Shows
A Tone Meant For MePregnancy HormonesFurthering along their pregnancy journey, Kaidain Ivy describes the reality of dealing with the us and downs of hormones.@KaidainIvy
2022-10-2907 min
2022-10-2209 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe QueenThe passing of the Queen has set off polarizing emotions. Having grown up in a British household, Kaidain Ivy discusses their conflicting feelings about the monarch’s passing.@KaidainIvy
2022-10-1507 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Other AsianSince the beginning of the pandemic, safe spaces for Asians have been increasingly shrinking. The xenophobia has been suffocating especially when facing Anti Chinese sentiments,@KaidainIvy
2022-10-0808 min
2022-10-0107 min
2022-09-2407 min
2022-09-1706 min
2022-09-1012 min
A Tone Meant For MeSuicide AwarenessThe pandemic has definitely taken a great mental toll on all of us and it is so easy to lose touch and lose track. Kaidain Ivy discusses the unexpected death of a crewmate and how important it has been to lean on the rest of the crew during such a painful time.@KaidainIvy
2022-09-0310 min
A Tone Meant For MeHyperemesisKaidain Ivy discusses their ongoing struggles through hyperemesis during their pregnancy.@KaidainIvy
2022-08-2708 min
A Tone Meant For MeBiggest Collab YetKaidain Ivy is back from a break to discuss the biggest collab of their life.@KaidainIvy
2022-08-2018 min
A Tone Meant For MeMy TattoosWith tattoos becoming more visible and commonplace, Kaidain Ivy breaks down the art permanently inked into their skin.@KaidainIvy
2022-07-0212 min
A Tone Meant For MeMermaiding and Mental HealthKaidain Ivy is joined by Donald/Lagoon of the Deep to discuss mermaiding as an escape.@KaidainIvy
2022-06-2506 min
A Tone Meant For MePersonalizing CommissionsAmidst Pride Month, Kaidain Ivy gives insight into how they customize unique pieces!@KaidainIvy
2022-06-1806 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Death Of My Best Friend Two Years LaterKaidain Ivy reflects back on their two-year journey of life beyond the death of their best friend.@KaidainIvy
2022-06-1108 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Reality Of Dealing With The SurrealWhen history keeps repeating itself, how do you cope with a reality that feels so unfamiliar?@KaidainIvy
2022-06-0407 min
A Tone Meant For MeBirth ControlHaving spent about half of their life on birth control, Kaidain Ivy discussed their findings and experiences and how they have been affected.@KaidainIvy
2022-05-2808 min
A Tone Meant For MeMy BirthdaySome people feel like their life is over at 30, Kaidain Ivy’s is just beginning.@KaidainIvy
2022-05-2105 min
A Tone Meant For MePost Film 5And that’s a wrap! The challenges of heading multiple departments during COVID for “A Walk in the Sun”.@KaidainIvy
2022-05-1414 min
A Tone Meant For MePrepping For Film 5Kaidain Ivy breaks down the challenges of filming for Atlantic Film Coop’s film 5 mentorship program during the pandemic.@KaidainIvy
2022-05-0713 min
A Tone Meant For MeLearning to Diminish Yourself For The Comfort Of OthersLearning to diminish yourself for the comfort of others is something many minorities subconsciously learn as a defence mechanism in order to assimilate. It is much more difficult to consciously examine and unlearn, especially when enforcing your boundaries has been labelled as impolite.@KaidainIvy
2022-04-3007 min
A Tone Meant For MeAdvice For My Younger SelfKaidain Ivy breaks down some of the things they wish they had learned earlier in life.@KaidainIvy
2022-04-2305 min
A Tone Meant For MeSexualityKaidain Ivy muses through their journey of discovering and embracing sexuality.@KaidainIvy
2022-04-1608 min
A Tone Meant For MeMy New TailTaking mermaiding to the next step with a new mermaid tail skin to cover the monofin!@KaidainIvy
2022-04-0904 min
A Tone Meant For MeAgoraphobiaAgoraphobia is a side effect of CPTSD that has been exacerbated over the pandemic due to the increasing level of hostility towards Asians.@KaidainIvy
2022-04-0207 min
