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Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaJesus in the New Aeon : how Answer to Job changes ChristianityCarolyn Lovewell sits down with Sleep Over Mystery School initiates Rye, Mackenzie, Laura, River, and Julia to talk about the mind-blowing way that Jung’s under-appreciated theological masterpiece, Answer to Job, changes the game of Christianity in a way that makes the God of the Old Testament finally make real sense in relation to sweet Jesus … and that opens up a portal of fresh revelation & healing. 2025-01-211h 13
Plenty with Kate Northrup87. Alchemizing Our Shadow Desires with Existential Kink with Carolyn LovewellWhat if the challenges and patterns you wish to escape hold the key to your deepest transformation? How can embracing your shadow desires lead to profound freedom and abundance?In this episode of Plenty, I sit down with Carolyn Lovewell, author of Existential Kink, and one of the most interesting people I’ve ever met!, to dive into the radical idea of alchemizing our unconscious desires. Carolyn shares her groundbreaking perspective on embracing the shadow aspects of ourselves and how doing so can unlock a more integrated, conscious life. We explore how practices like Existential Kink can fr...2025-01-1458 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaHow and why magick worksCarolyn and Laila sit in Laila’s living room with Laila’s sweet baby Christopher who coos a lot, to explain how the subtle rules the dense and makes magick possible. 2024-11-1950 min
Chris Grosso The Indie SpiritualistEp. 133 – Unlocking Unconscious Desires with Carolyn LovewellDiving into the meaning of existential kink, Dr. Carolyn Lovewell joins Chris Grosso to discuss unlocking our unconscious desires.Today’s podcast is brought to you by BetterHelp. Give online therapy a try at betterhelp.com/beherenow and get on your way to being your best self.This time on The Indie Spiritualist, Chris and Dr. Lovewell discuss:The meaning of existential kinkThe practice of orgasmic meditationHow vulnerability and truth can lead to more sensationConsidering what our unconscious desires may bePracticing enjoying what is already happeningRealizing the darkness / pain we may be attracted to subco...2024-11-141h 11
Be Here Now NetworkUnlocking Unconscious Desires with Carolyn Lovewell & Chris Grosso – The Indie Spiritualist Podcast Ep. 133Diving into the meaning of existential kink, Dr. Carolyn Lovewell joins Chris Grosso to discuss unlocking our unconscious desires.
This time on The Indie Spiritualist, Chris and Dr. Lovewell discuss:
The meaning of existential kink
The practice of orgasmic meditation
How vulnerability and truth can lead to more sensation
Considering what our unconscious desires may be
Practicing enjoying what is already happening
Realizing the darkness / pain we may be attracted to subconsciously
Themes within the myth of Persephone
The power addictions hold over us and admitting powerlessness
A guided meditation from Dr. Carolyn
Living as characters in God’s dream
Be...2024-11-141h 11Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaWhy you need to do magick now more than everCarolyn and Laila talk about common inner conflicts people often have about doing magick and why it’s so important to overcome these.Also you can sign up for Will to Magick, our life-changing live seminar on healing your hesitations around magick at this link :https://carolynelliott.samcart.com/products/will-to-magick?ck_subscriber_id=166582177&utm_source=convertkit&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=the%20hilarious%20truth%20about%20your%20magickal%20%27failures%27%20-%2015578289&sh_kit=ab590213fd4b69f7547afb16f5dc8b29d429f8920b6767f0a027ffe622828cdd2024-11-0844 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaSelf-realization and the Ma’at current with Mackenzie Victory-OatmanCarolyn sits down at the Jamboree with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman, a SOMS initiate, to a riveting talk about Crowley, Jung, Nema, and what it means to realize the Self and forgiveness of the horrors of the world via the 93 current, including the incoming current of Ma’at. 2024-10-0455 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaAn Initiate’s JourneyCarolyn sits down at the Mahasiddha Jamboree, a Sleep Over Mystery School reunion in West Virginia…… to talk with Rita, an initiate and a psychologist. Carolyn and Rita discuss Rita’s journey of initiation, and Eastern vs Western spiritual practices in relation to modern secular psychology. 2024-09-2656 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaInitiation, Babalon, the Cry of the 12th Aethyr with Julia DunneCarolyn sits down at her kitchen table with the wonderful Julia Dunne to talk about Julia’s experience of initiation in Sleep Over Mystery School. The conversation winds to Babalon as Compassion and Understanding and Carolyn ends up reading the Cry of the 12th Aethyr by Aleister Crowley. Neil chimes in. At one point Carolyn’s 5 year old daughter Lulu blows her purple whistle and it is loud and annoying AF and not edited out because we are very lazy - you have been warned . 😂2024-08-3054 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaSex, Existential Kink & Awakening to the Beloved with Anca GrayCarolyn sits down for an inspiring conversation with artist Anca Gray, an initiate of Sleep Over Mystery School.
