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Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 22 - 5150 February: Chapter 4 - The Tech F&^% February Rampage - Goes Full OnMidlife Misery: The Journals - A Podcast - 5150 February - Chapter 4: The Tech F&^% of February- Goes Full OnIn this episode I wrap up the timeline details of February 3, 2024Another day full of tech foolery that began overnight in the early morning hours when most people are sleeping.I received several notifications from a DIFFERENT TV streaming application that new devices, in neighboring cities, were logging into my accountThe emails segued into more tech foolery when my narcissistic abusive Ex Husband fanned the flames with his tale of 2 people trashing VPN’s...2025-05-231h 07Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 21: 5150 February - Chapter 3: VPN’s are BAD MMMMMMkayyyyyIn this episode I wrap up the timeline details of February 2, 2024Which was a day full of tech foolery that began with a tv streaming app malfunction. As the day went on there was the purchase of a VPN. In the evening I received a weird reaction from my EX when I mentioned a conversation about WiFi networks that I had with an old co-worker/frenemy.February 2nd culminates with a very odd conversation my EX initiated about his suspicions about witnessing tell tale signs of the old neighbor. During that conversation my EX also expressed his...2025-05-161h 14Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 20: 5150 February - Chapter 2: The Tech F&*% Muckraker ScapegoatSeason 1 Episode 205150 February - Chapter 2: The Tech F&*% Muckraker ScapegoatIn this episode I give a brief historical recap of all of the technological incidents that my Abusive, Narcissistic Ex Husband created and used to claim that I suffered from severe mental illness and commit me into the involuntary psychiatric hold - the 5150 of February 2024I continue to provide the timeline details of February 2, 2024 - 11 days before the involuntary psychiatric hold - the 5150 of February 2024The details of the day and night of February 2, 2024 include that FBI SURVEILLANCE VAN wifi network that m...2025-05-091h 11Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 19: 5150 February - Chapter 1: The Calm Before the Atmospheric River of DeceitSeason 1 Episode 195150 February - Chapter 1: The Calm Before the Atmospheric River of DeceitI am FINALLY at the point of the story where I am FINALLY going to get into all of the gory details of February 2024February 2024 is the month of the infamous 5150 hold - The infamous 5150 hold that my Abusive, Narcissistic Ex Husband initiated and COMMITTED me into - ALL BY HIMSELFThe 5150 hold that my Abusive, Narcissistic Ex Husband initiated and COMMITTED me into and BLAMED THE ENTIRE DEMISE OF OUR MARRIAGE ON (at least at this t...2025-05-011h 08
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 18: The Mysterious MotiveSeason 1 Episode 17: The Mysterious MotiveIn this episode I take another break from the timeline details to explore MOTIVE and EFFORTMotive is the elusive WHY - the question I keep getting asked, ad nauseam, by the royal EVERYONEWhy did my ExHusband go through so much effort to make me appear to be mentally deranged and dangerous???Why did my ExHusband claim that the only way to salvage our marriage was MY RESPONSIBILITY and the only way I could have saved my marriage was to check myself into a mental hospital...2025-04-271h 16
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 17: New Year, New..........Husband????Season 1 Episode 17New Year, New…………..Husband????In this episode I jump back into the timeline details for the remainder of January 2024Before I do that I briefly discuss the images on last week’s episode webpage - Season 1 Episode 16 - The Foundation of Fuckery - Many of the images I posted on last week’s episode’s webpage are there to help me tie together some details of the story that don’t immediately seem obvious or relevantHowever, with the huge amount of hindsight I have - the images Could be VERY REL...2025-04-171h 11
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 16: The Foundation of FuckerySeason 1 Episode 16The Foundation of F@$#eryI take a break from the timeline details of January 2024 to incorporate many of the details and characters I have presented in the story so far.I take a break from the timeline details of January 2024 to build the very malevolent foundation of my Ex’s chaotic plan. I explore some of my Ex’s possible motives. I explore the timing of my ex’s actions. I explore my Ex’s connections at work - mainly - my Ex’s co-workers. I explore how each one o...2025-04-101h 13
