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Love, Light, and Black HolesDisclosure, Corruption, and Why the Light Is Actually Winning Right NowIf you've been feeling overwhelmed, disgusted, or like you can't keep up with everything coming out right now, this episode is for you. I'm right there with you. This episode breaks down why the wave of disclosure and corruption exposure happening globally is not evidence that darkness is winning. It's evidence that it's losing. And it's right on time astrologically.Because darkness doesn't collapse when it's hidden. It collapses when you shine a light on it.This episode covers the spiritual, astrological, and cultural framework for understanding why this specific moment in history was always...
2026-02-1830 minLove, Light, and Black HolesDisclosure, Corruption, and Why the Light Is Actually Winning Right NowIf you've been feeling overwhelmed, disgusted, or like you can't keep up with everything coming out right now, this episode is for you. I'm right there with you. This episode breaks down why the wave of disclosure and corruption exposure happening globally is not evidence that darkness is winning. It's evidence that it's losing. And it's right on time astrologically.Because darkness doesn't collapse when it's hidden. It collapses when you shine a light on it.This episode covers the spiritual, astrological, and cultural framework for understanding why this specific moment in history was always...
2026-02-1830 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Find Your Shadow in Your AstrologyYou know that pattern you keep repeating? The same relationship drama, different person. The same career block, different job. The same "not enough" feeling, different situation.You've tried the affirmations. You've done the mindset work. You've set the intentions. And yet... HERE YOU ARE AGAIN.Here's why: You're trying to fix the visible problem while completely ignoring the invisible wound that's actually running the show.Your shadow is in the driver's seat. And you don't even know it exists.In this episode, I'm breaking down:What your shadow actually is...
2026-02-1130 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Find Your Shadow in Your AstrologyYou know that pattern you keep repeating? The same relationship drama, different person. The same career block, different job. The same "not enough" feeling, different situation.You've tried the affirmations. You've done the mindset work. You've set the intentions. And yet... HERE YOU ARE AGAIN.Here's why: You're trying to fix the visible problem while completely ignoring the invisible wound that's actually running the show.Your shadow is in the driver's seat. And you don't even know it exists.In this episode, I'm breaking down:What your shadow actually is...
2026-02-1130 minLove, Light, and Black HolesUnpopular Opinion: Stop Manifesting During Eclipse SeasonOkay, hear me out because I know this is going to ruffle some feathers. But I'm here for it!If you’ve been feeling the urge to manifest harder, visualize clearer, or clutch your vision board for dear life during eclipse season, this episode might lovingly ruin that for you. 😌Eclipse season is not a manifestation portal. It’s a surrender portal.In this episode, I riff on why trying to “control the outcome” during eclipses often backfires because eclipses work on a different timeline. They interrupt, reveal, destabilize, and reroute. They don’t respond wel...
2026-02-0434 minLove, Light, and Black HolesUnpopular Opinion: Stop Manifesting During Eclipse SeasonOkay, hear me out because I know this is going to ruffle some feathers. But I'm here for it!If you’ve been feeling the urge to manifest harder, visualize clearer, or clutch your vision board for dear life during eclipse season, this episode might lovingly ruin that for you. 😌Eclipse season is not a manifestation portal. It’s a surrender portal.In this episode, I riff on why trying to “control the outcome” during eclipses often backfires because eclipses work on a different timeline. They interrupt, reveal, destabilize, and reroute. They don’t respond wel...
2026-02-0434 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Tell If It’s Intuition or Anxiety: Remembering the Voice Beneath the NoiseWhat happens when you realize the voice you’ve been following isn’t actually yours. This episode is a love letter to that realization.We talk about why so many of us think our intuition is broken, when really, we’ve just been listening to everyone else’s opinions, timelines, and “shoulds” for way too long. I share how easy it is to confuse anxiety with intuition, and how the ego can sound urgent, loud, and convincing … while the soul is quieter, slower, and doesn’t need to explain itself.I also go into the difference betwe...
2026-01-2827 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Tell If It’s Intuition or Anxiety: Remembering the Voice Beneath the NoiseWhat happens when you realize the voice you’ve been following isn’t actually yours. This episode is a love letter to that realization.We talk about why so many of us think our intuition is broken, when really, we’ve just been listening to everyone else’s opinions, timelines, and “shoulds” for way too long. I share how easy it is to confuse anxiety with intuition, and how the ego can sound urgent, loud, and convincing … while the soul is quieter, slower, and doesn’t need to explain itself.I also go into the difference betwe...
2026-01-2827 min
Synaptic Soul PodcastThe Anatomy of AwakeningAwakening isn’t a single moment — it’s a full-system recalibration that affects your nervous system, identity, relationships, and sense of reality. In this past episode of the Synaptic Soul Podcast, we break down awakening as a biological, psychological, and spiritual process rather than a mystical highlight reel.We explore why awakening often feels destabilizing instead of blissful, how anxiety and grief can be part of expansion, and why embodiment matters more than chasing the next insight. This episode reframes awakening as something you learn to live inside of, not something you “complete.”✨ Why revisit...
2026-01-2740 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhen Delulu is the Solulu, and when it's NOTOkay let’s talk about being deluluBecause right now the internet is fully romanticizing the idea that if you just decide something is true, it’ll magically work out. And listen, sometimes that mindset is actually powerful as hell.And sometimes?It’s just avoidance in a cute outfit.In this episode, I’m breaking down when “the delulu is the solulu” and when it quietly turns into spiritual bypassing, nervous system freeze, or straight-up lying to yourself.I get into:Why acting “as if” can genuinely change your life...
