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High Maintenance MommyEgo death + spiritual awakenings baby!Me inviting my grief to the table and saying, “You’re welcome here too.” In this episode I discuss the intense experience of my ego death. Although it was far from a “linear” experience I was (fortunately) able to receive the lessons from the experience. I strongly believe we are spiritual beings having a human experience. Which, to me personally, means that I am going to LEAN IN. This is where my ego played a huge role in that I thought I could truly will it to be different. I thought I could somehow be at this enlightened state of consciousn...2023-12-0755 minHigh Maintenance MommyMOM MICRODOSED AGAINSo relieving to discuss this topic. While I want something like this to be more readily available, and be more “mainstream”, I’m not entirely sold on the entire idea. However, it is so helpful, it’s hard not to think about it. Cannabis helps quiet the noise but psilocybin makes you ok with it. Your reactions are just bubbling under the surface, as per usual, yet micro dosing just truly helps you deal with it. It connects the fucking dots so to speak. I go into what my experience looks like, and how I like to describe it to others...2023-09-1418 minHigh Maintenance MommyRaised in survival mode + micro-dosingActually knowing that I was raised in survival mode was eye opening. Learning what a dysregulated nervous system is in depth. I could under-react or overreact at any given moment, it happened all the time, and I could never seem to “act right”. That’s what I told myself. Can you just act right? Once I dove into this it all made so much sense. It is definitely more then just relapsing into old behaviors. THEN PSILOCYBIN ENTERS THE CHAT. As someone who has been incredibly open about my mental health struggles, I’ve also been open with my experience on presc...2023-09-0416 minHigh Maintenance MommyDebating- a dying art.Doesn’t the title just say it all?! It is disheartening that we avoid so many difficult topics. “Don’t talk about religion, politics, or money!” I can’t help but think, “Well, wouldn’t it be better if we COULD talk about these things?” We should be taught that it is possible to discuss hard topics, and a way to do it respectfully. What an idea! The problem is everyone wants to be the expert, or the teacher, and no one is willing to be the student. “The man who knows something knows that he knows nothing at all.” We have also been ta...2023-08-1328 minHigh Maintenance MommyPost-partum anxietyDiscussing my journey with post partum anxiety, which I didn’t even know existed. Yay! It was a journey for me. Through therapy, and reaching out to other Moms, I found out I had Post-Partum anxiety. Constantly worried about my child in the worst of ways- to the point that it was extremely unhealthy. I woke up at all hours of the night to make sure she was breathing. I consistently had intrusive thoughts about the safety of places or the lack there of. I’m my mind at least. It was physically and mentally draining and I can’t thank...2023-08-1016 minHigh Maintenance MommyAll my single ladies!!When you’re so open about you’re relationship, people will ask about it. I get it. One thing I can say, as a woman and friend, is that your “picker” isn’t off. You don’t have a knack for choosing assholes. For too long we’ve chalked up habits as mistakes. This person has shown us who they are time and time again. Yet we somehow still convinced ourselves to settle for breadcrumbs. I’m not at that point in my life right now, but trust me when I say I get it. The “buts” always get you. But he has so much g...2023-08-0514 minHigh Maintenance MommySchools out forever!Listen, I’m not saying I hate school, but I’m not saying I don’t hate it either. It’s fine. Everything is fine. Talking about the gut wrenching reality all Moms face that very first day of school. From what I understand, no, it doesn’t get easier. Cue my long and dramatic feelings towards the entire situation! So many people tell you to value “those days” and “they won’t be that young forever”! To which we all collectively give one large eye roll. Then it finally happens, where you do just that, and you wish for “those days” to be back...2023-08-0410 minHigh Maintenance MommyHomeschooled kids are weird!!!!How many of us who want to homeschool have heard THIS. This exact line! First of all, I am weird. So, thank you random person not living my life for telling me my future!! Appreciate you. Seriously this is the most archaic view of homeschooling there is. Not to mention, I don’t want my kid to follow the crowd. I want them to go against the grain and learn to think for themselves. If that makes them “weird” to you- bring on the effing weirdness baby!! At the end of the day if you choose a more traditional route for sc...2023-07-2711 minHigh Maintenance MommyI am your friend + parentI think a lot of my generation, and probably generations before us, can relate to a variation of this saying: “Well, I am not your friend- I’m your parent.” Let’s be real there is some damn truth to