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 15: New Year, New SignsSeason 1 Episode 15In this episode I examine the evidence of tampering - much like the broken glass coffee mugs I mentioned in last week's episodeThe tampering that could be evidence of potential longterm poisoning. This evidence existed in the old apartment inside the tea kettle I used daily to heat the water for my morning coffee I threw that tea kettle/piece of evidence out into the garbage in November 2023 when my EX and I moved into the new apartmentThe instant coffee I drank daily - also showed NEW signs o...2025-04-031h 04
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 14: New Year, New Former ColleaguesEpisode WebpagePodcast WebsiteSpreaker Supporter's Club LinkBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileSeason 1 Episode 13I begin this weeks episode with a brief rundown of all of the signs my EX displayed that are indicative of his propensity for Narcissistic Personality Disorder and the wide variety of societal systems that he used as weapons against me. I briefly discuss the signs that make it obvious that my EX is lying about the artwork he’s been claiming that I threw away - Signs that are blatantly obvious and can be see...2025-03-271h 02
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 13: New Year, Old HabitsI go over the timeline details of the 2nd week of January 2024 I speak to the fact that I was waking up to the idea that something was terribly WRONG in my marriage and with my Ex - my gut instinct was screaming out to me but my rational brain was desperately trying to talk me out of it but I was feeling a power shift in my relationship and it wasn’t a positive one.I talk about how the signs of my EX’s financial abuse were clearly there, but were completely lost on me a...2025-03-201h 13
Midlife Misery: the JournalsMidlife Misery: The Journals - A Podcast - New Year Last Days- Season 1 Episode 12In the episode I give a little recap of the factual evidence that’s been presented so far in my medical records and text messages - I’ll be presenting new evidence that’s been provided by my close friends and that also appears in public documents and now that we’re finally in the January 2024 portion of the timeline things begin to ESCALATE quickly So will the amount of NEW information I incorporate into the story - It’ll begin to seem like a never ending downpour - The recap of...2025-03-131h 10
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 10: Duplicitous December and the Calm Before the ISH Storm - Part 1Season 1 Episode 11This is part 2 of last week’s episode In this episode I revisit last week’s events where my EX and I had to be in the same room and he was asked to provide truthful answers to some very important questions about February 2024 when he admitted me into an Involuntary Psychiatric hold/5150 all by himself 12 hours after I was seen at a local Urgent Care During my visit to the local Urgent Care the observations noted by the medical doctor made zero mention of any of the things my EX told the Emergency Room t...2025-03-061h 07
Midlife Misery: the JournalsMidlife Misery: The Journals – A Podcast Bonus Episode – Supporters Club Preview Ep 5 - The Story of Me & My Journey: From Family HistoryEpisode WebpageBlueSky ProfilePodcast WebsiteTikTok ProfileThe content of this Episode is meant for a mature audience and could be triggering for some - this episode discusses and contains depictions on the topics of child abuse and suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listeningSupporter’s Club Preview Ep #5This episode is pretty straightforward - I...2025-03-021h 10
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 10: Duplicitous December and the Calm Before the ISH StormEpisode WebpagePodcast WebsiteBlueSky Social ProfileTikTok ProfileFlashes Social ProfileSeason 1 Episode 10In this episode I give a brief recap of the events in the story so far beginning with September 2023 through November 2023I talk about this past week’s events where my EX and I had to be in the same room and he was asked to provide truthful answers to some very important questions and the only question that made him clam up and immediately respond with “no comment” was the question he was asked about the In...2025-02-271h 11
Midlife Misery: the JournalsMidlife Misery: The Journals – A Podcast Bonus Episode – Supporters Club Preview Ep 4 –A Daughter’s Quest for Recognition: My Dad’s Untold LEpisode WebpageWebsiteBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileSupporter’s Club Preview Ep #4In this episode I talk about my frustration with the lack of results I received after my years of solid effort to get acknowledgment for MY DAD and his service to the Local Police Department In a city with a hardline MAGA stance and stronghold within its City Council My numerous requests that I’d made that had been dismissed over and over by local Law Enforcement and were completely ignored by the City CouncilA Cit...2025-02-221h 08
