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Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 6.1 Time Turrors and Disturtions (A Month of Fear-Work)A month full of dealing with fear and determining who to be. In this release from the patreon stream, we talk about the terrors of time when you have a traumatized brain. Inconsistency, lapses, wormholes and sandtraps... we live in temporal funhouses. Let's talk about how an unstandard relationship with time affects our relationships and what to do about it.Video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2026-01-3041 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.12.2 Top 5 Life Lessons of 2025Not to call it 'experiential wisdom,' but... if 5 things were gained in 2025?HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-12-3011 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.12.1 Top 5 Lit Lessons of 2025Says it all. These are the most impact-making findings in the research conducted 2025.HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-12-3017 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.11 Cognitive Basis of Depression'Stop seeing everything so negatively." they say. But the cognitive behaviors underlying depression don't allow it. Let's talk about mental reactions and sticky patterns that outweigh false brightsides.VideoWorkbook!CoursesummaryThis conversation delves into the cognitive basis of depression, focusing on how neural networks, memory games, language, cognitive inhibition inhibition, outdated working memory, and rumination contribute to depressive states. It explores the mechanisms behind cognitive depression, compassionate views for the state of human suffering, and offers strategies for managing depression through attention training and environmental...

2025-11-2615 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.10 Back to High School: Secret Sources of Peer Pressure in the 2020s"Peer Pressure is a high school problem." Or is it? Let's talk about adult brains drunk on social influence through the illusions and purposeful manipulations of the internet.Video! summaryThe conversation explores the pervasive effects of internet influence and peer pressure on society, highlighting how these factors have radicalized identities and impacted human psychology. Algorithms are particularly implicated as the highly corruptive "third party affiliations" that we don't directly choose, which then keep us locked within social groups and cliques. The human need to conform for safety yet also establish...

2025-10-3011 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.9 Costs of Impression ManagementIf Facades of Conformity feel a bit much, how about Impression Management strategies? Let's talk about common strategies, the risks vs. rewards, and negative return on energetic investments. VIDEO FORMCourse form!summaryThis conversation delves into the themes of conformity and impression management, exploring how individuals often sacrifice their true selves to fit societal expectations. It discusses the psychological implications of these behaviors, including increased loneliness and decreased life satisfaction, and highlights various strategies people use to manage their self-image. The conversation emphasizes the risks associated with these...

2025-09-3011 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.8 Facades of Conformity (FOCs)It's a summary episode! What have we been talking about lately? Facades of Conformity as they overlap with CPTSD, RSD, and life-destruction.Free Video!summary Let's talk about environmental mental illness, Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD), and the Facades of Conformity (FOCs) that individuals often adopt in various "supervisory" relationships. The discussion delves into the emotional toll of FOCs, emphasizing the detrimental effects of emotional exhaustion.takeawaysFacades of Conformity are often used in abusive relationships to prevent loss.Hiding one's true self diminish the resource of emotional health.Self-enhancement...

2025-08-2710 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.7 Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD) x CPTSD Life ExperiencesThe RSD - "typical CPTSD experience" overlap is deep and wide. Let's talk about shutting down life, expression, and healing from heightened rejection sensitivity.Video! (freeee)summaryWe explore the intricate relationship between Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), delving into various manifestations of RSD, including agoraphobia, challenges in self-disclosure, lack of novelty in life experiences, communication struggles, and workplace dysfunction.takeawaysRSD is closely linked to CPTSD symptoms.Agoraphobia can stem from heightened sensitivity to rejection.Disclosure of personal experiences is crucial...

2025-07-2622 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.6 Pub Ep! Environ-Mental Illness: Fear vs. Anxiety, Stress, Phobia, ParanoiaVideo!let's talk about environ mental illness, discussing how external stimuli and personal experiences contribute to psycho-emotional disruptions. Today, featuring a discussion emphasizing the importance of understanding anxiety, differentiating between various emotional states such as fear, stress, anxiety, phobia, and paranoia, and not being a dick to yourself on the other end.Free releases & re-releasesFree shorties - youtube!Free shorties - patreon!Free laughs & shorts Insta!Reduced membership!Help the world Hosted on Acast. See acast.com...

