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When Depression is in your bedIntroducing My Husband: From Behind the Scenes to Sharing the MicThis episode marks a meaningful milestone for the podcast — the first episode of its second year, and the first with my husband, Ben, joining me on the microphone.For the past year, he has been an essential part of this podcast behind the scenes. In this episode, he steps forward — not because he was pushed, but because the timing felt right.We reflect on what it has meant to create this podcast over the last year, the different ways we’ve each participated in that process, and how sharing a voice is not the sa...
2026-01-2830 minWhen Depression is in your bedBecoming Someone I Can Trust: ADHD, Depression, and One Year of Nervous System HealingWhat does it mean to become someone you can trust — especially when living with ADHD and depression?In this one-year anniversary episode, I reflect on how understanding my nervous system changed my relationship with effort, consistency, and self-belief.For much of my life, I didn’t trust myself — my energy, my follow-through, or my ability to show up consistently. Living with depression and undiagnosed ADHD, difficulty with motivation and focus was often interpreted as personal failure.In this episode, I slow things down and reflect on what has shifted over the past y...
2026-01-2134 minWhen Depression is in your bedWhen Depression Was the Clue: ADHD Misdiagnosed as Bipolar DisorderA personal story of neurodivergence, school struggles, and how effort was misunderstood at 17.For years, I believed my struggles with focus, energy, and motivation were simply part of my depression — or evidence that I wasn’t trying hard enough. At 17, when I couldn’t read a book for a class assignment, that belief led to an adolescent psychiatric hospitalization and a diagnosis of bipolar disorder.In this episode, I slow that story way down and look underneath the depression.I share how undiagnosed ADHD — including challenges with task initiation, sustained attention, abstract...
2026-01-1425 minWhen Depression is in your bedThis New Year, Stop Striving for a New You: Choosing the Pace That Lets the Real You BloomThe pressure to reinvent can feel loud in January, but nature tells a different story: winter is for conservation, repair, and preparing the ground for bloom. We explore how to trade the exhausting “on or off” cycle for nervous system flexibility—choosing the speed that actually supports you. Instead of shaming who you’ve been, we honor the resilience that carried you here and build sustainable change from gratitude, pacing, and somatic awareness.We dive into the polyvagal map—sympathetic activation, dorsal withdrawal, and ventral connection—and how blended states create options. Safely still (ventral plus dorsal) lets us rest...
2026-01-0724 minWhen Depression is in your bedA Conscious Christmas Story: Choosing Connection When the Holidays Got Me DownWhen the holidays don’t match the picture in your head, the gap can feel like grief. This year brought fevers, cancellations, and a quiet house that amplified old patterns of shutdown. I share what helped me move through the heaviness with care: naming the dorsal state of the nervous system, choosing breathwork over busyness, protecting sleep, and inviting small, real moments of connection with my kids when plans fell apart.You’ll hear how I traded perfection for presence and found meaning in simple rituals—wrapping gifts to a breathing cadence, building Legos side by side, taking...
2025-12-3121 minWhen Depression is in your bedLet It Begin With Me: Embodying Peace Through Nervous System RegulationWe explore how two opposing beliefs—“I have to do everything" and "I can't do anything"—grow from different nervous system states and how peace begins by shifting our state toward safety and connection. Using Polyvagal Theory, we offer practical steps to move from survival into grounded presence and how that approach can ripple out to create a more peaceful world.• mapping sympathetic overdrive and dorsal shutdown to everyday thoughts• why state drives story and limits choice• using the nervous system ladder to find ventral safety• gentle ways to slow down when doing feels safer• sm...
2025-12-2425 minWhen Depression is in your bedWriting New Stories: How My Brain Healed After Holiday Depression and BeyondThe holidays can feel bright for some and unbearably heavy for others. I open up about a Christmas that nearly ended my marriage and trace how those memories slowly softened—not by accident, but because the brain can change and grow when it feels safer. This is a story that starts with depression and disconnection, then moves to the science of hope: moving beyond survival mode, neural pruning, and memory reconsolidation. It’s also a map for finding one supported step when the season overwhelms you.I talk through the shift from scanning for danger to making room...
