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More to the Story with Lea RubashkinMishpatim: Where Revelation Becomes ResponsibilityIn this episode, we return to Har Sinai, but not to the thunder and revelation, but to what came next.Parshas Mishpatim moves us from the ecstasy of receiving the Torah into the detailed laws that shape a holy society. I explore what it means that immediately after Sinai, we are given laws about slavery, dignity, financial responsibility, protecting the vulnerable, honoring parents, and guarding the integrity of our communities.These laws can feel technical or even uncomfortable. But beneath them is something deeply tender: G-d showing us the structure required for His presence to...
2026-02-111h 16More to the Story with Lea RubashkinYisro: From Covenant to MarriageIn this episode, I explore Parshas Yisro and what it truly means to receive the Torah. Not as an abstract moment in history, but as a binding marriage between God and the Jewish people.I speak about why this Parsha is named for Yisro, what his arrival makes possible, and how structure and boundaries are not limitations but the conditions that allow intimacy to survive. I explore Moshe’s leadership, the cost borne by Tzipporah and their children, and why safeguarding the Jewish home is foundational to revelation.We look at what it means to he...
2026-02-021h 21More to the Story with Lea RubashkinBeshalach: Praying with Our FeetIn this episode, I sit with Parshat Beshalach and share what its stories are teaching me about fear, trust, and timing. I reflect on what happens when faith collapses under pressure, how silence can be either oppression or power, and why learning when not to react is a form of spiritual maturity.I speak about miracles that only arrive after movement, the difference between prayer and action, and what it means to walk forward before the path is clear. I explore the feminine capacity to hold discomfort, the danger of ignoring fear, and how trust is rebuilt...
2026-01-281h 30More to the Story with Lea RubashkinBo: A Journey Beyond TrustIn this episode of More to the Story, I learn Parshas Bo and reflect on what happens when redemption finally turns from concept into movement. We walk through the last of the plagues and the first of the mitzvos, especially sanctifying the moon and Korban Pesach - the moment we leave Egypt with our families and reclaim our voice.But Bo also reads like an inner map: redemption begins when we’re willing to face Pharaoh, the darkest chamber we’ve avoided, and say yes to G-d before we feel clean, ready, or worthy. I share what it m...
2026-01-201h 05More to the Story with Lea RubashkinVa’eira: Breaking the Illusion of SeparationIn this episode I reflect on the story of the plagues, not as history but as an inner map. Egypt is not only a place we once left, it is a state of constriction that lives inside us. Va’eira is the moment when redemption begins to touch what has been numb, defended, or frozen.I explore how the plagues are not random punishments, but precise corrections to a worldview that separates G-d from nature, spirit from body, masculine from feminine. Each plague confronts a different form of coldness, indifference, denial, misplaced passion, and invites warmth, presence, an...
2026-01-141h 18More to the Story with Lea RubashkinShemos: When Darkness Scrambles Masculine and Feminine0:00 Part 1 – Overview of the Parsha1:09:28 Part 2 – Deep Dive + CommentaryIn this episode, I explore why this Parsha is called “Names,” and what it means to hold onto your identity in a place that wants to reshape you. I talk about faith and scarcity, how money, food, and “security” can either strengthen trust in Hashem or feed exile-mindset. I reflect on how exile only has power when we internalize it, and how unity, especially guarding our speech, becomes a spiritual protection.From there I touch on the confusion of masculine and feminine roles, what it does to the...
2026-01-081h 58More to the Story with Lea RubashkinVayechi: The Vision That Survives ExileIn this episode, I explore Parshat Vayechi, the final Parsha of Sefer Bereishit, the moment where exile quietly begins. As Yaakov and Yosef prepare to leave this world, the Torah shifts us into a new phase: one where G-d is no longer revealed from above, but discovered from within.I reflect on Yosef’s descent into Mitzrayim as the original map for Jewish exile, and on the role of Rachel as the hidden mother who accompanies her children through darkness. Through Midrash and Chassidic teachings, I look at how Yosef learned to see G-d in the pit, in...