2025-06-2821 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.5 Behaviors for Preventing PTSDWe can't prevent trauma, but we can help ourselves prevent long-term disordering in the aftermath. Here's the ultra brief rundown of behaviors to prevent PTSD.Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-05-3113 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.4 Practical Ways to Regulate Your Nervous SystemFREE VIDEO!Coming off a natural disaster trauma, let's talk about 47 *practical* ways to rebalance your nervous system.... that aren't all "yoga and breathing deeply." Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-04-3052 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.3 Boundaries to allow compassionate, love, and self-existenceVIDEO (FREEEEEE)Compassion requires protection in the form of relationship-allowing boundaries. read: not relationship-ending rules. What are boundaries, how do we set them, and how do we make sure they're enacted? Talking inner and outer boundaries to separate their shit from yours, so love can exist. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-03-3135 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers CHILL SOUNDS for/from an unchill weekSo my CNS has been plugged to a 50amp this week, hburs?Gratefully heard some sounds under the near-full moon that swept a bitta anxiety awayHave an immersive walk and some guided visual breaths with Marcus and meIt's a predawn stroll through waterfalls and frogs, break glass in case of nerves on fireGoin nature zen, Fuckers😮‍💨🌱💦🌊🐸🌕✨Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-03-1520 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.2 Trauma Perspectives & EgosA VIDEOMemories detached from the whole -> views too big or too small which lock the brain into patterned behaviors and outcomes. Talking perspective resizing and generational ego acquisitions in our Feb drop.And for all the unfolding expansions? Come check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-02-2718 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 5.1 STRESS | Societal Trauma x CPTSD Management BeginsFree VideoIt's time! To support ourselves by applying everything we've learned in 5 years of research together. Today: stress utilization.On the market for more applied trauma care? patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the community stream Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2025-01-2924 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.12 Your Haunted Self: DISASSOCIATIONA FULL LENGTH SHARE! Let's talk about the directions of disassociation and what to do about the pattern of continually ditching this bitch.VIDEO HEREHAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-12-3152 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.11 Exploring Yer Haunted self pt 1: STRESS, BIG EMOS, MISALIGNMENTS, EMBARRASHAMING MEMORIESWhat waits inside your self? STRESS, BIG EMOTIONS, MISALIGNMENTS, AND HUMILIATING MEMORIES, anyone? Let's summarize these stops on our spooktacular self-adventure. VIDEYUM!For the full ride, including DISASSOCIATION, the WHAT'S NEXTS, and FEAR check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckersHappy holiday season❄️☃️❤️‍🔥leave a holiday tip Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-12-0118 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers traumafamily holidays and the epiphany of ENOUGHVideo!It's that time. Whether you're NC, LC, or BC (bitter contact), it helps to integrate evidence and recognize your personal "ENOUGH."For more help with the holidays, check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and find the free Holiday Survival Collection. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-11-2622 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Alignment after this goddamn election"Be with your self undistracted, unphased by negative emotions, and working towards alignment!" Okay bitch, not a good week. Let's talk about aligning after this election. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-11-1726 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers BONUS Entering Yer HAUNTED self 👻 Choose your own spookventure begins!We're doing something extra 💀 It's a halloween, election, and holiday season special! 💀 Today we begin exploring our abandoned selves and exorcising awaiting demons.What's in store when we reconnect with our lives? Stress, the big negative feels, constant disassociation attempts, horrifying memories of self, tense misalignments between beliefs and reality, the "what's nexts?", and FEAR... of self / being seen / existence in general.Join up at patreon, if you dare. Tune in for each forthcoming ghastly finding or just tap the ones that apply to your haunted self. Each topic will be the start of a n...

2024-10-3107 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.10 Reconnecting with your haunted selfBeing with you... isn't an innate skill after trauma. And yet, we must, or we'll never recover. Take this long treat of an episode to start practicing your self-work. video version! (free!) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-10-3152 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.9 Obstacles to Actual self-Love After TraumaThe filthiest words: love yourself. 🤮 Why does trauma create barriers between us and... not hating us? Talkin' lost relationships, criteria for love, loss of self, and the endless self scrutiny created by post-traumatic judgments. It's a BIG EPISODE with some BIG ANNOUNCEMENTS - grab your pepto and let's talk about "self-love-y."WATCH IT HERE Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-09-2827 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.8 Self Compassion; the Daily Battle for RecoveryEducation and Responsibility are important for t-recovery... But progress peters when self-punishment predominates. Without self-compassion, regression becomes reality. Let's talk about the requirement for self-compassion and 5 ways to do it.video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-08-2826 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.7 Major Image-Distorting self-Defenses [Splitting and Projective Identification]When life serves conflictual and confusing information, our brains simplify it to survive... and fuck us over in the long-run. Let's talk about the "ALL GOOD" and "ALL BAD" self-defense mechanisms of Splitting and Projective Identification, what function they serve as children & adults, and how they create shitass trauma-bound lives down the line.Catch the FREE VIDEO PRESENTATION here. Just select "join for free" and it will be available - no strings attached.