2026-01-2218 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhen Delulu is the Solulu, and when it's NOTOkay let’s talk about being deluluBecause right now the internet is fully romanticizing the idea that if you just decide something is true, it’ll magically work out. And listen, sometimes that mindset is actually powerful as hell.And sometimes?It’s just avoidance in a cute outfit.In this episode, I’m breaking down when “the delulu is the solulu” and when it quietly turns into spiritual bypassing, nervous system freeze, or straight-up lying to yourself.I get into:Why acting “as if” can genuinely change your life...
2026-01-2218 minSynaptic Soul PodcastTattoos Aren’t Aesthetic — They’re Encoded MemoryTattoos aren’t just aesthetic — they’re encoded memory written into the nervous system.In this episode I’m breaking down the real science and spiritual intelligence behind tattoos: why the body remembers them, how placement determines function, and why certain symbols call to us long before we understand their meaning. We explore tattoos as rites of passage, ancestral markers, and identity anchors — not trends, but living testimony written on skin.I also take you through my own tattoos as a case study: from a Celtic triquetra placed at the top of my spine at seventeen...
2026-01-1519 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Shadow Work Everyone Skips: Facing the Parts You’re Ashamed Still ExistThis episode isn’t cute. It’s honest.Today I’m talking about the parts of ourselves we don’t want to integrate. The ones we wish never happened. Not the soft, Instagram-friendly shadows like dimming your light. Or even that shadows that focus on what others did to you or your wounded inner child. But the moments where we hurt someone. Where we straight up caused harm and moved on with life, with an over-sized bag of shame.This is the kind of shadow work almost no one wants to touch. Because it’s not about...
2026-01-1427 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Shadow Work Everyone Skips: Facing the Parts You’re Ashamed Still ExistThis episode isn’t cute. It’s honest.Today I’m talking about the parts of ourselves we don’t want to integrate. The ones we wish never happened. Not the soft, Instagram-friendly shadows like dimming your light. Or even that shadows that focus on what others did to you or your wounded inner child. But the moments where we hurt someone. Where we straight up caused harm and moved on with life, with an over-sized bag of shame.This is the kind of shadow work almost no one wants to touch. Because it’s not about...
2026-01-1427 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe Ocean Years Are Over: Neptune in Pisces & the Shift from Awakening to EmbodimentFor the last decade, reality felt softer, stranger, and harder to grasp. Time warped. Identities dissolved. Intuition intensified. Certainty evaporated. Many of us woke up spiritually — and then promptly felt lost, exhausted, or like our entire lives quietly fell apart.You didn’t imagine that.This episode breaks down the Neptune in Pisces era — one of the most profound collective transits of our lifetime — through astrology, neuroscience, trauma biology, and lived experience. We explore how this energy dissolved false structures, cracked open intuition, amplified empathy, and sparked mass spiritual awakening… while also fueling burnout, spiritual bypassing...
2026-01-1233 minSynaptic Soul PodcastNew Year, More Me: Why Evolution Doesn’t Need a Reset“New year, new me” sounds cute… until your nervous system files a formal complaint.In this episode we dismantle the myth of overnight reinvention and get honest about how evolution actually works — in your biology, your nervous system, and your lived experience. Because you don’t become someone new at midnight on January 1st. You continue. You integrate. You shed skins slowly, cell by cell.We explore the neuroscience of change, why your body evolves faster than your identity, how safety (not willpower) is the real catalyst for growth, and why grief, rest, and slowness aren’t sig...
2026-01-0830 minLove, Light, and Black HolesI'm writing a NEW BOOK! How I turned grief into gold in 2025HOLY FREAKIN MOLY!!! It's real! I signed my NEW book contract this morning and I am giddy with passion and purpose and direction.When I lost my dad the day after Christmas in 2024 I was just hoping the survive the year of firsts. I never imagined the first year after his death would be filled with so much life, creativity, adventure, joy, and new beginnings.My disco ball soul was shattered at the end of 2024, but now a year later I’m shining brighter than ever 🪩This book is going to show you just...
2026-01-0715 minLove, Light, and Black HolesI'm writing a NEW BOOK! How I turned grief into gold in 2025HOLY FREAKIN MOLY!!! It's real! I signed my NEW book contract this morning and I am giddy with passion and purpose and direction.When I lost my dad the day after Christmas in 2024 I was just hoping the survive the year of firsts. I never imagined the first year after his death would be filled with so much life, creativity, adventure, joy, and new beginnings.My disco ball soul was shattered at the end of 2024, but now a year later I’m shining brighter than ever 🪩This book is going to show you just...
2026-01-0715 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe Nervous System Knows It’s a New Year (Before You Do)If January has you feeling foggy, unmotivated, emotional, or strangely in-between — you’re not doing it wrong. Your nervous system is doing exactly what it’s designed to do.In this episode, we’re breaking down why new beginnings don’t start in your mindset — they start in your body. We explore the biology of thresholds, the neuroscience behind why motivation dips before change stabilizes, and how collective “new year” energy actually creates a real coherence wave that your system can feel… even if you’re not consciously buying into resolutions.This isn’t “new year, new you” nonsense...
2026-01-0524 minLove, Light, and Black HolesJanuary 1st Is Not the New Year: The Lie We Built Our Lives AroundLet’s talk about January 1st and the lie we've been told! Buckle up, this is a GOOD one!Because if you’ve ever felt exhausted, behind, unmotivated, or low-key resentful of “new year, new you” energy, this episode is your permission slip to stop blaming yourself.January 1st is NOT the new year we've been told it is. And pushing yourself to reinvent yourself in the dead of winter actually does more harm than good.In this one, I pull back the curtain on the calendar itself and how we got tricked into som...
