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ReRootingHopeOver concern for their safety due to the recent conflict and the major uptick in antisemitism globally, this will be the last episode of ReRooting. For now. Rebelle discusses the week and their experiences of growing up and living in an antisemitic world amidst trying to figure out what to do to ensure this reality stops playing out. Thank you to all the listeners and loved ones who have been on this road with me and hopefully we will meet again.2023-10-1542 min
ReRootingIf I Could Turn Back TimeRebelle looks back at the past year and at some childhood memories that have floated to the surface.2023-10-0117 min
ReRootingHead of The YearAt an ungodly hour, Rebelle briefly touches on some aspects of how body image issues have cropped up in their life and reflects on what routes they began taking to learn more about how they felt about themselves.2023-09-1715 min
ReRootingZero to HeroRebelle has a rough day with a surprising ending.2023-09-0306 min
ReRootingGibraltarRebelle talks about experiencing Gibraltar for the first time2023-08-2111 min
ReRootingWelcome to ParadiseRebelle briefly talks about pre-travel freakouts before they head to Gibraltar, but mostly focuses on the enormous presence of Hawaii on their life in the wake of the wildfire on The Big Island and the community of Lahaina in Maui. If you are able to, please donate what you can to help the locals. Here are some orgs directly helping the community:Maui Strong Fund: hawaiicommunityfoundation.org/maui-strongMaui Mutual Aide Fund: www.bit.ly/mauimutualaideLahaina Fire Recovery Efforts: Lahuifoundation.orgMaui Humane Society: www.bit.ly/mauihumanesocietyChefs for Hawaii: wck.org2023-08-1427 min
ReRootingFinding My RootsRebelle begins to clarify what has been pulling them to do genealogical research, specifically looking into their Sephardi lineage.2023-08-0621 min
ReRootingQuick UpdateIn lieu of a full episode and due to a tight schedule, Rebelle gives a quick update and lets listeners and loved know where they can find Rebelle's latest work.2023-07-3002 min
ReRootingWork Mode ActivatedRebelle gives a quick update on life, thinks more about time blindness from their previous convo with Claudia, gushes about Barbie2023-07-2410 min
ReRootingA Very ADHD Conversation ft. ClaudiaRebelle and friend Claudia talk about their struggles navigating a neurotypical world with neurodivergent brains, their feelings about many-legged creatures, work and writing milestones, and London Alpacas.2023-07-1649 min
ReRootingCommuning with the DeadRebelle talks developments in their ancestry research as well as tries to process what it means and looks like in practice to be an American in this moment.2023-07-0222 min
ReRootingUnexpected GuestsRebelle talks ADHD, writing developments, and is interrupted by an unexpected guest.2023-06-2515 min
ReRootingThings I Didn't SayRebelle touches on their struggles with saying what they mean and want in the moment and expressed what they wished they were able to have said in response to a family member they disagree with.2023-06-1819 min
ReRootingHome AloneRebelle finally begins to grieve the loss of their home that prompted this two year sojourn and reflects a little bit on why finding a sense of belonging has felt so difficult.2023-06-1123 min
ReRootingRoots CluesRebelle gives a short update on how the ancestry research is coming along.2023-06-0407 min
ReRootingPondering MediocrityRebelle reflects on what it means to be mediocre and comes to no conclusions and possibly confuses themselves even more. Featuring surprise guest, Baloo.2023-05-2815 min
ReRootingPerfectionism PrisonRebelle talks about their struggles with perfectionism and the reemergence of those tendencies from the past few weeks.2023-05-2113 min
ReRootingPlaying HouseRebelle takes a walk and thinks about the many doors of places they can only return to in memory.2023-05-1419 min
ReRootingInternal Resources Cannot Replace External Support and Justice for Jordan NeelyRebelle discusses their frustration over the overarching narrative that posits that people get through hard times only through bravery, hard work, and resilience without taking into account the contexts in which many people's hardships derive from. Most of which have to do with people being in situations where have limited or no access to resources. Placing blame on an individual not being "strong" enough to leave an abusive relationship, too lazy for being hungry, unhoused, and without consistent work puts the focus on the wrong people and issues and creates a volatile and, for too many, fatal reality.While Rebelle...2023-05-0714 min