2024-07-2923 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.6. Acting out, Help-rejecting complaining, and Passive Aggression; The (most) Immature DefensesReady to learn about the maladaptive tendencies of your most difficult relational partners? When we don't believe we're "entitled" to a need or emotion, we vent it into (unwise) action. Let's discuss the immature cognitive patterns we/others may still be utilizing to keep our brains "safe." We'll cover the lowest level self-defense mechanisms: Acting Out, Help-Rejecting Complaining, and Passive Aggression. PS - Here's the free video version! https://www.patreon.com/posts/106981368/ subscribe for free to gain access to extras like this!Want to learn a lot more about these SDMs? Sub t...

2024-06-2727 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.5 Narcs, Defense Mechanisms, & (non)Recovery: Intellectualizing, Rationalizing, and Reactionary Decision MakingWe've learned that narcs don't generally recover because of their "creative narration" abilities. Now, let's talk about some of the ways they spin those stories. Today, we start our examination of self-defense mechanisms by looking at the purposes of Intellectualization and Rationalization. Then, we ask the question: SO HOW SMART ARE THEY? And discuss the distinct Thought Processing limitations of both Grandiose and Vulnerable Narcissists.Want the full story? Find the longform episodes on these topics at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or check the new subscription stream on Spotify for all recent releases in video form, right...

2024-05-2927 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)They'll shake your hand while pissing on your leg, plead and then pulverize promises, and generally give the sense that they're one hundred people who share a face. But why?Let's talk about narcissist personality structuring that ranges from neurotic to psychopathic, but never hits the mark of "maturity." Meanwhile, creating the condition I've titled simply: There is no Integrity without Integration. Into this talk? Come hang out, there's been plenty more at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or the new Spotify exclusive subscription option found here. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com...

2024-04-2422 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing"Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from achieving this safe, centered, self-supportive, resilience-boosting psychological station, and the easiest way to achieve the "healthy self" that's never been otherwise defined. Adaptive Narcissism. Plus, we'll be discussing how AN relates to VN and GN; reiterating the truth that going small with your self is not the answer to trauma recovery. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2024-04-0140 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and GuiltWhy is the decision to sacrifice or save our brains so difficult to make? Let's talk about subconscious narratives we probably all carry, the ambivalence-guilt connection, and the power of perception on caregiving burden. Find the transcript at t-mfrs.com Looking for the 9 full episodes on this topic? Hit up the Filial Obligation Collection on patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Need some FilOb support? There's a group coming for that dontchaknow. Stay tuned. Cheers FCKRS.--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on...

2024-02-2224 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 4.1. Making of a Vulnerable NarcissistA big 'nouncement; so long TMFRS! Then let's talk about what constitutes a VulNarc versus "a person with CPTSD." Where does the chronic manipulation come from? How are recovery resources used for trauma-unhealing? What's up with the hostility and antagonism?.Lots to cover in this mashup of "time, space, and energy" meets "VulNarcs" and "trauma-selves.".For even more detail, check the newly updated Narc Collection at Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers.And thank you again for the past 4 years of gettin nerdy together. See you in the next evolution.

2024-01-3019 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.12b. Sex on Parts and Survival ProgramsThis year we spoke about Intimacy. Now it's time to confront *Intimacy.* Let's look at the discrepant programs that live inside of us, gathered across a lifetime of adaptation to extreme events and unhealthy narratives. We're talking Sexual Healing vs. Internal Family Systems and deprived needs. Need this conversation more than you knew? Check out patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the application-heavy episodes, and see what you find out about yourself. While you're there, add a little mutuality to this exchange, by helping to support this DIY healing project. --- Send in a voice...

2023-12-1524 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.12a. Transference, Projection, Monkey-barring, DisplacementWe're tying up loose ends in our discussion of relationships! Today, discussing the cognitive copy-pastes we accidentally carry out between past and present relationships - and they ways they set us back in our recovery goals while creating abusive dynamics. Need more thoughts about transference in all its forms? I've got another hour of material and an animated vid on this one. Check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for more help, or go to t-mfrs.com to get your pubpod transcripts and learn more about the project. Cheers y'all!...