2025-12-3132 minLove, Light, and Black HolesJanuary 1st Is Not the New Year: The Lie We Built Our Lives AroundLet’s talk about January 1st and the lie we've been told! Buckle up, this is a GOOD one!Because if you’ve ever felt exhausted, behind, unmotivated, or low-key resentful of “new year, new you” energy, this episode is your permission slip to stop blaming yourself.January 1st is NOT the new year we've been told it is. And pushing yourself to reinvent yourself in the dead of winter actually does more harm than good.In this one, I pull back the curtain on the calendar itself and how we got tricked into som...
2025-12-3132 minLove, Light, and Black HolesGrief During the Holidays: It sucks, let's talk about itIn this episode, I’m talking about grief during the holidays. Not in a “here’s how to get through it” way, but in a let’s sit together in this way.I laugh, I cry, and /i keep it real like always. Grief isn't something to push through. It's not an inconvenience, although our society might have you thinking otherwise.Grief is proof of love. And if your sick of the energy of "holly jolly holidays" this one is for you.If the holidays feel heavy this year…If you’re missing som...
2025-12-1722 minLove, Light, and Black HolesGrief During the Holidays: It sucks, let's talk about itIn this episode, I’m talking about grief during the holidays. Not in a “here’s how to get through it” way, but in a let’s sit together in this way.I laugh, I cry, and /i keep it real like always. Grief isn't something to push through. It's not an inconvenience, although our society might have you thinking otherwise.Grief is proof of love. And if your sick of the energy of "holly jolly holidays" this one is for you.If the holidays feel heavy this year…If you’re missing som...
2025-12-1722 minSynaptic Soul PodcastPortals 101: How Energy Openings Really WorkPortals aren’t swirling cosmic doorways in the sky — they’re states of consciousness where your entire identity becomes permeable. In this episode, we’re breaking down what a portal actually is (neurologically, energetically, and quantum-mechanically), how they open through grief, pleasure, breathwork, trauma, nature, psychedelics, and those holy-shit moments that shatter your life open.We’ll explore ancient portal technologies, why your nervous system is the real stargate, the dangers of opening portals you can’t close, and how to safely work with these threshold states so you stop stumbling into accidental timelines.And yes… I’m shari...
2025-12-1528 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow 2026 Will Change You (Ready or Not): Fire Horse, 1 Year, & Identity RebirthPull up a chair, because we need to talk about 2026.And no, not in the Instagram “new year, new me ✨” kind of way.We’re leaving a Snake Year and a global 9 year, which basically means the universe has been shaking your life like a snow globe and watching what falls apart. If things crumbled, burned, broke, ended, dissolved, disappointed you, ghosted you, or revealed their true form?Yeah. That was the curriculum.And now we're walking straight into a 1 year… and a Fire Horse Year.And listen, everyone online is...
2025-12-1236 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow 2026 Will Change You (Ready or Not): Fire Horse, 1 Year, & Identity RebirthPull up a chair, because we need to talk about 2026.And no, not in the Instagram “new year, new me ✨” kind of way.We’re leaving a Snake Year and a global 9 year, which basically means the universe has been shaking your life like a snow globe and watching what falls apart. If things crumbled, burned, broke, ended, dissolved, disappointed you, ghosted you, or revealed their true form?Yeah. That was the curriculum.And now we're walking straight into a 1 year… and a Fire Horse Year.And listen, everyone online is...
2025-12-1236 minSynaptic Soul PodcastEnergetic Minimalism: The Art of Doing Less, Receiving MoreYou don’t need another ritual, another to-do list, or another spiritual chore. You need space — in your mind, your energy field, and your nervous system.In this episode, we dive into Energetic Minimalism: the science-backed, soul-aligned practice of doing less so you can finally receive more. We break down the cognitive overload frying your intuition, simplify spiritual hygiene so it stops feeling like a second job, explore frequency coherence (a.k.a. why the universe responds to your signal, not your effort), and teach you how to live like your nervous system actually matters.If you...
2025-12-1129 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe Holiest Time of the Year: Why December Is Sacred Across Every Culture & Cosmic CycleDecember isn’t just twinkle lights and emotional support cookies — it’s one of the holiest, most energetically charged seasons on Earth. Across thousands of years and every culture on the planet, humans have treated this corridor of darkness and returning light as sacred. But why? What makes this time feel so heavy, magical, reflective, and cosmically important?In this episode, we dive into the biology, neuroscience, mythology, quantum physics, and ancestral wisdom behind the December portal. We explore why your body instinctively shifts into introspection mode, why nearly every civilization built light festivals and rebirth myths right no...
2025-12-0826 minSynaptic Soul PodcastWhy December Feels Like a Soul Audit: The Neuroscience Behind EndingsEver wonder why December rolls in and suddenly you’re questioning your entire life? Why you’re reflective, restless, emotional, nostalgic, and one peppermint mocha away from texting your ex or cleansing your whole house? It’s not chaos — it’s neuroscience… and a little quantum magic.In this episode, I break down why the end of the year activates the brain’s need for closure, why your nervous system goes into meaning-making mode, why old wounds resurface, and why December becomes a manifestation pressure cooker. This isn’t just “New Year energy” — it’s biology, psychology, and the energetic archit...
2025-12-0426 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy Stepping Into Your Power Feels UnsafeYou’re not afraid of your power, like Marianne Williamson said.You’re afraid of what your power will change, of the identity that will die, of the unfamiliar and unpredictable, and unknown.Because when you rise, things shift.Relationships recalibrate.Identity rearranges.Old comfort zones dissolve.Your life gets bigger than the person you’ve been.And your nervous system LOVES a good predictable mess.It hates unfamiliar peace, unfamiliar success, unfamiliar ease.In this episode, I dive into:why th...
