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H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsForget the Hazards! Honk that Horn!! "Damn the Man! Save the Empire!!" - Empire Records. We visit the idea here ...yes, we need to drive in the right lane with our hazards on SOMETIMES ... BUT we also still need to honk our horn, and drive AROUND people when we have somewhere we need to go! I also visit the idea of "Do what you Love, and call it WORK." - from the song "Buy Dirt" ... and the fact about how much harder it can be when you are working for a dead dog for someone ELSE... - Listen to this one...
2026-02-1909 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsThis. IS. ME! "Send in the Flood... Drown them Out" - Taken from the song "This is Me" from The Greatest Showman. A song that was SO important to me back in 2018... after I did my "This is My Brave" ... then today, It came on ... and it was like I was hearing it for the first time ... Also! Good News! We are "going back to basics" and it hit me in the shower, that my "entries" are becoming too long ... and that is not what this was all about ... they are journal-entry style ...so I need to PULLLLL it back...
2026-02-1913 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsGod Says Number 18 is a Lucky One! It's the 18th!!! As I have mentioned ... the number 18 is beyond just a "lucky" number for me in my life ... this one takes us through a journey of "cues from the Sky"... to meeting a possible new "love interest" with A TWIST! Also visiting the idea that just because certain people were close to you at one time, does not mean they signed a contract with you to always be by your side .... we only need people around us that lift us up, make us happy, and contribute to our inner and outer peace. So, with that being said...
2026-02-1856 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDear Dad, It's SHOWTIME. THIS. THIS. THIS ... I don't even know what to say. I swear, Dad wrote this letter ... to ME ... even though it's a letter to HIM from Me. I am ready... for my next chapter, the one that is going to change my life, "both sides now" ... I have love, and purpose. I am ready to surrender ... and trust God, My Dad, and My angels. This is the letter that will change everything ... that will mark the start of something amazing. Thank you ... for your support, your love... for being the calm to my storm ..... the...
2026-02-1710 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsLet's Be the Exception. For anyone out there who have had a "situationship" and somehow.... it turned into the hardest thing to ever get over ?? Ever?? This one is for you. I look back on two of the most important relationships of my lifetime ... and how looking back with a "different lens" has taught me different things ... I invite all of the listeners to do the same... I ask you to think of a time of your life, and you have always looked at it ONE way ... but try to "spin" it ... try to look at it differently, and see if...
2026-02-1751 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsChoose Peace... Piece by Piece.I can't take full credit for this one .... I heard a version of this off TikTok first thing when I woke up this morning (Thank you Dad). And it spoke to me so deeply to my core ... I just knew I had to record my own version of it. If I truly knew how TikTok worked, I would post it there ... perhaps once I have my "social media" team, they can help me! This one is not long ... and doesn't include any funny stories or "Double A's" aka Alana Anecdotes ... it's just real, raw, and true words...
2026-02-1609 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends"I'm Cleaning Out My Closet." - In the words of Eminem. "If you had ONE shot ... and ONE opportunity .... would you take It? Or would you just let is slip??" In the words of Eminem ... Lose Yourself. This felt really good ... definitely one of more of my upbeat, but also very theraputic entries ... I came to some realizations during this one .. I go back to my high school days, my Dad's opinion on my friends, my dream of becoming a rapper ... But ... the most important takeaway from this one ... it starts and ends, with talking about trusting your HEART ... beyond your gut, beyond your mind, beyond...
2026-02-1627 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsHappy Valentines Day 2026. Valentine's Day means something different to me than to most people ... especially this year. The first time my most loving and supportive man in my life ... on all days, but especially valentines day, as he always gave me something sweet and told me he loved me... I miss you Dad ... very much. Valentine's Day is a day of loss for my dear Mother ... and I talk about her losses of both her Father .. who passed on actual Valentines Day ... and also another very close soul that she just lost the day before Valentines Day. There...