2023-12-1121 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Self-abandonment vs your best SpanksgivingLet's cut the brainy shit, the real answer to surviving the holidays is not abandoning yourself.Need more holiday support? Don't we all. For all the other holiday freebies, just hit up patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Search "holiday" to find releases from the past for no cost, or subscribe to access the pre-wrangled Holiday Survival Collection for your listening ease.Stay safe, support yourself, and see you soon Fucker!MFJess and Marcus Barkus--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma...

2023-11-2234 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.11. Ten Destructive Responses that Set Off Trauma DefensesBack to NonViolent Communication! Here are 10 things the experts say destroy our attempts at vulnerable disclosures and requests. Just in time for the holidays, let's talk about why these conversational reactions burn our t-brains and why people are programmed to use them, anyways. For the full transcript and all the doods, check t-mfrs.com and get ready to peruse for hours.To jump into the full-length conversations and deep dives, head over to patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. And help support this project's continuation while you're there!--- Send in...

2023-11-0347 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.10. Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamicsWe learn to neglect ourselves at an early age and then everything goes to hell forever after. Stuck in unfixable suffering, toiling away with ineffectual attempts to comfort ourselves, and possibly... destroying our own lives, in an attempt to end the self-deprivation through backdoor methods. Let's talk about needs and what happens when we learn there are "required" versus "unallowed" ways we're permitted to care about ourselves. If this show made your eyes get real big, you may want to check out this full episode series. Hit patreon.com...

2023-10-2032 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication"Depression is the reward we get for being good children."NVC helps yer relationships, sure. But it'll also rewire your t-brain trashhabits, emotional misunderstandings, and shit perspectives if you use it solo.Let's talk about the roots of the worst of us; our unmet needs and beliefs that deprivation = goodness. Which create vicious cycles of projection, unfulfillment, and relational abuse. Like reading along and looking at scribbles? Find your transcript here, Fucker.Ready to dive headfirst into this conversation...

2023-09-2927 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.9a NonViolent (Effective) CommunicationEver feel "unheard"? Well, here's the key to getting your point across and sparking collaboration rather than opposition.Today, we're talking about NonViolent Communication (NVC) - the 4 step framework for communicating effectively about emotions and unmet needs without stimulating defensive reactions or leaning on your own deeply ingrained control tactics... And so much more. Wanna transcript and some doods to listen along with? Find it here!Looking to do more than scratch the surface on NonViolent Communication? Check out...

2023-09-1536 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)So, how do we apologize "the right way"... Rather than creating MORE damage through half-assed "I'm sorrys"?Today, let's talk about the 5 points for offering a real apology for sake of true relational healing... And four examples of how NOT to apologize, unless you actually want to make the emotional abandonment experience worse for your partner. Looking for 10 more examples of terrible non-apologies? Hit up the recent episode "Non-Apology Apologies" over at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. And fuckle up for NonViolent Communication month, coming at ya in September....

2023-09-0123 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)How DO we heal what's been broken? I've got a short phrase for you - it's what we've all needed to hear all along. And let's talk about the timeless wounds patched up by real apologies, as we prepare to talk about shitty apologies next time.Hail yerSelf and Cheers Fuckers.Git the transcript version of this post at t-mfrs.com and check out some doods while you're there. Catch up on the recent downpour of episodes over at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and help this...

2023-08-1617 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Extra "survival Fs" to give in relationship; Fronting and FeigningWe all know about the 4 survival Fs at this point. But how about the additional F reactions- Fronting and Feigning?Let's talk about learned reactions that keep us feeling safe in relationship... while rotting out the connection, engaging manipulation tactics, and using fear as a self-defense.Looking for more "real relationship talk"? Well that's the order of the month, over in the private podcast stream. We're dropping four full episodes of "less fluffy" relational conversations, talking about how relationally traumatized partnerships actually tend to shake out... and how to "read...

2023-07-2728 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.7. Determining "Are they a good relational partner?" before committingWe've talked a lot about committing fully to relationships and overcoming our conflicts together, through examining the subconscious wounds that actually underly our relational upsets. But here's my question: Is that realistic?Today, we talk about getting clearer on the contents of our potential and current relationship partners' preprogramming, through checking our own somatic experiences, our shared trauma histories, and their adaptions to the social systems that raised them.For alllll the relationship x CPTSD details that will reframe how you view other people and yourself... hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers...

