despite it all, she was able to channel her inner poet and turn her sadness into poetry. Cheesy? Quite.
"..Of the way I touch your face,
Kiss you on the lips and play with your ear
Whispering words you always long to hear,
And hear me make a giggling noise when you say you love me?"
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MekhaelaEpisode 11: JULY 15 2009 – IT’S BEEN A MONTHMekhaela felt like she's carrying all of these adversities alone. Did anyone help? Nope! Did anyone check on her if she's okay? Hell, no. Did anyone offered to be her soundboard? Double hell no!
"It’s true what they say, even the strong ones get trampled on. "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 10: JULY 12 2009 - ON LAST NIGHTMEKHAELA will reveal a secret she had kept for so long.
"Was I caught? Nope! Veteran's Move? Hell, yeah!"
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MekhaelaEpisode 9: JULY 11 2009 - ON SAYING SORRYGUESS WHO REACHED OUT AND APOLOGIZED for putting MEKHAELA in a tight spot??
"I’m hurt. A ton of sorry would not heal the wounds but I’m sure it may serve as a painkiller for the meantime. But painkillers wear off after a couple of hours. "
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MekhaelaEPISODE 8: JULY 9 2009 - HOPING FOR A BETTER DAY FOR A COWARD LIKE MEWhy did MEKHAELA wait for something so vague? Maybe it was just her ego talking. Just maybe.
"No, I’m not an Ice Queen. I just numb myself of all the unfortunate incidents that have happened to me."
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MekhaelaEPISODE 7: JULY 6 2009 - UNSENT- MEKHAELA TO MILESWhat was Mekhaela even fighting for? For him to come back even if she knew he won't? Was she just making a fool of herself for thinking he's for real?
"But as long as you’re on the other side of the rope waiting for me, pain is worth taking and wounds will remind me that I’m holding on with a purpose."
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MekhaelaEpisode 6 - JULY 4 2009 - The Psyche of a Crazy MeWhat did MEKHAELA do to deserve such castigation from someone she'd loved and sacrificed for? Why do people hurt her that much?
"I easily get frustrated and angry." - Mekhaela
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MekhaelaEpisode 5 - JUNE 29 2009 - Unsent Letter To MILESOne thing Mekhaela was so sure about: time management was off the table. Mekhaela tried to convince herself that whatever happened to her with MILES was just a minor setback. But even though it hurt so much she still sucked it up and endured the pain. Real love....or stupidity?
"I’ve been crying myself to sleep, trying my darndest to eat right but it seems food doesn’t want to be digested as well so I ended throwing it all up."
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MekhaelaEpisode 4 - June 16, 2009 - No PromisesIt was a battle between her head and her heart. Mekhaela's head said the relationship was nothing but toxic, but her heart was telling her to do what makes her happy.
"Both of us can’t promise anything except to make each day very meaningful. " -Mekhaela
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MekhaelaEPISODE 3 – June 14, 2009 – Let's Call Him MILESDid Mekhaela find gold amongst the rust?
"He knows if I’m genuinely happy, sad, or upset...If only I could keep him in my pocket forever."
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MekhaelaEpisode 2 - April 30, 2009 – Circles: I'm Going Round and RoundMekhaela started to notice that Miles was slowly fading out of the picture but she's still trying to get her hopes up. The stronger she fell for him, the more it had become, and it's making her anxious.
"Probably, I’m making a fool of myself for loving someone whom I know I can’t spend the rest of my life with."
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MekhaelaEpisode 1 – April 24, 2009 - Bottle Never Breaks, That, I PromiseMekhaela wrote an email that was never sent to MILES. She made a promise to stay. A promise she kept that sealed her fate.
"It’s always a promise that I will keep until such time that you’ll need to break free. I won’t let go. Hope you’ll do the same."
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MekhaelaCOMING SOON... SEASON TWOA year after her marriage ended, Mekhaela had once again, exposed herself in a very vulnerable situation and began opening herself to the dating scene...and then, she met him.
Mark all your calendars on November 2nd. Mekhaela will be back.