2026-02-1640 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsEverybody .... It's a Sunshine Day!This one ... was inspired after I ran into the Quick Check and "Everybody" by the Backstreet Boys was playing... and from there we go on a little ride .... a few different songs play a part in this one ... (not a surprise)!"The power of the Pause" I talk about my lifetime issue of having "knee jerk reactions" to things, and how now I reflect on that and I am starting to understand why... looking at things differently now in the way I respond and react to things... following the "signs" to give myself the peace and comfort...
2026-02-1625 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsRoute 80 Rants! THIS is an episode that started when I was fully "BUGSY" .. aka having major anxiety while driving the high way that I've driven my entire adult life... but after having this "break" from my "normal life"... I was thrown back into a situation that I equate with a very stressful and frustrating commute .... I was going to cut the recording pretty quickly because I was so overwhelmed and then started to drive in circles... but I kept recording ... and I am SO happy I did. For those of you, who get overwhelmed, and anxious in a heart beat .... this...
2026-02-1635 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsTime is Never Wasted. "Baby we can make it ... if we're HEART TO HEARTTTTTT" ... starts out with my wonderful singing ... so be ready for that!This one is dedicated to the quote on the back of my t-shirt from college ... that My dad used to always quote throughout the years .. "Time is Never Wasted, when You're Wasted All the Time." Such a great line!I visit the "feelings" I am having right now, about past loves, future loves ... and everything between. Trying to understand my "pull" to certain people .. or away from others. What is "meant to be"?? Who...
2026-02-1636 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsRunaway Train. This starts out with me "rehearsing" what my answer will be on the interview circuit on "HOW did you end up doing this Alana?" ... And then of course this Runaway train took a few different twists and turns ... and it seems like this train is ready for a permanent conductor ... (accepting applications within)!
2026-02-1235 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsTake Your Effing Lunch Break! "Things that no longer serve you will somehow find their way out of your Life." ... I make some comparisons to this when I found out I had to switch pharmacies. I then went on to discuss the importance of taking some TIME out of your day to get your own "ish" done. I share that I have not taken a true lunch break during my work day for over 20 years. And I am trying to make sure everyone knows ... YOU HAVE TO TAKE YOUR LUNCH BREAK! Put YOURSELF first. I promise you, it will change your life. I know...
2026-02-1247 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsYou WILL Be Found. This one started out being inspired by the song "You Will Be Found" from the Broadway show, "Dear Evan Hansen." It's a song that always meant a lot to me, but now I find myself tearing up and daydreaming as I hear it ... and then when I found the version by Jennifer Nettles from Sugarland? Well that just made my entire morning! ... I then begin to talk more about my experiences with casual dating, and making some realizations about how long distance romances seemed to have made the most impact in my life. I am now ready for intentional...
2026-02-1236 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsLet's Get this Party Started!!!This is my VISION coming to life! Working on putting together my stage show (Alana Michaels presents... H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends)... so this is a really FUN one... get ready to sing and dance ... (in your car, in your home, in the walmart) wherever you are listening to this! As always, thanks for the support!!! LET'S DO THIS!
2026-02-1111 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsWith All Of My Love, Your Ex. THIS! THIS THIS! It's funny ... someone said to me recently "DO you think you are channeling when you record some of these?" I've been thinking about that... and I swear, I think she might be onto something. I recorded this on a whim, based on a conversation I was having with myself in the shower .... it's from the POV of my "Ex" ... representing ALL of my "exes" and how they are feeling at this moment ... while listening to my podcast, and giving me the encouraging words that I guess I needed to hear?? Pretty sure my Dad had a...
2026-02-1024 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsTake Me To Church! This one gave me such great energy to record. I had an amazing experience this morning at a church that was SO different from any type of religious organization I have ever been a part of. I loved it, it moved me to tears, and it is exactly what I needed in this moment. God knew that I would be there today ... and everything spoke to me. It's called "The Chapel of Warren Valley" in Washington, NJ (it's literally in a strip mall - you would NEVER know that it's a church)! I feel the way I "explain and...
2026-02-0918 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsWho is "normal" Alana? This was a really interesting one ... at first I wasn't sure I would post it, because I just wanted to have an audio recording of some of these journal entries ... but then I realized, and remembered, what I am doing this for. I think this episode represents BIPOLAR Disorder the best of any of them ... because it's not too long in length, yet you can hear the roller coaster of a journey that this illness can have on one human being. I made realizations in this episode that I had never connected before ... once again, involving Taylor Swift and...
