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Rainbow After DarkThe Alchemist’s LaboratorySend us a textNote:This episode includes emotionally vulnerable reflections on trauma, spiritual disillusionment, and the ongoing process of healing. While not graphic, the tone is raw and candid, including moments of frustration and tenderness. Please listen with care, especially if you are in a sensitive emotional state. As always, take what serves you and leave the rest.In this tender episode of Rainbow After Dark, I invite you into the heart of my inner process—where emotion, intuition, and discernment meet in real time. I’ll shar...
2025-05-0255 minRainbow After DarkThe Alchemist’s LaboratoryNote:
This episode includes emotionally vulnerable reflections on trauma, spiritual disillusionment, and the ongoing process of healing. While not graphic, the tone is raw and candid, including moments of frustration and tenderness. Please listen with care, especially if you are in a sensitive emotional state. As always, take what serves you and leave the rest.
In this tender episode of Rainbow After Dark, I invite you into the heart of my inner process—where emotion, intuition, and discernment meet in real time. I’ll share from the raw edge of my own sensitivity, and speak on what it m...
2025-05-0255 minRainbow After DarkTechnical Difficulties 😅Send us a textHey void whisperers!Due to some tech gremlins and creative recalibrations, I will not have an episode available this week.I always want what I share to feel aligned and intentional, and this week asked for a little more space.We’ll be back next Thursday at 7PM PST, so please tune in then!Thank you so much for being here, for listening, and for your patience.Sending you love from the in-between. 💕 Thanks for listening to Rainbow After Dark...
2025-04-2500 minRainbow After DarkWelcome HomeSend us a textIn this episode, we enter the soft, messy, ever-changing place of becoming—this is me coming home to myself in real time. This is an unscripted, vulnerable stream of thought on authenticity, emotional fluidity, embodiment, and the process of learning how to feel. Let’s explore the ways we’re often taught to hide, repress, or perform ourselves into safety—and what it means to begin shedding those layers.We’ll talk about the fear that comes up when we let ourselves be seen, the complexity of discerning between intuition and trauma res...
2025-04-1846 minRainbow After DarkWelcome HomeIn this episode, we enter the soft, messy, ever-changing place of becoming—this is me coming home to myself in real time. This is an unscripted, vulnerable stream of thought on authenticity, emotional fluidity, embodiment, and the process of learning how to feel. Let’s explore the ways we’re often taught to hide, repress, or perform ourselves into safety—and what it means to begin shedding those layers.
We’ll talk about the fear that comes up when we let ourselves be seen, the complexity of discerning between intuition and trauma responses, and the tenderness of learning h...
2025-04-1846 minRainbow After DarkSoft Landing: A Gentle Practice for Returning to YourselfSend us a textA gentle practice for arriving in the present moment.This practice is an invitation to pause and come home to yourself, just as you are. There’s nothing to fix, no state to achieve—only space to soften, to feel, and to be. Through a simple guided journey, you’ll be gently reminded that you are not alone in what you’re holding.Using breath, body awareness, and compassionate presence, Soft Landing creates room for tenderness, regulation, and connection with your own inner wisdom. Whether you’re feeling overwhelmed, untethered...
2025-04-1206 minRainbow After DarkSoft Landing: A Gentle Practice for Returning to YourselfA gentle practice for arriving in the present moment.
This practice is an invitation to pause and come home to yourself, just as you are. There’s nothing to fix, no state to achieve—only space to soften, to feel, and to be. Through a simple guided journey, you’ll be gently reminded that you are not alone in what you’re holding.
Using breath, body awareness, and compassionate presence, Soft Landing creates room for tenderness, regulation, and connection with your own inner wisdom. Whether you’re feeling overwhelmed, untethered, or simply needing a moment of grace...
2025-04-1206 minRainbow After DarkSoft, Squishy, Sensitive ThingSend us a textNote: This episode touches on themes of fire, loss, and trauma.In this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the beautiful, complicated truth of what it means to be human: we’re soft, squishy, sensitive things.We’re made of water and nerve endings, after all—fluid-filled bodies with spongey brains and tender hearts trying to make sense of a world that often demands we toughen up and disconnect. But what if our sensitivity isn’t a flaw?Let’s go on a journey through th...
2025-04-1130 minRainbow After DarkSoft, Squishy, Sensitive ThingNote: This episode touches on themes of fire, loss, and trauma.
In this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the beautiful, complicated truth of what it means to be human: we’re soft, squishy, sensitive things.
We’re made of water and nerve endings, after all—fluid-filled bodies with spongey brains and tender hearts trying to make sense of a world that often demands we toughen up and disconnect. But what if our sensitivity isn’t a flaw?
Let’s go on a journey through the nervous system—our body’s operating system—and the...
2025-04-1130 minRainbow After DarkGolden Sheep Have Gilded FleeceIn this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the paradox of being both cherished and cast aside, inspired by the myth of Chrysomallos—the golden ram from Greek mythology. As someone who has lived the experience of being both the “golden child” and the “black sheep”, I found deep resonance in this story and how it reflects the roles we inherit in dysfunctional family systems.
