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Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #148: WHO do you Wanna BE in 2023? I love this time of year! It's the time to COLLECTIVELY reflect on the previous year, and set our intentions for the new year. We often hear people say, "you don't need to wait until the new year to start making resolutions." I agree, it's good to take inventory throughout the year, pivot when needed, and continuously ignite your enthusiasm when it comes to your vision. So who do you wanna BE in 2023? Wannabe... this term usually has a derogatory meaning. It's how we usually describe someone who wants...2022-12-2006 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #144: How to turn your DREAMS into REALITYWhen I was about 21 years old I remember telling one of my friends about my crazy life as a child. She said to me, “wow, you’re going to write a book some day”. That ONE comment sparked a tiny little flame of belief in myself. I never would have expected anyone to say something like that to me. I always believed that I wasn’t very smart. We moved about every 6 months growing up which meant I was constantly changing schools and curriculums, not to mention the adjustment period I went through each time. I...2022-10-1024 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #135: BELIEFS and How to Change Them Innocently many of us believe that our life circumstances are what make us feel good or bad, happy or sad, angry or peaceful. I used to believe that my happiness came from other people's love and appreciation for me, or when you make a lot of money, or when you reach your goal weight, are from being in a loving relationship. We grow up learning that happiness must come from within, but I never understood HOW to do that. Some things in life we perceive as GOOD and others we perceive as BAD. We live life, hoping, praying, and even...2022-05-1659 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #119: My Weight Loss & Personal Growth Journey ER Shred Ambassador Jesse James Jamnik interviews me about my weight loss and personal growth journey thus far. "As Co-Founder of the ER Shred Protocol, along with her husband Sean, Crystal has a true passion for helping transform people's overall well-being. Especially seeing as though she herself struggled for years before finally cracking the code. Join us as Crystal and I break down the past and touch on subjects that you very well might be struggling with yourself. Sugar & Carb Cravings Baby weight Self Esteem Adult Acne Dieting and the restrictions on life And so much more!" 2021-06-231h 18
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #103: CRISIS | Exposes Weakness & Inspires CreationIn this episode Sean shares his crisis during the crisis. "The humbling moment in life when everything you've endured for so long suddenly feels worth it. When you are finally able to make sense of all of the confusion and frustration. When everything you have experienced was obviously meant to forge your path moving forward." ~Sean Escobar2020-11-1742 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #100: Wannabe Balanced100 Episodes!!!! Wow! I'm so dang proud of that. Here's a recap of what those 100 episodes are about; 1-20 was the beginning stages of a LOT of personal development which ultimately led to the choice to leave our life long religion. 21-99 was basically our entire journey and all the different phases we experienced after leaving the church. Now starting season 4 and going a slightly different direction. We will be discussing all different kinds of topics around personal growth and development as well as sprinkling in some Mormon Enlightenment interviews and discussions.2020-10-2725 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #94: Live Your Truth w/ Kyla Faye DickersonHere is an interview with Kyla Faye Dickerson. She shares her story growing up in the Mormon church and getting married in the temple. Eventually she gained the courage to live her truth by leaving the church and discovering a whole new way of seeing her life and the world.2020-09-0849 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #93: My Mormon Mindset vs. Current RealityRecognizing the shift in my mindset and sharing a list of the old verses the new. Here are a few; Old: Worthiness and pleading with God for things is the way to receive blessings. New: I'm ALWAYS worthy of everything my soul desires. Intensions, and actions fueled by love, is the way to attract more good into my life. Old: The Prophet knows whats best for me and my family. New: I know best, what's best for me. For the first time in my life I'm learning to listen to ME...2020-08-1819 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #92: On Feeling the "SPIRIT" | What that means to me now.I used to believe I had to be WORTHY of receiving inspiration and guidance in my life. It was a constant questioning of myself, wondering if God would still speak to me even if I wasn't doing A, B, and C. Now unpacking and discovering a whole new meaning of what "feeling the spirit" is to me. Regaining the trust I lost when taking the "wrong" road far too often after following the "spirit". What does feeling the spirit mean to you? Is it a question of worthiness? Is it your gut feeling? Is it...2020-08-0428 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #91: Deprogramming w/ Wendi JensenI had that opportunity to chat with Wendi Jensen, Author, Speaker, Trainer in the field of human potential and Religious Recovery. We talked all about the beliefs that have been programmed into us as children and ways in which we can work to DEprogram the ones that are no longer serving us. Wendi Jensen has worked as a facilitator in the healing arts for over 16 years. Her specialty is in human development. She is the author of The Healing Questions Guide – A resource guide for healing the body by accessing the mind. Wendi is also the au...2020-07-1555 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #90: Ways to Bring About Positive ChangeIt's a team effort. We all can't be activists for every problem in the world, but we can choose one or a few things that we are most passionate about and focus on that. We need more gratitude for the things that each of us decide to spend our time on and less shaming for the things we don't.2020-06-3017 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #89: Building Bridges w/ Terina MaldonadoTerina Maldonado is a survivor in every sense of the word. She has overcome child