2025-12-1723 minWhen Depression is in your bedGrief, Gratitude & ADHD: What’s Been Coming Up for Me This Holiday SeasonHolidays have a way of pulling old feelings to the surface. This time, two truths came up at once: the enduring ache of losing my dad five years ago, and a quieter grief I call “ADHD grief”—the gap between the cozy, orderly home I imagine and the real limits of my brain and nervous system. I share the moments that stopped me mid-task, what changed when I paused to feel instead of fix, and how gratitude began to stand beside grief without erasing it.You’ll hear how an unexpected gathering on my dad’s anniversary became a g...
2025-12-1018 minWhen Depression is in your bedKetamine Isn’t the Fix—It’s the Opening: How Intentional Integration Turned Insight Into HealingWe explore how ketamine-assisted psychotherapy can quiet an overactive alarm system, reopen access to rest, and create a window where new habits take hold through integration. We share the science in plain language and the personal practices that helped changes last.• stigma and misconceptions around ketamine and psychedelic-assisted therapies• how amygdala quieting and parasympathetic activation support safety• interoception and reconnecting with the body• neuroplasticity and loosening rigid thought loops• integration practices that make insights stick• shifting from collapse to restorative rest• cultivating durable self-compassion• two core takeaways on nervous system healing and choi...
2025-12-0327 minWhen Depression is in your bedFrom Cautiously Curious to Confident: What I Learned Before Starting Ketamine TherapyHealing doesn’t always arrive as a lightning bolt. Sometimes it looks like a short, supported window where defenses soften and your nervous system finally has space to reorganize. That’s the potential of ketamine-assisted psychotherapy: not a shortcut, but a different door into change.We take you from ketamine’s legal role as an anesthetic to its misunderstood 90s reputation, then into the research era where clinicians began seeing fast-acting benefits for people labeled “treatment-resistant.” We talk plainly about why that label can feel shaming, how trauma and chronic stress reshape the brain and body, and why words...
2025-11-2621 minWhen Depression is in your bedSignals of Safety: Real Stories of Nervous System Self- and Co-RegulationThe hardest part of a taxing day likely isn’t a thing on the to-do list— our nervous system state that influences how we perceive what needs to be done and if we have on "depression googles," we can expect that even the lightest load may feel like seriously heavy lifting. When depletion hits and dorsal shutdown pulls you under, forcing productivity can deepen the spiral. I share how I recognized my capacity, swapped a plan that I didn't feel connected to in the moment for one that felt more aligned, and used small, body-first moves to steer back towar...
2025-11-1916 minWhen Depression is in your bedMy Ketamine-Assisted Psychotherapy (KAP) Journey: From Self-Hatred To Self-CareWhat if real rest isn’t zoning out, but learning to feel safely still in your own body? Trish takes you inside her year-long journey with ketamine-assisted psychotherapy, sharing what KAP actually looks like—from medical screening and at-home setup to music-guided sessions, dosing with lozenges, and why a simple request for lip balm became a breakthrough in receiving care.We walk step by step through the first session nerves, blood pressure protocols, eye mask and playlist prep, and the gentle inner experience that led to two anchoring insights: "the most beautiful place in the world is insi...
2025-11-1233 minWhen Depression is in your bedBecoming Who You Already Are: Identity, Growth, and Celebrating Along the WayGrowth doesn’t wait for a finish line. This episode leans into the messy middle—where self-care becomes more consistent, mirrors from friends provide a much needed self-reflection, and you realize you’ve been practicing a new identity long before you felt “ready.” I talk about the milestones that surprised me, like releasing 40 podcast episodes, and the realization that our self-growth can be inhibited when we (unconsciously) keep ourselves stuck in old identities. I begin to wonder about what can shift when you embrace growing into your new identities now and celebrate who you are today instead of waiting until you...
2025-11-0522 minWhen Depression is in your bedRelearning Safety: Working With Your Nervous System to Create Habits of Rest✨ Free Resource: Download my guide, 100 Practices That Can Increase Your Access to Rest & Renewal — filled with simple, doable ways to rest your body, mind, and spirit.These are small, easy to incorporate practices for eight kinds of rest — from physical and emotional to creative and communal and more.👉 Grab your free copy here! (regulatedrelationships.kit.com/rest)Feeling exhausted even after a full night’s sleep? We dig into why rest doesn’t land when your nervous system is stuck in go mo...
