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Dirty Martiniep. 100: the fear of being a beginner100 episodes!!!!!!!! thankyouthankyouthankyou!! to be a master you must be a beginner first!
2026-02-0159 min2026-01-251h 07Dirty Martiniep. 98: the death of empathy and critical thoughtspeak up even when your voice is shaking
2026-01-1854 min2026-01-111h 302026-01-041h 04Dirty Martiniep. 95: the best decision of my lifethis small habit changed my world for the better for good. shout out to my 13-year-old self
2025-12-281h 03Dirty Martiniep. 94: the longest day of my lifei'm not 20 anymore, i can't do all-nighters the way i used to
2025-12-211h 112025-12-1454 minDirty Martiniep. 92: social media addictionsomeone make a wrapped of how many times i've said the word "like" in the past year
2025-12-071h 032025-11-3058 min2025-11-2357 minDirty Martiniep. 89: letting go of what no longer serves youif i had let go of the lasagna soup i wouldn't be in this situation
2025-11-161h 06Dirty Martiniep. 88: wokeness and responsibilitythat's my mayor! (i'm a bulgarian immigrant in the netherlands)
2025-11-0953 min2025-11-0256 min2025-10-261h 102025-10-191h 042025-10-121h 032025-10-0559 minDirty Martiniep. 82: and just like that...when Carrie said "so I waked, I walked 48 blocks", I felt that
2025-09-2858 min2025-09-211h 012025-09-1458 minDirty Martiniep. 79: this is a fever dreami literally had to edit out a total of 10 min of coughing, lol
2025-09-0756 min2025-08-3159 min2025-08-241h 002025-08-171h 05Dirty Martiniep. 75: reflecting a year onalways and forever would rather mourn concerts than lives. in the meantime, vienna will wait for me.
2025-08-101h 002025-08-0359 min2025-07-271h 062025-07-2054 min2025-07-131h 032025-07-061h 002025-06-2952 min2025-06-221h 002025-06-1557 minDirty Martiniep. 66: privilege, ai, and furyfor future references: thank you, chat gpt. remember me as one of the good ones pls
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2025-06-011h 002025-05-2558 min2025-05-1859 minDirty Martiniep. 62: quizzes, meat, and bread mathwhat an absolute casserole of nonsense that episode is!
2025-05-111h 00Dirty Martiniep. 61: back on tracktrigger warning: this episode contains stories and opinions which people struggling with their relationship to sport, food, and body image might find challenging and disturbing. take care of yourselves!
2025-05-041h 002025-04-2759 min2025-04-2059 min2025-04-1300 minDirty Martiniep. 57: young, learning, and brokeall cards on the table for this one (help, i'm scared to be that vulnerable).goodbye 22.
2025-04-0659 minDirty Martiniep. 56: it feels so scary getting oldhappy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time.
2025-03-3058 min2025-03-2359 min2025-03-1655 minDirty Martiniep. 53: smut, seasonal depression, and social anxietyyet another everyday rant! let's kick back, relax, and enjoy the sun (while it lasts)! in the meantime shall we talk about about spicy books, internalized misogyny, beauty standards, and social anxiety?
2025-03-0959 minDirty Martiniep. 52: a real painthis is a real story about real experiences, real feelings, and real life. or it is just me being a movie nerd diva after i took a hard hit on the head. there is no in between.
2025-03-0259 min2025-02-2359 minDirty Martiniep. 50: the art of solitude50 episodes! that is just crazy! i guess i really do be yapping. to celebrate this milestone, i decided to become the most vulnerable you have seen me. i am flipping the switch and telling you about the hardest but most valuable and worthwhile lesson i have come to learn in the last few years - learning to love myself through my loneliness. and while infrastructurally speaking all roads lead to rome, i say all mistakes, and all the pain, and all the fears led me to myself. now let me share a piece of the map that got me...
2025-02-1659 minDirty Martiniep. 49: netflix & chillBRING BACK ROMCOMS. let me walk you through my lack of inspiration (please send unskippable music recommendations, i desperately need them)! from representation and sitcoms all the way to netflix's business genius and my hoarder tendencies, my love for cameron diaz persists!
2025-02-0958 minDirty Martiniep. 48: this is sending me down a spirali always ask the right questions. i even have questions regarding my questions. some might call me inquisitive, and others - out of my mind.
2025-02-0256 minDirty Martiniep. 47: we live in timejoin me as i reflect on how i am dealing with this new level of loneliness that i unlocked but more importantly - on how i was heavily influenced to burst with the irresistible urge to live and make the most of my short human existence
2025-01-2652 minDirty Martiniep. 46: hot takes and tiktok banswhere do we even start?!
a hot take on top of a hot take. money talks. painting. squid game. red note. banning tiktok (apparently for real this time?). and niche chronic online references.
building them just like legos.
episode 46. eliminated.