2026-02-0811 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsShe's the "Taylor Swift" of Podcasting! Well... somehow my 17 year old Manic self ... going 10 nights without sleep, hallucinating and then ending up in the psychiatric hospital.... well, that girl? She was a ROCK STAR! As I found photos and old "ideas" ... turns out she knew EXACTLY what she was talking about ... and NOW I am working on making HER dreams .. which are, and have always been MY dreams a reality! I don't know when ... or how.... but I PROMISE you, that you will be able to buy tickets to see me in the near future .... and I just can't WAIT to offer you...
2026-02-0833 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsLet Them. Let Myself. This is me 24 hours after one of the worst grieving days for my Dad ... and I talk about how even though I am talking SO much about loving myself and putting myself first, I realized, that I did not "allow" me to have a day like that. I think this is a good one for anyone to listen to who has bad days...and then you make yourself feel BAD about having a day where you are not productive, or not feeling well, or in a bad mood, etc. I mention this really great guy... please check...
2026-02-0833 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsCaffeine High! Quoted from the Broadway show of RENT ..."No Day but Today" has always resonated with me for different reasons throughout my life. So that is where this episode begins ... (and ends) ... but there is quite the variety of topics between point A and point B. I discuss the effects Caffeine has been having on me lately, the idea "do we actually have time to put ourselves first in this busy life?" - My five year long "situationship", and of course some laughs talking about my night blindness and doing a K-Turn on someone's LAWN! Anyway, this was a really...
2026-02-0645 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsWelcome to CoCoCay! Hey Guys ... as I found myself hysterically sobbing on the floor of my dad's client huddled up in a pile of his clothes ... I somehow got this feeling from my Dad that he wanted me to record ... he wanted me to share this indescribable feeling of loss ... of heartbreak ... of gut wrenching ache, of realizing I was standing amongst my father's clothes ... in his room ... with all of his things ... and I would never ever see him again. So ... I peeled myself off the floor from the fetal position... and I hit "record" ... THIS is another example, of my "...
2026-02-0621 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsIt's Time for ALL of Us to BELIEVE. GUYS!! This the ONE! (Yeah, I know I've said that about many men in my life...) BUT, this is the one that will probably matter the most, which is Ironic, because the main spine of this episode does not have to do with ME personally, it's more of a general message of HOPE and INSPIRATION to bring ourselves back to life ... to BELIEVE. It's a magical one.... so PLEASE, share it, post it, send it ... KEEP IT! I will be listening to this one when I really need to remember who I was, who I have become...
2026-02-0422 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsI. AM. ENOUGH. Just when I think to myself "Oh my god... that was definitely my most emotional episode ..." One like THIS happens. It's funny, people keep asking me if I have a "script" or an "outline" ... and the answer is Hello No. Besides my time on the stage throughout my life. ... I have never followed the words on the page ... well, actually -that is a lie. For a big chunk of time recently in my life ... I guess I forgot .... I have the power to "FLIP THE SCRIPT" .... and that's exactly what I am doing right here, as we speak. Hoping...
2026-02-0329 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsIt's My Turn Now. Social Media can be a blessing and a curse ... this one takes a ride through Social Media, Marriage, Friendships, Looking inward - and .... Stranger Things! I enjoyed listening this one back, sometimes I even hear something that I barely remember saying (thanks Dad)... Hope you guys enjoy it ... and remember you always just want to make sure you take "the Power of the Pause" and "Practice what you Preach" - both quotes by Mommy Dearest.
2026-02-0319 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsPlacenta Pills & Tabby Cats.Everyone in my life, who knows me, Should listen to this one. And as always, THANK YOU for your concern, your love, and your worry. Since recording this episode ... I met with my psychiatrist - for a 45 minute video session, where he could see my face, and look into my eyes. As we talked ... about 30 mins in... he stopped me. He said: "Alana, I've been seeing you for a very long time. I can say with 100% certainty you are not only NOT manic... is the is the most clear, and healthy I have ever heard you speak." ... And then...