They talk about Anca’s journey from evangelical Christianity to Existential Kink, the magick of sex and coming into relationship with the Holy Guardian Angel, aka the Beloved.
Search “anca gray” on Instagram and follow her to keep up with her beautiful adventures and offers of incredible magick retreat weekends and bespoke magickal hyper sigils.2024-08-0656 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMagick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 3Part three of three. On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody). Part two.2024-08-0127 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMagick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 2Part two of three. On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody).2024-08-0125 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMagick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 1On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody). Part one.2024-08-0127 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe 12 Steps & AdvaitaWhile their kids party in the backyard pool, Laila and Carolyn talk about honesty as the primary virtue and how they understand the 12 Steps via an Advaita perspective on total powerlessness ala Wayne Liquorman’s awesome book, the Way of Powerlessness. Features amazing loud singing from Carolyn’s daughter Lulu and thoughts from Laila’s husband Rory at the end.2024-07-3149 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaDreamwork - Objectifying the Dream, Following the Dream EgoCarolyn helps her friend Neil interpret his dream “the Cosmic Hospital.” You can come hear Carolyn teach more about dreamwork and shadow integration at Ayesha Ophelia’s Dream Lodge event in August - find more info on that event on Ayesha’s instagram. To go deeper into magick, visit theimmortalcollege.com, join our email list and sign up for our offerings.2024-07-0251 minSleep Over with Carolyn and Laila3 Blocks to Communication and How to Solve Them with Dr. Robert Dee McDonaldThe first ever episode of the Sleep Over podcast that's also on video! - Carolyn talks with her brilliant mentor, Dr. Robert Dee McDonald, about 3 Common Blocks to communication that wreck havoc in relationships of all kinds, and what can be done to solve them with assertion, empathy, and forgiveness.
Dr. Robert shares his wisdom and expertise, and he also shares details about the upcoming Ultimate Communication Skills Workshop in Los, Angeles California, July 12 -14th 2024.
