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Monster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil18. Daddy’s Home: The Battlefield of Birth--The Narcissistic Parent and his Apprenticeship Please listen to this episode. It is the most difficult set of stories I’ve offered you because of the raw truths and violent moments I’ve heretofore never enunciated. How does the child make it through all the violence and trauma she is subjected to while in the womb? How does she develop in the very early years? Although the entire 22-year marriage to the psychopath, Dr. Mario was replete unspeakable horrors, there were years in each location (New Mexico, Vermont, Peaks Island, Oakland, CA) which were filled particularly grotesque acts of sadism but Dr Mario.
Yo...2019-10-2425 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with EvilEPISODE 17. "I Am So In Love With My Imagination of You." (Captivity Within The Imagination of Another)In this episode we explore how our partner or spouse may be in love with the imagination of us rather than who we really are (and/or, vice versa). We discuss the limitations caused by this phenomenon; how we may have been in this predicament for years and not been able to put it into words; how we may have felt the constraints associated with this condition of merely being the figment of another’s imagination. We explore how this captivity within the imagination of another, is psychology similar to the captor and captive in a relationship th...2019-10-0729 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil16. " This is What Happens When You Disobey." or, Keeping the Captive in Her Place In this episode we explore some of the faces of captivity: What are some of the psychological dynamics between captor and captive? What do these experiences look like for the “average” (?!) person being held in captivity by a psychopath? The personal experiences of captivity as seen outside of the extreme situations reported in the news and made into films, may look a lot different yet, bespeak the same psychological dynamics. We look at how the entire concept of captivity has been so commodified and sexualized, that it has occluded, hence de-emphasized the importance of scrutinizing this perverse and dang...2019-09-3024 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil15. Psychopaths, Captivity and Aphrodisiacs or, “Let Me See You Beg, Honey" Psychopaths, Captivity and Aphrodisiacs or, “Let Me See You Beg, Honey"
Welcome back to Monster Stories Podcast, Living with Evil after a brief absence during which your host took a historic tour of northern New Mexico, visiting the offices where Dr. Mario was hired into our group practice, as well as the homes where Dr. Mario first began to groom the host for a life of captivity; the house where first he began kidnapping his then, daughter (from a prior marriage). This, a trip both unnerving and reifying. How necessary it is sometime to se...2019-09-2728 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil14. Psychopathic Captivity Part 1: Confessions of a Former CaptiveThis season opens with a few stumbling words introducing the psychology of captivity. In subsequent episodes we will continue to explore this topic which is rarely spoken of. Why do we not hear the voices of the escaped captives more frequently? …Because the majority of captives are never released by their psychopathic captors. Many captives die from bodily harm inflicted upon them by their captors. Many take their own lives to liberate themselves from a situation which seems to afford no exit. Others are left in a severely traumatized state and have no desire to remember th...2019-09-0218 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil13. Does it Matter that Your Physician is a Psychopath?What matters in our interactions with others? What aspects of character do we trust are integral to our relationships? What if your physician, your neighbor or your lawyer was a narcissist (a psychopath), hence, one of the 25%+ of the global population who has no capacity for genuine human emotion? In other words, what if your physician was born without the capacity to know suffering or understand pain? Would this matter to you? These are the difficult questions we are increasingly being forced to consider each day when so many people among us are merely...2019-08-1521 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil11. So You’ve Become the Psychopath’s Chosen One, How Does It Feel?In this episode (11), and the following one (12), we return to the earlier Meet the Psychopath, narrative thread. I speak of the entire process of meeting the monster, being courtedby him, and slowly being luredinto his/her dense malevolent webbing. This progression, usually insidious, is characteristic of all narcissists and borderline people. As, it is estimated that 25% of the population worldwide presents with the disorder of malignant narcissist, you have undoubted interacted with these people and are, if not a prime target, are an unwitting puppetin their machinations.
