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The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBoot Scootin' BetaHey Listeners, This episode marks the beginning of a very different season. In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process. You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a little chaotic, sometimes blurry, but th...2025-05-2234 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBoot Scootin' BetaHey Listeners,
This episode marks the beginning of a very different season.
In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process.
You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a...2025-05-2234 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAshley Klemm | Okay Hear Me Out w/ Amanda ArnierY'all.... Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected. I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off. So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unscheduled, and a little unhinged. Think Joe Rogan meet...2025-05-222h 08The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAshley Klemm | Okay Hear Me Out w/ Amanda ArnierY'all....
Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected.
I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off.
So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unschedule...2025-05-222h 08
Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!The Return of the Dichotomy Diaries with Amanda ArnierIn this episode of Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!, hosts Behk and LAH are joined by the fearless and unforgettable Amanda Arnier, host of the viral podcast The Dichotomy Diaries. Amanda was last on the show nearly a year ago, and a lot has happened since then.In Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda peeled back the layers of her explosive relationship with her now ex-husband — a man who sold the world a carefully curated image of a devout, family-first Christian husband. But behind closed doors? A web of lies, secret lives, infidelity, a gambling ad...2025-04-1646 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Prequel: The Eye of the StormDear Diary & Listeners, There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims. When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done. That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened...2025-02-051h 14The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Prequel: The Eye of the Storm
Dear Diary & Listeners,
There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims.
When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done.
That’s why this episode is so im...2025-02-051h 14
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastA Storm's A'Comin' - Official Trailer #1Dear Diary & Listeners, In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season. Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle. Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience. Forever Sharing Our Truths, Amanda & As...2024-11-1202 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastA Storm's A'Comin' - Official Trailer #1Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season.
Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle.
Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fi...2024-11-1202 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastFrom The Ashes: The Final EpisodeDear Diary & Listeners,
I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being brok...2024-10-081h 06
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastFrom The Ashes: The Final EpisodeDear Diary & Listeners, I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being broken down only to ri...2024-10-081h 06
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Kyree Oliver: The #1 Masculinity Coach in the WorldDear Diary & Listeners, In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others. The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of re...2024-10-081h 31The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Kyree Oliver: The #1 Masculinity Coach in the WorldDear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others.
The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I...2024-10-081h 31
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBoystown BathtubTRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode. Dear Diary & Listeners, The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all. I think I know what sparked the shift, but i...2024-09-231h 29The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBoystown BathtubTRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode.
Dear Diary & Listeners,
The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all.
I t...2024-09-231h 29
Fargo TalksEp. 61 - Escaping The Cult of Mormonism and Surviving the Trauma ft. Amanda ArnierFargo Talks Ep. 61 - Amanda Arnier, a True Crime Podcaster on leaving the cult of Mormonism and surviving the trauma. Amanda shares her story with raw honesty, offering insights into the realities of emotional manipulation, the challenges of personal growth, and the unexpected support she’s received from a diverse audience.🔔 Subscribe for more powerful conversations: @FargoTalks About This Episode: In this episode, we sit down with Amanda Arnier, the voice behind the Dichotomy Diaries podcast, to explore her journey of overcoming a toxic relationship, navigating the complex...2024-08-251h 16
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Behk & LAH from Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!Dear Diary & Listeners, I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to. Enjoy! Amanda --------------------------------------------------- In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people. Topics Discussed: Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries Trust – is it earned or a gift? Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries...2024-08-071h 09The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Behk & LAH from Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!Dear Diary & Listeners,
I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to.
Enjoy!
Amanda
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In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people.
Topics Discussed:
Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dic...2024-08-071h 09
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with The Duchess of Bay Ridge AKA Dr. Nadine Macaluso, LMFT, PhDDear Diary & Listener's, I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story. Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit! Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts. In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist...2024-08-0753 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with The Duchess of Bay Ridge AKA Dr. Nadine Macaluso, LMFT, PhDDear Diary & Listener's,
I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story.
Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit!
Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts.
In this episode...2024-08-0753 min
Secrets of a Sugar DaddyEp. 160 - Discussing Pre-Party Sugar Dating Shenanigans with Bad Brad, Amanda Arnier, and Blue-Eyed PrincessWe have a full house as a few guests arrive early for Sugarpalooza IV, and we discuss a wide variety of Sugar Dating topics. Bad Brad kicks it off as he is hosting the Friday night mixer at The W Hotel in Old Town Scottsdale, and his suite is presidential! Blue-Eyed Princess makes her podcast debut as she arrived from New Jersey, and might be the biggest super-fan of the show. But later we find out, she has another podcast that she’s not only crazy about but also assisting with their marketing efforts. Amanda, from The Dichotomy Diaries Po...2024-07-231h 00
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Vanessa Reiser, LCSWDear Diary & Listeners, In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!) We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece. We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges...2024-07-121h 01The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastLet's Chat with Vanessa Reiser, LCSWDear Diary & Listeners,
In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!)