2025-01-1957 minDirty Martiniep. 45: new year's resolutions"new year, new me"? not quite! if you are wondering why your long "to do" lists don't just magically come true on the 1st of january, or if you are looking for some actually practical advice on how to achieve the things you set out to achieve in 2025, this episode is for you. i give you tried and tested useful insights on why we "fail" (+ my 2 cents on "failing") and how we can overcome the mental and physical blocks that prevent us from being our best self. ready?
2025-01-1258 minDirty Martiniep. 44: four countries in one dayhappy 2025! in a very me manner, we are kicking of the year with a yapping session about a travelling experience. for the first time ever in my life i was in 4 countries in one day, and boy was that something! form travelling alongside my high school bully and my bulgarianness being questioned by border control to being stranded in the belgrade airport and being forced to survive deutsche bahn. when i said i wanted to travel more, i did not mean this.
2025-01-0559 minDirty Martiniep. 43: setting the tonethe last episode for 2024! one final existential crisis hurrah before we welcome 2025. and my mission is: put all the cards on the table and be transparent about my biggest struggle with podcasting yet. in this episode i set the tone for the future of this space and make myself promise to see meaning in the meaningless.
2024-12-2950 minDirty Martiniep. 42: surviving christmaswhile some are celebrating the holidays, other are simply trying to survive them. this episode is dedicated to the latter. i know how difficult this time of the year can be for one reason or another. while my advice may not be revolutionary, it is ground in good intentions and care. i am sending you lots of love and strength to soldier through. you got this!
2024-12-2243 minDirty Martiniep. 41: ripping my pants, sleeping in class & wickedi would mourn the wicked. and i most likely would rip my pants in the process of it. and that just sums up the type of person i am (when i am awake, unlike in class, where i am fighting demons not to fall asleep or god forbid - cough!). i had so much fun recording this episode and it really took my mind off from my hectic environment.
2024-12-1557 minDirty Martiniep. 40: losing my voice, wallet, and mindfrom one pilates pink princess to another. let's talk while i still have my voice because this week has been testing me to my limits (not just voice-wise). how about i tell you about me losing my wallet. not once - but twice! and always mere hours before i have to leave the country! life is funny! and what is even funnier, if not simply just predictable - is my spotify wrapped.
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Dirty Martiniep. 39: no place like tourwtf, i'm like bruh?! we are not in utrecht anymore! so let's all collectively hold space with the lyrics of defying gravity and your sexiest man alive's sexiest man alive.
a massive shoutout to saintlaurentcowboy/sabrina carpenter/ed sheeran/charlie puth for taking over for t-dawg and creating such an emotional, fun, and horny experience. there is indeed no place like tour!
2024-12-0148 minDirty Martiniep. 38: 'tis the seasonthis episode in a nutshell? CHAOS. from start to finish. absolute chaos. from snow storms and tangerines to short n sweet and outer banks. buckle up because the single brain cell i have is making a really proud and loud debut.
2024-11-2445 minDirty Martiniep. 37: empathy revelations, feta & walnutsoh boy, do we have a lot on our plates today (not walnuts, of course, unless in baklava!). let me walk you through a couple of things that single-handedly changed my life for the better, for good: from going to the turkish store and finding a proper block of feta cheese (iykyk), through recognizing that overwhelmingness and gratitude can coexist, to realizing how to do empathy correctly. who would have thought that empathy shouldn't be synonymous with self-sacrifice and enabling something that does not fit your lifestyle or beliefs?! definitely not me! so, you don't need to be the...
2024-11-1749 min2024-11-1036 minDirty Martiniep. 35: surviving my greedy landlordsa stuffy nose and 7 layers of clothing under a duvet - that's what i will embody for the next 3 months.
nobody has made me feel as dismissed and as dismissible as my landlords have! even scrooge envies their greediness... but that's what i get for playing with dolls in 2008 and not buying property for a nickel. so see you in court!
because when i said i love mickey mouse this is not what i meant! and when i said i love frozen this is not what i meant! so can we please give them back...
