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Having Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to GaabySuzanne and Sarah do their best to keep up with Gaaby, who has 29 years of recovery in Al-Anon. Gaaby shares what life was like when her solution was trying to control everything and everyone around her, how she found her way into recovery, and how—after nearly three decades of working a program—she sticks around to deepen her practice of acceptance because, as she says, “reality is where the power lives.”
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT, www.4thdmissoula.org
Hosted & Written by Suzanne Garcia Pino
Co-Hosted & Produced by Sarah Grobel Bolstad
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2026-01-2057 minHaving Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to StephenIn this episode of Having Had a Spiritual Awakening, we talk with Stephen Ferguson, Executive Director of Crosswinds Recovery, about what constitutes “real” trauma and why comparing levels of trauma can hinder healing. Stephen shares insights from his work and experience in recovery. Stephen, Suzanne and Sarah consider whether spiritual awakenings are inherently turbulent, why transformation often feels disorienting, and the paradox of surrender; how giving up control can sometimes become another attempt to hold onto it.
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT, www.4thdmissoula.org
Hosted & Written by Suzanne Garcia Pino
Co-Hosted & Produc...
2025-12-031h 07Having Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to ZacSuzanne and Sarah talk with Zac C. about how spiritual awakenings sometimes happen in reflection rather than in real time—and sometimes they happen right in front of the TV, while watching Wheel of Fortune. Zac also shares about the important and inspiring work his recovery nonprofit, Beautiful Minds Recovery (www.beautifulmindsrecovery.com), is doing to provide peer support training within the community.
In the last ten minutes, Suzanne and Sarah discuss, with instructor Kathy Mangan, the mindfulness meditation classes that Red Willow Learning Center (www.redwillowlearning.org) will soon be offering at the Fourth D Club, fre...
2025-10-171h 04Having Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to JustinIs it possible to be constitutionally incapable of being honest? Suzanne and Sarah sit down with Justin D. to unpack how AA and NA answer this question. Justin shares practical pro-tips for staying clean and sober, along with fascinating observations he made just a year into recovery—after being hit by a car and facing the challenge of healing without pain prescriptions. Justin also shares how this only became possible when he became willing to ditch any lingering victim mentality.
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT, www.4thdmissoula.org
Hosted & Written by Suzanne Garcia Pino
2025-09-281h 00Having Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to KateSuzanne and Sarah talk with Kate L. about the dreaded “outside topics” and wonder if, in the end, everything is an outside topic. They discuss black-and-white thinking, what “economic insecurity” might mean in the Ninth Step promises, and Kate’s love of wild AA meetings.
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT, www.4thdmissoula.org
Hosted & Written by Suzanne Garcia Pino
Co-Hosted & Produced by Sarah Grobel Bolstad
Music: I'll Tell You by Sarah Grobel Bolstad & Ian Ford
2025-08-1958 minHaving Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to JaySuzanne and Sarah talk to Jay about how she is learning how to not carry the intensity of her addiction into sobriety, how self abandonment changes in recovery, and the time she tried to solve her Adderall-caused back problems by jerry rigging a stand up desk and a phone call to her father at 3 AM.
Hosted & Written by Suzanne Garcia Pino
Co-Hosted & Produced by Sarah Grobel Bolstad
Music: I'll Tell You by Sarah Grobel Bolstad & Ian Ford
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT, 4thdmissoula.org
2025-07-301h 09Having Had a Spiritual AwakeningWe Talk to DanSuzanne, Dan, and Sarah talk about hitting a sufficient bottom, choosing to surrender, and the tough– yet often fascinating– work of recovering from alcoholism.
Written and Produced by Suzanne Garcia Pino & Sarah Grobel Bolstad
Music: I’ll Tell You - Sarah Grobel Bolstad & Ian Ford
The Fourth D Club, Missoula, MT - https://www.4thdmissoula.org
2025-07-0150 min
The Deep-Sea PodcastSquidtember with Kat BolstadAs it turns out, returning to life on land after a mega deep-sea expedition takes a lot of work! So, whilst we aren't quite ready to share with you our Tonga Trench special, here is a mini-episode to keep you busy until we get back to you with episode 50.