These sick people may vary in terms of the degree of chaos they cause...2019-08-0330 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil12. How Can You Discern the Difference Between a Psychopath and An Authentically Kind Person? (This episode opens with a word of Advice on Monsters, from Dr. Mario.) How do you know you are interacting with a sociopath, a borderline personality, a psychopath, a monster, when at first, they seem so affable, so interested in who you are, so aware of your needs and how to fill them? How do we know that the person next to us who affords momentary relief when our grocery bag rips, or, offers a compliment when we’re feeling glum, is a sociopath rather than a thoughtful stranger? How does one discern between a meddling so...2019-07-2727 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil10. The Psychopath’s Love Letters, Why They Matter and What They RevealIn this episode we look at letters the psychopath /narcissist/ monster writes to his prey (the prime target and others), as well as letters his manipulated victims write for him.. Though I offer narrative segments of some love letters I've received from a psychopath (Dr. Mario), I also include one brief narrative in the monster's own words at the very end of this episode ((before outro)
Why are the letters from psychopath’s important? First, it is crucial for the survivor of a psychopath to reclaim her own, autonomous character, however malevolent her partner or co...2019-07-1726 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil9. Clueless Attorneys: How Psychopaths Destroy By Proxy. Beware ! In this episode I ask you to ponder isolation and character defamation that results from a gaslighting campaign by a psychopath, sociopath, monster. I ask you to reflect on attorneys you may have retained, who were victims of gaslighting-by-proxy (yes, an actual term), hence, only served to perpetuate the erroneous image of you as troubled, mentally imbalanced (or worse), that the monster had contrived. I share my own story of a Maine attorney who was an example of this insulting line of thinking that perpetuated the monster's erroneous depiction of me (i.e.: Dr. Mario’s co...2019-07-1421 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil8. Psychopathic Punishments: Torture and Captivity in the Casco Bay and Beyond Psychopathic Punishments: Torture and Captivity in the Casco Bay and Beyond
“I have been violent and abusive to you; I know it. I've traumatized and hurt you deeply with my rages for years… I realize more each day how my violent rages abused and traumatized you… For years and years, I had no idea they were having such a crippling effect on you …but you are mentally ill. You are addicted to anxiety. I can no longer take your illness.” (Dr. Mario email)
Note in the above quote from an email, how Dr. Ma...2019-07-1030 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil7. July 4 2019, Psychopathy: The Declaration Of Independence As Curative For the Prey Journal entry: Today, July 4, 2018, I awake this morning and turn to the declaration of Independence for solace. This eloquent statement from 1776, is relevant to our lives on many levels. I ask you to consider both its historical and psychological implications. For we who have known the brutality of the monster, it reminds us of our duty to sever ourselves from the oppressive governance of the monster, the psychopath, and to institute a new self-governance that provides for safety, liberty and happiness.
Triangulation is perhaps the most challenging captivity to break free of. It is a...2019-07-0520 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil6. Psychopathic Punishments and The Aesthetics of SurvivalPunishments are central to the core behaviour of psychopaths, whether it be triangulation or more brutal captivities and bodily harm. Since the prey of the monster the psychopath always lives within a captivity of silence, whether wittingly or or unwittingly, finding an expressive outlet in which to encode our sorrows and relational grief is essential for survival. In this episode I share a recording of poetry and cello, where despair is an obvious theme, albeit shrouded within images of natural beauty.
During my captivity with Dr. Mario (the main antagonist in these episodes), I compiled...2019-07-0319 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil5. Psychopathic Punishments: Mind-control in Portland Maine, No One Knew the TruthIn this episode, we’ve temporarily moved forward in time to speak of psychopathic punishments and how the monster uses them to maintain obedience of his (or her) prey. This topic, though extremely difficult to speak of, is central to how the monster controls his partner once he’s ensnared her through his masks of “charm”, “psychopathic infatuation” and an inundation of attention (see episodes 1-3).
I invite listeners to interface their own “punishment stories” as I offer (stammer through) just one of myriad personal narrative recollections describing some of the psychological details involved in psychopathic punishments. If you are not the prime targe...2019-06-3035 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil4. Episode Three, The Monster Begins His Ominous Courting DanceIn this episode, I offer further narrative to exemplify how we are drawn into the corrosive effects of triangulation or” gaslighting” that the monster (i.e.: the psychopath, the sociopath, the character disordered person) introduces into relationships with those around him. We begin to notice the subtle dependencies he initiates in order to take control of his “prey”. We see how he insinuates himself into other’s lives through a subtle and sinister courting process. From the beginning, we were unwittingly drawn into the monster’s request for obedience.
*Please note, these are complex...2019-06-2225 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil3. Interlude: Why A Podcast On Living With Evil?In this podcast episode we converse about the simulated affect and emotions of a psychopath, (sociopath, a monster). We begin to explore how these deceptions draw us into an entanglement with the monster. We look at how the ersatz emotional expression of a monster conflicts with our belief in the basic goodness of human beings. We speak of psychological and literal entrapment, punishments, and damage inflicted on us by the monster. We explore how the monster’s psychologically-coopted allies, dismiss us when we attempt to convey desperation regarding the danger and captivity we are facing.See more motes on...2019-06-1727 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil2. Episode Two, Mirroring and Triangulation Draw You Further Into the Monster's Lair. In this second episode, I offer a narrative example of how it came to be that I was with a monster. We begin to explore some of the initial reasons many of us became ensnared within the monster’s lair so blindly and rapidly upon meeting him. We look at psychological mirroring as a way the monster creates rapport with his prey. We look at the beginnings of triangulation and traumatic bonding with the psychopath, and how how he fosters dependencies to maintain you ensnared within his la...2019-06-1026 minMonster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil1. Episode One, A Sinister Compelling Charm Draws Us Toward Monsters Welcome to the initial broadcast from Monster Stories Podcast - Living with Evil. Monster Stories Podcast: Living with Evil, is a series of narratives which convey the intimate experience of being (often captive) in a relationship with a person incapable of humane behavior; a person who derives pleasure from another’s pain. He may be called a beast, a sociopath, a crazed raging monster, a sadistic deceiver, a psychopath. Regardless of his name, the havoc he wreaks on those around him brings about the same damaging consequences. It is my hope that the imperfect words of th...2019-06-0924 min