2026-02-0335 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsGet In the Right Lane. Hey Everyone ... my mother has told me my whole life, when it's bad weather, bad traffic, car issue... "Alana, drive in the right lane with the hazards on." ... Well... I think I am definitely realizing I need to slow down a bit ... stay focused, keep going with my drive, my passion and love for what I am doing right now... but I don't have to do too much too fast, I think we could all use that idea in our mind ... once in awhile, just to see that person in front of you with a STOP sign ... let's be...
2026-02-0208 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsFather Figure Guys ... I am soooo excited about this one. Hopefully you all have been listening from the beginning and know that I have a special connection to my Dad even though he is in heaven ... I guess he realized I really needed a "droopy drawers lecture" today. And for some reason that book from so long ago ... just popped into my head "Dear God, It's Me Margaret" ... and now I'm like "Dear Dad, It's Me Alana." Anyway ... as much as I cry a bit in this one, I think this will end up being one of my most memorable episodes...
2026-02-0206 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsCards & Notes from the Universe. Hello All ... this was a fun one too ... I came across some old cards and notes that really made me think of where I was, where I am now, and how far I have come. It made me happy, but also kind of sad ... but then proud. Thank you again for all of your support!
2026-01-3139 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsBe Strong Parker Boy, Love, Grandad. Parker woke up... right after the journal entry I had just recorded... telling me about a Dream he had about my Dad, saying it was April 1st, 2026 ... and I had told him it was an April Fools' Joke that he had passed, and that they were watching the JETS together, that dad looked younger (around the age of 50), he looked skinnier, healthier ... and Parker asked him how he lost the weight ... and as he flexed his muscles he said "Grandad Strong!!"THEN... after he told me about his dream, I went back and listened to the Full...
2026-01-3104 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsLithium, the Full Moon, & Daddy's Baby Girl.Woke up to the most beautiful and bright Full Moon today. This is a journal entry (with a few side bars as always) ... where talk about losing my Dad, the importance medication has had in my life, little miracles, the Jets, Phil Collins, and how Dreams really do come True. It's a little bit all over the place ... but hey, So am I!! I really love this one ... thanks for listening guys.
2026-01-3118 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDear My Soulmate. Hi Guys... now that I have come off of my coffee high ... I was getting ready for bed tonight, and I have been making it a point to journal at least once a day, so as I was journaling, it came over to me that I wanted to say something to the soulmate that I truly feel is heading in my direction ... so I wrote a little something. THEN, I remembered.... an astrology site that I had signed up for weeks ago in the blurry time between my father passing away and almost losing my mother, I know I...
2026-01-3118 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsOnline Dating Stories, and Route 80 Road Rage. Well... TRIGGER WARNING - this was recorded while I was FULLY caffeinated up after an amazing breakfast date with my bestie ... so... apologizing in advance! While driving on route 80 for the first time in 10 days ... I somehow went down a detour of some really crazy (and unbelievable) bad date stories while dodging huge rocks and bad drivers! This one might be one of my favorites ... when I listen back to some of these, it is almost like it was an out of body experience when these things happened because I CAN'T believe what I am hearing!
2026-01-3030 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsLove Bombing Myself through Text Messages. This is the pick-me-up (off the floor) check in that I recorded after that last doozy ... I am probably going to keep it lighter for awhile... I realized the energy I exude when I talk more and more about my struggles ... of course I will still use my experience with Mental Illness as the main theme of my Journey... but I think I am ready to realize, those struggles and obstacles were put into my life for a reason, God knew I would be able to get through them (barely) and I think I have good things ahead, so...
2026-01-3026 minH.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsGypsy Rose. Hi Everyone.. I just want to THANK YOU. Thank you for taking time for YOU and leaving your own struggles for a moment ... to hear about stories of someone's life that might be able to make YOURS feel a bit different tomorrow. Soooo with this being said, this one is a DOOZY. I promise you it's a story like you have NEVER EVER heard before .... get your popcorn, your coffee, your white claw ... and just sit back, relax, listen ... laugh... cry... and remember, Have HOPE!