We're talking all about SQUIDTEMBER with long-time friend of the show, Kat Bolstad from the AUT Squid Squad. Which squid will reign supreme come the end of the month? It's up to you to decide! You can find the links to vote, plus all of the other festivities...
2024-09-0625 min
The Essential Coaching Skills PodcastEpisode 124 - A Preview of the NLP FUN-dathon for ”Help Jerry Heal”
We're doing a NLP Masters summit to raise funds for the "Help Jerry Seavey Heal" Go Fund Me campaign. Join us next Tuesday, Dec 20th! Starring the follow cast of Dozen:
Connirae Andreas!
Robert Dilts!
Shelle Rose Charvet!
David Gordon!
Sid Jacobson!
Richard Bolstad!
Kris and Tim Halbom!!
Rachel Hott and Steven Leeds!!
Sarah Carson!
and me on piano!
2022-12-1323 min
I Speak Dead PeopleStan & Sharon OzarkGet to know Stan Ozark, community pillar and man behind the voice of KLTZ/KLAN radio station in Glasgow, MT for over 30 years. We reminisce about growing up in small towns, navigating career paths, and battling grief in young adulthood. After losing his mother, Sharon, to cancer in 1994, his story reminds us that time does heal wounds, even when it feels impossible. Music by Clark Moorman - She's At It Again, Spotify, YouTube, Patreon Art by Jacob Alan Dix, @jvk3Hosted/Edited/Produced: Sarah Grobel BolstadIn Memory of Sharon Ozark ~ 3/9/1940...
2022-03-111h 34
I Speak Dead PeopleKade AndersonGear up for some gender, identity, and grief convos with Kade. Kade shares the trials and triumphs of growing up trans in rural Montana. It's a special episode without rules and politics, just space for learning and respecting his human experience. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT, Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off at checkout Music: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again, Spotify, YouTube, Patreon, Bozeman, MT Hosted, Produced, Edited: Sarah Grobel Bolstad @ispeakdeadpeoplepodcast ispeakdeadpeople.com, contact, sponsorship, merchandise
2021-11-192h 04
I Speak Dead PeopleSWAP CAST: "Music & Grief" w/ Larkin Matoon & Callie Rose MorrisJoin Sarah for a special, collaberative episode with musician and host of A Rhythm Runs Through It, Callie Rose Morris, and Larkin Matoon, the host of Death Is Coming. Callie opens up about the loss of her MT music legend father, Gary Wayne Morris, and her professional goals for other grieving and traumatized musicians. Then Sarah gets a taste of her own medicine when Larkin asks her about wills, wishes, and lessons she hopes to leave for others.Music for ISDP: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again, Bozeman, MT, Spotify, Patreon, YouTubeEpisode Recorded by...
2021-10-2750 min
I Speak Dead PeopleJessa & Moriah LydonIt feels like a slumber party here at ISDP with long-time friend, roller derby teammate, and new mom, Jessa. Jessa was 13 years old when her sister, Moriah, died from an unknown heart defect at cross country practice the day after the September 11th attacks. Jessa and Sarah tear it up and forgive themselves for their underdeveloped coping strategies from such tragic times. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT, Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off at checkout In Memory of Moriah Lydon, "Saving Lives"Music: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again, Spotify, YouTube, Patreon...
2021-10-081h 43
I Speak Dead PeopleBritney & John ThompsonAlthough grief is extremely individualistic, it’s compounded with internal and external expectations of how a person should behave when it happens to them. In Britney’s case, her father’s death felt confusing and repetitive after he’d left her life when she was a child; long before his passing in 2015. The rigid boundary that Britney had created from him dissolved in a simple phone call from an estranged aunt, forcing her to relive his loss all over again. Britney's story is proof that grief cannot be undervalued or disenfranchised. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT. Promo Code...
2021-09-091h 14
Independent ThoughtBonus Time #11 - Texas Abortion Ban, Supreme Court & I Speak Dead PeopleIn this bonus episode, I discuss my thoughts on the 6-week abortion ban in Texas, the Supreme Court's ruling & other laws in Texas. I talk about the eviction moratorium being struck down by the SCOTUS, and also my thoughts on the withdrawal from Afghanistan. In the second segment, you'll here the conversation that continued after the episode with Sarah Bolstad, the host of the podcast - I Speak Dead People. We had more to discuss that didn't make it into the "Boycotting Oreo's" episode, so make sure you tune in!