2023-07-1533 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationshipsEver feel like "the issue" isn't really "the issue" in relational conflict? That's because the real issue is buried under layers of protective instincts that keep us unable to fully connect or communicate... but very capable of fighting, endlessly.Let's talk about "conscious relationships" and their trauma recovery utility, as we discuss methods for resolving unescapable conflict detailed by IFS couples therapy practitioners. Hankering for the full details on this relationship recovery talk? Hit up the private community and long-ass episode stream at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers, and git all...

2023-06-1627 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.6a. Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanationWhy do we start close relationships and love connections feeling one way... only to watch them disintegrate, become survival-based, and turn into "resentment"? Let's walk through the easiest explanation ever told; pulling in our Internal Family Systems education to discuss the greatest relational obstacle of them all.Looking for a lot more relational talk? Good news! It's been the theme of 2023 over on the private stream. Check this month's special triple research episode release and get all the extra resources, no matter how you subscribe. See you...

2023-06-0528 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connectionsWe MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the truth is, the abuse recreation is mutual and it all starts in the place we attempt to willfully ignore - inside ourselves, within our preferred and hated personality aspects. Let's talk about acquisition of conscious and unconscious identities that fuck up our relational attempts equally. The ways Protective, Exiled, and Distractive brain programs inject chaos and abuse into our connections. And why we first need to get vulnerable, intimate, and trusting...

2023-05-0521 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationshipsWhy don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns? It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's talk about relationship hangups from an experiential standpoint, integrating what we've heard from the research with real life brain operations to demystify disorganized feelings about closely connecting with others. Check out ⁠⁠t-mfrs.com⁠⁠ for more info and blogged transcripts of each public episode.To help yourself help yourself, while also helping this project to support MFs round the world, hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the full yea...

2023-04-2140 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship"So how do you feel about relationships? Complicated? You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly? Or you try to? You get stuck in them? And haunted by cycles of unfulfillment?"Today, let's talk about the obstacles we face when considering relationships or landing ourselves in them. The ways we attempt to protect ourselves from them. Why shallow, distanced relationships plague PTSD sufferers. And how vulnerability, intimacy, and trust are necessary foundations for our long-term healing.

2023-04-0722 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.3. Subconscious Self-loathingSo you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find that self-condemnation is a big part of your day to day. Why? Let's talk about self-judgment taking place on subconscious levels. How your identities mask the ongoing self-loathing that created them. And how to heal that shit, once and for all.Up for making big changes? Get started with us at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.c...

2023-03-1021 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Hardening versus HealingToday, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation.In so much of this "trauma recovery game" we're inspired to hunker down against past patterns. But is that really healing?Want more Traumatized Motherfuckers? Join the Patreon to get hundreds of past episodes, weekly releases, and a part in supporting this DIY show. Or find more info on the project at t-mfrs.com.--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See...

2023-02-2421 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) TherapyEver feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal. Today, let's talk about Internal Family Systems and the roles cemented in your brain. Protectors, Exiles, Distractors, and their vicious cycles that leave us feeling out of control of our own noggins. Plus, how to work with them, instead of hosting raging battles inside forever.Looking for more deets or just want to help support this solo-DIY project? It's much needed and a...

2023-02-1029 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 3.1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSDSurprise, we're back! Keeping up with the private stream's topic of the month, we're here to talk about Loneliness. Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness, the trends that start in childhood and pervade a lifetime, and the separate condition known as Isolation. Plus, how being a relational castaway can actually benefit our post-traumatic growth (whaaat). Looking for all the details and community reflections on these lifetimes of loneliness? Find em at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - promise you'll feel less alone.--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.co...

2023-01-2519 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new worldLet's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives pulled into focus. And, let's discuss the reason why the battle is worth all the effort.Don't give up, brave Motherfucker. Remember that what you're doing matters. For everyone. ✊Related eps: perspective series, filial obligaton series, brain programming series, family hijinx series, NC eps, refind yer Self series, inner and outer work series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.co...