2026-01-3055 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsThe Five People You Meet On Earth. Hey Guys - I am going to preface by saying this is the LONGEST episode I have done clocking at 50 minutes! So if you are looking for a quickie ... this isn't the one! But afterall, we can't be satisfied with Quickies ALL the time right??? (That's what she said lol) Okay - so ... in order to understand the name of this episode, "The Five People You Meet on Earth" - you need to listen to the WHOLE thing .. but I promise you, this one is worth it! Get ready for a lot of laughs ... NO tears this time I...
2026-01-2950 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsShut Up and Dance. Hey guys! This is a quick fun one! I hope you like it ... it's all about music and how much ONE song can just change the direction of your entire day. And that's what happened to me today.I promised in this one that I would post the recommended playlist that I dare you all to make on your phone today ... BUT ... you will have to pause the episode and write them down ... because by the time I posted it, my vibe had totally changed, and the below list of songs is more of an inspirational, "I...
2026-01-2906 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsFrom Broken to Blessed.This one focuses on the sweetest 94 year old man I've ever met. My mom has been a caregiver to him for the past 3 years ... and she has changed his life, as he has changed hers. Unfortunately he has been hospitalized and in rehab for months now, my Mom visits him as much as she can, and he just sobs on her shoulder, bc all he wants to do is go home. Today was the first day I went inside with her to say hello ... and what I experienced I was not prepared for. This "gentle...
2026-01-2908 minH.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsIced Coffee - Light and Sweet.Just a fun morning drive ... sharing thoughts on how hearing someone's voice even for just a few seconds, can make such a difference!
2026-01-2904 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsNamaste & A Fresh Start. I've never claimed to be a Yogi. Most of all because I think the word "Yogi" is annoying. But, today ... on the yoga mat, felt like the first time in a very long time ... where I knew why I was there. In that Moment "in time" ... I knew I was meant to be there. So whether you know what a downward dog is or not... I think this is a good one. Especially for those of us that know, deep down in our hearts, it's time for a fresh start.
2026-01-2816 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDepression Lies.Good Morning. I wanted you to know this one was recorded in the morning ... because sometimes mornings are hardest for me. When I was in depression, the minute I woke up, before I opened my eyes, I would feel, for just a split second, that the depression had lifted... and I would have HOPE. And then ... my eyes would open, and I was still in the darkness. Similarly, when my Dad passed, I would wake up ... and say "Oh Dad, thank God you are still here ... I had the worst dream" ... And then my eyes would open, and I...
2026-01-2807 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsSparkle & Signs This one started as I was washing a mug that I never knew I had .... and then turns into making talking about Signs that help when you lose someone that you loved. Being open, and receptive to the idea that just maybe ... there is more out there then just this? And that just maybe... your loved ones will be able to guide you more from HEAVEN than they ever could when they were here on Earth. Maybe making the little change of looking around for a sign ... a song, a number, a phrase ... it could be anything that means...
2026-01-2812 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsI Just Want to Hear Your Voice. This one came to me while I was putting away the dishes .... just a thought about how different it is when you can hear someone's voice ... but not have to commit to an actual phone call, but when you need more than just a text message. Of course it also starts to go in many different directions ... but somehow it always finds its way back ... thank you for all hanging in there with me so far! Hope you are enjoying "Mr. Toad's Wild Ride" .... (disney world reference) ... Dad used to use that one a lot lol. Anyway, thanks for...
2026-01-2813 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsAre you OK?This one starts with me feeling pretty aggravated and a bit defeated. But by the end, I am in a much better place ... so I am happy I recorded when I did ... I just needed to talk it through. I hope this one helps for those out there that ARE OK ... but you are feeling like others don't believe you. It is also for the ones that are WORRIED that someone is NOT OK... ask them once, if they tell you they are, and their actions do not show otherwise, please just be happy for the version of themselves...