abuse, sexual assault, and leaving a high demand religion. These experiences have taught her resilience, empathy, determination, and instilled in her a desire to inspire others to join her in a place of thriving. She loves sharing her message of hope and joy through public speaking, and writing. In 2018 she wrote an article calling attention to sexual grooming in a children's movie. The article quickly went viral reaching millions of people around the world. Terina has contributed to blogs, been interviewed by news and...2020-06-1555 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #88: A Life Without LabelsLabels put people in boxes and generates separation, hate, arguments, and destruction. When we truly see ourselves and others void of labels, our ability to relate, create, love, and connect, multiplies beyond what we thought was possible.2020-06-0219 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #87: Alcohol, Sex, & Marriage w/ Sean EscobarIn an effort to abandon all judgement, we may also unintentionally rule out all reason. There was a time when Sean and I were both trying to allow each other to be FREE, but soon realized this mentality can backfire if we try to suppress our true feelings about certain things. It's okay to speak up. It's okay to set boundaries in your relationship. It's okay to have requests of one another as long as you feel you are both equally compromising. You can protect your marriage without trying to control or change one...2020-05-2145 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #86: Margi Dehlin | Embracing the UnknownMargi Dehlin is a co-host on The Gift of the Mormon Faith Crisis podcast and a Certified Life Coach. In her work she explores life transitions (involving religion, death or loss, divorce, illness, or empty nest syndrome) as they impact marriage, parenting, identity, family relationships--and one's ability to find a renewed sense of purpose amidst daily living. In this episode we discuss the emotions that come with a life transition as we are all experiencing one right now with COVID. We are grieving the loss of our old "normal" and learning to embrace the new and uncharted...2020-05-1256 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #85: Mixed Faith Marriage w/ Sean EscobarSean and I discuss some pitfalls when it comes to our ever changing beliefs and opinions. *Trying to create harmony as we navigate our different interests and understandings around the meaning of life. *How we are growing together EVEN when we disagree on so many things. *Is it okay to ONLY consume information that makes you feel good, and to what extent is that just ignorance?2020-04-2333 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #84: What is TRUE?What is TRUTH? "Does it light you up? Or does it put you into fear? It is an impossibility to know THE TRUTH. Meaning there are so many perspectives . This multidimensional universe is far more complex than the human is allowed to experience. There is only so much that you are supposed to, or are designed to access. Yes, you can have cosmic multidimensional experiences. But if you are looking for "the truth" you are going to run yourself into trouble. If you are looking for YOUR TRUTH, your truth is what gets...2020-04-1521 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #83: Sign of the Times???What story do you choose to believe? In this episode I share my persepective on this world wide crisis we are faced with and the story I'm choosing to believe.2020-04-0630 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #82: Leah Young | Parenting After MormonismLeah Young and I discuss some of the ways our parenting has changed since leaving Mormonism. *How to allow our children to make their own choices while still maintaining rules and boundaries. *Ways to have better communication with our teens. *Overcoming the Mormon mentality around comparisons and feeling we're never measuring up as parents.2020-03-311h 16
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #81: ESCAPE the Outbreak (COVID-19) w/ Tru EastmanC.S. Lewis on pandemics and other horrors: “In one way we think a great deal too much of the atomic bomb. “How are we to live in an atomic age?” I am tempted to reply: “Why, as you would have lived in the sixteenth century when the plague visited London almost every year, or as you would have lived in a Viking age when raiders from Scandinavia might land and cut your throat any night; or indeed, as you are already living in an age of cancer, an age of syphilis, an age of paralysis, an age of a...2020-03-1657 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #80: What about Jesus? w/ Rachel ThomasRachel and I discuss some of her thoughts and new beliefs since leaving the church about 4 years ago. "I left the church in November 2015 when "the policy" was announced. At the time I still believed that Joseph Smith was involved in the restoration of truth, but that over 200 years the church had gone into apostasy because the moment I heard the policy, another voice loudly sounding off in my head was "Jesus wouldn't suffer the children for the sins of the parents". It was pretty loud and pretty persistent, so that Sunday I walked into the bishops...2020-03-101h 04
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #79: What is a CULT?When you feel you have been lied to it can be very difficult to trust again. You start to believe that everyone is using manipulation tactics in order to get what THEY want. In this episode I'm talking about how I'm learning to trust again.2020-03-0325 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #78: Talking to Teens w/ Andrea RiggsMy conversation with Andrea Riggs, sharing some teachable moments with her teens since leaving the church 4 years ago.2020-02-2551 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #77: FOMO | Fear of Missing OutSometimes I fear I’m missing out on something but I'm realizing that the belief that others are experiencing something more enriching than me is all just an illusion. That's when the focus is on LACK and not abundance. If we choose not to look at the beauty in our own lives, then THAT is what we are really missing out on.2020-02-2035 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #76: Empowering the Feminine w/ Dusty JacobsenMy friend Dusty Jacobson and I discuss the topic of the divine feminine, gender equality, and empowering women as we raise our voices together in love and unity. We reflect on our former mentality, some of the things