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MekhaelaEntry 12 - October 7, 2008 - A Thank YouMekhaela wrote a little entry in October 2008 about how she met her husband, struggled, loved, and lost.
"We thought this love would last for eternity. The joys, sorrows, pain, and hardships were nothing when we’re together. " -Mekhaela
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MekhaelaEntry 11 – August 18, 2008 - Who the Hell Am I, Really?Mekhaela had already sabotaged everything in her life and blaming everyone for everything.
“I like to get hurt, I let go of things or people who are so important to me, and the worst part is I’m the one who gets easily affected by my decisions.”
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MekhaelaEntry 10 - April 28, 2008 - It’s Too Difficult!Did she turn to vices to forget everything?
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MekhaelaEntry 9 – March 1, 2008 - How It Feels like?Mekhaela's married life was already hanging in the balance and yet, she's trying to keep everything together for the sake of not disappointing the people around her. But deep inside, she's tired. Should she endure the pain just to keep her precious unit together or should she just give up and take whatever that's left of her and move on to another chapter of her life?
"Another dawn came, the sun has shown its rays greeting me with a warm "hello". It’s a new day. I know it’s not yet over; I have to keep fighting my way beca...2020-09-2008 min
MekhaelaEntry 8 - Life Ain't Easy - February 7, 2008It wasn't easy for Mekhaela to follow advice from people. Had she blindly obeyed someone's advice and things took turn for the worse?
"Unsolicited advice is not welcome." - Mekhaela
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MekhaelaEntry 7 - February 6, 2008 - Laziness or Totally Fed Up?Was Mekhaela becoming lazy or just fed up with everything that went on around her?
"I’m becoming more and more lazy–a lot of people told me that. Am I lazy or just totally fed up with the daily routine, being yelled at, being called useless idiot for no reason at all?"
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MekhaelaEntry 6 - December 30, 2007 - Empty Head? Or Just Trying To Make Myself Stupid?This was the last entry of the year 2007. Mekhaela tried to reevaluate all the things that have happened to her. She was trying to figure out if those were just a setback or if there were reasons for everything.
"I’m currently struggling– in all aspects. There are some things that I cannot avoid and the worst part of it is that I haven’t done anything to either stop or change it."
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A Stutterer's JournalFINAL EPISODEWe're down to the last episode and I would like to thank you all for your support. Though this may be my final episode, you can still hear me on my other running show MEKHAELA that airs every MONDAY on your favorite podcast platforms. I'd love to hear from you, so please leave a comment or a message on my Twitter @MiaMekhaela. Again, thank you. MIA SIGNING OFF.2020-08-2912 min
A Stutterer's JournalEpisode 9 - Crashed And Burned But It Got Better.When my laptop crashed and all the work I did wasn't, I thought I might get upset. There's a silver lining after all. I'd love to hear from you. You can reach out to me via Twitter @MiaMekhaela or if you have a Spreaker account, you can leave a comment on this episode.2020-08-2810 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 8 - Of Old Shows And My DadEarlier, I watched some old movies and made me reminisce about my dad. Youcan always leave a comment at MiaMekhaela on Twitter and here on Spreaker.2020-08-2613 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 7 - My Speaking DilemmaSo, recording for my Mekhaela show was done as well as the one I'm working on for another social media platform. You will know my dilemma in speaking both scripted and unscripted. Leave a comment for the show through Spreaker or you can leave a direct message on my twitter @MiaMekhaela if you can relate. Have a good day.2020-08-2511 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 6 - Nothing Much, Just Woke UpThis episode talks about my task at hand and the things I need to accomplish while on 4-day vacation leave.2020-08-2412 min
MekhaelaEntry 5 - May 6, 2007 - The One Who Hides from the Curious PublicMekhaela recalled that she was worried that her temper was spreading like cancer, that's why she's trying to keep herself from socializing. That affected her relationship with her family, friends, and even her husband.
"Why keeping these a secret? People sometimes do that. I don’t know. Maybe I’m one of them… or maybe I’m not. It depends on the situation."