A Tone Meant For MeAdoption As An IdentifierThe topic of identity is a reoccurring one to examine especially when specific identifiers have become your introduction as a way to make people more comfortable.@KaidainIvyhttps://www.atonemeantforme.com/episode-66-adoption-as-an-identifier/https://youtu.be/1vSYmkU8ATM
2022-03-2608 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Weight Of Being InvisibleThe weight of being silenced and invisible is a burden with many faces but are met with incredulity or scorn when those experiences are voiced. @KaidainIvy
2022-03-1908 min
A Tone Meant For MeImposter SyndromeThe weight of expectation can feel immeasurable at times. Sometimes the exhaustion of the journey can outweigh and dull the shine of the achievement, especially within the marginalized communities. @KaidainIvy
2022-03-1211 min
A Tone Meant For MeMy First Mermaid Fluke From MertailorHaving gained more experience mermaiding, Kaidain Ivy shows and explains the features of their new mermaid fluke (monofin). @KaidainIvy
2022-03-0512 min
2022-02-2605 min
2022-02-1907 min
A Tone Meant For MeLiving With A House Full Of AnimalsEpisode 60: Living With A House Full Of Animals
2022-02-1210 min
A Tone Meant For MeValentine's DayKaidain Ivy has always struggled with Valentine’s Day and the celebrations surrounding it. Sometimes it’s best to lock dreams away for better days because things can take on a new meaning when you find someone you can fully share your life with.y
2022-02-0506 min
A Tone Meant For MeUpdated StudioGiven some more isolation creation time, Kaidain Ivy walks you through the newly painted studio, breaking down some of the inspiration and creative process.
2022-01-2907 min
A Tone Meant For MeWhen Anxiety Meets DepressionKaidain Ivy breaks down the chaos and conflict that can be suffering from depression and anxiety at the same time.
2022-01-2213 min
A Tone Meant For MeTelling Our StoriesHaving delved more in-depth into cultural identity, Kaidain Ivy explains why it is important to amply BIPOC voices especially when they are telling their stories. Traditionally, this has been overseen almost paternally; carefully moderated, curated and edited to suit one specific audience. Though we have come to recognize other voices in the room, that paternal forced guidance continues to silence those who have little to no voice or platform.@KaidainIvy
2022-01-1510 min
2022-01-0808 min
2022-01-0108 min
A Tone Meant For MeChristmas SpecialKaidain and their fiancé Donald reflect on the past year, COVID Christmas and wish everyone a blessed holiday.@KaidainIvy
2021-12-2508 min
2021-12-2511 min
A Tone Meant For MeOnline HarassmentKaidain Ivy and Donald share and discuss some of their experiences with online harassment and bullying and the lack of failsafes to protect minorities in those situations.@KaidainIvy
2021-12-1807 min
2021-12-1117 min
A Tone Meant For MeOutfit BreakdownAs promised Kaidain Ivy breaks down the symbolism and meaning behind one of their handcrafted outfits.@KaidainIvy
2021-12-0409 min
A Tone Meant For MeAdventures In Our RoomKaidain Ivy and Donald invite you to immerse in the colours and hidden details that create their room.@KaidainIvy
2021-11-2710 min
A Tone Meant For MeMermaidsDonald joins Kaidain Ivy to discuss their experiences swimming as merfolk.@KaidainIvy
2021-11-2010 min
2021-11-1310 min
A Tone Meant For MeDisassociationLiving with trauma presents certain challenges pertaining to disassociation. Kaidain Ivy breaks down their experience with the positive and negative aspects of disassociation.@KaidainIvy
2021-08-2806 min
A Tone Meant For MeCultural Conflict – Canadian Pinay EditionKaidain Ivy is joined by guest Irene to further discuss the cultural conflicts Filipinos face in Canada.@KaidainIvy
2021-08-2115 min
A Tone Meant For MeRepresentASIAN StereotypesKaidain Ivy brings @irsaliendra to talk about the cross-section of stereotypes that is being a Pinay in Canada@KaidainIvy
2021-08-1425 min
A Tone Meant For MeSexual and FetishizationThe cross-section of several societal constructs and what that means to an Asian Woman.@KaidainIvy
2021-08-0709 min
A Tone Meant For MeWhy Unicorns?Kaidain Ivy explains the beginnings of her use of unicorns as a muse and how that has coincided with their healing journey.@KaidainIvy