that. I will ALWAYS have to enforce boundaries, guide my child, and be a parent. I just don’t think that means I can’t have a meaningful friendship with them as well. The most important social circle that we seek acceptance from, is our parents/family. If I am trying to models my behavior to help her own emotions, then I kind...2023-07-2015 minHigh Maintenance MommyInfedelity…and a little ScandovalListen, this episode is all over the place. From Miranda from Sex in the City (the movie) forgiving her husbands infidelities, to Ariana and Tom, then back to my own relationship! Could you forgive someone who cheated? Does this automatically negate someone’s hood character, and being an overall good person? In some instances is it forgivable? Could YOU forgive your partner if you led a pretty damn good life together? What’s the difference between a habitual cheater and a mistake? I know what you’re thinking: FUCK THOSE CHEATERS. And I honestly MOSTLY agree!! Just listen and tell me wha...2023-07-1525 minHigh Maintenance MommyBRAND NEW MINI EPISODEThis weeks mini, and I am site the future of all mini episodes, will be a short episode of my short ramblings. I discuss a few topics that have been on my mind, but don’t dedicate an entire full episode to! I’ve been dying to do these mini episodes for anyone who just needs a short little pick me up. It’s like I’m just genuinely having a conversation with y’all over a cup of coffee! And I love this journey for us. As usual, if you want to subscribe tap the link at the end of the epi...2023-07-1311 minHigh Maintenance MommyWe should have expectations.We all know the saying, “You shouldn’t do something nice if you’re expecting something in return.” While I mostly agree with this statement, I eventually want to be able to expect the bare minimum from people in my life. At what point do we say, Ok I deserve someone to show up in return? I have spent years giving, and giving, and giving- but to what end? I’m sorry, but yes, at this point in my life I expect some sort of kindness in return. There is a difference between making everything transactional, and genuinely knowing that you deserv...2023-07-0918 minHigh Maintenance MommyWhy is everything annoying?Listen you can read every book, listen to every podcast, gentle parent like a fucking champ, and you are still going to be ANNOYED when they’re is goldfish being stomped into your carpet. I talk about all the overwhelming annoyances we experience in motherhood. This isn’t a bash my child fest, but damn, hearing “what’s that” a thousand times before noon will make your eye twitch. We know WHY they are doing it- still annoyed! This is CLEARLY developmental- still annoyed. Lol. Ahhh. Then comes the Mom guilt for being irritated, and perhaps even scolding your family for some s...2023-06-1628 minHigh Maintenance MommyThe unfortunate side of growthLately I’ve been talking to many people about the unfortunate side of healing, and growing into a different version of yourself. If you are doing the deep inner work, you know it’s like shedding your old skin/your former self. Such an intense and transitional time! As your shedding this skin you honestly just feel LONELY. It’s intense what can start happening when you hold people accountable for their actions…including yourself! I keep blabbing about how having boundaries isn’t easy but skipped over that huge part- loneliness. However, when I look back and evaluate situations, I realize...2023-05-1214 minHigh Maintenance MommyDiary of a recovering mean girlWho here has been victimized by Carissa O?! This one was hard for me, but I’m ALWAYS telling you guys to stand firm in your boundaries. To consider the source when it comes to someone being mean, but I open up about how I WAS that mean person. This is from the perspective of someone who lashed out for years, and was unnecessarily mean for years. When I look back I see an insecure girl in pain, who was angry, resentful, and honestly fucking mad. It kept people at an arms distance, and also conveniently allowed me to take li...2023-04-3025 minHigh Maintenance MommyIt’s called a partnership- look it up!Season two: Talking about the trolls that inevitably slide into to every Mom creators DM’s. Then diving into the deeper discussion on how we value our partners. As a stay at home Mom the comments all seem to be the same. “Quit complaining if you hate motherhood so much!” “He pays all of the bills, this is your job. Suck it up!” Or something like that. Like this particular man troll has to stand up for poor husbands everywhere who are expected show up. Then we wonder why Mothers, or default parents, are overwhelmed. Is it really such a mystery? A...2023-04-0434 minHigh Maintenance MommyIf you’re doing it alone- you are not alone.A very special episode with my best friend since high school, Jena. We have grown alongside one another in the best of moments, and the ugliest of moments. We share how we’ve managed to survive a friendship that’s lasted over half of our lives. There is never any competition- just support. But she will be one of the first people to tell me