Special thanks to BATHING BEAUTIES BEADS for...
2021-09-0237 min
I Speak Dead PeopleDerek & Larry BaumgartnerSeason 4 returns with special pal, Derek, who was only a freshman in high school when his dad was killed in a horrible accident in the backyard of his family's home. It's a tale of boy to manhood and living up to the standard of his father's legacy. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT. Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off. thistleandthreadboutique.comFull Bushel Farm, Bitterroot Valley, Montana, Flowers + Food + Self-Care, fullbushelfarm.comCat’s Corner Studio, MT Fine Artist, Cathryn McIntyre (Reitler), Glasgow, MT, Downtown Mural Project SubmissionsSupport. Contact. Shop. ispeakdeadpeople.comHosted/Produced/Edited: Sarah Grobel BolstadMusic: She’s At It Again by Clark...
2021-08-281h 51
Independent ThoughtBoycotting OreosIn my main segment, I address the worker strike at Nabisco. I go into detail on why the workers are striking, other groups of workers around the country who have also gone on strike recently, and what we can do to help these workers. In my guest segment, I am joined by Sarah Bolstad, the host of the podcast - I Speak Dead People. We discuss the origins of her podcast, why it's important to discuss losing a loved one & why we as a society need to destigmatize conversations around grief and death.
Special thanks to BETTY'S D...
2021-08-231h 05
I Speak Dead PeopleCourtney & John SeniniCourtney grieved her father, John, long before his fatal car accident on Christmas Eve in 2019. His alcoholism created a turbulent relationship throughout her life, and she continues to see a lot of him in herself, for better or worse, but she’s learning to embrace it. Adult Children of Alcoholics Perfect Daughters by Robert AckermanSponsorships: Starstruck Entertainment, Helena, MT, www.starstruckent.net, 406-949-4320Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT, Thistleandthreadboutique.com, Promo Code: ISDPMusic: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again, Bozeman, MT, Spotify, YouTube, iTunesHost...
2021-06-241h 24
I Speak Dead PeopleArielle & Gavin AllenArielle was only 8 years old when her parents told her they were moving over 200 miles away to a new home in Lewistown, MT. She was so nervous about making new friends and fitting in. But when her brother, Gavin, died in a car accident the week of the move, she was forced to navigate through a whole other pile of isolation and grief in an unknown place. Gavin Lyle Allen ~ September 13, 1983 - August 21, 1999 ~Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT, Men's & Women's Clothing, Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off thistleandthreadboutique.comStar Struck Entertainment, Helena, M...
2021-06-031h 19
I Speak Dead PeopleReunion Episode: Sarah and Sheena from Season 1ISDP returns with very first guests, Sarah (Ep: 1) and Sheena (Ep: 3), who reflect on sharing their stories and how it's helped them feel more connected and comfortable with others in doing so. We morph the awkward, uncomfortable, and sad topic into an approachable, casual conversation about grief and all the crazy things it does to us. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Men's and Women's Clothing & Accessories, Glasgow, MT, Thistleandthreadboutique.com PROMO CODE: ISDP for 10% off Art: Jacob Alan DixMusic: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again, Spotify, iTunes, YouTubeHo...
2021-04-2456 min
I Speak Dead PeopleTodd GlaserIn 2006, Todd Glaser-- a teacher, coach, husband and father, was at the lake with his family when a freak accident happened, and he suffered a spinal cord injury and never walked on his own again. The permanent loss of his abilities have been an overwhelming grief for Todd and all those who love him. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Men's and Women's Clothing, Glasgow, MT - Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off, thistleandthreadboutique.comFull Bushel Farm, Flowers + Food + Self Care, Missoula, MT, Promo Code: ISDPPOD for 10% off entire website and flower subscriptions, fullbushelfarm.c...