2025-12-0429 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy Stepping Into Your Power Feels UnsafeYou’re not afraid of your power, like Marianne Williamson said.You’re afraid of what your power will change, of the identity that will die, of the unfamiliar and unpredictable, and unknown.Because when you rise, things shift.Relationships recalibrate.Identity rearranges.Old comfort zones dissolve.Your life gets bigger than the person you’ve been.And your nervous system LOVES a good predictable mess.It hates unfamiliar peace, unfamiliar success, unfamiliar ease.In this episode, I dive into:why th...
2025-12-0429 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe Gratitude Frequency: Why Appreciation Is a Quantum Power MoveThanksgiving is over, the chaos has settled, and now we get to talk about what gratitude really is — a biological recalibration, a nervous system reset, and a timeline-shifting quantum technology your ancestors have been using for centuries. In this post-holiday episode, Ava breaks down why gratitude isn’t bypassing, why it rewires your brain, how it activates your lineage, and how the frequency you hold after the feast shapes the timeline you walk into next.✨ Let’s stay in the magic togetherFollow the pod on TikTok & Instagram Love what you're hearing? Buy me a coffee! Co...
2025-12-0135 minLove, Light, and Black HolesTriggers Are Portals: Why You Become Your Worst Self Around FamilyIf you’re already mentally preparing for the holiday Hunger Games, I recorded this for you.But before you pack emotional armor for Thanksgiving, let’s talk about something juicy:Your triggers aren’t meltdowns waiting to happen — they’re portals.Yep. This week on Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re going right into the spiritual lion’s den:n family, holidays, emotional landmines, and the shadow work hidden in your aunt’s passive-aggressive comments.In this episode, I’m breaking down why the holidays turn us into emotional werewolves… why your nervous system...
2025-11-2625 minLove, Light, and Black HolesTriggers Are Portals: Why You Become Your Worst Self Around FamilyIf you’re already mentally preparing for the holiday Hunger Games, I recorded this for you.But before you pack emotional armor for Thanksgiving, let’s talk about something juicy:Your triggers aren’t meltdowns waiting to happen — they’re portals.Yep. This week on Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re going right into the spiritual lion’s den:n family, holidays, emotional landmines, and the shadow work hidden in your aunt’s passive-aggressive comments.In this episode, I’m breaking down why the holidays turn us into emotional werewolves… why your nervous system...
2025-11-2625 minSynaptic Soul PodcastDumpster Fire Earth School: Why Empaths Sign Up for the Hard StuffIf your life has felt like a cosmic group project gone wrong, congrats babe — you might be an empath in Earth School on hard mode. In this episode, we dive into why the most sensitive souls choose the messiest timelines, the deepest lessons, the heaviest emotional backpacks, and the wildest karmic assignments.It’s not punishment. It’s initiation.It’s not weakness. It’s wiring.And it’s not suffering — it’s transmutation.Come learn why your sensitivity is a superpower, how to stop drowning in the collective dumpster fire, and how to finally...
2025-11-2439 minSynaptic Soul PodcastTime Isn’t Linear, It’s a Spiral — Welcome to the YugasYou know how people say they met God on mushrooms? Yeah… I met time.In this episode of The Synaptic Soul Podcast, we dive headfirst into the Yuga Cycles — the ancient Vedic map of humanity’s rise, fall, and rise again. From the golden coherence of Lemuria to the fall of Atlantis, from Egypt’s encoded star temples to today’s quantum awakening, we trace how Earth and consciousness move through 24,000-year energetic seasons.This isn’t prophecy; it’s physics.We’re talking precession of the equinoxes, electromagnetic fields, DNA light codes, and why your nervous system feels like it’s...
2025-11-2034 minLove, Light, and Black HolesYou Don't Need Inner Peace, You Need Sacred RageStop focusing on trying to to regulate your nervous system. You need to let out the scream you've been holding in the past decade.We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that being peaceful all the time is the goal — like inner peace is the new personality trait. But what I’ve learned (through life, shadow work, and a few cosmic smackdowns) is this:sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is scream into a pillow at full volume.In today’s episode, we get into the messy truth the wellness world avoids:Why “inn...
2025-11-1929 minLove, Light, and Black HolesYou Don't Need Inner Peace, You Need Sacred RageStop focusing on trying to to regulate your nervous system. You need to let out the scream you've been holding in the past decade.We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that being peaceful all the time is the goal — like inner peace is the new personality trait. But what I’ve learned (through life, shadow work, and a few cosmic smackdowns) is this:sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is scream into a pillow at full volume.In today’s episode, we get into the messy truth the wellness world avoids:Why “inn...
2025-11-1929 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe prophecy in human design: 2027, mutation, and the future of humanitySomething big is coming — and it’s not just another retrograde. Human Design says that in 2027, humanity undergoes a literal mutation. Not symbolic, not metaphorical — biological. The Solar Plexus, our emotional engine, begins evolving into a new awareness center, shifting us from mind-based survival to frequency-based consciousness.In this episode, Ava breaks down the prophecy Ra Uru Hu downloaded in 1987, the mechanics of mutation happening in our bodies and DNA, and why society feels like it’s burning to the ground. From the rise of the Rave Children (the next stage of human evolution) to the death of the t...