ReRootingKnowing When to Move OnRebelle makes the decision to leave the house they'd hoped to be in for six months. They talk incompatibility and no longer tolerating certain dynamics or contorting themselves into situations they didn't want or sign up for.2023-04-3015 min
ReRootingShoe Shopping is the New ClubbingRebelle sits on a bench in Central London thinking about how loud athletic footwear stores are, needing better arch support, and poets inspired by David Bowie.2023-04-2312 min
ReRootingMiss PerceptionsRebelle talks about learning to be more comfortable with people having misconceptions of them, while also feeling braver about correcting folks or bringing concerns about those misperceptions to those they are in relationship with.2023-04-1614 min
ReRootingChildfreeRebelle scratches the surface behind their reasons for being and choosing to remain childfree.2023-04-0916 min
ReRootingSpace InvadersRebelle talks about some of the challenges in their current living situation and reflects on how much of that has been impacted by childhood experiences and what their needs are.2023-04-0216 min
ReRootingThe PretendersCW: Abuse/Domestic ViolenceRebelle considers love as a verb and the consistency and trust that is foundational to loving relationships. They also reflect on the grayness of these conversations while remaining steadfast about what behavioral dealbreakers are for them in relationship where they used to have none.2023-03-2631 min
ReRootingNorway or the HighwayA congested Rebelle (not COVID-19, just a Spring cold) recounts spending a couple of days in Norway, how it feels to travel and what that clues them into about what home and stability could look like for them, and what it feels like to know when they have enough.2023-03-1918 min
ReRootingOn MuteRebelle talks about their struggles with Selective Mutism.2023-03-1210 min
ReRootingHolding the PainDuring a week of processing waves of grief around family, specific thoughts and feelings about Rebelle and their relationship to their mom bubbled to the surface. 2023-03-0524 min
ReRootingSolving the World’s Problems ft. New Roomie JaneRebelle is joined in conversation with their new housemate, Jane. They work through what it means to heal and live in the transitions.2023-02-2656 min
ReRootingOne WeekIn a ReRooting flashback recorded on March 9th, 2022, Rebelle - after multiple waves of panic - reflected on their first week after arriving in London. They spoke excitedly about the fellowship application they had just submitted (and was later rejected), how they hoped job applications wouldn’t take as long to do (LOL), and that Hannah Gadsby was coming to town and maybe they would buy themselves a ticket (Listeners and Loved Ones, they did buy that ticket and had a glorious time). 2023-02-1905 min
ReRootingWhen it Rains it PoursRebelle wonders whether houses themselves let you know when they want you to go.2023-02-1208 min
ReRootingIt’s A New Dawn, It’s A New Day, It’s a New LifeFinally out of brain fog, Rebelle reflects on the meaning attached to being in a “good” mood and on what living as a hermit in Lisbon has meant as their time in Portugal approaches its end. 2023-02-0515 min
ReRootingRewiring As Rebelle tries to manage another week of small successes with feeling majorly depressed, they talk about the difficulty and importance around untangling their thoughts and feelings from how things were in the past. A quote by psychologist Nedra Tawwab on the impacts of manipulation on the brain inspired the thoughts in this episode. 2023-01-2918 min
ReRootingBed BoundRebelle’s Fibromyalgia flares up and they are reminded that it is ok to feel disappointed and down about life sometimes.2023-01-2212 min
ReRootingPlot TwistRebelle discovers possible family ties to Portugal and a renewed sense of purpose for the the rest of their time there.2023-01-1513 min
ReRootingPlayback/RecallA recent job inquiry has Rebelle relistening to her past work in music. They think about the projects themselves, how their relationship to making music has shifted since they left the industry 6 years prior after a fibromyalgia diagnosis, and the cosmic hilarity of it all.2023-01-0825 min
ReRootingLearn to FlyRecorded a few days before the 2023 New Year, Rebelle reflects on some significant growth.2023-01-0212 min
ReRootingFestival of LightsRebelle visits the only synagogue in Lisbon. The Sha’are Tikvah Synagogue was just built in 1904 and is only one of five synagogues in all of Portugal. The only way to enter the synagogue is to either be a member, schedule a guided tour, or fill out a request to attend services.The Spanish and Portuguese Inquisitions decimated the Jewish populations of the Iberian Peninsula beginning in Spain in 1492 with the Alhambra Edict, followed by the Portuguese in 1496. The Portuguese Inquisition was formally established in 1536 and was not extinguished until 1821. For more information, head to cilisboa.org2022-12-2519 min
