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My Spouse Died TooRide Or Die: Loving Through Tragedy, A Husband's Memoir (2 of 3)Vaping to cope. THC and CBD. Jane needs Jarie to be her ROCK. Failure lump in Jarie’s throat. The feeling…how anxiety and stress manifest themselves. When Jarie, the man who loves a plan, asks himself “How am I going to fix this?” And then realizes “I can’t fix this!” Chemotherapy ravages—Jarie buzzes off Jane’s long black hair. Freezing your embryos. Jarie and I have a gut-wrenching intimate discussion. Discussing death with your dying spouse. So hard. How a guardian angel social worker puts t...2024-04-091h 14My Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (3 of 3)Gut-busting, emphatic, grand finale. First, listen someplace where it’s safe to pee your pants. Why Susan’s Uber driver advises her to lock the hotel door and under no circumstances come out until morning. Pretending all is okay--when it’s not. Telling your family to shut the fuctuplets up. Is God kept on retainer? The High School Provocative Classmates Widow Group. Susan Can’t imagine falling in love again. Oh God, I’m blushing. Can you say vi-vi-vibrators? Life’s three stages a...2024-01-231h 04My Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (2 of 3)Morphine, ahhhhh. Mark’s last days. Wait, what about Sofie, Mark’s dying dog? The last goodbye. Mark and Sofie wear American football team Green Bay Packers sweatshirts. From the Woo Woo and Taboo Department: before Susan’s birth, her mom bore a son. He died at birth. Like a shameful secret, never discussed. So how does Susan’s four-year-old son know about Susan’s late infant brother? Now alone, Susan says “F#@k it, I don’t want to cook!” After Mark dies, Susan is pissed off at Mark. Susan discu...2024-01-1654 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Husband Died. Damn It. (1 of 3)Widowed dynamo Susan Yelton jumps into action as my guest co-host in this first episode of a whirl-wind 3 part series. The series makes you: question, agree, cry, laugh, piss you off, shake your head and your fist, say oh my gosh, and holy shyt. Susan even makes me blush! In a later episode we talk about sexuality…just listen for yourself. You hear me turn red. A Baptist preacher’s daughter, at age 16, Susan meets Mark. A long-haired guitar-strumming 19-year-old. Akin to a 60’s folk singer. Instantly in love. Three years later t...2024-01-0952 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Ex Died. Grief Ambushed Me. (3 of 3)“Are you sitting down?” When you answer your phone and the caller says this, does lousy news always ensue? Kady ruminates over how to deliver bad news to her teen daughter. Grief ambushes Kady. Kady details her what-ifs. Mourning what you thought could be. What Kady believes causes her grief—an eloquent explanation. Can death deliver relief? Kady’s fear-filled recurring nightmare about Mikey. If you haven't listened to Parts 1 or 2, link here: Part 1 Part 2 More EX grief stories? Listen to my sister Vickey's episode 11: Three Weddin...2023-08-0852 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Ex Died. Grief Ambushed Me. (2 of 3)Kady gives Mikey an ultimatum. Mother’s little helper (the Xanax kind). Granting extra chances (breaking boundaries to stanch your pain and unease?) Kady says, “I don’t need a man." Meet Kady's condominium complex busybody matchmaker, aka, Miss Pat. Wisdom from grandma. A suicide threat. Might Kady move in with a man? A poignant proposal. And Kady gets an unforeseen telephone call about her ex, Mikey. If you haven't listened to Part 1, here's the link: Part 1 More g...2023-08-011h 06My Spouse Died TooLOSS and GRIEF: Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals (2 of 2)Welcome to part 2: Loss and Grief Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals, with my guest co-host Linda Klein. Linda is co-editor of the book Loss and Grief Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals. I shamelessly ripped off the book’s title for the podcast episode title because it makes sense. If you haven’t listened to part 1, please do that first to avoid brain freeze. Here's the link. In this final episode, we pick up where we left off from part one. I finish reading a once-upon-a-time stor...2023-03-2148 minMy Spouse Died TooLOSS and GRIEF: Personal Stories of Doctors and Other Healthcare Professionals (1 of 2)Why do professionals, surrounded by death, loss, and grief, think they must hold their shyt together for their patients, family, and themselves? For