2022-12-2033 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting changeSo we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert to draft." Once the integrative inner work starts, the outer labor has to keep up. Let's talk about supporting our brain changes by building new lives, to enable further cognitive evolution as we keep stepping. Related eps: inner and outer work series, refind & empower yer Self series, re-association eps, confronting common human fears ep, early season motivation eps--- Send in a voice me...

2022-12-2027 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectivesAiming for recovery, but finding that you never have the conditions to make progress?Let's talk about what it takes for a brain to heal. The basic mediums of life that most of us are unable to access in our traumatized society. Related eps: time distortion series, "rat cage" societal trauma series, inner and outer work series, refind yer Self series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2022-12-2018 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistenceA brain is busy with all those survival processes running in the background and the second-by-second management of triggers and symptoms. So what happens when that system gets overloaded?Today, we're talking about the pattern of symptom masking/ignorance, overcompensation, loss of functionality, and eventual collapse. And how does "resilience vs. resistance" change our perspective?Related eps: brain operations series, perspective series, inner and outer work series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more...

2022-12-2014 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brainBack to this self-limiting conversation... what happens when our "selves" are limited by incohesion? When we have inner wars over "the right thing," or oppositional memory and emotional responses confusing every issue?Let's talk about the battle that rages inside. Revisiting "parts" and how they're the crux of pulling your shit together for long-lasting recovery. Related eps: fragmentation series, DID series, find and empower yer Self series, inner and outer work series, derealization and depersonalization eps--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Ho...

2022-12-2015 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.7. Self-limiting modes of existence | AKA - life halting programs and parts battlesYou've decided to enact new behaviors to change your life... only to find you can't actually put them into practice. You stall out and revert to old programs to your own bewilderment. Something is stalling progress from the inside.Let's talk about self-limiting strategies for living spawned by trauma. And the ways they become "default modes" of daily existence. Related eps: self-limitation series, the cages we create ourselves, refind yer Self series, inner & outer work seriesReady to retrain your brain and behaviors? Talked a lot about th...

2022-12-2015 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.6. Default Mode Network (DMN) | AKA - memory throwbacks, bodily disconnection, and sub-sensory fearSo we all have a penchant for fear, it's a foundational aspect of PTSD. But what happens when our brain relay system is wonky due to those adaptations? Let's talk about the faulty DMN. How it throws us into disjointed memories, disables continuous autobiographical recall, explains poor sense of somatic (bodily) self, and interacts with those pesky sub-sensory threshold fear triggers. Reflect on this one, it'll explain a lot.Related eps: DMN ep, entrapment series, developmental biology and disassociation eps across seasons--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.c...

2022-12-2015 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.5. Entrapment, defeat, suicidality, and relationships | AKA - it's not worth your whole lifeWe know, trauma brains create patterns that can stall us out and keep us stuck. This is especially true when talking "relationships" of all forms. Unfortunately, leading many to feel permanently socially-tethered, personally incapable, and suicidal, instead.Today, let's talk about how relationships often corrupt our lives, how to re-work them, and when it's time to say goodbye - all for recovery's sake. Related eps: relationship obligation series, covert abuse series, brain patterning series, filial obligaton series, self-limitation series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/co...

2022-12-2015 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.4. Filial obligation and family re-immersion | AKA - the family system trapThe time comes for all of us; the family call to duty. And then what. We know it's going to trigger unwanted trauma reactions. But resisting often feels futile, immoral, and socially-punishing.Let's talk about the dangers of family re-immersion for a healing trauma brain and what we can do to protect ourselves before the filial phonecalls start. Related eps: filial obligation and entrapment series, family brain hijinx series, fawning series, brain operations series, social psychology ep--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message

2022-12-2019 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.3. “Perspective” | AKA - gaslighting, cognitive self-corruption, time distortionsPerspective; A word with many meanings, depending on who's speaking it. Namely, the bane of, "that's just ONE perspective."Let's talk about the real definition of the word, how it pertains to post-traumatic stress development, where attention vs. willful ignorance comes into play, and how no one can ever have your irreplicable perspective. Trust your guts, Fuckers. You know where you've been. Related eps: perspective series, time distortions series, covert abuse series, family brain hijinx series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message H...