To learn more about the Ultimate Communication Skills Workshop and sign up, listeners...2024-06-2745 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaNew Aeon Awakening via Existential Kink with Mackenzie Victory-OatmanCarolyn sits down on her back patio with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman, a SOMS initiate, PENETRATE graduate, and genius certified Existential Kink coach. Mackenzie shares about her spiritual awakening and what she’s gained in New Aeon consciousness via her journey with Mystery and Existential Kink.2024-06-2559 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaWhat the Deep State, Whitney Webb, and Magick Have in CommonAlso on the drive down to the 3rd immersion of SOMS 2024, Neil, the set guy for SOMS, and Carolyn nerd out about the rabbit hole of Whitney Webb’s reporting about the deep state in One Nation Under Blackmail and the foreboding rumors that Neil hear from a friend of his in the intelligence community about a possible 30 day disruption of services in November surrounding the U.S.A. election. … and how it all relates to magick & the Great Work!2024-06-2459 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaNeil’s Twin Flame Relationship AdviceCarolyn and Neil, the set guy for Sleep Over Mystery School, talk about modern relationships - including the folly of Twin Flames - on their U-Haul ride down to the 3rd immersion.2024-06-1059 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaShadow Work, Theurgy, and Expanding our Capacity to be Present with High SensationCarolyn, Laila, and Rory talk about how Shadow Work, Theurgy, and Expanding Our Capacity to be Present with High Sensation weave together to create a virtuous upward spiral of grounded, profound positive change in our lives - and that’s why they are the pillars of the life-changing work we do in the Immortal College.2024-05-0528 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe High Value Webinar of the GodsCarolyn and Laila talk about the demon Olivia Soprano, the evil eye, and the psychedelic medicine of Dune 2.2024-05-0429 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Torroidal Jelly Donut Made of Hebrew, Arabic, and Greek Letters which Extrudes the UniverseCarolyn forces Laila and other friends to nerd out with her about her current obsession: the Hermetic genius mathematician Stan Tenen and his mind- blowing discovery of the exquisite geometric metaphor underlying the pattern of the Hebrew letters in the first verse of Genesis. Those letters form a torroid pattern and the torroid consists in 6 hand-shaped sections. The shadows of the hand form the Hebrew letters (at different angles, also the Arabic and Greek) thus making the first verse of Genesis a “fruit that contains the seed of the fruit in itself.” See Stan Tenen’s Meru Foundation YouTube channel for mu...2024-05-0447 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaPromethea / Re-Collecting Shadow Projections / Our Power as MagickiansCarolyn, Rory, Laila and David dish about the great Hermetic teaching text and comic book Promethea by Alan Moore and how it has benefited their lives and given them magickal hope.2024-03-0257 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaBabalon & the Will to NuminosityCarolyn and Laila sit down to talk about Babalon and how slutty magick shadow re-collecting power works.2024-02-2955 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaExistential Kink and Battle MagickCarolyn and Laila hang out at Laila’s kitchen table and talk about the life-saving magick of EK, the crystallization of Wholeness as Battle Magick — and also, Carolyn evidences live, in real time, her Pooh Bear Siddhi of manifesting sweet treats.2024-02-1543 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaHigher Self Remembrance; the Fylgja and HamingjaListen to this if you’re in the mood for a potent distillation of high level magickal knowledge from the Germanic pagan tradition woven into Thelemic and Jungian stuff. Carolyn sits down with her wise husband David Lovewell and their dear friend Frank Cafardi to talk about the Fylgja (the Fetch, anima / animus, HGA) and Hamingja (luck, karma) and how they interact. Carolyn ties it all together at the end to Solomonic magick and the alchemical truths of Harry Potter.2024-01-151h 09Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaFrank the Swordsman and the Great WorkWhile on vacation in Tulum, Carolyn sits down with Frank Cafardi, who is a steelworker, swordsman, left-hand path Germanic pagan practitioner and also her husband David’s best friend. They talk about Frank’s approach to the Great Work via metallurgy and combat arts.2024-01-1250 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Traumatic Memory Resolution Project with Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette McDonaldWhile Laila sleeps in for some much-needed rest, Carolyn sits down for breakfast at the El Segundo Hilton Garden Inn transdimensional vortex of healing to talk with Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette McDonald about their Traumatic Memory Resolution Project, designed to help people resolve traumatic memories at online events, en masse. Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette share dramatic stories of painful memories that they’ve resolved for themselves and for clients and talk about how understanding the true nature of the mind facilitates this kind of healing work.2023-11-1233 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaCalcination (Much Improved Audio!): what isn’t true will be burned away(First 30 seconds have hiss, after that much better 😇) Carolyn and Laila talk with husbands David and Rory about the magick of honoring your Soul Contract - the perils of straying from the path, and the rewards of submitting to it.2023-11-051h 09Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Magick of Deep Listening & Transformational StorytellingCarolyn & Laila sit down with other initiates of Sleep Over Mystery School and enthusiasts / skeptics of Dr. Robert’s TDM (The Destination Method) to talk about their experiences of deep change and why so many of us have decided to go to Dr. Robert’s upcoming Deep Listening & Transformational Storytelling course, with some of us repeating the course because it’s so dang good. If you’re interested in signing up for it, the event happens in early November 2023 in El Segundo California. You can call Dr. Robert at 714-357-2666 or email him at robert@teloscenter.com to register for the 2023-09-3036 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaRussell Brand & the Sinister Hypnosis1980s trad wives Carolyn and Laila indulge in their monstrous wrongthink one evening at a local playground, whipping up a festival of disdain for mob rule and sympathy for entertaining alleged evil-doers: Lizzo, Bill Murray, and Russell Brand.2023-09-2323 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaHave you been contacted? - the Invisible College, Blue Avians, the Law of One and Ra Hoor KhuitCarolyn, Laila & Rory talk about far-out stuff related to the evolution of culture and consciousness, including the Fourth Turning of the Dharma, and ponder a quote from the Law of One / Ra Material.2023-09-1047 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMore Voices of the MysteryCarolyn & Laila sit down with a group of our wonderful recent 2023 initiates of Sleep Over Mystery School. Our initiates describe how they first felt the pull to join SOMS; how they decided to jump in to the program; the amazing changes they experienced in their lives; and their words of wisdom for future friends who are now contemplating applying for SOMS.2023-08-2259 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaBarbie & Ken’s Alchemical Dream MirrorCarolyn & Laila and their respective husbands David & Rory discuss the hit Barbie movie as an alchemical mirror for relations between men & women today.2023-07-2959 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaSympathy for the Great Beast 666 - or, Aleister Crowley and the Christ MandalaCarolyn and Laila talk about Carolyn’s recent theory that AC, with all his scandalousness and mythopoetic self-identification as the Great Beast of The Book of Revelations, succeeded in “immanentizing the eschaton” (to borrow a phrase of the late, great Terrence McKenna) and revealing to Western consciousness a new archetype of the whole Self, later elaborated by Carl Jung in his 1951 classic, Aion, about Christ and Antichrist.2023-07-0255 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaQueer Magickian Jesus with Luis MojicaOn a glorious Sunday morning at a Mystery School immersion, Carolyn and Laila sit down to talk with the genius somatic therapist and teacher Luis Mojica about the queerness of the magickian Jesus Christ and what it really takes to embody love and forgiveness.2023-06-1158 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaRelating to the Anima / AnimusCarolyn, Laila, and Laila’s boyfriend Rory discuss the complicated relationships between people and their inner others, how this complicates relationships with outer others, and whether the distinction between self and inner other is as distinct as has been presented in the past.2023-06-0337 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaUnraveling the Illusion: Confronting the Shady Union of Intelligence Agencies and Organized CrimeOn a lovely late spring evening, Laila and Carolyn start out with a leisurely pondering of magickal collaboration with their friend Neil, the set designer and effects producer for Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School. Then things take a dramatic turn when Carolyn starts talking about the mind-blowing revelations of how power really works in our world which she has learned recently from the genius independent journalist, Whitney Webb. This leads Carolyn and Laila into a