2025-12-311h 08More to the Story with Lea RubashkinVayeishev: Releasing the Vows Written in FearIn this week’s episode, I explore the Torah’s first deep conversation about jealousy, fragmentation, and what happens when the challenge is no longer outside us but within our own family. The jealousy between brothers, the wounds inherited from their mothers, and what it means that Yaakov loses his prophecy for twenty-two years.We look closely at how Yehuda’s choice to go down as part of his search to change the new reality ultimately becomes the beginning of his own transformation, and how Tamar meets him with a braid of modesty, intuition, courage, and wisdom that o...
2025-12-091h 17More to the Story with Lea RubashkinVayishlach: Facing Danger and Holding What HurtsIn this episode, I walk with Yakov as he leaves Charan after twenty years of inner work in Lavan’s home. Everything he lived through becomes the preparation he needs to face Esav, not only the brother he once fled, but the part of himself he has not yet made room for. We look at Yakov’s threefold approach to danger, the crossing of the Yabok River, and why he refuses to leave behind even the small jugs. We sit with his long night of wrestling, the wound he carries from it, the name he receives, and how identity take...
2025-12-031h 56More to the Story with Lea RubashkinVayetzei: The Power to Rewrite DestinyIn this week’s episode, we follow Yaakov as he leaves the holiness of his parents’ home and enters the world of Lavan, a place of concealment, deception, and spiritual challenge. I explore Yaakov’s preparation, his years of learning, the dream at Har HaMoriah, and the spiritual descent that becomes the foundation of the Jewish future.I focus on Leah, the sister whose tears, prayers, and hidden world reshape her destiny and ours. We look at how our sages describe her as “destined” for Esav, and how through relentless tefillah she becomes the mother of most of the tri...
2025-11-261h 13More to the Story with Lea RubashkinToldot: The Strength to Stay PresentIn this week’s parsha, I explore the story not only as the birth of two brothers, but as the unveiling of two forces inside each of us, the godly soul and the animal soul. I speak about Rivka’s clarity, her courage, and the way her prophecy becomes a map for our own inner work.I look at Yitzchak through the lens of gevurah, not as passive, but as someone who mastered his instinct so completely that he could stay present even when everything in him wanted to run. And I explore Esav not as a vill...
2025-11-191h 04More to the Story with Lea RubashkinChayei Sarah: The Body as a Home for G-dIn this episode of More to the Story, I talk about how the energy of Vayeira flows into Chayei Sarah. These parshiyos are not separate stories but one current of guidance that keeps unfolding.I speak about Avraham’s open heart, his hospitality, his prayers for Sodom, and how they teach us what it means to love without agenda. I also look at Lot’s home and how the energy of a parent shapes the moral weather of a family.I spend time with Sarah. Her abductions. Her conversations with Hashem inside darkness. The way her...
2025-11-131h 36More to the Story with Lea RubashkinWhat My Name is Teaching Me About My MissionIn this episode, I share a story about a book my husband handed me that cracked something open, and how discovering the legacy of Rebbetzin Devora Leah gave me language for a mission I’ve been living without knowing.The name I carry has introduced me to parts of my soul I’ve only recently come to understand. I also reflect on what it means to honor the "animal soul" within us and why it may be the missing piece in the sacred work of marriage, motherhood, and inner connection.For those learning that the jour...
2025-11-0640 minMore to the Story with Lea RubashkinLecha Lecha: An Annual Journey InwardIn this episode of More to the Story, I talk about what it really means that Avraham believed. Not only that he believed in Hashem, but that he believed in his own ability to hear truth. He trusted what he received. He didn’t make himself small. That kind of faith is what begins every healing journey.I also speak about why the first mitzvah Avraham is given is on the body. Hashem asks him to bring holiness into the most physical and vulnerable place. We are not meant to rise above our bodies, but to invite G...