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 9: The Mc Pnutz MethsGiving, with Special Guest ALEXA - Season 1 Episode 9In this episode I give a shout out and make a dedication to my #1 FAN an unexpected FAN - but a FAN nonetheless During my dedication speech I try and give my #1 FAN a very important financial lesson about the difference between a Line of Credit and a Deposit Account. My #1 Fan has been actively assisting my EX with his gathering and preparation of the financial documents he’s been providing to the court during our divorce. The very important detail - the difference between a Line of Credit and a Deposit Account - is...2025-02-201h 05
Midlife Misery: the JournalsBonus Supporter's Club Preview Ep 3 - Reflections on Family and Legacy: Confronting GriefEpisode WebpageSupporters club preview #3In this episode I read the other journal entry I made on June 23, 2023 - on the very bad no good day that I had a difficult time grappling with the lack of headway I was making in getting anything on my list of things I was trying to get accomplished with my dad’s memory and legacyI read the journal entry entitled November 21, 2024 navigating family drama - lessons from my childhood - hidden journal entry June 23, 2023Im this Blog entry I discuss my process and how I wa...2025-02-1655 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 8: Soft Landings and Broken Safety NetsWebsiteEpisode Webpage for Season 1 Episode 8Season 1 Episode 8In this episode I speak to the fact that its my 1 year anniversary of the involuntary 5150 hold my EX successfully placed me in using only his LIES and FALSIFICATION of MY medical records, he didn’t even need law enforcement or my psychiatrist - he knew the game and played it perfectlyI talk about gaslighting and how my EX slowly ramped up the fire, making it hard to see as it’s happening by the time I realized what was going on, it was t...2025-02-131h 11
Midlife Misery: the JournalsBonus Supporters Club Preview Ep 2 - Forgiving Family: Navigating Trauma & Family Dynamics -Link to Episode WebpageLink to Journal Entry I read in this episode on the BlogLink to the WebsiteWelcome to Midlife Misery: The Journals - Supporters Club Preview Episode 2In this episode I talk about my relationship with my Mom and how my years of work in therapy helped me to forgive my Mom and to see how her pain shaped some of the mistakes and her treatment of meI also speak to the forgiveness I worked to have for my Stepmom - while at the same time...2025-02-081h 08
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 7: Narcissistic Abuse in Relationships: Analyzing Texts and Manipulations from My Ex -Episode WebpageLink to Website Season 1 Episode 7In this episode I talk about my Ex’s extreme patterns of manipulation and gaslighting I point out the different photos my EX sent out as “proof of the damage” in the apartment that he claims to have found when he went back “the other day”The photos that show ZERO damage are the photos that have not been edited and were taken on April 6, 2024 The photos that show actual damage - including our ripped up marriage certificate my EX can be seen holding up with bo...2025-02-061h 02
Midlife Misery: the JournalsBonus Supporters Club Preview Ep 1 -Mental Health Matters: Addressing Suicide in Law Enforcement***This episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening***Midlife Misery, the JOURNALS - Supporters Club Preview Episode These episodes are going to be a bit different than the regular season episodes They aren’t going to follow the timeline of the Crazy Train Bananas - cyber death - long term poisoning plot...2025-02-0157 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 6: Is it ME, Menopause, or Men-O-Poison???In this Episode, I speak to the text messages and accompanying photos my EX sent to my friend on April 12, 2024 - the day he filed for divorce.In his text messages my EX claims he went back to the apartment and observed “damage in the apartment” and claims that I caused the damage, however, the majority of the images he sent to my friend were edited on the same day he sent them. Ironically, the photos that are not of damage to the apartment are timestamped on April 6, 2024, the day my EX went to the apartment to g...2025-01-301h 10