2025-11-1737 minSynaptic Soul PodcastWitchcraft, Science & the Subconscious: Why Spells Actually WorkScience finally meets the cauldron. In this no-fluff, heavy-truth episode, we break down how witchcraft is actually a neurological, biochemical, and quantum process. From ritual-induced brain states to ancestral DNA coding to the electromagnetic language of belief, Ava Marie rips the veil between “woo-woo” and “wow-that’s-real.” Expect f-bombs, hard facts, and the reminder that you are the wand.✨ Let’s stay in the magic togetherFollow the pod on TikTok & Instagram Love what you're hearing? Buy me a coffee! Connect with me on my website ✨ From our Sponsors Download the Saged App + Get 10% off...
2025-11-1336 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Beauty of Uncertainty: How to Surrender into the UnknownYou know that feeling when life rips the rug out from under you, and your first instinct is to grab tighter? Yeah, same.In this episode, I revisit something I wrote a decade ago while living in Granada, Spain, back when uncertainty meant adventure, not anxiety. Back then, I chased the unknown through cobblestone streets and open roads. But after the quantum crumble of the past few years, I’ve learned that uncertainty isn’t something you conquer… it’s something you befriend.In this episode I talk about:Why the ego craves control but the...
2025-11-1225 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Beauty of Uncertainty: How to Surrender into the UnknownYou know that feeling when life rips the rug out from under you, and your first instinct is to grab tighter? Yeah, same.In this episode, I revisit something I wrote a decade ago while living in Granada, Spain, back when uncertainty meant adventure, not anxiety. Back then, I chased the unknown through cobblestone streets and open roads. But after the quantum crumble of the past few years, I’ve learned that uncertainty isn’t something you conquer… it’s something you befriend.In this episode I talk about:Why the ego craves control but the...
2025-11-1225 minSynaptic Soul PodcastThe Comet, the Prophecy & the Ninth PlanetAfter a brief break to finish writing her first book For the Plot, Ava Marie Anderson is back — and so is the cosmos. In this episode, we dive into the interstellar comet 3I/ATLAS, the Hopi Blue Star Kachina prophecy, and the newly discovered world beyond Neptune that’s rewriting astronomy textbooks. From Sumerian clay tablets to quantum biology, this is where science and myth hold hands and whisper, “Told you so.”✨ Let’s stay in the magic togetherFollow the pod on TikTok & Instagram Love what you're hearing? Buy me a coffee! Connect with me on my website
2025-11-1031 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: You're the problem, and the solutionYup ... I'm the problem. IT'S ME! But I'm also the solution, and you are too.Press play on this MICRODOSE that packs a mega dose of wisdom.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for M...
2025-11-0607 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: You're the problem, and the solutionYup ... I'm the problem. IT'S ME! But I'm also the solution, and you are too.Press play on this MICRODOSE that packs a mega dose of wisdom.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for M...
2025-11-0607 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow I Realized I Was Addicted to HealingYou know that moment when your healing journey starts to feel heavy?Like you’ve been journaling, meditating, shadow-working your ass off. And somehow still feel stuck? Or even like things are getting worse? Yeah. That was me. I was compulsively focused on healing, which made me think I was broken. And that ain't it!!!!In this episode, I share the story of when I realized I’d become addicted to healing. It was right after I lost an IUD inside my body (yep, lost), had surgery for fibroids, and watched them grow righ...
2025-11-0531 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow I Realized I Was Addicted to HealingYou know that moment when your healing journey starts to feel heavy?Like you’ve been journaling, meditating, shadow-working your ass off. And somehow still feel stuck? Or even like things are getting worse? Yeah. That was me. I was compulsively focused on healing, which made me think I was broken. And that ain't it!!!!In this episode, I share the story of when I realized I’d become addicted to healing. It was right after I lost an IUD inside my body (yep, lost), had surgery for fibroids, and watched them grow righ...
2025-11-0531 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: Making Peace with Your Past SelvesYou know those random memories that still make you cringe? The ones that sneak up while you’re brushing your teeth and you’re like, “ugh, why did I do that?” Yeah. This episode is about that.Grab your tea, your oat-milk latte, whatever and let’s talk about what it really means to make peace with all the versions of you that came before.Because here’s the truth: they were doing their best. The one who stayed too long, the one who settled, the one who self-sabotaged, the one who didn’t know any better… sh...
2025-10-3112 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: Making Peace with Your Past SelvesYou know those random memories that still make you cringe? The ones that sneak up while you’re brushing your teeth and you’re like, “ugh, why did I do that?” Yeah. This episode is about that.Grab your tea, your oat-milk latte, whatever and let’s talk about what it really means to make peace with all the versions of you that came before.Because here’s the truth: they were doing their best. The one who stayed too long, the one who settled, the one who self-sabotaged, the one who didn’t know any better… sh...
2025-10-3112 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow AI Is Revolutionizing Spiritual GrowthBuckle up, because this one’s a controversial portal!I just got back from an AI summit that was supposed to be about tech… but every speaker kept talking about the same thing: being more human.And it hit me. Artificial intelligence isn’t replacing us. It’s revealing us.In this episode of Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re diving into how AI can become your spiritual thought partner — a tool for subconscious reprogramming, shadow work, and self-discovery that mirrors your inner world back to you.This isn’t about outsourcing in...
2025-10-2933 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow AI Is Revolutionizing Spiritual GrowthBuckle up, because this one’s a controversial portal!I just got back from an AI summit that was supposed to be about tech… but every speaker kept talking about the same thing: being more human.And it hit me. Artificial intelligence isn’t replacing us. It’s revealing us.In this episode of Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re diving into how AI can become your spiritual thought partner — a tool for subconscious reprogramming, shadow work, and self-discovery that mirrors your inner world back to you.This isn’t about outsourcing in...