2024-11-0346 minDirty Martiniep. 34: harassment and xenophobia at workSOMEBODY CALL HR IMMEDIATELY!
in this episode i decide to open up about my experiences with rude customers. from weirdness through harassment to xenophobia, i've seen a lot. and i am definitely not getting paid enough to deal with all of this!
so can you not? pretty please, with a cherry on top? and the audacity to not tip me after what you put me through!
just be kind and i promise not to spit in your food
2024-10-2752 minDirty Martiniep. 33: are you a failure?academic pressure and the weight of exams. we have all been there. but how does this manifest outside of school? how are your self-worth and self-perception affected by all of this? and how do we make sense of failure? and what is more - is there such a thing as failure? are we and our projects worthwhile only when "successful"? listen to this yap session to hear my two cents that nobody asked for
2024-10-2048 minDirty Martiniep. 32: group projects and mental healthexhaustion, burnout, and anger. we cover it all. in this episode let's talk about how the devil couldn't reach me personally so he created uni group projects as a form of punishment. but more importantly, let's talk about the importance of sharing and speaking up when it comes to our mental health.
if you or someone else is struggling, please don't hesitate to reach out to someone you trust. i promise you there are people who care about you and want you to be happy. it may seem hard and pointless, but i promise...
2024-10-1346 minDirty Martiniep. 31: sugar daddies, double standards, and pridehello everyone! join me in this episode where we talk about money, only fans, and sugar daddies. let's dive deep into the system of double standards that i have established and how it affects my sense of accomplishment and pride
#DirtyMartini #Podcast #Episode #PersonalStories #MentalHealth #DoubleStandards #Money #OnlyFans #SugarDaddy #Accomplishment #Pride
2024-10-0642 minDirty Martiniep. 30: fighting pigeons, cats, and neighborswelcome to dirty maritni's dirty thirty! what a privilege and excitement it is to have already created 30 episodes! i wanted this episode to be as special as possible which is why i am sabrina carpenting it all by talking nonesense. let me tell you about how i was attacked by a pigeon in my own home and had to deal with a cat intruder. i am on the verge of declaring a war to my neighbors. long live hanger and wingless birds flying.
2024-09-2944 minDirty Martiniep. 29: timespend some time with me talking about time! i share with you my theory on why time passes differently at different stages of our lives. i reflect on how covid took away two years of my life and since then i have been trying to catch up. what do you mean i am no longer "young and sweet, only 17"?! how???
2024-09-2235 minDirty Martiniep. 28: navigating the chaos: change, choices, and mistakeswhat a rollercoaster of emotions! maybe the wine indeed was a bit too much but hey - grab a glass, drink responsibly!!!, and let's chat. i promise to cover it all - from coping with change through (the inability of) making friends in your 20s to feeling lost and foreign in a familiar environment. let's yap about being back in university, debunk societal pressure, and ask all the right questions!
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Dirty Martiniep. 27: eras tour terror: the terrorist attack that almost took my life (part 2)in this episode i share the emotional consequences which i have had to deal with since the vienna eras tour was cancelled after the uncovering of terrorist attack plans.
full of gratitude and fear, i reflect on what it means to be given a second chance at life and how the dismissive narrative around my feelings and experiences is affecting my healing journey.
trigger warning: this episode contains topics such as terrorism, terrorist attacks, death, and the emotional repercussions which arose after nearly getting unalived.
#Podcast #Episode #TaylorSwift #TheErasTour #Vienna...
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Dirty Martiniep. 26: eras tour terror: the terrorist attack that almost took my life (part 1)i was in vienna for taylor swift's eras tour until the concert got cancelled because of a terrorist attack. in this episode i finally have the courage to unpack my fears and emotions after almost facing a gruesome brutal death.
trigger warning: this episode contains topics such as terrorism, terrorist attacks, death, and the emotional repercussions which arose after nearly getting unalived
#Podcast #Episode #TaylorSwift #TheErasTour #Vienna #PersonalStories
2024-09-0143 minDirty Martiniep. 25: why do we use social media?media scholar cap is on for this episode (the first one of a more educational yet personal series about the importance of media in our lives)! after sharing an emotional take on my own social media usage and my social media addiction, i answer the question of why is it that we actually use (social) media. i walk you through the fundamental theory which describes the motivation options of why you could possibly be reaching for your phone and what is it exactly that you gain from it.
#Episode #Podcast #DirtryMartini #PersonalStories #MediaStudies #SocialMedia...
2024-08-2551 min
Dirty Martiniep. 24: my solo italian summer (part 4)ah guys, the moment we have all been waiting for! in this last part of the “my solo italian summer” series, we reach the culmination – my experience at the coldplay concert. simply a magical night that made me feel emotions i had never felt before! it was so beautiful that it overshadowed the little quarrel i had earlier in the day with an anti-european woman in the vatican (where i also accidentally got stuck and attended my first ever mass). getting to experience the beauty of st peter’s basilica and just a few hours later reaching paradise in the pres...