We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece.
We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join...2024-07-121h 01
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners, I think we may have uncovered something important during this episode... As Savana and I discuss how her and Dick's engagement came to an abrupt end, I realize that I share with her that she had NO idea about. Imagine her surprise when I fill her in on what HER FIANCE was doing way back when. Better yet, imagine the AUDACITY this man has to tell me the truth about his whereabouts and doings, while completely leaving out the fact that he was actively engaged to this beautiful human. Savana and I really want to emphasize how...2024-07-021h 31The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners,
I think we may have uncovered something important during this episode...
As Savana and I discuss how her and Dick's engagement came to an abrupt end, I realize that I share with her that she had NO idea about.
Imagine her surprise when I fill her in on what HER FIANCE was doing way back when. Better yet, imagine the AUDACITY this man has to tell me the truth about his whereabouts and doings, while completely leaving out the fact that he was actively engaged to this beautiful human.
2024-07-021h 31
Party With Strategy PodcastPWS Podcast EP. 147 - AMANDA ARNIERToday's Special Guest: Amanda Arnier2024-06-241h 13
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners, In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex. Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revealing insights that are both startling and compelling. This episode marks part one of thei...2024-06-201h 52The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners,
In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex.
Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revealing insights that are both startling and compelling.
T...2024-06-201h 52
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 3Dear Diary & Listeners, HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE! I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say? I love it when things like that happen. I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long. I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story. In this episode you will hear some pretty shocking things... From Dick's unconventional bedroom requests to a new scary part to his persona- stal...2024-06-201h 05The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 3Dear Diary & Listeners,
HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE!
I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say?
I love it when things like that happen.
I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long.
I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story.
...2024-06-201h 05
Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!The Dichotomy Diaries with Amanda ArnierIn this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people. Topics Discussed:Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy DiariesTrust – is it earned or a gift?Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries” podcastThe importance of sharing our storiesThe case of DickThe dual mothership theory by Dr. VakninWe’re Carl JungiansAttachmentsAmanda’s healing journeyWhat's next for “The Dichotomy Diaries?”...2024-06-051h 03The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including:
Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured.
Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial issues they faced, including how their partners used money as a tool for control and manipulation.
E...2024-06-041h 16
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners, In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including: Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured. Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial issues they faced, including how their partners used money as a tool for control and manipulation. Emotional and Verbal Abuse: They recount the hurtful comments, derogatory language, a...2024-06-041h 16The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners,
In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing.
Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate.
Our conversation also takes a personal turn as Ambre shares insights into her background...2024-05-291h 22
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastAMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners, In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing. Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate. Our conversation also takes a personal turn as Ambre shares insights into her background, family life, and religious upbringing, providing a...2024-05-291h 22The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLIE - All Bark. No Bite.Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships.
Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship.
Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ultimately ended the toxic relationship, leading to a much healthier co-parenting dynamic wi...2024-05-181h 24
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLIE - All Bark. No Bite.Dear Diary & Listeners, In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships. Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship. Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ultimately ended the toxic relationship, leading to a much healthier co-parenting dynamic with her ex. We dive deep into th...2024-05-181h 24The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastROHANNA - Never Been ProDear Diary & Listeners,
In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas.
The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it....Dick. The revelations of abuse begin to align with the healing power of storytelling as we both reflect on t...2024-05-021h 43
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastROHANNA - Never Been ProDear Diary & Listeners, In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas. The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it....Dick. The revelations of abuse begin to align with the healing power of storytelling as we both reflect on the importance of empathy, acco...2024-05-021h 43The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastJOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick.
They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter.
The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity.
Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment a...2024-04-261h 11
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastJOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners, In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick. They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter. The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity. Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment and manipulation in the relationship, detailing the emotional and p...2024-04-261h 11The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastJOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know.
Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life.
Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ.
F...2024-04-171h 22
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastJOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners, In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know. Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life. Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ. From the outset, Joanna's father had reservations about Dick. Y...2024-04-171h 22
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastTotal Eclipse of the HeartDear Diary & Listeners, Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries. (I KNOWWWWWWW) I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX. I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me. However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity. During this brief break, I'll address these challenges and return with content that exceeds expectations. On a brighter note, our first interviewee, Joanna, will be introduced via social media before her...2024-04-0909 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastTotal Eclipse of the HeartDear Diary & Listeners,
Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries.
(I KNOWWWWWWW)
I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX.
I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me.
However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity.
During this brief break, I'll address these challenges and return with content that exceeds expectations.
On...2024-04-0909 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastA Lil' UpdateDear Diary & Listeners, Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes. Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess. What you'll hear today had me shook. Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Se...2024-03-2641 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastA Lil' UpdateDear Diary & Listeners,
Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes.
Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess.
What you'll hear today had me shook.
Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful...
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR...2024-03-2641 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLE - For The Plot: Part 2Dear Diary & Listeners, We're back with Kyle for Part Two! I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us. It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own. I know you've waited alllll day. So here you go. Let's get to it! VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is wil...2024-03-201h 08The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLE - For The Plot: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners,
We're back with Kyle for Part Two!
I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us.
It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own.
I know you've waited alllll day.
So here you go. Let's get to it!
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
2024-03-201h 08
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLE - For The Plot: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners, You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as... THE INTERVIEWS Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married. What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological. You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes... Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDichotomyDiaries Instagram or directly to Email at TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com First up, we have Ky...2024-03-121h 05The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastKYLE - For The Plot: Part 1Dear Diary & Listeners,
You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as...
THE INTERVIEWS
Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married.
What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological.
You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes...
Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDichotomyDiaries In...2024-03-121h 05
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBeyond The RainbowDear Diary & Listeners, We made it! We survived. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought. This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story. And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER.. The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus… To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others. Many times while recording this episode...2024-03-0551 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBeyond The RainbowDear Diary & Listeners,
We made it! We survived.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.
This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.
And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..
The next part of The Dichotomy...2024-03-0551 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThis Fuggin' GuyDear Diary & Listeners, Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story. We've been on a wild ride together. But you know what...? There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with. Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste... This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended. Yep. This is the one. I won't keep you waiting. Just please, don't forget. One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore. I promise. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My...2024-02-2759 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThis Fuggin' GuyDear Diary & Listeners,
Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.
We've been on a wild ride together.
But you know what...?
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.
Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...
This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended.
Yep. This is the one.
I won't ke...2024-02-2759 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastWith Liberty & Justice for AllDear Diary & Listeners,
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.
In E...2024-02-201h 23
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastWith Liberty & Justice for AllDear Diary & Listeners, While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed. Did I get the justice I deserved? Not at all. My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies. But does it matter in the grand scheme of things? Also -Nope. Why? Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you. That feels like a win to me. In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready f...2024-02-201h 23The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastCreampie ConfessionsDear Diary & Listeners,
Stress has taught me a lot this year.
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating.
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price.
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.
So what do we do with this information?
Well- we learn of course.
We lear...2024-02-061h 25
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastCreampie ConfessionsDear Diary & Listeners, Stress has taught me a lot this year. I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating. I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price. I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself. So what do we do with this information? Well- we learn of course. We learn how to manage our stress levels. We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our acti...2024-02-061h 25
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBang, BangDear Diary & Listeners, You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness? Yeah...Me too. This is where I am this week. After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened. I got sick. And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold. Bang, Bang. I hit the ground. Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life. So that...2024-02-0154 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBang, BangDear Diary & Listeners,
You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?
Yeah...Me too.
This is where I am this week.
After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened.
I got sick.
And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.
Bang, Bang. I hit the ground.
Today is the first day in a...2024-02-0154 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBehoove ThisDear Diary & Listeners, The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in. Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick. It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back. Le Sigh... Now I just need to sleep more. Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote tonight... Dick: Untrustworthy & Secretive I Value: Mystery & Enigma A mysteri...2024-01-2448 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastBehoove ThisDear Diary & Listeners,
The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in.
Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick.
It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back.
Le Sigh...
Now I just need to sleep more.
Here's...2024-01-2448 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastDivina CommediaDear Diary (& Listeners),
This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature.
But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first t...2024-01-181h 29
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastDivina CommediaDear Diary (& Listeners), This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature. But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first time... Life's got its own plans, right? W...2024-01-181h 29The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMake a WishDear Diary & Listeners,
I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that.
Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek.
The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me.
Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean...2024-01-1048 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMake a WishDear Diary & Listeners, I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that. Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek. The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me. Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it. I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad dec...2024-01-1048 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastButterfly LanguageDear Diary & Listeners,
As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024.
A New Year always brings reflection.
I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year.
I remember waking up in an empty bed.
I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had...2024-01-031h 19
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastButterfly LanguageDear Diary & Listeners, As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024. A New Year always brings reflection. I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year. I remember waking up in an empty bed. I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long. And yet here I was, waking up on the f...2024-01-031h 19
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMethod ActingDear Diary & Listeners, We all strive to be the best at something. For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member. For others it might be more career oriented or status driven. Not for me. I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life. I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to be the best version of myself; I find that I fall short in a lot of areas I once thou...2023-12-281h 14The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMethod ActingDear Diary & Listeners,
We all strive to be the best at something.
For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member.
For others it might be more career oriented or status driven.
Not for me.
I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life.
