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The Dysregulated PodcastWash Out - Rain and Intense Mood SwingsSend Me a Message! In this episode, Elliot records from inside his car as rain pours down outside, reflecting nicely the turbulence felt within all week. Battling extreme and rapid mood swings that have left him exhausted and overwhelmed, Elliot shares how poor sleep, stimulant medication, grey weather, and sensory sensitivities have compounded to intensify his struggles. As the rain falls mirroring his rapidly dropping mood, he offers listeners a genuine glimpse into the exhausting reality of managing emotional dysregulation and fatigue. --Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought l...2025-05-0113 minThe Dysregulated PodcastPutting a Lid on Extreme EmotionsSend Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, host Elliot Waters reflects on a significant change in his emotional landscape: the flattening of extreme emotions. No more crying in the shower or panic attacks in bed. Stability is the norm—a welcome change—but it’s not all smooth sailing.While life without drastic downturns and hospital trips is a relief, Elliot opens up about the challenges of finding genuine positive emotion amidst this newfound balance. Contentment feels out of reach, with anxiety quietly lurking in the background, and inspiration—often fuelled by stron...2024-12-1121 min
The Dysregulated PodcastIntake Interviews #1 - Estelle (Part 1): Motherhood, Mental Illness and ResilienceSend Me a Message! Content Warning: This episode includes discussions on substance abuse, mental illness, and motherhood challenges. Listener discretion is advised. This episode also contains explicit material. In the first episode of the Intake Interviews, host Elliot Waters sits down with an old friend, Estelle, whom they met during DBT group therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Estelle's story is one of resilience and unbelievable strength, as she opens up about her struggles with substance abuse, postnatal depression, body image and the complexities of living with BPD while being a mother to three young...2024-09-241h 06
The Dysregulated PodcastIntroducing the Intake Interviews: Real Stories of Lived ExperienceSend Me a Message! Welcome to The Dysregulated Podcast and the feature series, the Intake Interviews. In this introductory episode, host Elliot Waters sets the stage for a powerful journey into the world of mental health, through the voices of real people with lived and living experience.The Intake Interviews series dives deep into authentic stories of individuals navigating the challenges of mental illness, offering raw insights into their personal journeys, struggles, and triumphs. These conversations aim to spark open dialogue, reduce stigma, and encourage a greater understanding of the complexities of mental health.2024-09-2405 minThe Dysregulated PodcastMy Therapy Reflections #4 - EMDR and My Internal FamilySend Me a Message! In this episode, Elliot shares an update on his therapy journey so far. As anticipated, navigating a complex case takes considerable effort, but there's progress! With two therapies being utilised simultaneously, it's a challenging yet rewarding process—and you're invited to join the ride! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shap...2024-09-1218 minThe Dysregulated PodcastStuck in Bed - Four Days with Depression + Intake Interview Series UpdateSend Me a Message! In this episode, Elliot takes us through a deeply personal experience of battling depression, recounting four days spent bed-ridden and being unable to face the world. It's a raw and honest look at how mental illness can take over, even for someone who advocates for mental health awareness.Elliot shares some exciting news about the upcoming Intake Interview series, giving listeners a sneak peek into what's in store for the podcast. Tune in for an episode that’s both introspective and forward-looking as we continue to navigate the complexities of mental he...2024-08-2911 minThe Dysregulated PodcastMy Tapering PlanSend Me a Message! IMPORTANT: TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR IF CONSIDERING REDUCING OR STOPPING MEDICATION. My (missing) plan to taper off medications is ready to go. Because of side effects, most notably memory deficits, I have decided to taper off some of my medication. In true Elliot style though I don't really have a plan. But I'm hoping this episode will at least provide the framework for one! This is a big undertaking, especially when you consider I am on eight different medications. This isn't a process that will be resolved quickly. But I can a...2024-05-1020 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #20 - Maximum CapacitySend Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwatersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me...2023-09-1810 minThe Dysregulated PodcastA Win Against Social AnxietySend Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwatersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me...2023-08-2005 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #19 - Night TerrorsSend Me a Message! Night terrors, panic attacks, sweating profusely. It's been a hard few days. But, there are some great opportunities on the horizon. Plenty of gratitude despite some challenges! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support me and t...2023-08-1822 minThe Dysregulated PodcastMy Fear of Google CalendarSend Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwatersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me...2023-08-0211 minThe Dysregulated PodcastStaying the CourseSend Me a Message! Tonight is the first real test of my commitment to sobriety. A high risk situation as my psychologist would say. Lots of social demands, but we have rehearsed this. We can do it. We can Stay the Course. Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-07-2909 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #18 - Run For Your LifeSend Me a Message! Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me...2023-07-2615 minThe Dysregulated PodcastIn the Throes of AnxietySend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Follow on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and @thedysregulated.podcast Yesterday was depression, today it is all about anxiety. The rollercoaster just keeps going!Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-07-2013 minThe Dysregulated PodcastIn the Throes of DepressionSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Follow on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and @thedysregulated.podcast Times are tough. Really tough. And you're all along for the ride with me! Not an easy episode to record this one. But a very honest look at the hard times.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-07-1821 minThe Dysregulated PodcastBorderline Depression: Sinking Into an Emotional AbyssSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Follow on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and @thedysregulated.podcast My insecurities from the past resurface as I regress into a downward spiral. The first of its kind since my last hospital admission. These will continue to happen, but hopefully not as frequently. It is up to me to create a plan to negate these spirals and bounce back quickly.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou c...2023-07-0814 minThe Dysregulated PodcastNeeding Early WinsSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Follow on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and @thedysregulated.podcast Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived Experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support the showTo...2023-07-0208 minThe Dysregulated PodcastThe Lost DaysSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters What day is it? Somewhere the days have got lost in transmission. Working to the bone. What for though? Is it for financial security, the ability to chase ones dreams? Or is it to satisfy an immature part of the psyche that needs to be pulled into line.....Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t...2023-06-2919 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #17 - Short SupplySend Me a Message! Support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwatersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-06-1510 minThe Dysregulated PodcastPost-Show EuphoriaSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters It's official, Elliot the lived experience presenter for the Black Dog Institute is back! Back in a big way! The return is complete and i'm pretty happy with how it went. So listen in and share the euphoria with me!Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.watersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-06-0810 minThe Dysregulated PodcastPre-Show JittersSend Me a Message! Support the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Well, I'm back. Back presenting for the Black Dog Institute! It's been a while but it's show time. Although those usual nerves are hanging around.......Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.watersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-06-0808 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #16Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived Experience is the driving force of this podcast, and it is through this lens that my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and very real account of how various psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence my future.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-06-0107 minThe Dysregulated PodcastRock N Roll StarSend Me a Message! In this episode we go back in time, to when I was sixteen and in high school. This is when my identity disturbance developed and my persona of the rock n roll star did as well. So much of my presentation today was borne out of this period of my life. A period where I just wanted to fit in. And as you will find out in this episode, not much has changed.Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.watersSupport the showTo support the show, 2023-05-3118 minThe Dysregulated PodcastAttention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)Send Me a Message! In this episode we take a deep dive within the brain to find out why ADHD can present itself. It is a very complex developmental disorder and there is more to be said on this topic! But this episode provides an overview backed up by the science and real-world lived experience.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-05-2929 minThe Dysregulated PodcastEverything’s ClunkySend Me a Message! Continuity. According to Google it means, "the unbroken and consistent existence or operation of something over time". And this applies to our headspace as well. We need to have a clear memory or narrative that is consistent throughout our daily existence. And without this ability one finds themselves being tied to the current moment without a clear understanding of what has been, and what is coming. And that is a problem I am having right now! Instagram: @elliot.t.waters AND @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo s...2023-05-2307 minThe Dysregulated PodcastSiege MentalitySend Me a Message! In this episode I discuss using anger for good. But one has to be careful that the anger goes out of control. But when utilised correctly, it is a great motivating emotion.Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.watersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-05-1807 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #15 - Not Depressed, but Very Flat IndeedSend Me a Message! The Dysregulated Podcast is driven by lived experience.Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.waters Follow the show on Instagram @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-05-1206 minThe Dysregulated PodcastRunning With My Inner CriticSend Me a Message! The inner critic. Always by my side. But I am working hard at putting it in its place. And to do that we must follow the plan. Healthy habits, robust routines. Thats how we win this race. Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-05-0410 minThe Dysregulated PodcastFortnightly Check-In #14 - Habit BuildingSend Me a Message! "The secret of your future is hidden in your daily routine". It sure is. But habits, routine and structure are concepts I have always struggled with. And a lot of it has to do with black and white thinking. So they key right now is to introduce more grey into my world. And with your help in keeping me accountable, we are getting there.Support the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-04-2808 minThe Dysregulated PodcastTrade-offsSend Me a Message! Life is full of compromises. Medications and side effects go hand in hand. So what happens if the medications cause cognitive issues, yet exponentially improve mood? Well, Elliot is finding this out right now, and you the listener will be kept up to date all the way!Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.watersSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-04-2706 minThe Dysregulated PodcastMy Great Comeback BeginsSend Me a Message! After six weeks in the psych ward, yours truly is back! Well....hopefully. To be truly "back" a lot of hard work is still yet to come. Really, the hard work starts now! But today I felt something I haven't felt in a long time, and that is hope. Clear, tangible hope. And I think there is a whole lot more of it on the way!Instagram: @elliot.t.waters AND @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can...2023-04-2108 minThe Dysregulated PodcastTaking The Next StepSend Me a Message! This is it. No more medication changes. It is time for the psychological interventions to do their thing. Because unfortunately you cannot medicate personality, self esteem, insecurities etc. The real work starts now. Instagram: @elliot.t.waters AND @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-04-0909 minThe Dysregulated PodcastMy Return to TherapySend Me a Message! Finally some positive news! Elliot has returned to his psychologist. A clear plan moving forward has been created and hope has been restored. It won't be easy, but you'll hear all about the progress being made here on the show. Follow me on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and the show @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-03-3009 minThe Dysregulated PodcastThe Psych Ward Stories: Medication ChangesSend Me a Message! In this episode Elliot explains some of the medication changes he has been presented with and their impacts on his mental health. We also hear how a radio interview Elliot was apart of went, and the difficulties that he faces when doing so. Lastly, Elliot is seeing his psychologist again! The wheels are moving......Follow Elliot on Instagram @elliot.t.waters and the show @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t...2023-03-2905 minThe Dysregulated PodcastThe Discharge Papers #5Send Me a Message! In this episode Elliot recounts his most recent stay in the psychiatric emergency department. Sometimes you have to make some noise to get the help that you need! And thankfully, after this short stay the help has been given. No podcast goes deeper than this one!You can follow the show on Instagram @thedysregulated.podcastSupport the showTo support the show, CLICK HEREYou can follow me on Instagram: @elliot.t.waters2023-03-2317 min