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Dirty Martiniep. 23: my solo italian summer (part 3)welcome back to rome! let's talk about grasshopper phobias in the public transport and snoring hostel dormmates. in this episode i explain why the solo in solo traveling is so important and why, unlike me, you should always chose the comfortable shoes over the cute ones (and how this decision almost cost me my toe!)
2024-08-1148 min
Dirty Martiniep. 22: my solo italian summer (part 2)the trip continues! join me as i tell you all about flirty italian waiters, why you should wake up early when on vacation, my obsession with marble statues and catholic churches, and the biggest disadvantage of travelling alone.
#DirtyMartini #Podcast #Episode #Travel #Summer #Italy
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Dirty Martiniep. 21: my solo italian summer (part 1)join me as i tell you all about my first ever solo trip. destination: rome, italy! definitely started off on the wrong foot but hopefully things get better
2024-07-2853 minDirty Martiniep. 20: yapping about travel anxiety, gps, and food icksyappatron 3000: activated. join me in todays catch-up session in which i share with you my excitement and anxiety for my upcoming trips that i have been looking forward to for a year. i go on a media studies geek rant about the importance of gps and the overreliance on the internet. and i tell you my battle with getting the ick from my two favourite meals.
#Episode #Podcast #PersonalStories #MentalHealth #Humour #University #Student #InternationalStudent #Travel #Media #Internet #InstantNoodles #AvocadoToast #Recipes #Anxiety
2024-07-2134 minDirty Martiniep. 19: how (not) to gossip & pick-me psain this episode i reflect on my development as a podcaster and my wednesdays with liza koshy. i tell you a story i have been keeping from you for quite some time and i give you advice on how to gossip when abroad
#Episode #Poscast #MentalHealth #PersonalStories #EmmaChamberlain #LizaKoshy #YouTube #AnythingGoes #Humour #University #Student #InternationalStudent #GossipGirl #ArrestedDevelopment #Netflix #PavlovDog #ToKillaMockingBird
2024-07-1434 minDirty Martiniep. 18: be careful what you wish for (the price of dreams)in today's episode i reflect on the weekend of solitude i was looking forward to for forever and how i didn't take into consideration a pretty significant factor that came into play, which made me question if i am really cut out for my living alone dream. i talk about (auto)biographies, matthew perry, tana mongeau, getting a new perspective on addiction, and the price of success.
#Podcast #Episode #PersonalStories #MentalHealth #University #Student #20s #Humour #Cancelled #TanaMongeau #BrookeSchofield #MatthewPerry #Friends #Lovers #TheBigTerribleThing #Addiction #Success #Dreams
2024-07-0739 minDirty Martiniep. 17: I GRADU(ATE)D FROM UNIVERSITY!i cannot believe this! i am officially little miss BA! thank you to my family, my friends, my teachers, and myself for all the support! couldn't have done it without you!
#Podcast #Episode #MentalHealth #University #Student #InternationalStudent #Graduation #BachelorsDegree #PersonalStories
2024-06-3034 minDirty Martiniep. 16: i almost fought a man on a planehello everyone! in today's episode i am begging for some alone time because otherwise i'll go insane. i tell you how i nearly got into a physical fight with a man who fully disrespected me on my flight back to the netherlands. i talk about doing the splits and learning german.
#dirtymartini #episode #podcast #mentalhealth #flying #travel #student #internationalstudent #university #personalstories
2024-06-2342 minDirty Martiniep. 15: from wedding bells to thesis deadlineshello! let's talk! in this week's episode i tell you about my first ever wedding! i came up with my own contribution to Bulgarian culture. and (re)discovered make up. also fully stressing about my thesis lol!
#DirtyMartini #Podcast #Episode #MentalHealth #PersonalStories #Humor #Wedding #Graduation #University #Student #InternationalStudent #UniLife
2024-06-1647 minDirty Martiniep. 14: napping, cherries, and schengen babushkashello everyone! in today's episode i talk you through my physical exhaustion but hey - i got to nap! i share with you my love for my neighbour's cherries and tell you all about my newly available airport luxuries as a schengen member.
cease fire! and go vote today!!!