years, these professionals have been expected to bury their emotions, suck it up, and move on. Present stoically. No one must know if you seek therapy. Any sign of grief is weakness. A liability. A career impediment. What will my colleagues think of me? What will my patients think of me? What will my family think of me? I’m a pro. I can’t lose my shyt. But...2023-03-1450 minMy Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (3 of 3)Do men only care about this one thing? Putting up with abuse for too long? The Devil you know vs. The Devil you don’t. Is online dating a parade of emotionally bankrupt individuals? Reality check: Recovery from losing your spouse… is bloody and painful. Debbie’s next devastating loss—her girlfriend group abandons her. Hear why. Beware, the astonishing power of loneliness. Waiting too long to move out of the home where you lived with your spouse? The length of time to find joy after loss...2022-09-2954 minMy Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (2 of 3)After George’s death, Debbie feels she doesn’t deserve a future. Here's how she conquers that poisonous head trash. How colossal loneliness leads to a first intimate encounter. What really helps Debbie. How Debbie gains feedback to repair her life. Life when you are used to being half of a couple. Debbie Joins a Car Club. Why? Why Debbie named her web and blog site: TheHungoverWidow.com. How to meet Mr. Oedipus complex. Why do mothers damage so many sons? The patriarchal dating game. 2022-09-221h 11My Spouse Died TooAvailable As Is: A Midlife Widow's Search For Love (1 of 3)Widowed guest co-host Debbie Weiss joins us. Debbie is an author and blogger from the San Francisco Bay area. Debbie just published her memoir: Available As Is - A Midlife Widow's Search For Love Since Debbie's high school prom, George is her man. For over 30 years, Debbie and George dine together almost every night—then curl up in bed to wake up each morning beside each other. After meeting a mission-critical deadline, George, a silicon valley workaholic engineer, finally seeks medical attention for a strange lesion on his chest. Resul...2022-09-151h 03My Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (3 of 3)In this final episode, Derek goes back to work and details his challenges as a single dad. Then Derek describes how his impulsive Facebook birthday wishes to a former high school classmate four months after Emily passed, turn into a coffee date…and more. Now, Derek contemplates dating, the timing since Emily’s death, and the confusion he feels, mixed with grief. Derek tells us how he meets one-on-one with his extended family to announce he’s dating. Derek gingerly admits and explains family “mixed reviews” and “a little backlash.”2022-06-2148 minMy Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (2 of 3)Deep into treatment, Derek’s young wife Emily seeks a second opinion with the world-renowned cancer specialists at MD Anderson in Houston Texas. You’ll hear what the doctors say, their plan. How Derek compartmentalizes: One moment he’s a husband, the next, he’s a caregiver, and at the same time, father to their baby boy. Wearing three hats, how does he do this? You’ll hear why Derek had to smuggle his baby boy INTO the hospital. And with conflicted heavy hearts, we contemplate how, with cancer treatment, it feels as if we choose...2022-06-141h 24My Spouse Died TooWidowed Dad With A Toddler (1 of 3)Newlyweds in their twenties, Derek and Emily dreamt of parenthood with a kid-filled home. For six years, pregnancy eluded Derek and Emily. One afternoon, during the summer of 2019, Emily gives Derek miraculous news “You’re going to be a Dad.” Infinite joy unleashes. Six months later, it’s January 2020, right before the Covid-19 pandemic erupts. Emily’s textbook perfect pregnancy progresses. Just three months until the due date, but something isn’t right. Emily has breast pain. Prescribed antibiotics can’t fix it. Emily is biopsied. Derek and E...2022-06-071h 08My Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (4 of 4)“How does one recover from narcissistic abuse?” Molly explores the question. You’ll hear how, despite the years of psychological abuse, Molly conjures the courage, embodies resilience, and chooses to face her new life to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix. When I shared with Molly the words “…to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix,” she laughed nervously because this is unbearable. A Sisyphean task. You don’t “fix” yourself