2021-07-3106 min
A Tone Meant For MeSurvivor’s GuiltKaidain Ivy reflects on their experiences with survivors' guilt and how it has reared its head through recent events.@KaidainIvy
2021-07-2408 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Death Of My Best Friend: One Year LaterA death is always a difficult place to start a new journey. Kaidain Ivy concludes their year of firsts and dealing with grief.@KaidainIvy
2021-07-1712 min
2021-04-2406 min
A Tone Meant For MeJust Because You Don’t Find Something OffensiveEpisode 38 Just Because You Don’t Find Something Offensive
2021-04-1710 min
2021-04-1014 min
2021-04-0322 min
A Tone Meant For MeSliding Into My DMsWe’ve all seen screencaps of ridiculous sliding into someone’s DMs floating around online. It’s always a good laugh. Kaidain Ivy shares some of the conversations they have accumulated.@KaidainIvy
2021-03-2707 min
A Tone Meant For MeWhite SupremacyKaidain Ivy discusses their struggles with their own internal white supremacy and what that actually looks like in the BIPOC community.@KaidainIvy
2021-03-2016 min
A Tone Meant For MeBeing HeardKaidain Ivy expands on finding their voice and what it means to be heard.@kaidainivy
2021-03-1315 min
A Tone Meant For MeFinding My VoiceKaidain Ivy discusses the challenges and realizations that came along with finding their voice.@kaidainivy
2021-03-0615 min
A Tone Meant For MeQnA with Donald and VeeKaidain Ivy is joined by Vee and Donald to answer questions and get to know each other.@kaidainivy@venndattagram@don_bodies
2021-02-2712 min
A Tone Meant For MeOffensive Jokes with Donald and VeeWhen the world seems to have become political correctness gone mad, Kaidain Ivy, Donald and Vee discuss where they feel the line is for them.@kaidainivy@venndattagram@don_bodies
2021-02-2022 min
A Tone Meant For MePronouns with Donald and VeeKaidain Ivy is joined by Vee and Donald to discuss pronouns and the use of pronouns and exploring gender fluidity.@kaidainivy@venndattagram@don_bodies
2021-02-1326 min
A Tone Meant For MeDonaldNotoriously private on relationship details, Kaidain Ivy opens up about her new relationship with Donald and how being in a healthy relationship has changed her.@kaidainivy
2021-02-0605 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Death of an InspirationLoss is a prevailing theme lately. Kaidain Ivy remembers Jennifer Johnson Queen of Gore, a close friend who lost her battle to cancer recently, one month before her 43rd birthday.@kaidainivy@jentheundead
2021-01-3015 min
A Tone Meant For MeLiving With TraumaKaidain Ivy explores a little further into what life looks like for her, living with trauma and PTSD.@kaidainivy
2021-01-2314 min
A Tone Meant For MeInspirationWhere and how does one begin to get inspired to create? Having been frequently asked, Kaidain Ivy explores what inspires her.@kaidainivy
2021-01-1608 min
A Tone Meant For MeSo I Painted My Room..What happens when an artist gets her own house; it gets painted….and painted….and painted….@kaidainivy
2021-01-0912 min
2021-01-0212 min
2020-12-2609 min
A Tone Meant For MeHow I Work Out My Feelings Through DesignKaidain Ivy briefly explains how everything and anything can be turned into art.@kaidainivy
2020-12-1910 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Death Of My Best Friend (Six Months Later)This week marks the birthday of Kaidain Ivy’s best friend who was mourned and discussed in Episode One.Kaidain Ivy reflects on how that grief has evolved and changed and how it has changed her.In loving memory of Tyler Payne.@kaidainivy
2020-12-1213 min
A Tone Meant For MeAsking For HelpSomething as small as asking for help does not always come naturally to some. Kaidain Ivy discusses the importance of learning to and when to ask for help.@kaidainivy
2020-12-0513 min
2020-11-2825 min
2020-11-2126 min
A Tone Meant For MeBeauty Isn’t Bleached with Cynthia StiltsKaidain Ivy and Cynthia Stilts reflect back on their years in the beauty industry and how the focus has always been euro centred.Kaidain Ivy
2020-11-1426 min