2026-01-2810 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsHanson Changed my Life....Twice."You you have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last. You go through all the pain and strife, then you turn your back and they're gone so fast." - MmmBop - Hanson.Whether you like boy bands or not, I invite you to listen to this episode that talks about stopping and remembering what it is that you LOVE, and making sure you make time for that in your life. So this HANSON episode one is another dedicated to you Dad, who woke up at 4am many years ago, taking...
2026-01-2818 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsShoveling Snow Sucks. This one starts with the frustrations of shoveling snow for the first time in my life .... and then ends up talking about Celine Dion, Divorce, Self-Harm, the movie Ghost, and how I feel like Whoopie Goldberg talking to My Dad in Heaven! And of course, at the ending off with the message we all should know by now.... please keep holding onto that H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends.
2026-01-2813 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsWishful Thinking, Taylor Swift, and Spotify. Let's Lighten this place up after that last one! This is definitely one that was fun to make .. because it went in a different direction as I kept talking! For those of you out there ... who sometimes just hear a song lyric ... or connect with a song and you don't understand why ... this one is for you! After you listen to this episode, I ask that you create a NEW playlist on Spotify ... called "H.O.P.E" and fill it with songs that have meant something to you at different stages of your life ... to remind you, how...
2026-01-2709 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsPlease Stay One More Day. Love, Dad. TRIGGER WARNING - This episode discusses heavy themes of Suicide Ideations. Please do not listen if this is something that is difficult for you (or if you know me, love me, and would have missed me... bc this is a very hard to hear).This is by far, the most emotional episode I have shared so far. I would not recommend listening while driving ... (especially after my last episode about the detours)! But this one is very real ... and I think SO many people who are struggling out there NEED to hear this. Keep holding onto that...
2026-01-2710 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsFor My Little Sis. This was an epiphany I had (while going to the bathroom... but that is besides the point)! About a time years ago, where I took on responsibility for something that happened to my sister, because of MY illness. The crazy thing? After I recorded this, but before posting it, I sent it to my Sister ... and she sent me back a voice note, saying that she wanted me to know, when she looks back on this... she NEVER had any connection that MY illness had ANYTHING to do with what happened to her... and she also shared, that the...
2026-01-2705 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDear Alana, You Are Sick. This one reflects the fears that I know some of you have right now. So I know I "happened" to find this letter at the perfect time. (Thank you Dad). Just know, I have the tools in place, I have worked very hard to get where I am, and I won't let any of you down. Thank you for listening.
2026-01-2711 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsNow You Will Be Punished!This one is more of a coffee shop chat! I touch on a few different topics ... with the big take away being.. I am realizing perhaps the reason I've had more "bad days" than "good" .... is because of the anger I have been projecting onto the world ... or on to my teddy bear? You have to listen to understand that one! Anyway .... as always, please listen until the very END - to get the message of H.O.P.E! l
2026-01-2712 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsHot Air Balloon Ride 1/26/26I have to thank my Dad for this one... I swear, these words are him, he is telling this Story. THIS is something that I feel EVERYONE out there should hear ... and maybe listen to more than once. If I had heard this from someone years ago... I might have had this wake up call a lot earlier - but then again, it all happens in the way it's meant to. My platform started as a seed, focused on my struggles and stories with my mental illness, Bipolar Disorder. But NOW.. I am going to grow this...
2026-01-2607 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsFrom Darkness to Daylight - 1/25/26So today (1/25/26) is the day that I created this podcast ... I've taken a lot of entries from the past, and will share them or have shared them here. But THIS one... I just recorded, and it encapsulates what I hope to do here ....and when I say "here" I mean, on this Earth. I truly feel sharing my story is my "life's work" ... I saw this as a very clear vision while in my last manic episode back in 2017 .... and now I am determined to make sure i have NO regrets ... and I do everything I can to bring...
2026-01-2513 minH.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsRemember who the F*ck You Are. 1/19/26There is a song by Kelsea Ballerini ... "Leave Me Again." - This journal entry reminds me of that song ... because I talk about completely losing myself ... after a time where I felt I had come back to life, and found my purpose (sharing my story)... but then Life happened. My light went out, my spirit went dark. I was so unhappy for so long, that I had no idea I was unhappy.... because I just WAS. So listen to this part of my story... and I hope it resonates with you ... and then listen to Kelsea's song ... it always...