ReRootingBugging OutRebelle battles an infestation and irrational fears.2022-12-1810 min
ReRootingOne Year PlanRebelle talks burnout and trying to make finding a more permanent home a reality by the end of next year.2022-12-1117 min
ReRootingWhirlwindRebelle reflects on a whirlwind of a week2022-12-0426 min
ReRooting10 Year RitualRebelle lands in Portugal and thinks back on their first solo trip exactly 10 years prior.2022-11-2715 min
ReRootingSeason 2 Premiere: Romantic and Emotional ft. AlissaFor the Season 2 premiere of ReRooting, Rebelle invites their friend Alissa to talk about how their friendship has grown over the past year, the role games play in bonding with others, and how to navigate change in others and within ourselves.Note: Alissa sometimes refers to Rebelle by their birth name, Katie.2022-11-1939 min
ReRootingReRooting One Year Anniversary ft. Childhood BFF SamiIn the one year anniversary and season finale of ReRooting, Rebelle chats with their childhood BFF Sami about a friendship that has spanned three decades, Sami as a witness to a year of rerooting, and experiences that shaped them both. Note: Sami sometimes refers to Rebelle by their birth name, Katie. 2022-11-1346 min
ReRootingA Milestone and A PleaRebelle talks about how taking circus classes has shown how far their relationship with their body has come as well as expresses sadness and fear over not being able to vote in the 2022 midterms due to their housing status.2022-11-0620 min
ReRootingTattoo TabooRebelle talks getting their first tattoo2022-10-3120 min
ReRootingMicro RelationshipsRebelle thinks about the relationships that last for mere moments2022-10-2304 min
ReRootingBreathing RoomRebelle makes it to Chicago and begins to process the previous whirlwind week in New York working at NYCC.2022-10-1615 min
ReRootingBack In The SaddleOn the eve of working NYCC 2022, Rebelle reflects on their feelings of choosing to come back and what else has been on their mind for last couple of weeks.2022-10-1031 min
ReRootingScoopedRecorded on September 24th 2022, Rebelle takes a minute to reflect on their new surroundings with a non-spon sweet treat.2022-10-0204 min
ReRootingTears and TamalesRecorded on September 14, 2022, Rebelle rides a wave of overwhelm and feelings of longing for the familiar.2022-09-2505 min
ReRootingI Wanna Dance With SomebodyRebelle processes what it means to have relationships while experiencing instability, autism, and ADHD while also trying to figure out how past and present trauma impact their ability to fully show up.2022-09-1833 min
ReRootingCh-Ch-Ch-ChangesRebelle talks walking home at night, changing bodies, and why Vancouver smells so good2022-09-1218 min
ReRootingResurfacingRebelle talks about coming out of a recent bout of depression and how it can manifest itself for them. 2022-09-0521 min
ReRootingLike A RockstarTired and annoyed by words like “nomad,” Rebelle looks back to their past musical history in an attempt to create a more accurate description of their current life.2022-08-2912 min
ReRootingToday is Your DayRebelle talks about finding empowerment within the struggle of adjusting to another new place2022-08-2215 min
ReRootingDetourRebelle grapples with another change of plans through a conversation with a younger version of themselves and is visited by a very surprising guest.2022-08-1422 min
ReRootingDisappointing ConversationsRecorded on July 31, 2022. Rebelle recounts a confusing conversation with a family member while back in LA.2022-08-0811 min
ReRootingForgivenessRebelle reflects on being back in LA on the one year anniversary of Gatsby’s death. 2022-07-3118 min
ReRootingWhat Makes Life WorthwhileRebelle continues working out their next steps and attempts to gain more clarity through examining some aspects of the life they used to lead with their family and extended family of origin.2022-07-2321 min
ReRootingWeightlessRebelle moves again, manages physical pain, and finally gets some good news on the job hunt.2022-07-1711 min
ReRootingIntentionsRebelle unpacks some of the underlying driving forces of some of their decisions and wonders if there’s a way to discover a clearer sense of purpose. 2022-07-1015 min
ReRootingCarcophony Rebelle gets interrupted. Many times. 2022-07-0310 min
ReRootingAmerica, Fuck NoRebelle reflects on the recent SCOTUS systemic fuckery, feeling like going back to the US was a mistake, and reaffirming that settling and making a life outside of the US is the right call for them.2022-06-2618 min
ReRootingBack On My BullshitRebelle shares an update on their COVID-19 status and on being back in NYC.2022-06-1912 min
ReRootingPositiveRebelle tests positive for COVID-19 on what was supposed to be a quick trip to Scotland2022-06-1206 min