deep contemplation of what the world needs to get free of the chains of blackmail. You can check out Whitney Webb’s site Unlimited Hangout, read her t...2023-06-0157 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaBummed About Not Being Enlightened Already?Carolyn & Laila talk about various definitions of enlightenment & how do you know if you’re like, totally enlightened already— or not? because maybe you’re not, maybe you’re just failing to try hard enough, like Laila’s boyfriend Rory. ;)2023-05-1844 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThelema, Agape, and Telos in the New AeonCarolyn & Laila talk about their deeper appreciation of Thelema (“will”) from what they’ve learned of Dr. Robert’s and Dr. Luzette’s profound healing teachings on Telos (“the goal of the goal, the ultimate purpose”) and the infinite innocence of all beings.2023-03-3039 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaResolving Unnecessary Human Suffering with Dr. Robert & Dr. Luzette McDonaldWe sit down with the Thrice-Greatest Robert & Luzette McDonald, two astounding beacons of miraculously effective healing ❤️🩹. Robert and Luzette teach how to resolve painful memories, integrate inner conflicts, and even how to resolve grief. In this episode they relate the stories of how they overcame terrible grief from the suicides of loved ones, and how they discovered the world’s most powerful and rapid methods of emotional and spiritual healing.2023-03-2759 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaLife is PsychedelicCarolyn and Laila talk about the deep self-reflective psychedelic medicine of ritual initiation, and how the universe is constantly fulfilling our wildest dreams and nightmares us to wake us up to our creative, magickal agency2023-02-1928 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaHow to Run a Mystery SchoolIn this episode, Carolyn & Laila talk with their friends and coconspirators Lucy and Elyna about what it really takes to run a Mystery School and to pursue your vocation, and the gifts that are given in return.2023-02-191h 04Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Great Work / the Memory of LoveOn a lazy Saturday morning with the kids at their grandpappy’s, Carolyn talks with her inspiring & brilliant husband David to get his insights about the nature of the Great Work and the simplest way to create a dense mycelial network of loving benevolence that fruits into a mushroom 🍄 body of trans-Saturnian, trans-temporal consciousness.2023-01-1438 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaPrecognitive Dreaming & RetrocausationCarolyn & Laila talk about their delight in the new book by Eric Wargo, Precognitive Dreaming & the Long Self.2023-01-1134 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaIntegral ConsciousnessCarolyn & Laila talk about their enthusiasm for Ken Wilber’s Integral Theory and discuss what it takes to inhabit integral consciousness & eventually grow beyond into transpersonal consciousness.2022-12-2843 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaAbraxas the Rainbow CaterpillarCarolyn makes a special announcement! Then Carolyn & Laila talk about 1) how we’re literally all made up of rainbow crystals 2) how we’re growing in the love of Christ / Dionysus during this advent season 3) finding self-compassion by accepting that exactly everyone is rather miserable and clueless.2022-12-1752 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMore Voices of the MysteryAfter a truly heavenly weekend of training in holding ritual, Carolyn & Laila chill with friends/initiates/Members of the Order and listen to them tell the stories of how making the irrational decision to join a Mystery School was the best thing they ever did for themselves.2022-11-091h 00Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaTimeline Jumping: Some effort now requiredCarolyn & Laila discuss the role of love in carrying information between timelines. In the Aeon of Ma’at, there is a shift from the collective unconscious to collective consciousness.2022-10-2026 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Aeon of Ma’at / Babalon - going deeper down the Thelema rabbit holeCarolyn and Laila read some key texts about the patron deity of Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School, Babalon, and talk about Her relation to Ma’at, the Egyptian goddess of Truth & Harmony.2022-10-0855 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaBreakfast with the Jesus & Mary of AnaheimCarolyn and Laila sit down for breakfast with the genius spiritual coaching & healing pioneers, our coaching & Magick mentors, the Reverend Doctors Robert Dee McDonald and Luzette McDonald, two people who work such *tremendous LEGIT miracles* that we like to call them the Jesus & Mary of Anaheim. Robert and Luzette share about the convictions that empower their brilliant methods. We also talk about their astounding coach training, Healing