exactly like it is! She shares her story of becoming a Mother and the journey of thriving alone with her adorable son. (Biased- but it’s true) She opens up about the gut feelings she had in...2023-03-201h 01High Maintenance MommyToxic parents- severing ties.I’m sure some people will assume I’m automatically telling you to cut off your parents. No. But if you have a truly toxic parent, or caregiver who refuses help, then what options are left? I will never think it is ok to take someone abuse, simply because they are a parent. Or family member, as we all already know. Parents are no different. I talk about the lack of capacity for that type of love. Simply put, they are probably hurting themselves. Does this then justify the behavior? Absolutely not. I talk about shifting the responsibilities. It was the...2023-02-2217 minHigh Maintenance MommyNot wanting to raise an obedient child part two - not raising a people pleaser.Let’s be real with what I was getting at in episode one: let’s not raise future people pleasers. Let’s not raise kids who purposely try to make themselves more “likable” to please someone else’s feelings. Let’s raise kids who know boundaries, and know how to stand firmly in who they are. I could literally talk about this topic until the end of my days. To me, obedience means a future people pleasing adult. And I’m sorry, I just will never want that for my kid. Doesn’t society make us feel as though we have to “people pl...2023-02-1524 minHigh Maintenance MommyGoing through the motions of emotional/narcissistic abuse with Jessica KnightI take a back seat this week to truly let Jessica take the lead on this one. She has so much knowledge on the subject, and for those who have survived, it’s honestly Fucking refreshing. From trying to get out, to identifying if it’s abuse in the first place. It isn’t “awesome” that she went through it, but it is awesome being able to RELATE. So often society, and even your own inner circle, downplay emotional abuse. Intentionally or not, it can begin to make your feelings seem less valid. Not to mention people telling you, “Well, you chose th...2023-01-051h 04
High Maintenance MommyI am engaged!!Yes, I know a lot of people won’t give a shit. But I’m here to tell you, I NEVER thought I’d be here. I am living proof that shit could work out! Lol. But seriously, if you’re ever feeling like shit is just NOT coming together- there is a light at the end of that tunnel. Plus, we’re gearing up for the emotional abuse coach coming on next week! I truly want to help anyone who needs it, if you’re feeling a little stuck in your relationship. I love you all and kids or no kids- go...2022-12-3008 minHigh Maintenance MommyJust a Mom trying not to lose her shit after a hard month!Listen, it’s no secret I didn’t put anything out for a month. But if I am already trying to raise a free thinking human, shouldn’t I also attempt to raise a well-rounded human. It’s absolutely ridiculous to assume everyone has it all together. Let alone continuously calling default parents super human. As my therapist says, “I don’t want to be super human. Sounds like a lot of pressure.” AND IT IS. I want my child to see when I’m able to take a break, and seize that opportunity. No one can be super human. Or at least VERY...2022-12-0724 minHigh Maintenance MommyI don’t want to raise an obedient child part 1Talking about gentle, or intentional, parenting. Also discussing how I don’t want my child to be perceived as “good” simply because they are agreeable. Or “obedient”. I want to raise a child that feels safe enough to tell me they didn’t like something, or don’t feel comfortable in situations. Not to be confused with a lack of boundaries. But rather letting a kid truly be a kid and be allowed to be inquisitive. For far too long we’ve expected children to “tow the line”, and it’s just not how I wanna do things around here!
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Support this podc...2022-11-0516 minHigh Maintenance MommyI’m new here-healthy relationship edition.If there is one thing I could tell my younger self it would be, is to have standards! Know what you deserve, and have the expectation that your partner SHOULD show up for you. You deserve all the things that should come with a genuine love. A love that isn’t transactional, or dependent purely on what you give. We all deserve healthy communication, and to be heard. Since I can’t tell my younger self that, and I don’t want to because it led me here, I will show my daughter. I will show her to love herself enough...2022-11-0527 minHigh Maintenance MommyHealing generational traumas Part 2A part two to the initial discussion of generational traumas. What that looks like now, as a Mother. The days that can be tough, but we still show up and try our best. Even when it can feel overwhelming as all hell, and you are ready to take a nap right after you wake up, you still show it. It is hard setting the boundaries, and on top of it all feeling alone. That’s ok! I hope every Mom who feels the weight of feeling lonely due to lack of family feels seen in this episode.