ReRootingIt’s A Murder. Yes, I Said MurderRebelle confronts her creativity and an unexpected visitor.2022-06-0510 min
ReRootingFlare UpRebelle talks about posting this episode late due to a fibromyalgia flare up and the building stress of coming back to the US.2022-05-3017 min
ReRootingGo Your Own WayRebelle reflects on contentment, the difference between chaos and unpredictability, and what it’s meant to learn to trust themselves during the past year. 2022-05-2216 min
ReRootingWork ItFeeling more adjusted to life in London and a semblance of a path ahead, Rebelle starts giving more serious thought to what they want to do and what that question means to them.2022-05-1531 min
ReRootingMother’s DayThe leaked SCOTUS document implying an imminent overturning of Roe v. Wade in the US weighed heavily on millions of minds this week. Deeply saddened, angry, and unsurprised, Rebelle gets to the heart of why they are pro-abortion and pro-lives of the living.2022-05-0830 min
ReRootingDayDream BelieverAfter a too-short chat with a cousin and fellow world roamer, Rebelle talks about the extraordinary in an ordinary existence and the ability to keep imagining when life turns out in previously unimaginable ways. 2022-05-0115 min
ReRootingIn My LifeAfter a week of relative calm in a new and more comfortable location, Rebelle contemplates the way grief on pause from the last two years finally begins bubbling to the surface and reminds themselves that transformation and loss go hand in hand. 2022-04-2418 min
ReRootingMan EnoughIn a calmer moment of life, Rebelle identifies and unpacks some internalized misogyny and racism regarding the valuation of certain types of work, gendered roles, and the ways in which those messages informed many decisions they made. This was originally recorded on 3.27.22 2022-04-1723 min
ReRootingRecoveryNot even a week after moving into a new home and neighborhood, the presence of an abusive and erratic neighbor prompts Rebelle to cut her time there short and move themselves to a safer location.2022-04-1021 min
ReRootingLet’s Go To The MallAs Rebelle moves from South London to north of The River on the tail end of an allergy/cold combo, surprising feelings arise when left wandering through a Westfields. 2022-04-0308 min
ReRootingComfort in the UncertaintyRecorded on 3.18.22 after a night out with new friends. An update on how it feels to be in London the last few weeks and a love note to all those who have supported this change.2022-03-2719 min
ReRootingPerspectiveRecorded on 3.16.22. In a moment of deep hurt and anger, Rebelle tries to verbally process an email from her estranged father shortly after receiving it that set off alarm bells. Topics include the cycle of abuse, when loved ones protect and make excuses for abusers, and what she wants her relationships to look like. 2022-03-2032 min
ReRootingReal WorldRebelle thinks about divisiveness and living based on the reality of a situation.2022-03-1416 min
ReRooting24 HoursRebelle’s first 24 hours in London2022-03-0609 min
ReRootingTake Flight24 hours before leaving for London2022-03-0109 min
ReRootingLondon CallingRebelle remembers London in anticipation of hopping across the pond.2022-02-2112 min
ReRootingSacred SpacesRecorded on Dec. 31, 2021, a week after her uncle died and a few very disappointing, yet, affirming conversations with some family members. Rebelle thinks about home, how it’s changing, and what it means to her. 2022-02-1315 min
ReRootingExhalingRebelle explores what it feels like to finally have some breathing room and things to look forward to. 2022-02-0615 min
ReRootingThe Doggysitters ClubRebelle talks about EMDR while getting pounced on by a furry friend. Originally recorded on Jan. 21, 20222022-01-3007 min
ReRootingThe Doggysitters ClubRebelle talks about EMDR while getting pounced on by a furry friend. Originally recorded on Jan. 21, 20222022-01-3007 min
ReRootingLife is For The LivingRebelle tries to make sense of another loss and how to move through it and forward.2022-01-2411 min
ReRootingPieces of MeRebelle talks about some of the challenges of navigating life with C-PTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).2022-01-1621 min
ReRootingEvery New Beginning Comes From Some Other Beginning’s EndCW: Death and LossAs another year comes to a close and a new one starts to open up, Rebelle talks about how death has shaped the entirety of her life and, in particular, these past two years.2021-12-3131 min
ReRootingLeaving The CityRebelle goes back in time and talks about their reasons for initially leaving NYC in 2018, after receiving a fibromyalgia diagnosis a few years earlier.2021-12-1616 min
ReRootingNew York CityRebelle reflects on being back in NYC 2021-12-0414 min
ReRootingThe Messy TruthIntro to Rebelle and ReRooting 2021-11-1514 min