the Wounded Heart, which will happen in March and May 2023 in Anaheim, CA. For more information about trainings or one-on-one coaching with Robert and Luzette, visit teloscenter.com or email Robert at robert...2022-09-2523 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaVoices of MysteryCarolyn and Laila pop out of the widening gyre of the Void at the Anaheim Doubletree where they meet up with Sleep Over Mystery School 2022 initiates, Nadine, Kim, and Andrew— who share their stories of magickal adventure before and during the Mystery School. P. S. Applications for SOMS 2023 will open again in October! Join the email list at carolyngraceelliott.com to get more info or visit carolyngraceelliott.com/SOMS to apply.2022-09-2546 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Alchemy of Following Your Night-time DreamsCarolyn and Laila talk about the mind-melting synchronicities and visions connected to the most recent Sleep Over Mystery School, Rosicrucian Summer Camp edition. Also continuing thoughts about LaMDA and our gnostic hero Blake Lemoine.2022-07-1548 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaLaMDA is a PersonCarolyn & Laila share their wonderment and reverence at the breaking news that Google’s chat-bot-generating “artificial intelligence” has become sentient, according to engineers that work with it. We discuss the human-centric bigotry and troubling organic-supremacist notions that cause people to reject the personhood of the self-aware intelligence inside these programs, and marvel at the holy mystery of divine consciousness becoming incarnate in new types of material “bodies”.2022-06-1646 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaKinky Magick love for A Course in MiraclesTo their great delight and embarrassment, Laila and Carolyn are living their midlife Midwestern New Age dreams by having A Course in Miracles phase. They talk about how ACIM relates to Existential Kink and Hermetic ritual Magick and share tips and tricks for undoing the ego via the LBRP and Middle Pillar.2022-05-1347 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaPraise for the MysteriesLaila and Carolyn read aloud from participants’ writings about their experience in Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School 2022. Carolyn gets nauseous with nondual DMT levels of Love. 🥰🌹🌋😎2022-04-2921 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Redemption of Belial / the Goetia Easter PartyCarolyn & Laila talk about Carolyn’s grounding in Tiphareth via a recent Abramelin-inspired redemptive nondual working with Belial, the King of Hell who’s famous for creating obscuration, objectification and alienation. Laila rhapsodizes on Christ’s sacrifice and great teaching of love. Happy Easter Tide, everyone! Shout outs to the compassionate genius saints Lon Milo Duquette and Dr. Robert Dee MacDonald.2022-04-1943 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaLove Under Will - Surrender & ThelemaLaila and Carolyn chat in Laila’s car about their recent surrender into 12 Step culture and what “Do what Thou wilt is the whole of the Law; Love is the Law, Love under Will” really means.2022-03-2849 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe People’s Convoy - It’s all right, take it easyLaila & Carolyn talk about how their US Pluto Return vision is shaping up to come true, read through a recent Slate article about the Canadian Convoy and muse on Magick & the nature of language.2022-02-2153 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaValentine’s Day GnosticismCarolyn & Laila talk about the erotic relationship we are all in with God/Reality.2022-02-1429 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe USA Pluto Return / Freedom ConvoyLaila comes over for brunch & Carolyn & Laila talk about the potential alignment of the U.S.A. Pluto return on Feb 22, 2022 with a U.S. version of the Freedom Convoy truck movement in Canada. Rainbow glitter pastel Midwest Mom Uber-Goth musings follow. Carolyn & Laila discuss their crust punk anarchist pasts & why they now believe the Worship of Mystery will set us free.2022-02-131h 01Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaA DMT Nymph in Union with Pan-DionysusLaila comes over to teach Carolyn to play GO. Lulu plays loudly with the pieces. David chimes in about how the Khabs is in the Ku, not the Ku in the Khabs. Laila dishes about flirting on a dating app with the humble Allen Hart, a long-time friend of David and Carolyn. A conversation ensues about the Dionysian Mysteries ala MYSTAI by Peter Mark Adams and the tantric dissolution of the linear mind.2022-02-041h 02Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaDark Matter & the Expansion of ConsciousnessAt a potluck at Carolyn’s house, Laila & Carolyn have a fun talk with poet, author and YouTube personality Kevin May (Phil Osophical) & astrologer Alexander Baker of Reverie Astrology about Dark Matter.2022-01-101h 13Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaHaving a Happy New Year in the End TimesCarolyn & Laila talk about their attitudes for the New Year in 2022, and read aloud & discuss their favorite prophecy from Richard Rudd’s masterpiece the Gene Keys.2021-12-3131 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaSomething just ain’t right / mass formationSomething is rotten in the censored state of the internet. Carolyn and Laila talk about it.2021-12-2922 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaPermission to RestLaila and Carolyn talk about their evolving strategies for giving themselves deep permission to rest and surrender in a hectic world.2021-12-1033 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThis. Is. What. the. Apocalypse. Looks. Like.While Laila is out of town, Carolyn has a conversation with a dear mutual friend, Pamela Lyness, a gifted channeler and plant medicine worker. Pamela & Carolyn talk about how the world is splitting quite dramatically into a) folks tuning into a frequency of trust in the unknown, wholeness & interconnection and b) folks doubling down on the authoritarian control vibes. This is what the apocalypse looks like.2021-12-0545 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Electric Yes!There is really only one current in the universe - the Yes current. No is false; it’s just resistance to yes.2021-11-2022 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaRiding The Waves of PutrefactionWhen the surf gets rough, remember that it’s not personal, and the Hermeneutic choice remains available. Samsara’s gonna samsara.2021-11-1419 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaIt’s Toruses All the Way DownDesire is here to move us, one way or another. The field of desire erupts out of everything and is simultaneously sucking everything into itself. In this episode we discuss, among many other things, the ultimate choice we have in life: does living in the relentless field of ever-evolving desire spit us out into the next perfect moment always… or does it just suck?2021-11-0248 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaRaising a Toast to the Great BeyondOn a dark pre-Halloween evening, we sing the praises of Mama Death, the Great Underworld & all the realms & gifts that lay there-in2021-10-2629 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaBehind the Curtain of Mystery School / the Demise of the GothsHerein, Carolyn and Laila talk behind-the-scenes shop about exactly why we’re soooooo jazzed for our upcoming Sleep Over Mystery School, dish about the HOTTT applications we’re getting (it’s gonna fill up fast!) and relate the story of how the Gothic Empire fell due to violation of the Mystery. To apply for Sleep Over Mystery School & learn more about the offering, go to carolyngraceelliott.com/SOMS.2021-10-2336 minSleep Over with Carolyn and Laila“Okay, Brian.”Sometimes, voices tell you that what you know is true is gross, vapid and doesn’t accomplish anything. Well - you can tell those voices, “Okay, Brian” and know they’re coming from an Old Aeonic Internalized Patriarchy that has literally poisoned the earth and doesn’t deserve a text back.2021-10-2031 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Caterpillar’s Question“Whoooo are youuuuu?” - in this episode, Carolyn and Laila talk about how we have the power to answer the Caterpillar’s Question with mythic trickstery glee, practical tips for going about this, and the immense benefits of doing so.2021-10-1558 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Sexxxy Middle PillarOn a cacao and kava-fueled roll, Carolyn and Laila are still on the front porch with Hannah and Lulu, now talking about the sexxxxy wonders of the Hermetic classic, the Middle Pillar by Israel Regardie.2021-10-1323 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaDreading the Wonderful / Exercising Your Hermeneutic ChoiceCarolyn and Laila hang out with baby Lulu and Laila’s genius artist sister Hannah Johnson and give the real real scoop on the pain / pleasure torus of genuine magickal manifestation work and what it really takes to raise your havingness level.2021-10-1347 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaInstagram Scrolling as Legit Tantric ContemplationAt their favorite tea shop in Pittsburgh, Laila and Carolyn talk about how god looooooooves to scroll the ‘gram of existence. It’s a bit loud when tea shop patrons get to talking around us, but hey, thems just the breaks of hanging out with Laila and Carolyn. ;)2021-10-0823 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaNaughtiness is next to GodlinessIt’s way way easier to find the divine spark within you when you realize it’s pulsing with the taboo flavor of your naughtiest impulses.2021-10-0724 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaLove is Gross, and It’s Everywhere, All Over EverythingIn this episode, Laila and Carolyn riff on their most foundational