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 5: I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOberSeason 1 Episode 5I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOberIn this episode I give examples of my spouse’s ongoing “misinformation campaign” he conducted post spousal abandonment and on the day he filed for divorce.During that time my spouse continued to PRETEND to be concerned about me, my mental health, my reality, and my safety - while he maliciously spread BLATANT LIES to my close friends about the days leading up to our “separation” - and conveniently leaving out the PERTINENT details about his meeting with his divorce attorney and his FILING of PETITIO...2025-01-2358 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 4: The DEEPBLOATware of WIFIGATE - Anchor Face of DeathCanvas Rebel Online Magazine ArticleEpisode 4 Season 1 Page on Website - mmmblmd.comMidlife Misery WebsiteIn this Episode: I give a brief description of how I was able to view the MANY rogue devices that connected to our Wifi and interchanged connections between Wifi and Ethernet.I describe the difference between a Therapist/Psychologist and a Psychiatrist and tell a little about which one has the authority to diagnose and prescribe medication. I also describe how schedule 2 substances are handled when they are prescribed and the guidelines that must be followed w...2025-01-1657 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 3: The WIFIGATE Scandal and the Friday the 13th of Cryptober Massacre****The content of the following Podcast is meant for a mature audience and could be triggering for some - this episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening****In this episode I discuss January 9th, 1984 and how this WAS the most impactful day of my life up until my Narcissist, Abusive, Spouse decided to change that...2025-01-091h 04
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 2: The Nightmare B4 CRYTOberLink to the WebsiteIn this episode I introduce the McPnutz family - who - along with - the Tobias Funke of Therapists, SGT & PPT the nefarious neighbors - round out my Anchor Face of Death/ExHusband's Stalker Death Posse that continues to harass, stalk, and make my life a living hell to this day.I provide a short history of my relationship with the McPnutz family and how I failed to see how intertwined in our life they had become. My Anchor Face of Death hid his flying monkeys well. I describe more o...2024-12-251h 04
Midlife Misery: the JournalsBONUS Journal Mini Episode - Malice in WIFILAND 2.0Website In Season 1, Episode 1 - titled MALICE IN WIFILAND - I referenced a specific blog post of my journal timeline of the events that occurred in late September 2023 - In this is a mini-sode I will be reading that blog post as it appears on the website for those that choose to listen to the content as opposed to reading it on the website. The story as told in the podcast and blog and through visual presentation of my medical records and text messages is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be i...2024-12-2329 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsSeason 1 Episode 1: Malice in WIFILANDSupporters WebPageWebsiteLink to Blog Entry with WIFIGATE timelineIn this Episode I give a brief history about how I met my Anchor Face of Death and my ExBFF - The Tobias Funke of TherapistsI introduce “THE NEIGHBOR ”my spouse refers to him in my Medical Paperwork. I give a brief background of the YEARS LONG TENSION BETWEEN OUR APARTMENTS beginning in 2020 that escalated to the MASSIVE EVENT in October 2023 That MASSIVE EVENT in October IS the beginning of the CRAZY TRAIN BANANAS STORY that landed me in the hos...2024-12-1952 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsIntroduction Part 2 - Midlife MiseryEpisode web pageIn this episode I expand more on the intricacies of Involuntary Psychiatric Holds across the US. I speak to the criteria for why a person can be held, who can initiate the hold and what the legal process is. I give more detail on how my life has changed since that fateful day on February 13th, 2024 when my spouse took me to a mental hospital when I asked him to take me to an emergency room, due to extreme physical symptoms that I was suffering. Because of my spouse's severe DISHONESTY & OUTRIGHT LIES...2024-12-1238 min
Midlife Misery: the JournalsIntroduction Part 1 - Midlife MiseryWebsite My name is Launa This is my story and its a story about:Gaslighting and ManipulationSurviving my marriage to a Narcissist Harassment and Stalking via Flying monkeys and bluetooth TrackersCyber-terrosism /Gangstalking / Cyberstalking My Marriage to a Kratom addicted, narcissist & sociopath - Who - by all current appearances and reports from my network - has added meth addict to the listThis is a story aboutSpousal AbandonmentLaw Enforcement manipulation Mental Health System Abuse Violations of the HIPPAA family privacy rulesViolations of Pr...2024-12-0531 min