2025-10-301h 23More to the Story with Lea RubashkinNoach: Swimming Through the FloodIn this episode of More to the Story, I look back at last week’s Parsha and ahead to the one that’s coming, and I find myself standing right in between them. I talk about what it means to live with the Parsha, to feel that each week carries its own heartbeat, its own invitation to grow and return.For me, connecting to the Parsha is not about studying alone. It is about being part of a living, breathing story that moves through time and through us. Each week offers its own light, its own work. Some...
2025-10-231h 15More to the Story with Lea RubashkinBereshit: The Battle for Our Inner IsraelIn this episode of More to the Story, I talk about the very first Rashi in the Torah and how it is also Rashi’s own introduction to himself. Rashi asks why the Torah begins with the creation of the world instead of with the first commandment. The answer, he says, is that Hashem started with creation so that when the world accuses us of taking what is not ours, we can remember who the true Creator is.The Rebbe takes it further. He explains that the land of Israel is not only a place on a ma...
2025-10-201h 15More to the Story with Lea RubashkinReturn to a Truer Version of TeshuvahThis episode was recorded just before Yom Kippur. It is about Teshuvah, but not in the way I once understood it. Like much of my life, its meaning keeps evolving. I reflect on how the language of repentance has often felt like a weapon, and how I am learning to reclaim it as something tender and true.Like many of my offerings, this one is unpolished and raw. It is a voice memo of the soul, shared from the middle of the process. I speak about what Yom Kippur means to me this year, the questions I...
2025-10-011h 13More to the Story with Lea RubashkinSometimes the Questions Come After the Telling (Bonus Episode)In this Q&A, I speak from the place I’m still in, where clarity and doubt live together. I talk about nearly walking away from my marriage and what helped me stay. I share what it means to carry something too heavy alone and what becomes possible when both people keep showing up.We talk about the power of the 12-step world and the places it cannot reach. I speak about the depth of plant medicine and the quiet strength of women I’ve met along the way. I share what it means to let go of s...
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More to the Story with Lea RubashkinYou Don’t Have to Figure It All Out on Your OwnIn this first episode of More to the Story, I return to where it all began. Not just the beginning of healing, but the beginning of me. I talk about growing up in Crown Heights in a large Chabad family, shaped by strong voices and quiet expectations, and the inner world I carried through it all.I share what it was like to fall in love, become a mother, and then watch the life I had built start to crack open. I speak about discovering my husband’s addiction, how it stirred memories I had buried, and ho...
2025-09-091h 18
In Search Of More with Eli NashNavigating Marriage after Recovery w/ Lea Rubashkin (Part 2 of 2)In part two of our In Search of More featuring Lea Rubashkin, the conversation explores the emotional intricacies of pain, compassion, and accountability in both personal and communal settings. Eli and Lea emphasize the importance of processing anger as a vital step in healing from trauma and addiction, cautioning against the long-term impact of unaddressed emotions. They discuss societal and familial expectations, particularly the historical sacrifices women have made in relationships, and advocate for open, honest conversations about personal struggles. The discussion encourages embracing authenticity and vulnerability, emphasizing the need for self-care and balance in caregiving roles to cultivate...
2025-01-262h 00
In Search Of More with Eli NashNavigating Addiction’s Impact on Marriage and Spirituality w/ Lea Rubashkin (Part 1 of 2)In this episode of In Search of More, Lea Rubashkin returns to the podcast to delve into the profound impact of addiction on relationships, focusing on themes of betrayal, healing, and personal growth. Lea shares her journey of navigating the emotional and spiritual challenges posed by a partner’s addiction, particularly the sense of isolation and loss of self-worth it can create. She emphasizes the importance of open communication and mutual effort in rebuilding emotional safety within a marriage, advocating for vulnerability and shared accountability in overcoming trauma.
The conversation also explores the broader so...
2025-01-192h 23
In Search Of More with Eli NashEmbracing Vulnerability: Journeys of Healing and Recovery w/ Lea RubashkinLea Rubashkin joins Eli Nash on this episode of the In Search of More podcast to discuss healthy sexuality, overcoming addiction, her own battles with sexual abuse and much more.
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