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Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2020-08-2308 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 5 - My Life's Daily CircusToday's show is all about what's keeping me busy. I accepted a proposal to do another show for another social media platform with my cousin, and at the same time, I'm helping out my bestfriend/cousin for her business page on a social media. Keeping myself occupied with lots of things enables me to think less about my insecurities and pent up emotional stress. I'm happy juggling all things at once. I'm a multi-tasker, I think.2020-08-2212 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 4 - Of Rain, Flowers, and GrandmotherThis episode is about how I celebrated my grandmother's birthday days ago even if she's already gone, and what I will do when the pandemic is over.2020-08-2112 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 3 - The Daily Normal Routine3 of 10 episodes... 7 more to go. It's all laid back and I was just alone in the room doing my normal day-to-day routine.2020-08-2012 minA Stutterer's JournalEpisode 2 - When They're GoneWhen will be the best time to tell them we love them? Is it now? Tomorrow? Or never? That's my topic for today's podcast.2020-08-1912 min
A Stutterer's JournalEpisode 1 - The Stutterer's DayThis 10-episode show will focus more on my journey as a podcast show host who has a speech impediment disorder. My name is Mia and I am a host for this show. Allow me to take you to this journey as I try to overcome my stuttering, and what I do to minimize it as we go along. Please note, this show is unscripted, with no edits, no cuts. Long story short, this is a raw recording type of podcast. I will be using two devices to record: mobile phone and condenser mic. So please bear with me...2020-08-1910 min
MekhaelaEntry 4 - January 23, 2007 - Bring Back the FlameMekhaela takes you back in January 2007 when she thought she was okay after she was recommended to see a therapist. She's still having difficulty recognizing fantasy from the reality. Though she thinks she's ready to face the world, she's still battling to gain back her sanity.
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MekhaelaEntry 3 - January 19, 2007 - The One Who Was StupidMekhaela was on the verge of giving up. She was fighting to gain back her sanity despite the fact that she's trying to run away from all responsibilities because she felt choked. She felt she's her own enemy.
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MekhaelaEntry 2 - January 18, 2007 - The One Who's ConfusedOverview: Entry 2 contains the rambling of a confused woman due to depression but trying to be normal since she couldn't talk to anyone.
link: https://mekhaela1111.wordpress.com/2011/06/23/the-one-who%e2%80%99s-confused-january-18-2007/
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Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2020-08-0207 minMekhaelaEntry 1 - December 23, 2006 - I RegretThis was my first entry when I started writing back in 2006 when I was suffering from postpartum depression. My therapist told me to keep a journal to make me feel better.
At the end of this reading, you'll get to hear me say random things, no scripts, no nothing.
link: mekhaela1111.wordpress.com/2011/06/23/i-regret%e2%80%a6-december-23-2006/b
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Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/m...2020-07-2605 minMekhaelaTune InRandom talks... depression... heartbreak.
This podcast has it all. Listen.. as we bring the personal journal to life.
Let's take a trip down memory lane.. with Mekhaela.
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Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2020-07-2501 minMekhaelaBONUS TRACK - WHO AM I?IT TOOK ME ONE BORING QUARANTINE MORNING TO REALIZE THAT I HAVE GOOD MATERIALS THAT'S BEEN SITTING SOMEWHERE IN WORDPRESS ACCOUNT.
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Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/mia-mekhaela-podcast/message2020-07-2402 minMekhaelaMy Blog-turned-Podcast, My Name is MEKHAELAHi, this is Mekhaela, and this is my podcast. A personal blog that I will be bringing back to life using my voice. I'm happy to inform you that you can also listen to me through Spotify.
There will be new releases on Monday and bonus entries on Friday. Join me as I look back on my postpartum days, the struggles, the heartaches, the fun travels I've had for the last 14 years since I started my blog. I will only be choosing entries worth reading and as a bonus, I will also...2020-07-2101 minMekhaelaMekhaela TeasesMy name is Mekhaela, and I'll be your host for this little podcast. My blog entries from 2006 up to the present will soon come to life in this podcast. Please join me as I read my entries one by one, every week (or twice a week, hopefully).
My first official reading will be on July 27th, my mom's birthday. Stay tuned!
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