that got us fired up in the past as we began to recognize the ways in which we felt suppressed as women. "You are being presented with a choice or remain. If you choose to remain unchanged, you will be presented with the same challenges, the same routine, the same storms, the same situations, until you learn...2020-02-1148 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #75: Needed to Hate You to Love Me"You promised the world and I fell for it I put you first and you adored it You set fires to my forest And you let it burn Sang off key in my chorus Cause it wasn’t yours I saw the signs and I ignored it Rose colored glasses all distorted You set fire to my purpose And I let it burn You got off on the hurtin’ When it wasn’t yours We’d always go into it blindly I needed to lose you to find...2020-01-2226 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #74: UPDATE! Life After MormonismGiving you an update on WHY I disappeared from podcast land for a bit, and what my plan is moving forward. Also, celebrating 5,000 members in our Mormon Enlightenment Facebook group by running a contest. Leave us a review or share the podcast on social media to be entered in the drawing. And we are going to take the winner out to dinner or send you $100 cash if you're not in Utah. Sign up for our weekly newsletter to stay up to date on the latest happenings in the post Mormon community. Freedom day posts, podcasts...2019-12-1034 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #73: Parenting After MormonismOBEDIENCE... what does that mean? Is it better to choose obedience over knowledge? Doing what you are told regardless of what feels right to your soul? Obedience is a principle I’ve had to really question since stepping away from the Mormon church. What I’ve concluded is that obedience no longer fits into my moral code. Is teaching our children obedience to an authority figure really in their best interest? It would seem that way, yes. To abide by the laws, follow the rules, and be respectful of others prop...2019-11-2058 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #72: What is the Purpose of Life?What is the purpose of life? To pass the test? To overcome the natural man? To serve others? To multiply and replenish the 🌍? 🤔 To align ourselves with God/the Universe? To strive for perfection? To discover, remember, create...??? I believe the purpose of life is to Experience, Expand, and Express! I no longer believe I’m here to pass a test in order to receive my reward in heaven such as eternal families, salvation, etc. I believe life is meant to be experienced without judgment, expressed in pure...2019-11-1238 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #71: Under PressureWe felt a lot of pressure growing up in the Mormon church. In this episode we share some of the pressures we felt, as well as other former members who submitted their feedback around this topic.2019-11-0640 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #70: Monogamy | Why we CHOOSE itSince trying to be open minded around sexuality after leaving Mormonism, I found myself questioning marriage in general. Wondering for a moment if monogamy was just another tradition we absorbed through religion, social pressures, insecurities, co-dependency, and fear of being alone. In this episode I share some of my discoveries and how I'm feeling about marriage now.2019-10-2932 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #69: Better Not BitterHave you ever been hurt by someone? Been rejected, turned down, left out, judged, misunderstood, or mistreated? Of course you have. We ALL have. I want to tell you about a recent experience I had that triggered a lot of anger and resentment in me. About the thoughts I chose to believe about myself and how I turned them around. Don't believe a single thought that comes when you're feeling any of these lower vibration emotions. Wait, watch, and wonder... Eventually the feelings will pass as you...2019-10-2221 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #68: Loving What IsEverything outside of us is a reflection of our own thinking. So many of us, including myself, are giving our power away. Anytime we allow a negative comment, response, or reaction from others to upset us, we are choosing to believe a STORY, therefore causing our own suffering. Whenever we are suffering, that is our signal to STOP! Take a look at the beliefs we have attached ourselves to and evaluate whether or not those beliefs are useful.2019-10-1622 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #67: Tipsy Truth TalkWe had a few drinks and decided to record a podcast. You're welcome!2019-10-0740 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachPornography | PART 2 Sexuality Redefined w/ Natasha Helfer ParkerHere is part two of our marriage counseling session with Natasha Helfer Parker. We share some of our pitfalls since we've been able to discuss openly about pornography.2019-10-021h 13Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachSexuality Redefined w/ Natasha Helfer ParkerAs we’ve embarked on this spiritual journey outside of organized religion, we’ve encountered quite a few bumps in the road. It’s to be expected as we work to detangle all the cultural and religious beliefs embedded in every aspect of our relationship. We are working through them one by one, and with careful examination deciding what we want to keep and what we want to discard. With the professional counseling advice from a marriage and sex therapist Natashia Helfer Parker, we’ve been able to redefine what intimacy means to us. 2019-09-241h 13
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #64: Molly Mormon to Ex Mormon Morgan and Jared HigdonMy interview with Morgan and Jared Higdon. After years of issues stacking up on Morgan's 'shelf', it suddenly came crashing down. Morgan and her husband Jared (a.k.a. Sister Jensen) started a YouTube channel called, "My Spiritual Life". In their vlogs and humorous skits, they share their perspective and problems during their transition out of the Mormon Church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints). Leaving the Mormon church can feel very scary, and very isolating. Their purpose in creating their channel is so that none of you...2019-09-171h 15