2025-10-2933 minLove, Light, and Black HolesLove & Light Bypass: Why High Vibration Culture Is Keeping You SmallWhen I first stepped onto my spiritual path, I became a professional emotion rejector. I thought healing meant I'd never feel anger again, that enlightenment meant floating above the messiness of being human. I was so busy trying to ascend that I forgot to expand.This is the trap of what's called spiritual bypass. The tendency to use spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with painful feelings, unresolved wounds, and developmental needs. And nowhere is this more prevalent than in the "love and light" movement that dominates modern spirituality.THIS is why Love, Light...
2025-10-2232 minLove, Light, and Black HolesLove & Light Bypass: Why High Vibration Culture Is Keeping You SmallWhen I first stepped onto my spiritual path, I became a professional emotion rejector. I thought healing meant I'd never feel anger again, that enlightenment meant floating above the messiness of being human. I was so busy trying to ascend that I forgot to expand.This is the trap of what's called spiritual bypass. The tendency to use spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with painful feelings, unresolved wounds, and developmental needs. And nowhere is this more prevalent than in the "love and light" movement that dominates modern spirituality.THIS is why Love, Light...
2025-10-2232 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: Spiritual Ego: The Old Self in Mala Beads + LinenDid you kill an old version of yourself only to discover your ego came back in white linen and mala beads with a "higher than thou" energy?The spiritual ego is suuuuuch a big thing in the spiritual industry and community so it had to be talked about. If you're gonna go killing old parts of yourself and have a spiritual experience, please don't let your ego put your spirituality on a pedestal. That's not the point!This 10-minute Microdose goes deep into the sneakiest part of the spiritual path: the spiritual ego. The one...
2025-10-1710 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: Spiritual Ego: The Old Self in Mala Beads + LinenDid you kill an old version of yourself only to discover your ego came back in white linen and mala beads with a "higher than thou" energy?The spiritual ego is suuuuuch a big thing in the spiritual industry and community so it had to be talked about. If you're gonna go killing old parts of yourself and have a spiritual experience, please don't let your ego put your spirituality on a pedestal. That's not the point!This 10-minute Microdose goes deep into the sneakiest part of the spiritual path: the spiritual ego. The one...
2025-10-1710 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Kill Your Old Identity: Ego Death, Spiritual Rebirth & Becoming Who You’re Meant to BeI'm a murderer! Call your fav true crime podcast host and get me on, cuz I've committed murder 1000 times. And I've been reborn 1001!Sometimes the only way forward is through your own identity funeral.This episode is an initiation into the death of the old self. The version of you that’s outgrown its own skin. The one that keeps pretending, performing, or holding it all together when your soul is begging for release.We’ll go deep into the spirituality, psychology, and energy of identity death and why it’s the most necess...
2025-10-1533 minLove, Light, and Black HolesHow to Kill Your Old Identity: Ego Death, Spiritual Rebirth & Becoming Who You’re Meant to BeI'm a murderer! Call your fav true crime podcast host and get me on, cuz I've committed murder 1000 times. And I've been reborn 1001!Sometimes the only way forward is through your own identity funeral.This episode is an initiation into the death of the old self. The version of you that’s outgrown its own skin. The one that keeps pretending, performing, or holding it all together when your soul is begging for release.We’ll go deep into the spirituality, psychology, and energy of identity death and why it’s the most necess...
2025-10-1533 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: You're Exhausted cuz Your Energy is on SALE! How to cleanse and call it backIn this Microdose, we’re talking energy hygiene: how to clean your field, call your energy back, and seal the leaks that steal your creativity, pleasure, and alignment.It’s 10 minutes of truth, magic, and real-world shifts to help you reclaim your power and remember who the f*ck you are.⭐️ Ready to remember your power? You don’t need more healing. You need activation. Shadow work is the key that turns healing into momentum. Nocturne is where your shadow stops haunting you and starts helping you. We start on 10/23 for 3 weeks of soul-stirring magic that will...
2025-10-1011 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: You're Exhausted cuz Your Energy is on SALE! How to cleanse and call it backIn this Microdose, we’re talking energy hygiene: how to clean your field, call your energy back, and seal the leaks that steal your creativity, pleasure, and alignment.It’s 10 minutes of truth, magic, and real-world shifts to help you reclaim your power and remember who the f*ck you are.⭐️ Ready to remember your power? You don’t need more healing. You need activation. Shadow work is the key that turns healing into momentum. Nocturne is where your shadow stops haunting you and starts helping you. We start on 10/23 for 3 weeks of soul-stirring magic that will...
2025-10-1011 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy Boundaries are Freedom, and NO is a Full SentenceThis is my Roman Empire!!! NO IS A FULL SENTENCE!!! I am a recovering people pleaser. I used to say YES without even thinking about it and then, usually, immediately regret it and then dread the thing I said yes to. And that is NO WAY to live. It's exhausting and at the core, it's self-betrayal. Learn from my mistakes and set boundaries to create more freedom in your life. In this episode I dive into:how boundaries are freedom, not wallswhy boundaries have to start within, and then extend to otherswhat it means...
2025-10-0834 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy Boundaries are Freedom, and NO is a Full SentenceThis is my Roman Empire!!! NO IS A FULL SENTENCE!!! I am a recovering people pleaser. I used to say YES without even thinking about it and then, usually, immediately regret it and then dread the thing I said yes to. And that is NO WAY to live. It's exhausting and at the core, it's self-betrayal. Learn from my mistakes and set boundaries to create more freedom in your life. In this episode I dive into:how boundaries are freedom, not wallswhy boundaries have to start within, and then extend to otherswhat it means...