I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to...2023-12-281h 14
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe House Always WinsDear Diary & Listeners, There is so much I want to say. Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries... TEN?! I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys... I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices. Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love. With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emotional than usual. I am so PROUD of myself. I am so HUMBLED with the support I receive...2023-12-191h 39The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe House Always WinsDear Diary & Listeners,
There is so much I want to say.
Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries...
TEN?!
I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys...
I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices.
Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love.
With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emot...2023-12-191h 39The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastWined, Dined, and Sixty-NinedDear Diary & Listeners,
S U R P R I S E!
You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu...
I'd like to introduce you to Kyle.
Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo.
He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client.
AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy.
The Tea Kett...2023-12-1245 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastWined, Dined, and Sixty-NinedDear Diary & Listeners, S U R P R I S E! You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu... I'd like to introduce you to Kyle. Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo. He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client. AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy. The Tea Kettle is Whistling BayBEE. One thought I'd like to leave you with this week... We all have a past...2023-12-1245 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMama TriedDear Diary & Listeners, I am stressed this week. I have so many things going at once. The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends. I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings. I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now. Thats why this week it's extra appropriate to introduce you to my Mo...2023-12-052h 14The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastMama TriedDear Diary & Listeners,
I am stressed this week.
I have so many things going at once.
The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends.
I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings.
I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now.
2023-12-052h 14
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastRocky-Road TripDear Diary & Listeners, You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it"... First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT. Why? I'm glad you asked! When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met. I ate that shit up. As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the very thing he loved so much about me, threatened him. He no long...2023-11-271h 35The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastRocky-Road TripDear Diary & Listeners,
You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it"...
First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT.
Why? I'm glad you asked!
When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met.
I ate that shit up.
As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the...2023-11-271h 35
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastVanished in Happy JackNOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, There's a theme this week. We Teach People How To Treat Us. And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me... My lesson plan is a little different now. Boundaries are difficult for so many reasons. The scariest part for me always was that I meant we...2023-11-211h 53The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastVanished in Happy JackNOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality.
Dear Diary & Listeners,
There's a theme this week.
We Teach People How To Treat Us.
And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me...
My lesson plan is a little different now.
Boundaries are difficult for so...2023-11-211h 52
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSergeant SteroidsNOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking. You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished. I did some shit I didn't even think I was ca...2023-11-151h 57The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastSergeant Steroids
NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality.
Dear Diary & Listeners,
When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.
You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.
I di...2023-11-151h 57
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastPromises, Panic & PoppersDear Diary & Listeners, I cried recording part of this episode. And it got me thinking... Why did THIS episode make me cry? What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears? You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad... I know the answer. This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again. I...2023-10-311h 08The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastPromises, Panic & PoppersDear Diary & Listeners,
I cried recording part of this episode.
And it got me thinking...
Why did THIS episode make me cry?
What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?
You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...
I know the answer.
This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing...2023-10-311h 08The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastElectric Daisy AbandonmentDear Diary & Listeners,
You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"?
After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot.
The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding.
There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the...2023-10-311h 22
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastElectric Daisy AbandonmentDear Diary & Listeners, You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"? After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot. The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding. There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you. I probably have...2023-10-311h 22The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastQ&A Surprise!Dear Diary and Listeners, Surprise! I had fun answering all your questions. Can’t wait for Tuesday! See you there, Amanda WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries2023-10-2859 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastQ&A Surprise!Dear Diary and Listeners,
Surprise!
I had fun answering all your questions.
Can’t wait for Tuesday!
See you there,
Amanda
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Yo...2023-10-2859 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastShroom Things & Wedding RingsDear Diary & Listeners, I had a profound realization this week. It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss. Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness. How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return? Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him? Was I actually loving him? And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try...2023-10-171h 24The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastShroom Things & Wedding RingsDear Diary & Listeners,
I had a profound realization this week.
It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.
Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.
How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return?
Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him?
Was I actually loving him?
And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love...2023-10-171h 24
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Sin City SerpentDear Diary & Listeners, There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one. The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other. Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you. How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted? It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof. This...2023-10-101h 34The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Sin City SerpentDear Diary & Listeners,
There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.
The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.
Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.
How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted?
It...2023-10-101h 34The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Official TrailerDear Diary & Listeners,
The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Sto...2023-09-1801 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Official TrailerDear Diary & Listeners, The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley Engl...2023-09-1801 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #2Dear Diary & Listeners,
Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. ...2023-09-1701 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #2Dear Diary & Listeners, Here is your second taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Mu...2023-09-1701 min
The Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #1Dear Diary & Listeners, This is your FIRST Sneak Peek at what is to come. Here is a taste of what to expect in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME- your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Se...2023-09-1703 minThe Dichotomy Diaries PodcastThe Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #1Dear Diary & Listeners,
This is your FIRST Sneak Peek at what is to come.
Here is a taste of what to expect in The Dichotomy Diaries.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME- your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click t...2023-09-1703 min