2025-10-2921 minWhen Depression is in your bedFinding Safety in Stillness: How Trauma Shapes the Nervous System and Rest✨ Free Resource: Download my guide, 100 Practices That Can Increase Your Access to Rest & Renewal — filled with simple, doable ways to rest your body, mind, and spirit.These are small, easy to incorporate practices for eight kinds of rest — from physical and emotional to creative and communal and more.👉 Grab your free copy here! (regulatedrelationships.kit.com/rest)Feeling tired yet never truly restored is not a personal failure; it’s your nervous system doing its best to protect you. We unpack ho...
2025-10-2219 minWhen Depression is in your bedThe Art of Slowing Down: Practical Ways to Rest and Renew✨ Free Resource: Download my guide, 100 Practices That Can Increase Your Access to Rest & Renewal — filled with simple, doable ways to rest your body, mind, and spirit.These are small, easy to incorporate practices for eight kinds of rest — from physical and emotional to creative and communal and more.👉 Grab your free copy here! (regulatedrelationships.kit.com/rest)Ever feel like your days are all gas, no brakes—then you crash at night and call it “rest,” only to wake up just as tired...
2025-10-1525 min
SpawnographyEpisode 82: Talking "I Saw Santa" with Chris Killian & Andrew SandersWhat's happening, Hellspawn? This week, we have a very special episode for you. We are taking a little break from the saga of Al Simmons in the early 2000s to talk to Chris Killian and Andrew Sanders, the writers of the recently announced Spawn Universe title, "I Saw Santa." We'll get into their history with Spawn and Todd McFarlane as well as dig into how they approached writing this books and how it fits into Spawn's world. With art by Thomas Nachlik, "I Saw Santa" is a classic holiday horror story about a serial killer with an obsession with...
2025-10-131h 20When Depression is in your bedThe Ventral Narrator: A Grounding Voice for Nervous System RegulationWhat if the most transformative part of a “conscious life” isn’t the serene moments—but the messy ones where you feel flooded, triggered, and ready to explode? I share a raw, real story about a birthday plan gone sideways, how a sold-out ticket spiraled into rage and self-blame, and the small, steady thread that kept me from making the night worse: a ventral narrator offering compassion and gentle reminders through a more grounded lens.We break down the nervous system in practical terms—ventral regulation, sympathetic fight-or-flight, dorsal shutdown—and why blended states matter when life hits hard. Y...
2025-10-0821 min
Woodshop Life PodcastRounded Boxes,Grain Selection, Belt Sanders and MORE!!!This Episodes Questions:
Brians Questions:
I’ve been making music boxes and trying to replicate the traditional style (see attached photos). I’m struggling to get the curved edge just right. I’ve tried using a planer, but I keep messing up and have ended up wasting a lot of boards.
Router round-overs almost work, but still need planed or sanded after routing to get the shape just right, and also they’re pretty dangerous given the small and awkward size of the pieces—I’m working with ¾-inch thick wood that’s 2.5 inches high for the bo...
2025-10-0355 minWhen Depression is in your bedBeyond Sleep: Expanding What Rest Means So We Can Have Daily Practices That RenewRest doesn’t have to mean sleeping in or finding a three-hour window for a nap when time is not something you have in excess. We reframe rest as a spectrum of accessible practices that fit into busy, real lives—rooted in the nervous system, informed by your inner wisdom, culture and community, and designed to restore capacity without adding pressure. Drawing on a polyvagal perspective, we explore how to move from shutdown or overdrive into “safely still,” and why even 90 seconds of breath, grounding, or time in nature can create real change.We walk through eight kinds of...