2022-12-2018 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.2. Retraumatization, backslides, and non-linear progress | AKA - current cult.ural triggeringsHave you been struggling to make meaningful progress? Well, these global events don't help. Especially when they feel so... family-iar... to our trauma brains. Let's talk about the semi-accepted phases of trauma recovery - destabilization, processing, and integration. And how societal systems keep bringing us back to square one.Related eps: "the rat cage" societal trauma series, refind yer Self series, inner work series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2022-12-2017 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 2.1. “Not bad enough to be trauma” | AKA - the aftermath is what mattersEver doubt that "it was significant enough to count as t-word"? Well, the key word is significance. Let's break this down simply and talk about what really creates PTSD; our brains' subjective experience of fear and the meaning we give events (and ourselves) in the aftermath. Related eps: filial obligation and entrapment series, perspective series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2022-12-2017 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers Intro to Season TwoWe're back! Let's wrap up a year of in-depth trauma research and community insights with a new season. Free holiday support Discord server: https://discord.gg/5AYuCuQRhn Public holiday episodes (browse or search "holiday"): patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Full episode guide: https://www.t-mfrs.com/epguideHo-ho-ho, Motherfucker. I'll see you there. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

2022-12-2007 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.13. RecoveryConvinced you aren't individually damaged, doomed, or destitute yet? Sick. But that comfort doesn't do much good if your brain, behaviors, and life don't change along with the perspective. Here are 10 steps for CPTSD recovery and your life redesign. Keeping in mind, "different strokes for different folks," "different gains for different brains." Let the experiment begin. See you on the other side, Motherfucker. For a lot more "moving forward" information and support... you know by now. Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the catalogue of podcast episodes so far, some...

2022-01-2138 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.12. Loss of "Self," Learned Helplessness, and Executive FunctioningDo you edit your daily activities to feel "acceptable," to the detriment of your own wants, needs, and goals? Can you see yourself clearly from the outside, on one timeline? Do you have the power to "drop out" of your brain and observe its activities as a separate observer? Maybe not.Today, we're talking about the loss of "Self" - the most flowery and easily dismissible of the CPTSD hallmarks... which might explain why we continually lose progress in trauma recovery. It's the key to keeping your brain, behaviors, and 'balance' on track. The cognitive t...

2022-01-1324 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.11. Fawning, Anxious Attachment, and EnmeshmentWhat's the difference between "being a good person" and sacrificing your whole life to support others? In most of our families and social structures... there isn't one. Which makes it pretty hard to name the problem, re-examine your instincts to serve, or stand up for your right to operate your own brain. Today, let's talk about one of the most ignored and normalized survival responses. Fawning. If history has anything to say - sorry to everyone who kickstarts a new round of therapy because of this conversation. It's been a commonly enlightening topic for revealing ac...

2022-01-0621 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.10. Family of Origin & Yer Brain ProgrammingHere's a holiday release for ya. Merry whatever-you-do, and let's talk about families fuckin things up. Mental illness seems to run in families, do'nnit? Turns out, there's some biological mirroring mechanisms you might want to hear about. Why are you "the way you are"? It's because of them. Why do they refuse to see your progress and personality realistically? It's also because of them. Today, let's talk brain development, brain programming, and brain-protection tactics (you might know them as scapegoating, cognitive dissonance, and delusions). Buckle up, Blacksheep. it's time to talk about the dangers of dysr...

2021-12-3128 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.9. The Trauma Trap: Avoidance, Rigidity, and Trauma-BubblesSo, let's say your brain is on fire 24/7. Your body is doing the same. You're uncomfortable every moment, from the inside and out. You, very literally, are too sick and tired to deal with another obstacle or point of pressure. So... You reasonably start avoiding sources of strain. But then it gets unreasonable. What happens if everything is deemed "risky"?Talking the eventual extreme outcome of untreated CPTSD. Turns out, it's a lot more common than you probably think - TLC specials, aside. Today, let's rap about the agitated, agoraphobic, rigid-brained experience of rightfully avoiding everything that hurts. Looking to st...

2021-12-2320 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.8. Losing Control of Your Brain: Triggers, Spirals, Addiction, Self-harm, Bad habitsWhat's the difference between your past high-functionality and current fears of "losing your fucking mind"? Bad information that was programmed into faulty neural networks being activated more regularly in ways that override the accessibility of the "human brained" prefrontal cortex. The good news is, you can fix it. Your brain isn't "you" or a reflection of your value. And it's just a stupid biological reactor organ, waiting to be taught better. "As much as we put it on a pedestal, your head isn’t infallible in interpreting your environment or hi...

