affectsagingalcoholanxietybetterbiggestbrainbrotherbrowncancerchangedconfidencecoxdamagedangerousdeathdementiadidndietdoctorsdrinkingdrugeverexpertfaithfallfeelfightfinallyfindingflightfoundgrantgreathappyhealthhusbandignoredjamieknowlegacylifelivelivinglosinglovemelmenopausemidlifemindnearlyneedneveroliverprofessorrerealreasonreducerichardrisksecretsexsignssobrietystartingsurvivingtooktraptruetruthwasnwillwomenwords