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #63: Anger Transformed Into Fuel For ChangeEmotions are just energy and all energy can be transformed. Today Sean and I talk about our anger. How we've been learning to channel that powerful energy into a constructive purpose. Why we left the church and still almost a year and a half later, "can't leave it alone". "Use that anger. You write it. You paint it. You dance it. You march it. You vote it. You do everything about it." ~ Maya Angelou2019-09-1036 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #62 Post Mormon Life w/ Life Coach Amy Logan"It was 2006 and my faith crisis was at its peak. I remember laying on my front room floor wishing the earth would swallow me up. It would be so much easier than walking this path of confusion. I knew life would never be the same again. [side note] I was born and raised mormon. I was a good mormon girl. I did all that was expected of me. I was on the path since day one. I held all the callings, kept all the rules and stayed on the very narrow path. BYU, married in the temple, children, s...2019-09-0350 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #61: How To Be ConsistentBeing consistent and persistent in your pursuits over a long period of time will reap beautiful rewards. Determination to stick with something will eventually turn it into a habit which then requires less discipline to get yourself to do it. It becomes so much a part of your routine that you no longer deal with the internal war of deciding whether or not you are going to do it.2019-08-2738 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #60: Words of Comfort for Post MormonsFor those moments you feel lost, alone, depressed and scared. I want this episode to be one you can return to anytime you are triggered. One you can share with others who are fresh out and going through the most intense part of a faith transition, which in most cases, escalates into an existential crisis. Suddenly you realize everything you once THOUGHT you knew to be true, is nothing more than a made up story. Like finding out Santa Clause is not real. When you feel judged and misunderstood. When you feel...2019-08-0643 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #59: Dealing w/ OverwhelmThere is beauty in simplicity! We all deal with overwhelm from time to time. But guess what?! Feeling overwhelmed is a CHOICE! Let me share about my recent encounter with overwhelm, what I learned, and my plan moving forward.2019-07-1725 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #58: One Year Ago I Left My Religion"Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness, will we discover the infinite power of our light." ~ Brene Brown This time last year is when I chose to take that leap into the “darkness”. On the podcast today I’m going to give a recap of what this year has been like since choosing to leave my life long religion. It all began with episode 15. I had no idea what was about to unfold. This year has been the most challenging and the most beautiful year of my life.2019-05-2238 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #57: Healing from Sexual Shame w/ Natasha Helfer ParkerTrigger Warning. If you've experienced sexual trauma, some of the things we discuss in this episode may trigger unwanted emotions to surface. Natasha Helfer Parker, a licensed marriage and family therapist and certified sex therapist coaches Sean and I through sexual shame and trauma. Natasha has 20 years experience counseling individuals, couples, and families. Her areas of expertise includes working within the intersections of faith, life transitions and sexuality. https://www.natashaparker.org2019-05-1651 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #56: Unearthing My Own Pain and Shame"Your story could be the key that unlocks someone else's prison. Don't be afraid to share it." ~ Toby Mac Last week Sean shared his story and this week I'm sharing mine.2019-05-0749 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #55: Sean's Sex Abuse Story Behind the Story Sean Escobar is one of the bravest men I know. He continues to amaze me with his courage and deep love for others. He is truly saving other victims and is an incredible example of how one person being brave enough to speak up can pave the way for others to do the same.2019-05-0256 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #54: Reformed Whore No More | Sean EscobarSean speaks on how he operated as a reformed whore, how he became fanatical and critical for many years. Definition of a reformed whore: A person who once practiced a bad habit egregiously who now rails hypocritically against other people practicing the same bad habit. "What’s changed about the way I view people? I used to look at these 2 separate peoples posts on Facebook just to see how badly they would offend me. Maybe I wanted to judge them. I was mainly put off by their language. The use of the "F" word wa...2019-04-2535 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #53: Embracing My SexualityGetting real up close and personal about the things that have kept me from fully embracing my sexuality. Years of shame and guilt caused me to suppress my true sexual nature. Only recently have I discovered an exciting and healthy way of expressing my love more fully toward Sean.2019-04-1719 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #52: Open Marriage w/ Sean EscobarSean and I get REALLY real in this episode. Sharing some things we never thought we'd be able to share.2019-04-0945 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #51: How to Write a Book w/ NY Times Best Selling Author Pete CerquaAs most of you know, I just published my very first book. In the process of doing this I've come to meet so many people who too would like to write a book. I believe we all have a story to share, and many of you would love to share your story in a book. So this episode is for YOU! It's time to take the next step, and begin writing that book that's dying to get out. Meet New York Times Best Selling Author, Pete Cerqua. He shares some insider tips on how to...2019-04-021h 12