2021-12-1632 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.7. Anxiety, Obsession, and ADHD; The High Energy HellscapeTime to talk about perhaps the largest post-traumatic complaint. It's time for Anxiety. (When isn't it?) Let's also chat about those highly related conditions often driven by anxiety... Obsession and Scattered Thinking. The link between all of them that might help you with managing the system? Neutralizing the "high energy" changes they create in your brain and body, plus rewiring that brain to recognize these neural activities are all unwinnable attempts to out-pace a rightfully-assumed-dangerous world. "In anxiety, obsession, and ADHD, we try to predict the future based on what we’ve seen in the past. We...

2021-12-0829 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.6. Depression, Shame, Rumination; The Low Energy GangYou know the team well. They all travel together. One feeds into and strengthens the next. And getting away from them feels inescapable. It's a Traumatized Motherfucker's worst friends; rumination, shame, and depression. Which cognitive hellhole comes first? Current models aren't certain. All we know is, this horrible-thought-horrible-feeling cycle is one hell of a ride. "The end result of trying to “put ourselves in our maggoty, scum-filled place” is sitting at home alone, isolating ourselves, and engaging in self-destructive behaviors while we try to pass the excruciating hours of the day, which are broken into ev...

2021-12-0624 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.5. Life-Numbing DissociationEmotional numbing. Over-intellectualizing. Depersonalization. Derealization. Fragmented Personalities. Let's talk about all the ways that our brains try to protect us from stress, overwhelm, and danger. The ways we might see this as "adaptive skill." And the ways we might not even realize dissociation is happening, by half-brained design. Looking to learn more? You know what to do. Go to t-mfrs.com to see the visually-enhanced version of these posts (my shit-doodles, don't get excited). Hit Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to hear the full episodes already devoted to dissociative topics. Or hit that Google bar to s...

2021-11-2427 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.4. Actually-Effective TherapyI know, therapy probably hasn’t been a walk in the park so far. If you’re here, you’re probably looking for more information, more help, or more reassurance that you’re not the only one looking for a way out. But there's no real substitute to having a professional to keep you grounded, processing the right materials, and creating personalized progress goals in line with your individual struggles.As someone who did NOT want to go to therapy, after two very bad experiences with people who didn’t know what the hell they were doing, I can tell...

2021-11-1719 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.3b. Yer Life on CPTSDLet's take an unexpected step back, and talk more about the EXPERIENCE of living with CPTSD, not just the brain processes that make it reality. With memory, attentional, emotional, and relationship issues at the forefront of the list, not to mention all the stress-based health failures, there's a lot to say about the endless death march of having untreated CPTSD running the show. The real cumulative CPTSD experience is probably when we take all these tormentors coming from the insides of our own brains and bodies, lay awake all night, every night, and enjoy that endless tour de “all the mos...

2021-11-1027 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.3a. Yer Brain on CPTSDLet's talk about everyone's favorite new buzzdiagnosis - Complex Trauma (CPTSD). What is it? Why is it so difficult to name? And what does it really do to your brain, as far as creating self-destructive neural structures that can undermine your lifetime?Here's a biological / neuropsychological breakdown of life on undiagnosed CPTSD, AKA living with "pervasive relational trauma." In a nutshell, CPTSD is the same brain mechanism and downstream nightmare we just discussed last time in our PTSD talk... But specifically it’s defined by the early timing, the rel...

2021-11-0232 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.2. What is Trauma? Brain Mechanism of PTSDIt's not so mysterious, actually. We’ve really made Trauma into a big word with a lot of negative connotation, qualification, and over-complication. I don’t know a single person who hasn’t shamefully uttered the phrase “But I wonder if that’s really bad enough to count as trauma, when other people have had it worse.”So let’s stop right there and clear up the fact that trauma has nothing to do with being in the top 1% of human tragedy. That’s not how this works. That’s not how any of this works.

2021-10-2418 min

Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers 1.1. IntroSo, how’s life been lately? But how has it really been? Having some variety of experiences that goes beyond your normal baseline standard depression, anxiety, self-hatred and disinterest in being alive? If you're new here - needing answers or a lobotomy ASAP - welcome to the club. Together we've had 18 months of trauma-learning through peer-reviewed research, connecting dots from our conversations in the community, and a bit too much personal experience. Apparently this one-human project has been helping folks all over the world, but it's also gotten pretty "trauma-advanced" thro...

2021-10-2415 min