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High Maintenance MommyBeing unapologetically yourself, and being a warrior in the face of infertility, and life. With Haley Rianne!Discussing being unapologetically yourself, while also trying to remain kind. Haley is a gem of a human who so graciously opens up about her own journey with infertility. Breaking patterns and living out your entire truth- whatever that looks like for YOU. Not only that, but she gives some insight into what it can feel like when people want to give their opinions, and how to hold true to who you are! On top of it all she is ALSO a boss babe running her own business. Seriously- check that out! We go over the importance of women supporting women...2022-10-1151 minHigh Maintenance MommyDear Canna Moms, I see you.For any of my mothers who have been on the receiving end of any judgement for partaking in cannabis-this is for you. I hope you feel seen. For any Moms struggling with mental health and need medication- this is also for you! Where can we all sign up for more understanding and compassion towards one another. Consuming cannabis is what I do, it is not who I am. It does not define me. Showing up for your children everyday does indeed count for something, even on the days where you do not feel like you are enough. If the...2022-10-1129 minHigh Maintenance MommyHealing generational traumas part one!I go a little deeper into my past, and my own demons I’ve had to fight. Also if you can find a gently used-to almost new village at a local goodwill? This is for my Mommas who struggled with their village, and who put forth boundaries to protect their peace. Who let go of anything that no longer serves them, so you can live authentically, and without constant fear. This is for the Moms who DID know how they were going to parent before having children, because they knew and promised they’d do better. I love you. It’s not...2022-09-2800 min
High Maintenance MommyDear Canna Moms, I see you BOO!!!!Going a little more in depth with just how absurd it is to even judge weed anymore. We haven’t gotten over this already? Talking about my experiences, and the over prescription in America. Also talking about us doing our best as mothers, and attempting to control mental illness. AND RASING KIDS?!?! Also talking about my personal mental struggles, and how consuming cannabis HELPS Mommy keep it the eff together some days. Let's be real these kids are going to TEST YOU. Daily. Life will test you daily. Your mental health struggles should not go unheard, let alone be judg...2022-09-1523 minHigh Maintenance MommyLet’s talk about sex, baby!How long has that vibrator been in your cart?! How long have you been holding back on that bad bitch we know and love?! There are so many reasons why we just aren’t in the damn mood to have sex post baby. Resentment, overwhelmed, touched- out. But I have had my girlfriends ask, “How are you doing it as much as you guys are?!” The answer for us was, you may have guessed it, COMMUNICATION. Communication about sexual desires, needs, fantasies. Sure, a lot more important shit too! But if you’re anything like us, we were trying to keep tha...2022-09-0323 minHigh Maintenance MommyBeing a strong woman in todays societyBeing a strong woman in todays society can, at times, feel mountainous. Comparison is the thief of joy, and I wish I could remember who said that. But damn, isn’t it true? But, it’s true of all humans also? The grass is only greener, when we’re refusing to water our lawn. Sometimes isn’t it ok to just chill, and be EXACTLY where we need to fucking be. Remember that an interaction with anyone is an energetic exchange. Are you going to let someone ROB you of your power? Or will you stand in it, own it, and real...2022-07-1939 minHigh Maintenance MommyHigh Maintenance Mommy (Trailer)---
Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/carissa-oswald/support2022-07-1800 minHigh Maintenance MommyBecoming the partner you want to attract.Becoming the partner you want to attract. We’ve all been there, right? “I want someone who communicates, knows how to set healthy boundaries, and someone I can grow with!” But…are these things we’re doing for ourselves first?! Not everyone can relate, but the people who can REALLY can. When you’re not taught how to properly communicate throughout your life, how would you even know what “good” communication looks like? This episode takes an approach of healing yourself, and seeking out different tools for you to actually be receptive to the good partner when they come. To reclaim your pow...2022-07-0735 min
High Maintenance MommyThe High Maintenance MommyAn introduction episode to what this podcast is about- the "unconventional Mother". Introducing me, the host. Sometimes in a world that wants us to fit in, isn't it something to be proud of to stand out? To me, laughter is the best medicine. So, I do like to talk a little shit. NOT because I am interested in putting anyone down, but sometimes when you are overwhelmed- it feels good to just laugh about. It is not the end of the world, and if I took everything SO seriously, I do not think I would be who I am...2022-06-1723 min
High Maintenance MommyTrust me, you are not alone Mama. Postpartum depression.This episode discusses my personal experience with post-partum depression. I also share some portions of articles I received from someone who has more resources than I do, and they were hoping it would help this episode. These cover more sensitive topics, and it this one is a little more serious. HOWEVER, I have to be real. A lot of Mothers struggle alone, and I do not wish that upon anyone!! You are not alone, Mama. And to my new Moms, there are MANY different emotions to feel other than only excitement. Do not beat yourself up! We love you- you...2022-06-0141 minHigh Maintenance MommyJust two Moms shootin' the shit. And everyone needs a Bri.One of my best friends and I opening up about or experience as Mothers. Our paths are so aligned, but also so different. Doesn't every mom/person need a friend who just gets it? In a world of being constantly judged, everyone could use a friend like Bri. A non-judgmental friend who gives you the space to be you. We discuss sex, obviously our kids, and may or may not go off on some tangents. And of course, ALWAYS encouraging you to say, "FUCK ANYONES OPINION OF YOU!" If you feel like you do not have those friends- we a...2022-05-1554 minHigh Maintenance MommyBOUNDARIES? Who needs em'?! YOU.Talking about boundaries in the best way possible- my way. Reminding EVERY. SINGLE. PERSON. that it is ok to say "FUCK YOU" to everyone who doubts you. My views are not for the "faint of heart" if you will. Never interested in appealing to sugar coated podcasts. If you are going to be a Mom, are a Mom, or just a damn human- learn to establish those boundaries BABY!!!! And sometimes realizing it takes a little flipping of the bird to do. Hi unconventional parents/Moms. I am back again- and just as unapologetic as ever. Dig deep and...2022-05-0332 min