2026-01-2509 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDivorce Sucks. -6/21/2017After 8 years of marriage and one son together ... (he was almost 4 at the time of this recording) which again, was back in 2017. Coming from a full family of divorce ... I have a lot of experience with it, but we are lucky enough to all have a very special bond with one another even after the divorce papers are signed... but like I say in this episode at the end, even if you are friends.... even if it's amicable ... even if you both agree it's the right decision ... Divorce still Sucks.
2026-01-2505 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsAdvocating for Myself. - 6/20/2017This is another recording made back in 2017... after my last Manic episode, after my hospital stay as I was sitting in the aftermath of it all, and coming to many realizations, I decided to document my feelings, and man, am I happy that I did. Take a listen ... and please know, this message is not ONLY for those of you with mental illness ... at the end of the day, what I have learned is the ONLY one who truly knows you... and will advocate for you, no matter WHAT ... is yourself. So look in the mirror - and know...
2026-01-2506 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsDepression Lies. - 6/13/2017This episode was recorded 15 MONTHS before "This is My Brave" ... so as much as depression had hurt me up to the point of this recording, I actually did not have a "plan" for suicide until after this. I hope that this one helps anyone out there who is suffering or who has EVER suffered, or who, unfortunately might some day suffer from the silent, hidden, illness that is taking hundreds of lives every single day. Please know... Hang On... Pain Ends.
2026-01-2510 min
H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain EndsThis is My Brave. -1/25/26 (original performance September 2018)This is where my dream started back in 2018 where I shared my story on a stage in NYC presenting with an amazing mental health organization "This is my Brave." ... After this performance, my life took a turn in a different direction, and my story went on the shelf. My light went out, my passion was lost ... but now? I lost my dad suddenly, a few weeks later came so close to losing my mother ... so something has changed within me. Life is too short for me NOT to share my story. All I want is for my message of...
2026-01-2509 min
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The Universal Dancer PodcastThe Importance of Movement and Dance in Children's Lives: A Roundtable Discussion with Experts in Dance, Education, and PlayIn this episode, a panel of dance, education, and play experts explore the role of movement and dance in children's lives in this roundtable discussion. The guests, including Dr. Karen McKinley Kurnaedy, Dr. Melissa Michaels, Alana Shaw, Wendy Morrell, and Rawan AlHusseini, offer insightful perspectives and share their experiences working with children. They discuss the benefits of dance for physical, emotional, and intellectual growth and how dance can improve coordination, balance, flexibility, self-expression, creativity, and mental health. The guests also address societal factors that hinder children's movement, promote practical ways to incorporate more movement and dance into children's lives...
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The Sports Media PodcastEpisode 48: Joe Buck and Troy AikmanESPN’s new Monday Night Football announcers Joe Buck and Troy Aikman join the pod to talk about how and why they moved from Fox to ESPN during the offseason. Aikman details his talks with Amazon and ESPN and discusses how much Tony Romo’s CBS salary played into his decision to leave. Buck talks about his reasons for leaving Fox and why he’s decided to give up the baseball booth. A UCLA alum, Aikman also addresses his school’s move from the Pac-12 to the Big Ten. Marchand and Ourand also discuss Amazon’s exclusive...
2022-08-311h 06
Student SpotlightIt's a Podcast! Showcasing the work of students from The Department of Writing at The University of Victoria.UVic Podcasting instructors Mark Leiren-Young and Rayne Ellycrys Benu introduce the work of students from the debut of Writing 410 - podcasting - a class presented as part of the Harvey S. Southam Lecture and Residency program. Teasers, cover art & music for this episode were curated from our episodes by student evaluations.
Music and Sting: Corrina Spak
Afterglow:
Afterglow is a cyberpunk radio drama about freedom fighters, drag queens, and a cozy gay bar.
Intro is by Corrina Spak, created by Evelyn Ryan. The podcast is by Evelyn Ryan, Corrina Spak, Jared Seagar, and Mo H...
2022-04-0106 min