How do these roles shape our sense of worth? What happens when we realize that our value isn’t in what we sacrifice, but in who we truly are? Through mythology, personal ref...
2025-04-0421 minRainbow After DarkGolden Sheep Have Gilded FleeceSend us a textIn this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the paradox of being both cherished and cast aside, inspired by the myth of Chrysomallos—the golden ram from Greek mythology. As someone who has lived the experience of being both the “golden child” and the “black sheep”, I found deep resonance in this story and how it reflects the roles we inherit in dysfunctional family systems.How do these roles shape our sense of worth? What happens when we realize that our value isn’t in what we sacrifice, but in who we truly...
2025-04-0421 minRainbow After DarkPopcyclicalHealing isn’t linear—it’s messy, cyclical, paradoxical, and often feels like we’re back where we started. But what if we’re actually spiraling forward? In this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the nature of cycles—how they show up in nature, our bodies, and our healing journeys. From the moon’s phases to the rewiring of old patterns, we’ll dive into why we revisit wounds, how our bodies process healing on their own timeline, and why self-compassion is essential when it feels like we’re ‘going in circles.’ Because sometimes, moving through is the only way forward.
2025-03-2824 minRainbow After DarkPopcyclicalSend us a textHealing isn’t linear—it’s messy, cyclical, paradoxical, and often feels like we’re back where we started. But what if we’re actually spiraling forward? In this episode of Rainbow After Dark, we explore the nature of cycles—how they show up in nature, our bodies, and our healing journeys. From the moon’s phases to the rewiring of old patterns, we’ll dive into why we revisit wounds, how our bodies process healing on their own timeline, and why self-compassion is essential when it feels like we’re ‘going in circles.’ Because so...
2025-03-2824 minRainbow After DarkInto the DarkWhat happens when we stop running from the dark—when we step into it, hold it, and let it hold us? In this episode, we explore the depths of darkness—not just as pain or suffering, but as a space for transformation. Through my personal reflections on trauma, identity, and healing, let’s examine how darkness can be a guide rather than something to fear. From childhood wounds and chronic pain to relationship patterns and self-abandonment, I’ll share how facing the unknown led to clarity and growth.
Healing isn’t linear—it’s messy, cyclical, and paradoxical. B...
2025-03-2123 minRainbow After DarkInto the DarkSend us a textWhat happens when we stop running from the dark—when we step into it, hold it, and let it hold us? In this episode, we explore the depths of darkness—not just as pain or suffering, but as a space for transformation. Through my personal reflections on trauma, identity, and healing, let’s examine how darkness can be a guide rather than something to fear. From childhood wounds and chronic pain to relationship patterns and self-abandonment, I’ll share how facing the unknown led to clarity and growth.Healing isn’t linear—it’...
2025-03-2123 minRainbow After DarkConnecting the DotsIn this episode, we’re going on a personal journey through chronic pain, illness, and the revelation that these struggles are more than just physical—they’re neurological. After being diagnosed with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS) at 28, I thought I had the answer, but years of persistent pain led me to a profound realization: the root of my discomfort wasn’t just my body, but my nervous system.
I explore how disconnected, survival-driven societal structures contribute to widespread nervous system dysregulation, leaving many of us stuck in a state of arrested development. I reflect on my own experien...
2025-03-1423 minRainbow After DarkConnecting the DotsSend us a textIn this episode, we’re going on a personal journey through chronic pain, illness, and the revelation that these struggles are more than just physical—they’re neurological. After being diagnosed with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS) at 28, I thought I had the answer, but years of persistent pain led me to a profound realization: the root of my discomfort wasn’t just my body, but my nervous system.I explore how disconnected, survival-driven societal structures contribute to widespread nervous system dysregulation, leaving many of us stuck in a state of arrested developm...
2025-03-1423 minRainbow After DarkHello, I’m RainbowSend us a textWelcome to Rainbow After Dark, a place where we whisper into the void and explore the weird, messy, beautiful paradox of being human. In this first episode, I introduce myself and the purpose behind this podcast—a space to connect and embrace both the light and the dark.I share a bit about my own journey, how chaos and contradiction have shaped me, and why connection—to ourselves, to others, and to life itself—is at the heart of what we’ll explore together. I’ll reflect on the complexities of existence...
2025-03-0719 minRainbow After DarkHello, I’m RainbowWelcome to Rainbow After Dark, a place where we whisper into the void and explore the weird, messy, beautiful paradox of being human. In this first episode, I introduce myself and the purpose behind this podcast—a space to connect and embrace both the light and the dark.
I share a bit about my own journey, how chaos and contradiction have shaped me, and why connection—to ourselves, to others, and to life itself—is at the heart of what we’ll explore together. I’ll reflect on the complexities of existence, navigating disconnection, and how paradox is somethi...
2025-03-0719 min