2021-04-101h 16
I Speak Dead PeopleTaylor and Ryan & Sentinel High SchoolSentinel is one of three public high schools in Missoula. While they’re all unique in some way, Sentinel’s remembered for something that students still grapple with to this day. Between 2002-2010, more students died by suicide there than any other cause, and the school coined the legacy of Suicide High. Former students, Taylor and Ryan, explore this suicide contagion and reflect on the losses of their friends with hope to spread the message of resilience.ispeakdeadpeople.comSponsorships: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Glasgow, MT, Men's & Women's Clothing Store, Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off at thistleandthreadboutique.comFull Bushel Farm, Missoula, MT, Flor...
2021-03-241h 34
I Speak Dead PeopleTodd & Terri Anne, Tim, and TerryThe Young family holds an epic, yet tragic tale of NE Montana history. With two sets of twin brothers and a tough-girl middle sister, there was never a dull moment in their house. After the loss of nearly half of his family, Todd continues to navigate through life and grief in the community he loves so dearly. ispeakdeadpeople.com SPONSORSHIP: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Men's & Women's Clothing in Glasgow, MT Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off thistleandthreadboutique.com Thank you to all of those who shared photos and memories of the Young family....
2021-03-101h 34
I Speak Dead PeopleEmily & CohenEmily shares her story of the still-birth of her son, Cohen, who was diagnosed with Limb Body Wall Complex at 22 weeks gestation. Emily hopes that her experience will help anyone who is struggling with infertility, miscarriage, and child loss. She is the founder of a support group in Helena, MT that welcomes any woman or family member seeking help for such losses. Due to Covid-19, meetings are available via Zoom and open to anyone in the United States. Emily's support group in Helena: https://www.facebook.com/helenasupportgroup/Emily’s prior guest appearance on the “Mother Love" podcast w/Emily Toson...
2021-02-261h 22
I Speak Dead PeopleChaz and Jake & The 2017 Las Vegas ShootingChaz and Jake were wrapping up a three day stretch of bartending at the Route 91 Harvest Music Festival in Las Vegas, NV when a gunman opened fire on a crowd of their fellow coworkers and concertgoers. They share their firsthand accounts of the horrific events that fateful night.Some content maybe difficult for some listeners.ispeakdeadpeople.comFor more information on the topics discussed:Chaz's CNN reference: https://www.cnn.com/2017/10/03/us/las-vegas-survivor-stranger-died-cnntv/index.htmlThe Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van Der Kolk: https://www.amazon.com/Body-Keeps-Score-Healing-Trauma/dp/0143127748/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=the+body+keeps+the+score&qid=1613429987&sr=8...
2021-02-1649 min
I Speak Dead PeopleSean & LynnSiblings Sean and Lynn were partners in crime. Their relationship was often tumultuous, but full of love no less. As teenagers, they began experimenting with drugs, and found themselves in and out of jail even before they became adults. Sean hit an all time low when the reality of his decisions set in following Lynn's murder in 2016. Now off drugs and ready for redemption, Sean shares his story of love for his sister and hopes to raise awareness of drug addiction. ispeakdeadpeople.comSponsor: Thistleandthreadboutique.com Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off, THISTLE & THREAD BOUTIQUE, Glasgow, MTMusic: Clark Moorman - She's At I...