A Tone Meant For MeWorking with Cynthia StiltsKaidain Ivy has had the honour and privilege of working with some incredibly talented performers and artists in Halifax. Kaidain Ivy and Cynthia Stilts reflect on their working history and how they have grown as artists together.Kaidain Ivy
2020-11-0723 min
A Tone Meant For MeOur Friendship with VeeVee joins a Kaidain Ivy to talk about how their friendship has endured through the years.Kaidain Ivy
2020-10-3123 min
A Tone Meant For MeDating with VeeVee joins Kaidain Ivy to discuss the ups and downs of dating. Kaidain Ivy
2020-10-2423 min
A Tone Meant For MeMental Health with VeeKaidain Ivy was founded on a platform of mental health awareness.Vee joins Kaidain Ivy to discuss using art as a way of coping with various mental health struggles and it has created a bond of friendship.Kaidain Ivy
2020-10-1719 min2020-10-1034 min
A Tone Meant For MeMiscarriageAs a woman, a lot of focus and value is placed on my ability to procreate and it is seldom discussed how a pregnancy that does not result in birth can mentally, emotionally and physically affect. It is seen as a fact of life, just something to overcome and I had no idea how prevalent it is or how so many women suffer through it alone because it isn’t something that is frequently discussed.Kaidain Ivy
2020-10-0315 min
A Tone Meant For MeSelf HarmHaving been vocal and public about my lifelong struggles with self harm addiction, I will be exploring the different ways that it has manifested in my life over the years and the challenges I face overcoming it.Kaidain Ivy
2020-09-2618 min
A Tone Meant For MeBeing Evicted During A PandemicThis year has been a year of upheaval without being Reno-victed from the place I have been living in for several years because it is not up to code.Add a housing crisis and 1% vacancy and I find myself I.The middle of yet another middle.Kaidain Ivy
2020-09-1908 minA Tone Meant For MeVaderIt’s amazing how miraculous being blessed with a dog has been. Vader has taught me how to love and care and trust in a living being who loves me unconditionally. I have fought tooth and nail to keep him in my life and he has protected me without even understanding what was going around him. He is the most loyal friend and I am constantly amazed by how intuitive and caring he is.Kaidain Ivy
2020-09-1221 min
A Tone Meant For MeWhite PrivilegeMany people are still confused and wary of the term white privilege. It does exist. We can be a part of that shift in culture if we inform ourselves and listen to other people’s experiences. These are some of mine as a person of colour in Canada.Kaidain Ivy
2020-09-0539 min
A Tone Meant For MeGrowing Up Without RepresentationFilipino growing up in a British family surrounded by caucasian representationJust some observations.Kaidain Ivy.
2020-08-2921 min
A Tone Meant For MeSaying NoThe word "no" is often taken for granted.My own ability to assertively say "no" has greatly impacted my growth as a human being and healing process.I hadn't realized until recently just how many people, myself included feel uncomfortable saying the word "no" because of how other people react to it.Just some observations. Kaidain Ivy.
2020-08-2212 min
A Tone Meant For MeBe NiceWords matters.Having been involved in some extremely eye-opening conversations as of late, I will be exploring how the phrase "Be Nice" has affected my traumas in the past.This understanding within myself has been instrumental in my own healing process and will continue to be food for thought going forward for me.Kaidain Ivy.
2020-08-1516 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe BeforeThe world is not what it was in January.I will be discussing my mentality going into isolation and what fuels my current mindset in our new Covid-19 reality.Kaidain Ivy.
2020-08-0818 min
A Tone Meant For MeThe Death Of My Best FriendThrough this new podcast, I will be exploring the emotions and experiences that have fuelled my designs starting by discussing the death of my best friend. With isolation and Covid-19 restrictions, grief has been a challenge to face without a physical community. In an honest discussion, I am finding new avenues to understand my griefKaidain Ivy
2020-08-0141 min2020-07-2000 min