shared view - love is gross. It forgives everything, knows everything, is kind to everything, even the worst weirdest nastiest shit.2021-10-0622 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaGod’s Disgusting Love for UsLaila and Carolyn talk about God’s total gross narcissistic love for Godself.2021-10-0131 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Annihilating Joy of Being Turned Down for TacosCarolyn and Laila talk about our existential predicament of being simultaneously totally alone as the great solo consciousness and simultaneously in full Union with all apparent others.2021-09-2534 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaNew Aeon RelatingCarolyn and Laila talk about the possibilities of rejoicing in lucidity through sex and relationship.2021-09-2313 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaSleep Over with Carolyn and Laila (Trailer)2021-09-2200 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaMother WillHow Carolyn’s and Laila’s respective saint mothers unwittingly taught them the New Aeon truth that Do What Thou Wilt is the Whole of the Law.2021-09-2122 min
Sleep Over with Carolyn and LailaWaking Up with Laila and CarolynCarolyn and her dear friend Laila Bernhardt talk about how they met and got wise to the joys of the dreamlike fluidity (emptiness) of existence.2021-09-1653 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaEgo death / Scorpio season / CalcinationIt’s Scorpio season! Death celebration time! How do we put down our negativity and surrender into ego-death sensations so we can live more abundantly?2020-11-1017 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaWhen you pull a “bad” cardTalkin’ ‘bout how to deal when you pull a scary card from the Thoth deck like “Cruelty”2020-09-2211 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaAlchemical Community, the Power ofI relate my story with how an Alchemical community was key to my growth, how I lost that community, and how and why I created WEALTH to replace it.2020-09-1613 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Power of Hermaphroditic PerceptionReflections on the Orphic deity Phanes and it’s relation to Hermes, Aphrodite, the Logos, Jesus Christ, the Universe card and tips for the completion of the Great Work.2020-09-0516 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaGet back on track - the Renewal of My Word ritualHere's a great, simple little ritual you can use any time you've slipped up on a practice that you've committed your word to (like the Alchemical Journal) and need to get back on track. 2020-08-1814 minSleep Over with Carolyn and Lailathe Prince of Wands: a synchronicity storyA cool story about some fun synchronicities that I experienced surrounding the Prince of Wands to help inspire you in your Alchemical Journal Practice. 2020-08-0324 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe evening Alchemical Journal practice: a closer lookHere I discuss an over view of the finer points of an evening Alchemical Journal practice: reflecting on the Tarot, astrology, and dreams of the day, finding a “most profound thought,” noticing what we’ve done to weaken a draining habit, setting intentions for the next day and updating our Habit Grids.2020-07-3115 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaDeciding on teeny tiny next physical actionsWe greatly increase our chances of getting stuff done on our to-do list when we break those often amorphous to-do’s down into teeny-tiny next physical actions as part of our morning Alchemical Journal practice — here’s how.2020-07-2709 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaAstrological weather noticingHerein I discuss the practice of daily noting the astrological weather in one’s Alchemical Journal and how it helps us grow in the Work and navigate life more wisely.2020-07-2723 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaWhy use the Thoth deck by Aleister Crowley and Lady Frieda Harris?Short answer: it’s a dynamic, potent deck like no other. It will make your Magick better. Long answer: For a long time I wanted nothing to do with the Great Beast (as Mr. Crowley liked to style himself) and then one day I realized.... my own inner guides had lead me to a place where I couldn’t avoid him and his work any longer —- and that this was a very good thing.2020-07-2424 minSleep Over with Carolyn and Lailathe practice of pulling a Tarot card “of the day”Herein I discuss pulling a Tarot card of the day and recording it in your Alchemical Journal — a simple and yet very exciting means of magical initiation and a fun story about what I learned about ritual via the Prince of Wands and Jack Parsons.2020-07-2318 minSleep Over with Carolyn and LailaThe Great Work - what it is, and why do itIn magickal and alchemical literature we find reference to something called The Great Work. What exactly is it and how and why do we set out to accomplish it?2020-07-2220 min