2025-10-0834 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: My Shadow Muted My Mic + My 4 Step Shadow Work FrameworkOkay fam, full transparency: my last episode had a 20-second silent intro (yep, 20 seconds of pure silence) … which honestly is kind of the most shadow-work thing ever. But instead of stressing about it, I recorded this quick microdose episode on my 4-step shadow work process. It also helps to laugh at yourself and not take life too seriously. This experience is proof of how far I've come with my own shadow work because it didn't send me into a full panic frenzy. I uploaded new audio, and moved on with my life. WHAT FREEDOM!I developed 4-step sh...
2025-10-0311 minLove, Light, and Black HolesMICRODOSE: My Shadow Muted My Mic + My 4 Step Shadow Work FrameworkOkay fam, full transparency: my last episode had a 20-second silent intro (yep, 20 seconds of pure silence) … which honestly is kind of the most shadow-work thing ever. But instead of stressing about it, I recorded this quick microdose episode on my 4-step shadow work process. It also helps to laugh at yourself and not take life too seriously. This experience is proof of how far I've come with my own shadow work because it didn't send me into a full panic frenzy. I uploaded new audio, and moved on with my life. WHAT FREEDOM!I developed 4-step sh...
2025-10-0311 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy You’re Not Manifesting: The Shadow Work You’re AvoidingIt's no coincidence that this is episode 8 ... the number of INFINITE ABUNDANCE! That's a magical synchronicity for you right there.I'm obsessed with shadow work for a reason! It works! I've been talking about the missing piece in manifestation for years, and it's something the big gurus seems to completely glaze over: SHADOW WORK! You can do all the affirmations, journaling, meditations, and visualizations. But if you're not addressing shadow work first, you're missing a whole half of the equation.SHAME IS THE SHADOW OF DESIREIn this episode, I’m pulling back th...
2025-10-0133 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy You’re Not Manifesting: The Shadow Work You’re AvoidingIt's no coincidence that this is episode 8 ... the number of INFINITE ABUNDANCE! That's a magical synchronicity for you right there.I'm obsessed with shadow work for a reason! It works! I've been talking about the missing piece in manifestation for years, and it's something the big gurus seems to completely glaze over: SHADOW WORK! You can do all the affirmations, journaling, meditations, and visualizations. But if you're not addressing shadow work first, you're missing a whole half of the equation.SHAME IS THE SHADOW OF DESIREIn this episode, I’m pulling back th...
2025-10-0133 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Future Self Frequency Experiment: Can It Rewire Your Reality?Do it for your future self!!! Here’s the secret that no one talks about: your future self isn’t waiting 5 years down the road. They're already here! And your brain literally can’t tell the difference between a memory, your imagination, or what’s real right now. This is how you "hack" your future to look and feel exactly like what you desire. We're talking shadow, science, and micro-moves that collapse timelines and make magic unavoidable.In this episode I’m spilling the tea on the Future Self Hack. I'll get into how shadow work, nervous system mag...
2025-09-2335 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Future Self Frequency Experiment: Can It Rewire Your Reality?Do it for your future self!!! Here’s the secret that no one talks about: your future self isn’t waiting 5 years down the road. They're already here! And your brain literally can’t tell the difference between a memory, your imagination, or what’s real right now. This is how you "hack" your future to look and feel exactly like what you desire. We're talking shadow, science, and micro-moves that collapse timelines and make magic unavoidable.In this episode I’m spilling the tea on the Future Self Hack. I'll get into how shadow work, nervous system mag...
2025-09-2335 minLove, Light, and Black Holes11:11 Synchronicities: How to See the Signs from the UniverseYou’ve been asking for a sign? Here it is.I wasn’t sure which episode to record this week, as I was in between two topics, and then I walked into my kitchen and saw the oven clock at 3:33!!! The universe answered for me. Haha! Hellloooo SYNCHRONICITY!That’s how signs work. They’re not random, they’re winks from the cosmos. And the universe has JOKES!In this episode we’re diving into the language of the universe and how to recognize it, trust it, and act on it. You're never alone, you j...
2025-09-1741 minLove, Light, and Black Holes11:11 Synchronicities: How to See the Signs from the UniverseYou’ve been asking for a sign? Here it is.I wasn’t sure which episode to record this week, as I was in between two topics, and then I walked into my kitchen and saw the oven clock at 3:33!!! The universe answered for me. Haha! Hellloooo SYNCHRONICITY!That’s how signs work. They’re not random, they’re winks from the cosmos. And the universe has JOKES!In this episode we’re diving into the language of the universe and how to recognize it, trust it, and act on it. You're never alone, you j...
2025-09-1741 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Quantum Crumble: Signs You’re in a Transformation PortalThis one’s for the baddies in the middle of a breakdown who need to know it’s actually a breakthrough.The quantum crumble of 2025 is real. And eclipse season is here to make sure you don’t slip back into old, dusty patterns.If your life feels like it’s falling apart, if you don’t know which path to take, if you’re overwhelmed by endings and beginnings all at once, this episode is your lifeline. Take a deep breath, press play, and remember that what looks like a wrecking ball is actually building the...
2025-09-1041 minLove, Light, and Black HolesThe Quantum Crumble: Signs You’re in a Transformation PortalThis one’s for the baddies in the middle of a breakdown who need to know it’s actually a breakthrough.The quantum crumble of 2025 is real. And eclipse season is here to make sure you don’t slip back into old, dusty patterns.If your life feels like it’s falling apart, if you don’t know which path to take, if you’re overwhelmed by endings and beginnings all at once, this episode is your lifeline. Take a deep breath, press play, and remember that what looks like a wrecking ball is actually building the...