2021-01-1055 min
I Speak Dead PeopleEmma & Joni & HannahEmma and her sister, Hannah, were latchkey kids of Montana's mountainous countryside. When their mother died, Hannah stepped up to provide warmth and security for her young, grieving sister. But when a car accident claimed Hannah's life shortly thereafter, Emma was forced to navigate the world independently; without her mom and sister's strong maternal guidance. ispeakdeadpeople.comSponsorship: thistleandthreadboutique.com, Women's Clothing, PROMO CODE: ISDP for 10% off, Glasgow, MTMusic: Clark Moorman- She's at it Again, iTunes, Spotify, YouTube, Patreon, Bozeman, MTArt: Jake Dix, @JVK3, Glasgow, MT
2021-01-021h 34
I Speak Dead PeopleCarole & CaroleCarole was not only named after her grandmother, she also inherited her Grandma Carole's style, grace, and flair for people. When her grandma was killed, Carole felt alone in her grief-- afraid of what others might think of her story. Now 7 years later, Carole's not letting her grandma's life be forgotten by her family's tragedy. ispeakdeadpeople.comSponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Women's Clothing, thistleandthreadboutique.com, 10% off with Promo Code: ISDP Music: Clark Moorman- She's at it Again on Spotify & iTunes
2020-12-2751 min
I Speak Dead PeopleKyle & AshleeKyle was the life of the party. Along with his entourage, he was a regular in Helena's bar and music scene. Although he was a disciplined military officer, and an accomplished man of many titles, "bereaved father" wasn't his priority until he found sobriety. Kyle is proof that there's always hope, even after the worst thing that could've happened to him; the loss of his daughter, Ashlee. Sponsorship: Thistle & Thread Boutique, Women's Clothing, Glasgow, MT. Thistleandthreadboutique.com - Promo Code: ISDP for 10% off Music: Clark Moorman- She's At It Again on Spotify, iTunes, Patreonispeakdeadpeople.com
2020-12-191h 35
I Speak Dead PeopleKara & CurtKara was a tomboy, an aspiring helper on the farm to her dad and brothers. She idolized her dad, Curt, who taught her all about hard work and quick wit. He was a legend in his family, and after a hard fought battle with cancer, Kara's learned to carry his legacy with 'no bad days', a lasting theme through the life and death of Curt Wesen. Sponsorship: Thistle and Thread Boutique www.thistleandthreadboutique.com Promo Code: ISDP
2020-12-051h 30
I Speak Dead PeopleCarlos, Jess, & SaraSara had a fire inside. She was young, beautiful, and determined to achieve her goals with her husband, Carlos. But when a cancer diagnosis shattered their dreams, her best friend, Jess, put life on hold to comfort them in Sara’s final days. Through shared grief, a new love for each other formed, and Carlos and Jess promised to never let Sara’s light fade away. *Dr. Restrepo’s links to alternative medicines: https://youtu.be/81-v8ePXPd4 https://youtu.be/U561dQIe6c4 https://youtu.be/tz4CrWE_P0g https...
2020-11-261h 27
I Speak Dead PeopleRyan & SteveRyan didn’t have to call him Dad, but Steve was everything he wished for in a father. When a horrific accident took Steve's life, Ryan was forced to navigate boyhood without his stepdad; a rather lonely journey to becoming a man. Link to sponsor: https://thistleandthreadboutique.com
2020-11-241h 42
I Speak Dead PeopleVioletPortland is a unique city that prides itself on 'weirdness', public transportation, and lush landscapes of urban development. At 16, Portland gave Violet a thriving edge, but something changed when her city’s crisis hit close to home.
2020-11-021h 29
I Speak Dead PeopleCamarin & RandyCamarin shared her zest for life with her father. They accepted each other for who they were, and forgave one another for their faults. But when Camarin took the high road and Randy took the other, not even her love for him could save him from himself.
2020-10-291h 52
I Speak Dead PeopleJacob & RandiWhen Jacob left his hometown after high school, he never looked back. He traveled and experienced life to the fullest, and his parents admired his free will. Until one day, his mom traveled across the state to see him and she never showed up- putting Jacob’s new life skills to the ultimate test.
2020-10-191h 16
I Speak Dead PeopleSheena & Aaron & MadisonSheena always knew she wanted to be a mom. So when her and Aaron became parents, her new title came so naturally despite the fact that she was only a teenager. Until one Spring day, her world came crumbling down after a tragic accident- shocking the lives of everyone who knew her.
2020-10-101h 53
I Speak Dead PeopleChelsey & JimChelsey was in the prime of her life. She had just been accepted into a PhD program, had broken off her engagement, and was ready for a fresh new start. She thought she had it all figured out, but a shocking discovery changed everything.
2020-10-031h 32
I Speak Dead PeopleSarah & BrianIt was a regular start to her 8th grade year. Like the years before, her biggest concern in junior high was fitting in and being a normal teenager. But then the life that she once knew ended as quickly as this particular Monday began. This is Sarah Schindler and her story of grief.
2020-09-2457 min