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #50: My Life as a Wannabe Balanced Mom | The Breakdown Before the BreakthroughIn this episode I'm reading the unedited version of Chapter 6, The Breakdown Before the Breakthrough. So excited my book is now available at Costco, Deseret Book, Amazon, Barns and Noble.com, Target.com, and Walmart.com. If you post of picture on social media of you holding a copy of my book then you will be entered in the contest to win a Jujube bag full of goodies, including a signed copy of my book, and one of my painted Wannabe Balanced Elephant rocks. Be sure to tag me @WannabeBalanced and use the hashtag #WannabeBalanced.2019-03-2621 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #49: Bridging the Gap | Things we can appreciate about religionAfter months of going through and processing all the emotions that come with an existential crisis, Sean and I are happy to have arrived into a new, more positive emotion of love and gratitude for our experience growing up in a religion. We are ready to find ways to bridge the gap and become one with everyone, no matter their religious beliefs or political views. There is a universal commonality that we forget to acknowledge, and that is LOVE! Love is the ultimate goal and driving force which can allow us all to drop our need to...2019-03-2140 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #48: Mindy Gledhill | Falling Down the Rabbit HoleSinger songwriter Mindy Gledhill shares her faith crisis experience that inspired her new album Rabbit Hole. For years, Mindy Gledhill’s relentless search for meaning has inspired her to pursue a variety of musical projects, both at home and abroad, and has now launched her head-first down a rabbit hole of new melodic creativity. Over the course of her musical career, Mindy has recorded wildly successful indie albums with a cadre of award-winning producers, starting with her 2004 debut, followed by four more albums over the next decade (Feather in the Wind, Anchor, Pocketful of Poetry, an...2019-03-1248 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #47: Establishing a Morning RoutineLet’s be real, waking up before the kids is extremely difficult. But I definitely pay a price when I don't get a head start on my day. On the days I sleep in, I tend to feel scattered, overwhelmed, and a bit stressed. Lacking focus on what I need and should be doing, rendering an unproductive day. Not only that but I struggle to be present when I'm with my kids. I try so hard to give them my full attention when they need me but I'm constantly feeling anxious and two steps behind....2019-03-0638 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #46: Conscious Parenting w/ Sean EscobarSean and I are realizing our past approach to parenting may be the effect of unconscious thinking. Doing what has always been done without ever really questioning WHY. Not allowing space for new ideas to emerge, new ways of viewing our children and the role we are playing in their lives. Maybe our children are here to teach US instead of the other way around. Their ability to show us things about ourselves should be approached with great respect and reverence. Dr. Shefali Tsabary, author of The Conscious Parent is teaching us how to think...2019-02-2634 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #45: Sound Frequency Healing w/ Eduardo BallesterosEduardo Ballesteros shares his story growing up as a Mormon then choosing a different spiritual path as he began seeking further light and healing. He is now helping others heal and grow spiritually as a Yoga Instructor and Crystal Bowl Sound Healing Practitioner. Sound healing relaxes the body, clears the subconscious, calms the mind, and activates your body's natural healing systems. Resulting in a sense of expanded awareness and wholeness. These healing vibrations revitalize the mind, body, and spirit, and leave you feeling reborn. Sound Healing influences our emotional bodies as well as...2019-02-1942 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #44: What Do Dreams Mean? | Dream Interpretation | The Unconscious MindThe conscious mind is only the tip of the ice-burg. Below the water exists something so vast and majestic that you can't help but want to explore it. I've recently gained a new understanding and appreciation for the unconscious mind, the mind that takes over while we sleep. Have you ever wondered if your dreams have meaning? In this episode I dive a little deeper into the purpose of dreams and how you can use them to discover new insights, gain clarity, creativity, solutions to your problems, and access inovative ideas.2019-02-1235 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #43: Of Realizations & ResolutionsSadhguru said it so beautifully: "What is the purpose of life? Never ask why with creation, you just ask how. There are plenty of tools and technologies that can show you how, but if you ask why, there is no why. We can tell you stories. I can tell you a story that many of you would love to believe. If I speak about something that is not yet in your experience, you have only two choices. Either to believe me or disbelieve me. If you believe me, you will not get any closer to...2019-02-0733 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #42: Overcoming Fear & AnxietyAbout 8 months ago I experienced an intense panic attack, I talked about it in season 1 episode 18. This experience can also be described as the “dark night of the soul”, something I now see as the turning point and most essential part of my growth. My dark night of the soul happened due my deep desire for spiritual growth. I felt stagnant, and was craving more. Although I was taught that my religion was the one and only way to receive the fulness of blessings in this life and for eternity, I couldn’t help but wonder if I was missin...2019-01-2936 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #41: JudgementJudging others is a character of the ego. Anytime the ego is in charge, our souls connection becomes clouded, making it difficult to learn something new, have compassion for others, and even have the ability to be creative. The ego sees things as good and bad, the soul just SEES things without any judgement.2019-01-2323 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #40: Resolutions for 2019This is one of my favorite times of year. A time to reflect and plan for a new year. In this episode I'd like to share some of the things I hope to manifest as well as the process I use when setting goals. This is the final episode of season two, but I will be back within a few weeks to begin season three.2019-01-0520 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #39: My Thoughts on ChristSince leaving organized religion I've found myself questioning the whole foundation of Christianity and what that really means to me. This time of year is causing me to really ponder the life of Christ and my new beliefs surrounding his life and purpose.2018-12-1024 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #38: Navigating a Faith TransitionNavigating a faith transition can be extremely difficult. We've only