2025-09-1041 minLove, Light, and Black Holes2025 Astrology Forecast: The Life-Altering Shifts You Need to KnowIf you feel like you're life is falling apart, hold on please! Because it's actually falling into place. Buckle up because this year's astrology is MAYYJAAHHH!!!! We're talking all outer planets changing signs, literal decades of cycles ending, and a whole new beginning. But this can also feel like a hot mess because endings and beginnings are overlapping. We're in the quantum crumble right now before we leap into a whole new vibe.Paired with a 9 year in numerology (2+0+2+5=9), the Lunar Nodes changing to the Pisces/Virgo axis on 1/11/25 (hello eclipse season), AND the Snake...
2025-09-0342 minLove, Light, and Black Holes2025 Astrology Forecast: The Life-Altering Shifts You Need to KnowIf you feel like you're life is falling apart, hold on please! Because it's actually falling into place. Buckle up because this year's astrology is MAYYJAAHHH!!!! We're talking all outer planets changing signs, literal decades of cycles ending, and a whole new beginning. But this can also feel like a hot mess because endings and beginnings are overlapping. We're in the quantum crumble right now before we leap into a whole new vibe.Paired with a 9 year in numerology (2+0+2+5=9), the Lunar Nodes changing to the Pisces/Virgo axis on 1/11/25 (hello eclipse season), AND the Snake...
2025-09-0342 minLove, Light, and Black HolesShame vs Desire: The Shadow Work That Unlocks Your PowerIf you're manifesting but not doing shadow work first, you need to listen to this episode!What does your ego do when you hear (or read) "shame is the shadow of desire"?When I first read this, I immediately rejected it. Like how RIDICULOUS that I would be ashamed of my desire *cure huge scoff and snort*But as I dove deeper into it and told my ego to have a snack and a nap, my whole world exploded as I realized that I actually WAS ashamed of my desires. And that shame...
2025-08-2737 minLove, Light, and Black HolesShame vs Desire: The Shadow Work That Unlocks Your PowerIf you're manifesting but not doing shadow work first, you need to listen to this episode!What does your ego do when you hear (or read) "shame is the shadow of desire"?When I first read this, I immediately rejected it. Like how RIDICULOUS that I would be ashamed of my desire *cure huge scoff and snort*But as I dove deeper into it and told my ego to have a snack and a nap, my whole world exploded as I realized that I actually WAS ashamed of my desires. And that shame...
2025-08-2737 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy You Need to Embrace Your Disco Ball Soul🪩 Yes, your infinite, brilliant, expansive soul is just like a disco ball. In this episode I get deep on how your light and darkness are both setting the mood up in the club of your life.This concept has been swirling around in my own soul since 2017 and I'm sure you'll feel the same after hearing this. As humans we come here to "earth school' to forget that we're infinite and remember our brilliance through a lifetime of challenge and victories. After listening to this episode, you'll have a deeper love for the life you're liv...
2025-08-2035 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWhy You Need to Embrace Your Disco Ball Soul🪩 Yes, your infinite, brilliant, expansive soul is just like a disco ball. In this episode I get deep on how your light and darkness are both setting the mood up in the club of your life.This concept has been swirling around in my own soul since 2017 and I'm sure you'll feel the same after hearing this. As humans we come here to "earth school' to forget that we're infinite and remember our brilliance through a lifetime of challenge and victories. After listening to this episode, you'll have a deeper love for the life you're liv...
2025-08-2035 minLove, Light, and Black HolesDancing With Darkness: Shadow Work for a Brighter SelfAre you afraid of the dark? Or are you afraid of YOUR dark? In this inaugural episode of Love, Light, and Black Holes, I explore dancing with darkness and how it makes your light shine brighter. From surviving a terrorist attack in India to the loss of my father, Dancing With Darkness is a raw, soulful guide to living fully.Mentioned in this episode:Check out my 5-week shadow work course Unbothered AF on Saged https://www.sagedshop.com/collections/saged-courses/products/shadow-work-workshopGet the Shadow Work Workbook on Saged https://www.sagedshop.com/collections...
2025-08-1343 minLove, Light, and Black HolesDancing With Darkness: Shadow Work for a Brighter SelfAre you afraid of the dark? Or are you afraid of YOUR dark? In this inaugural episode of Love, Light, and Black Holes, I explore dancing with darkness and how it makes your light shine brighter. From surviving a terrorist attack in India to the loss of my father, Dancing With Darkness is a raw, soulful guide to living fully.Mentioned in this episode:Check out my 5-week shadow work course Unbothered AF on Saged https://www.sagedshop.com/collections/saged-courses/products/shadow-work-workshopGet the Shadow Work Workbook on Saged https://www.sagedshop.com/collections...
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Love, Light, and Black HolesWelcome to the VoidYou’re not just love and light! You’re a disco ball soul and a black hole. Every mirror, every shadow, every spark of light is needed for you to shine.This trailer episode is your invitation into the void, where we spin shadows into stardust and turn the whole damn human experience into magic.First full episode dropping soon!Programs and ResourcesFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/product-details/product/the-descentKeep the...
2025-08-0803 minLove, Light, and Black HolesWelcome to the VoidYou’re not just love and light! You’re a disco ball soul and a black hole. Every mirror, every shadow, every spark of light is needed for you to shine.This trailer episode is your invitation into the void, where we spin shadows into stardust and turn the whole damn human experience into magic.First full episode dropping soon!Programs and ResourcesFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/product-details/product/the-descentKeep the...
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