2025-10-0116 minWhen Depression is in your bedThe Politics of Rest: Power, Privilege, and the PauseRest represents one of our most fundamental needs, yet access to it remains profoundly unequal. Some can freely embrace rest without judgment, while others face criticism, shame, and real-world consequences for the same basic human necessity. This stark reality forms the foundation of what I call "the politics of rest."Who gets to rest without being labeled lazy? Who can take mental health days without facing scrutiny? These aren't neutral questions but deeply political ones shaped by systems of privilege, power, and policy. Wealth-holding households enjoy vacations and help with daily tasks without judgment, while economically disadvantaged...
2025-09-2417 minWhen Depression is in your bedFrom Busy Bee to Safely Still: The Importance of Redefining Our Relationship with RestWhat happens when we slow down in a society obsessed with constant motion? After spending eight transformative days in retreat settings, I've gained powerful insights about rest that challenge everything our culture teaches us about productivity and success.The truth is startling: our nervous systems are designed for cycles of activity and rest, yet modern life rarely allows for genuine restoration. We celebrate those who "burn the candle at both ends" while dismissing periods of stillness as laziness or weakness. This toxic narrative keeps us trapped in survival states – either pushing through in sympathetic activation (fight-or-flight) or co...
2025-09-1724 minWhen Depression is in your bedMosh Pit Magic: The Brilliance of Nervous System HealingWhat do mosh pits have to do with mental health? Everything, at least that's how it turned out for me. From the moment I stepped into my first mosh pit at Woodstock '94 with my dad at age 14, something profound happened—I felt alive again. As a chronically depressed teenager trapped in that collapsed, shutdown state, the vibration of bass against my chest, the permission to move freely without being watched, and the immediate acceptance of a community of strangers offered something my nervous system desperately needed.For thirty years, across countless concerts, these energetic spac...
2025-09-1022 min
When Depression is in your bedFrom Gratitude to Growth: How Appreciation Can Transform RelationshipGratitude might be the relationship superpower you're overlooking. In this heartfelt exploration, we dive into how deliberately practicing appreciation transforms relationships from the inside out.Your brain naturally fixates on problems—it's biology, not a character flaw. This negativity bias served our ancestors well for survival but wreaks havoc in modern relationships. When something upsets us, our nervous system responds as though facing physical danger, triggering fight, flight, or freeze reactions that derail connection. Gratitude serves as the antidote, consciously redirecting attention to what's working.Sharing appreciations does something remarkable: it signals that love remains pr...
2025-09-0321 minWhen Depression is in your bedFrom Car Conflict to Regulated Road Trips: A Nervous System Approach to Creating a Smooth RideWhy do so many couples fight in cars? After a breathtaking but occasionally tense family road trip along the Pacific Coast Highway, I discovered something fascinating about car conflicts that completely changed my perspective.Driving requires a unique blend of nervous system states - we need both calm groundedness (ventral vagal) and energized alertness (sympathetic) to navigate safely. But this delicate balance can easily tip toward dysregulation when fatigue, hunger, time pressure, or danger cues enter the picture. What I initially misinterpreted as my husband "being jerky" during our vacation was actually his nervous system working overtime...
2025-08-2718 minWhen Depression is in your bedWhen Life Keeps "Lifing": Choosing Conscious Connection Over ChaosHave you ever caught yourself thinking your relationship will never change? That moment of hopelessness is precisely what makes breakthrough moments of connection so powerful—when something shifts and you glimpse what's possible through conscious partnership.In this vulnerable and insightful episode, I share a recent experience that validated years of relationship work with my husband. After two chaotic weeks dealing with a flooded basement, a sick child with pneumonia, missed family visits, and the stress of upcoming travel plans, my nervous system was completely dysregulated. I felt disconnected, overwhelmed, and caught in old interpretations about my re...
2025-08-2117 minWhen Depression is in your bedThe Flood of Healing: A Conscious Story of Grief's EvolutionGrief has its own timeline. And sometimes, the most profound revelations about loss emerge from unexpected places—like a flooded basement.When contractors tore out the flooring and walls of what had been my late father's living space, I experienced a surprising wave of emotion. Though he had passed nearly five years earlier, that basement remained "Dad's room" in our family's daily conversations. The physical dismantling of this space triggered a grief experience that felt both familiar and entirely new.What struck me most was how differently my body and mind processed this grief compared to...
2025-08-1314 min