overnight with a couple of Brené Brown books and ten insurance-approved therapy sessions. (I own and recommend Brené’s books.) The trust issues. Will Mol...2022-05-3147 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (2 of 4)In this episode (2 of 4), Molly’s husband Dick makes one last-ditch effort to counter his failed treatments and inescapable prognosis. Dick receives a fortuitous referral to visit an eminent cancer doctor specializing in Dick's exact diagnosis. This doctor is at a top research facility globally—Sloan Kettering Cancer Center in Manhattan, New York City. You’ll hear what the doctor says about Dick’s prognosis—and where Dick ends up. Put on your seatbelt as Molly details relationship strains from the past, to present odd behaviors. Molly drops more breadcrumbs, more clues....2022-05-1751 minMy Spouse Died TooMy Grief Was Gaslighted (1 of 4)Widowed guest co-host Molly Murphy joins us. But there’s a catch. Molly Murphy isn’t her real name. Molly tells her story with an alias, a fake name because she must protect the truly innocent and the potentially guilty. Every widow or widower's story and grief is custom-made. And yes, all our stories share similarities, including Molly’s, but in the end, Molly’s story has a twist, and it’s is an absolute jaw-dropper. But Molly is not our average guest—because of the eye-popping discoveries Molly makes AFTER her husband...2022-05-101h 06My Spouse Died TooI’m Dating—Hear Me Sign-Up Live for Match.com (2 of 2) Stumbling and bumbling, Barb Flynn and I finish my Match online dating application. This is part two. If you missed part one, you can click and listen to it here. Barb and I read and comment on actual women's profiles matched to mine. If someday you might consider dating, or if you’re already active with a dating app, listen carefully because Barb gives loads more insight, tips, and warnings. Please enjoy our random raw banter in this last episode of I’m Dating—Hear Me Sign-Up Live for Match.com Bullets...2022-05-0352 minMy Spouse Died TooShould I Make My Online Dating Profile Now? (2 of 2)Beer-infused evening ramble continues! Barb Flynn and I recorded just twenty-four hours before my upcoming third date with Miss Kayak. In this episode, I share what I believe is the most important part of an online dating profile— the written summary—this is where you say something about yourself. My list exhausts. I'm told by "dating experts" it's too long. You might be amused or alarmed by what I say. What my nurse practitioner sister warns me about sexually transmitted diseases—my naiveté is exposed. Why Barb dresses differently to shop this un...2022-04-121h 03My Spouse Died TooDear Donna, I'm Finally Dating (2 of 2)In this final episode of Dear Donna, I’m Finally Dating, we pick up where we left off from part one. More Miss Kayak dates! Alcohol dissolves conversation filters. Head trash ups and downs. When should I kiss my date? Head vs. heart—which wins? Are my wardrobe issues irrational? Why you CAN'T arrive early to pick up your date. Downward dog yoga incident rears its head. Peculiar feeling—what does the gut say? Dating makes me soul-search my principles and core personality—here’s my concrete discovery. Where do things g...2022-03-2936 minMy Spouse Died TooDear Donna, I'm Finally Dating (1 of 2)“Dear Donna, I’m Finally Dating” Eight years after my spouse Donna died, I wrote this heartfelt letter to her. In the first of this two-part series, I read the letter—it’s about our first date (and how it almost ended in blows), dying, my improbable number one bucket list item, and what Donna wanted for me after her death. Along with my vulnerable random ramblings, I share intimacies—never revealed—even to those closest to me. And to top it off, you’ll hear anxious awkward details about my first dating exp...2022-03-2239 min
Edge of the CouchRe-imagining therapy - Interview with Curt Widhalm and Katie VernoyThis week, Jordan interviews Curt Widhalm and Katie Vernoy of the Modern Therapist Survival Guide podcast about their upcoming conference, Therapy Re-imagined. Listen what they have to say about "rebel therapists", the direction they would like the therapy field to move, and how we can resist the corporatization of therapy. You can save 10% on a conference ticket using the code EDGEOFTHECOUCH10. We are proud to partner with Janeapp, an all-in-one practice management software. You can learn more at Jane.app/mentalhealth. Or, if you are ready to get started, use the code EDGECOUCH1MO at the time...2021-09-0140 min