begun this process about six months ago but have learned a great deal in the process. Sean and I will share some of the things we've experienced and what has helped us most as we transitioned out of our life long organized religion.2018-12-0552 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #37: Are You Awake?Six months ago I had a breakdown that led to my breakthrough, or in other words an AWAKENING! I didn't realize how closed minded and unwilling I was to learn anything new. I wanted to remain in my ignorance because it felt safe and comfortable. Come to find out, what I thought was "comfort" was actually causing me a great deal of suffering. I knew I wasn't answering the call of my soul, I was asleep, going about my life, suppressing my true mission and purpose.2018-11-2718 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #36: High Vibe Mindset w/ Sunit SuchdevSunit Suchdev is a biz and mindset coach whose passion is to inspire moms to live their most high vibe life. She is a certified life coach and meditation teacher and host of “the High Vibe Life” podcast. She believes that women CAN have it all, with the proper mindset shifts, and she inspires moms to live a life where they are talking about all the amazing things they are doing..instead of everything they are not getting done. She is a proud wife, a mom to twin boys, and an essential oil and green food addict. WEBSITE: https://sunitsuchdev.com ...2018-11-2152 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #35: Don't Worry...It's interesting to know that we can actually worry ourselves sick with the thoughts we choose to focus on. And it's exciting to know that our thoughts can also make us WELL.2018-11-1323 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #34: Why I'm Quitting InstagramFirst of all, I’m not quitting completely. Let me explain… For years Instagram has served me well, and at the same time has also been the source of much suffering. I’ve tried every trick in the book to “keep up with the Instagrammers” and it’s been a fun a thrilling ride. But it has also left me feeling depressed for many reasons. In my book, My Life As a Wannabe Balanced Mom (not yet released), I wrote a chapter about this and made it clear that I did not think the way to end all sufferin...2018-11-0720 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #33: Can Science and Spirituality Co-Exist?"Belief is ESSENTIAL. Science is EMPOWERING." ~Hibiscus Moon Growing up with strong religious beliefs I always thought science was "of the devil", haha. I thought that it was a prideful way of saying, we know more than God and we don't need him. Recently I've come to a better understanding around science. Knowledge is power, not in the sense of having power over others, but power over the mind. Understanding the science behind life's mysteries can empower ones soul and ability to conquer the mind in order to carry out our individual...2018-10-3129 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #32: UPDATE on Life Without ReligionSean still hasn't cheated on me, and we haven't been struck by lightning. So far so good, lol. The one thing that has benefited me most from choosing to live without religion, is the freedom to choose. In religion we are taught that we have free agency, but I never felt like I did. Basically the only choice I felt I had was, heaven or hell and of course I would choose heaven. That meant I had to follow all the "rules" even if they didn't feel right to me. I no longer h...2018-10-2543 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #31: Crystal Healing | How & Why w/ Hibiscus MoonIn this episode I had the opportunity to ask YouTuber and Crystal Expert, Hibiscus Moon, all about the science behind Crystals and how she uses them on a daily basis. Hibiscus Moon is a former science department head turned Crystal Healer and self-proclaimed Geo-Geek Extraordinaire. She's the founder of the Hibiscus Moon Crystal Academy and author of the book, Crystal Grids: How and Why They Work. You can download her free Create Sacred Spaces with Crystals eKit over at www.HibiscusMoonGift.com2018-10-1649 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #30: Enjoying the Journey | Feeling DiscouragedSometimes it's hard to find joy in the journey when you feel like you've been consistently putting in the work and seeing little to no results. The key is seeing the beauty in the NOW. The journey is FUN! The process of creation is what gives us the most fulfillment, not just the end result. It's all the little pieces that create the beautiful masterpiece. Little by little, a little becomes a lot. This is a mantra I live by. It's a reminder that being consistent despite the set backs, over a long period of time eventually...2018-10-1224 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #29: Millionaire Money ManagementAbout 5 years into our marriage, Sean and I began making some serious money. It was tempting to go crazy buying all the fancy cars and new homes, but we tried to be future focused and think strategically about how we wanted to spend our money. In this episode Sean and I talk about our different upbringings and views around money. It created some problems for us in the beginning of our marriage, but now we are happy to say we've evolved together in our beliefs around financial freedom. Listen to Ep. #8 if you want to...2018-10-0324 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #28: Gay & Brave w/ Christopher SteeleChristopher Steele shares his story of growing up Mormon and discovering he was gay. How he overcame the trials of being shamed and judged by the ones he loved most, to happily married to the man of his dreams. He was also featured in the documentary called Latter Day Glory, where they share stories and raise awareness of the alarming suicide rates in Utah (Mormon capitol of the world). Suicide Statistics: * 141.3% increase in Utah youth suicide rate from 2011-2015. * Totalling 150 youth age 10-17 Connect with Christopher on Facebook 2018-09-2547 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #27: How to MANIFEST what you want!In this episode I'm sharing some of the things I've been able to manifest into my life over the years. How I believe I did it, and what actions are essential in attracting incredible opportunities. Discover where you are at on the scale of emotions and learn how to climb the latter of emotions in order to operate at a higher frequency.2018-09-1924 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #26: Regret, Rejection, and ReactionSean and I talk a little about some regrets we have and how we've learned from our regrets, but at the same time don't allow them to hold any weight in our current reality.2018-09-1118 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #25: Chewbacca Mom Candace Payne | Laugh it up!It only took a smartphone, a Chewbacca mask, and four minutes of infectious laughter to make a Facebook Live video that reached nearly 200 million people. In my interview with Candace Payne we talk about her book Laugh It Up! She shares advice on how to overcome the need to compare and living a life of contentment while at the same time hoping for more.2018-09-0527 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #24: Criticism and ControversyI spent the weekend crying over all the harsh criticism I received after speaking publicly on such a sensitive topic. But today I'm rejoicing in my purpose and the people who continue to thank me for speaking out and allowing them to say, "me too".2018-08-2824 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #23: Sean Tells AllDisclaimer: If you are at all wavering in your Mormon faith and intend on remaining active in the religion, then I advise you NOT to listen to this episode. Sean openly shares his thoughts and things he's struggled with over the years as a member of the LDS church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He addresses inequality of women in the church, condemnation against LGBT, children being asked sexually explicit questions in interviews with men of authority, and all the shame and guilt he's lived with over the years as a member...2018-08-2135 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #22: My New BeliefsI had such positive feedback from last weeks episode where I revealed my decision to no longer belong to any organized religion. But, of course there is always the negative that comes with any worthwhile endeavor, or anytime you choose to speak your truth. Overall, the feedback was great and I realized there are so many people experiencing the same thing I am. I believe my message is very much a positive message, not one that instills doubt. I simply want people to know they have a CHOICE. I believe God loves everyone and does not care...2018-08-1621 minWannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #21: Can I tell you something? Please don't judge me...Through many hours of study, prayer, and reflection I’ve come to the conclusion that God is purely LOVE. He sent us on this earth to experience it all. He gave us a spirit and a brain as tools to guide us in finding our own inner peace. In my spiritual journey I’ve come to a certain awareness, an awakening of some sorts. Suddenly I’ve opened the little box I’ve placed myself in for so long. My box was comfortable enough, but I could feel deep down that I was stagnant in my growth. There was...2018-08-0718 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #20: Having a Healthy Body Image and Losing WeightSean and I have been in the weight loss and nutrition industry our entire marriage and we've coached thousands of people in their weight loss journeys. In this episode we would like to offer some of tips and advice and how to lose weight. If you have any questions or are interested in our 30 day Nutritional Cleansing program then email me: crystal@escoweb.net2018-06-1337 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #19: I Made a MistakeI made a mistake and here's what I learned. 2018-06-0920 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #18: How I Endured A Panic AttackJust recently I experienced the most intense fear and it lasted for 3 days. I know that doesn’t seem like a long time when you compare it to someone who has been battling depression their whole life. But when you’re experiencing such intense emotion, and it stays for days, you begin to wonder if it will ever go away. Your fear of the fear intensifies because it’s hard to take control of your mind at that point. We all know that we create our own realities and what we think and believe is truly the baseline of our re...2018-05-3115 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #17: It's Not All About YOUYou probably think this episode is about you, don’t you don’t you don’t you? In this “selfie” society, and somewhat narcissistic generation on the rise, we are seeing more and more anxiety and depression. Anxiety and depression are triggered by all consuming thoughts about ourselves. When we think the world revolves around us. One thing I’m really trying to get through my head is that everything is not about ME! As spiritual beings having a human experience we are constantly fighting against the tendencies of the natural man. In our efforts to discover...2018-05-2523 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #16: I'm Freaking Jealous !!!I think jealousy and resentment go hand in hand because first we experience jealousy, and usually it’s followed by a bit of resentment toward the person we are jealous of. Or resentment towards the life we’ve been dealt. Sometimes we want to blame others or blame our circumstances for not having everything we desire to have. Junior high and high school is when I can remember experiencing the most jealousy. Over the years I’ve learned how to manage my thoughts enough to work my way out of the emotion w...2018-05-1626 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #15: What's Blocking You?The reason our hearts become blocked is due to past experiences that caused us to feel pain, sadness, heartache, anger, ect. The heart becomes blocked as a result of fear. Fear is the root of it all. Instead of simply being an observer of our lives, we try to control it out of fear. Fear that we might suffer the same thing again. Our minds remember the pain and suffering, and the heart takes on the symptoms caused by fear. 2018-05-1023 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #14: Acceptance in MarriageOne thing I think has helped us most in our marriage and we touched on this a little in one of our previous episodes is acceptance. If you’re familiar with what Jody Moore teaches, you’ve probably heard her talk about the “manual”. She describes the manual as a set of beliefs, rules and expectations we bring into our marriages. The manuals are developed as a result of our upbringing, and the examples of relationships we are exposed to growing up. It’s what we believe a spouse is “supposed” to be instead of accepting each other exactly the way