#DirtyMarini #Episode #Podcast #Serial #MentalHealth #Humour #IndiePodcast #Amsterdam #University #Student #20s
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2024-06-0217 minDirty Martiniep. 12: things that would get me lobotomisedhi, besties! let's talk lobotomy! after familiarizing myself with the criteria for lobotomy in the 1900s i tell you recent stories which would earn me the surgery! from clubbing and nightmares to my opinion on challengers and how i am dealing with the struggle to meet my deadlines
* for legal reasons this is all a joke and happened allegedly *
#podcast #episode #series #dirtymartini #mentalhealth #comedy #personalstories #entertainment #advice #university
2024-05-2650 minDirty Martiniep. 11: advice i'd give my younger selfhi guys! in this episode i talk you through the top 5 pieces of advice i would tell my younger self. had i known those things back then, life would have been so much easier in every single aspect. well, you live and you learn, i guess.
free palestine!
#podcast #episodes #dirtymartini #personalstories #self-help #growth #advice #mentalhealth #student #selfcare #mentalhealthawareness #health #wellness #vulnerability
2024-05-1948 minDirty Martiniep. 10: i don't want to be strong anymore & street harassmentmental health check! in this honest, vulnerable, emotional episode, i share my struggles with overthinking, feeling lost and lonely and not knowing who i am. i decide to open up about the street sexual harassment i experienced this week.
if you are going through a tough time, i am sending you virtual hugs and mental strength. take care of yourself, i love you.
#Podcast #Episodes #MentalHealthAwareness #SelfCare #StreetHarassment #Health #Wellness #Vulnerability
2024-05-1238 minDirty Martiniep. 9: the worst week of my life (?)in this weeks episode the box of complaints is yet again wide open. linkedin, baking, billie eilish, ticketmaster, and many more. gotta fight every single day with pigeons just to have dinner and then have my food walked all over by mice.
all i ask of you is to send thoughts, prayers, and a dash of mental stability.
p.s. i reserve the right to change my opinion about everything
2024-05-0541 minDirty Martiniep. 8: missing unemployment, quitting social media and luke's shenaniganscarrie bradshaw girl what are you doing????????
my nightmare experience as an employed person, who misses unemployment. my favourite story with my idiot dog (lukie pookie). i quit social media. do i know who i am? i just never stop yapping!
shout out to whoever came up with the salted caramel ice cream flavour
2024-04-2844 min
Dirty Martiniep. 7: TTPD (the tortured pupils department)TTPD (dirty martini's version)
in this episode the poet is inviting you to reflect on what it means to be an adult in a senseless passage of time. in a space where those who were once kids are now grown, she battles with grasping the reality of age and life priorities. the pupil proceeds to linger in front of the door of 'the tortured poets department' which she opens after deciding to leave self-inflicted hatred behind and tune her heart to the warmth of enjoyment. finally, after a celebration of a recent feat, she remains hopeful for...
2024-04-2139 minDirty Martiniep. 6: my horror travel experience (i am cursed)in this episode i tell you about my worst travel experience which set the tone for the rest of my travelling. frostbite, bananas, rats, and parking lots. i am definitely cursed and it is only my grandpa's prayers that can save me.
ps. brb, about to go write a thesis in one week.
2024-04-1432 minDirty Martiniep. 5: dealing with a karen & burnoutyap. yap. yap. telling you about my reverse-karen experience and my unhealthy obsession with being productive. shout out capitalism.
i reserve the right to change my opinion about everything and anything i say.
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2024-04-0735 minDirty Martiniep. 4: 4 things i learned at 21hi, guys! this is a birthday episode!
i share with you the four most important life lessons i learned in my 21 years. these are ideas which i struggled a lot to grasp but once i came to terms with, they changed my life. they are my current mantras and driving forces. don't judge me if i unlearn them all, lol.
i hope you find them interesting and/or helpful!
here's to being 22 (dirty martini's version)!
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2024-03-3136 minDirty Martiniep.3: i saw harry styles (hslot story time)buckle up because i am about to give you all the (un)necessary details to my 3-day love on tour experience. from learning how to crochet to make my own merch, camping outside the arena, being stranded in amsterdam, and sleeping at the airport to eating in a hostel toilet, having a mind-bending realisation, dancing with strangers, and having the worst bus ride of my life. to mr. harry styles, sir, what a performer, what an artist you are!
p.s. as per usual - i reserve my right to change my opinion.
2024-03-2444 minDirty Martiniep. 2: why i can't be famousi couldn't parallel park my car soooo brb about to go cry at a bench in my sweatpants while listening to billie eilish and finneas
2024-03-1731 minDirty Martiniep. 1: pilot (social media, menty bs, & impending doom)hi! welcome to dirty martini!
i have no idea what i'm doing, lol. but as the currently unemployed friend, i feel like it's my duty to be delulu and create a podcast.
in this first episode i tell you why i decided to create this space and what it means to me. i hope you enjoy it!
2024-03-1031 min