they a...2018-05-0236 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #13: Time ManagementFor as long as I can remember I’ve been obsessed with routines, schedules, notepads, day planners. The earliest I can remember creating my own schedule was when I was in 3rd grade. I remember writing out my daily routine and placing it on my neatly made bed. I was kind of a perfectionist. I liked things organized and tidy even as a 9 year old girl. Motherhood has taught me sooo much about time management. I quickly learned that my idea of a perfect routine and clean house was not going to be the way I envisioned it...2018-04-2529 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #12: When Other People Don't Support YouThere comes a time in our process of reaching goals or making life changes that we get particularly vulnerable to other peoples opinions, or lack of support. When we set out to change our lives or reach big goals. We start out extremely excited about what we are pursuing, only to find out it is much harder than we anticipated. We work like a dog, do everything we know how to do, and it doesn’t seem to be working. Not only do we become discouraged, but the people who we thought were supposed to be our bi...2018-04-1818 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #11: One Size Doesn't Fit AllToday we wanted to share a little inside scoop of what life is like for us as members of the LDS church. We plan to get really honest and open about some of the things we’ve struggled with over the years and also what we’ve gained by being members of this church. I understand that not all of you are LDS but perhaps you’re just curious about what life REALLY looks as members of a church that once practiced polygamy. Warning, this episode might stir up a bit of controversy, which as members...2018-04-1252 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #10: Not Everyone Is Going To Like YouEver since I can remember, I was determined to make sure everyone liked me. Which caused me to feel so much shame if I ever did or said anything that people disagreed with. What I've learned is that not everyone is going to like you and that is absolutely okay. Also, other peoples opinions about you have nothing to do with you and has everything to do with them.2018-04-0411 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #9: Discovering Your Mission and PassionWe all need to feel like we have a purpose, a special mission. One of our basic human needs is growth and contribution. When we go about our lives without any real purpose, we feel unfulfilled, bored, and can even become depressed. In this episode I walk you through my path in finding meaning and purpose for my life. I share the confusion I felt and how I made little discoveries that led me to where I am now. Podcasting, blogging, creating YouTube videos, and hosting yearly events for women. What started as an online...2018-03-2825 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #8: How We Made Our First Million At Age 27Sean and I made our first million in network marketing at age 27. We want to share our story starting from the very beginning and what life looks like for us now after working our business for over 15 years. 2018-03-2236 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #7: Finding Balance as a MomI’m not always balanced but I’m really good at NOT being balanced. Being a well rounded person has always been a goal of mine. I remember even as a young girl I would make “to do” lists that always incorporated mind, body, and soul. Now fast forward to my life as a mom of 4 pushing 40 I’ve realized just how far I’ve come in my quest for balance. We all “wannabe” balanced right? Being balanced is like being perfect, ain’t no mama got time for that. I’ve spent...2018-03-1423 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #6: Making The Decision To Have More Kids Or NotMaking the decision to have another baby or not to have another baby is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make. In this episode I'm sharing the story of when I got my tubes tied only to change my mind a year later. I got the tubal ligation reversal surgery and sharing my thoughts now 6 months post surgery and still not pregnant. Finding meaning and purpose in the choices and circumstances of our lives brings peace of mind. It allows us to take our MESS and turn it into our MESSAGE. "Suffering ceases to...2018-03-0826 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #5: Contribution | When It's Already Been Done BeforeIn the past I struggled with understanding my motivation behind the things I do. Like blogging, creating YouTube videos, writing a book, ect. . I questioned my own intentions based on the opinions of others. . I felt shameful at the thought that perhaps it was a need for attention or approval. Like I had deep rooted issues and was trying to fill some sort of void. . I learned that CONTRIBUTION is a basic human need. You know the scripture, “the truth shall make you free”? This TRUTH literally set me free...2018-03-0120 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #4: Marriage Advice with Sean EscobarSean and I talk marriage and share some of our tips and things we've learned in our 13 years of marriage. Also read the blog post by Sean called Midlife Crisis www.wannabebalanced.com/2017/08/midlife-crisis/2018-02-2816 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #3: Wannabe ConfidentSuccessful people aren’t confident BECAUSE of their success. They were FIRST confident in their ABILITY to succeed even if it meant failing multiple times first. ❤️❤️❤️. Join the #WannabeConfident challenge. http://www.wannabebalanced.com/2016/02/february-challenge/2018-02-2718 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #2: The Effects of Social Media | The Good the Bad and the UglySome say we post on social media for attention. I admit it’s partially true, but I think totally normal and not necessarily a bad thing. As long as it’s not our driving force and what makes us feel valued as individuals. God wants us to let our light shine and we can’t do that if we are hiding it. It’s like saying that someone who loves to sing and has the desire to sing on stage is totally self absorbed and narcissistic. Let your light shine on others so that we can ALL shin...2018-02-2723 min
Wannabe Balanced | MINDSET CoachEp #1: I used to think EASIER was BETTER"Do what is easy and your life will be hard, do what is hard and your life will be easy." Les Brown2018-02-2616 min