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Utar ChadhavArchiving as a pleasure practiceContinue the gentle roller coaster ride with Fareed and raji in the second half of their conversation as they talk about their pleasure explorations, non-normative rhythms and the mixed bag of emotions that comes along with creating archives of their own experiences of pleasure, inspiration and joy. They converse about what archiving pleasure and inspiration stories mean to Utar Chadhav and its many possibilities. They laugh, reminisce and of course talk about movies!Listen to the full episode here: Co-Hosts: Fareed and rajiProduction, Audio, Mixing: SJArt: Fareed and raji
2025-09-0438 min
Utar ChadhavThe route/root to our magnetismCome join this gentle rollercoaster ride along with fareed and raji as they talk about pleasure and liberation, community and inspiration. They bring in stories from their lives, touching upon intimacy, vulnerability, and how the movies factor into all of this [there's a not-so-secret watch list in their chat! Has a movie stayed with you so long that it inspires you?].Fareed and Raji celebrate and struggle with the stories about pleasure expressed in places like the movies that shape how they feel joy, how they feel safe, how they connect with themselves and others, and how...
2025-08-1449 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 8: Inspirationको फण्डाHas this hot weather, humidity and rainy season got you feeling static? Fret not, you are not alone in this feeling. The unpredictable weather and even more uncertain world scenario has us feeling down too. In these trying times, words of inspiration and little pockets of joy mean so much, don’t they? Luckily, we have just the thing for you! We have recently had the privilege of hosting conversation with little bursts of inspirations who inspired us with their sometimes deep, sometimes random, and sometimes uniquely wise words. Talking to Prabodhi and Sadish has...
2025-07-1736 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 7: Jab We Meteric and raji met in the summer of 2009 at a party. For raji meeting eric changed the course of their life. eric brought an intentionality that raji always craved for. They started having candid conversations about pleasure and desire. Last year raji asked eric if he would want to record a conversation about pleasure and inspiration the next time they met. And so in May of 2025, they went camping and recorded this conversation over the course of two days. What does infusing joy and intentionality in our day to day lives, in our relationships look li...
2025-07-031h 14
Utar ChadhavEp. 6: एकछिन धैर्य राख है…Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th!The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings--becoming a singer, a song writer, an artist. Listen to this heartfelt conversation about a journey of many discoveries.From UC को process loving team to all of you who listen and support us, we hope you en...
2025-06-2336 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 6: एकछिन धैर्य राख है…Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th!The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings--becoming a singer, a song writer, an artist. Listen to this heartfelt conversation about a journey of many discoveries.From UC को process loving team to all of you who listen and support us, we hope you en...
2025-06-1936 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 5: Inviting Rage: A practice in pleasure and inspirationThe love for letters, discovering our favourite writers and sharing our collective rage and grief, we have come to realize pleasure is not a linear feeling, nor inspiration a one way street . Listen to Navin in conversation with raji as they talk about how words, poetry and literature inspire us. The conversation loiters into many tangents as घत लाग्दो conversations often do. Intentional गफिने प्रयास as you know UC को लक्ष नै हो। So here’s a conversation for you to engage with. Here’s to the love of tangents and intentional गफ!Let us know where this conversation transports you to!#utarchadhav #mentalhealthmatters #invitingrage #ilovereading #gri...
2025-06-121h 18
Utar ChadhavEp. 4: XXXXXXLanguage and the written word are powerful. Listen to a conversation between SJ and Akh, besties and co-conspirators coming together to talk about the dating scene, sharing ज्ञान that they have learned from experience which you will surely resonate with. As you listen, think about people in your life you can start these conversations with. Here at UC, in our own exploration of sex, intimacy, touch, consent we thought साथीहरुको साथ ले नै यो conversation अगाडि बढ्छ। Enjoy this heartfelt, funny conversation that centers letting in all sorts of pleasure and making sure shame and guilt never get an upper-hand. #pleasure #bdsm #kink #onlinedating #friendship...
2025-05-2949 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 3: सिकाईको अनुभव/अनुभवको सिकाईListen to this fun, musical and inspiring conversation between Saru and Suneeta Regmi, senior advocate who has been part of the Utar Chadhav journey from the very very beginning!Our lives are multi-storied and we are transported to many possibilities of inspiration and pleasure when we come from a place of curiosity and tentativeness. What is revealed then is a knowing of what moves us, what helps us notice the little-little things that makes our life inspiring to reflect upon. As a facilitator, as a mother, teacher of law and whose comfort space is litigating i...
2025-05-2241 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 2: अलिकति फुरुनदाना typesगफ गाफको rehearsal गरौँ, नयाँ studio सँग familiarize हौँ भन्दै सुरु भएको संवाद तपाई माझ टक्र्याउँदै छौँ ! के के न हो यो शव्द chronobiopolitics बाट things your sex-ed teacher should have talked about but probably didn’t देखी talking about sex without making it sexual गर्दा खेरी निस्कने conversation to importance of basic respect to question “is separating art from artist valid?” to many more. हामीले यो ep.लाई समेट्न ठ्याकै शव्द भेटेनौँ त्यसैले राखिदियौँ, “अलिकति फुरुनदाना types”.Ep. सुन्दै गर्दा ओहो यो नाम त गज्जबै सुहाउँछ जस्तो लागे खबर गर्नुस् है।--This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space to your earholes. Co-Hosts: Raji & SjAudio and Mixing: SaruLogo: SupriyaEp. Art: SaruFollow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:Website: www.utarchadhav.com#MixedBagsOfPleasure #PleasureAndInspiration #MentalHealthMatters #UtarChadhav
2025-05-1550 min
Utar ChadhavEp 1: Cool कि अनुकूलOften we are told that there is a right time for everything - a time to turn into an adult, a time to understand our sexuality, a time to mature into our desires, a time to figure out ourselves and our bodies, a time to grow up. The society we live in has decided a timeline in our life for when things are appropriate; a chronological timetable to live life the right way. But what happens when we challenge this notion? When we do not grow into who we are supposed to be right away? When d...
2025-05-0851 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 12: Autismका कुराकानी-Part IINavigating autistic journey can be tricky. Sometimes there are roundabouts, other times there are days of JOYs. Here we have come up with a map that shows our journey after and during the course of diagnosis and exploration of autism. During April - Autism Awareness/Acceptance month on year 2024, Meraki Chhen along with Utar Chadhav got together in an attempt to deepen the understanding of Autism in Adulthood. This is our follow-up 2nd episode on autism. What have been some helpful know-hows or resources in your autistic joy-rney?Listen t...
2025-04-0947 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 12: Autismका कुराकानी Part IIn the 1st part audio of two part series on “Autismका कुराकानी” you will find Meraki Chhen and Utar Chadhav conversing on Neurodiversity and adult diagnosis. Meraki Chhen is a space for the celebration of nuances of human lived experiences in terrains of gender, sexuality, neurotype and sociocultural pluralism. It aims at furthering discussions and expressions surrounding queerness, adult neurodivergence, asexuality and aromanticism, care and mental health, and embodied indigenous knowledge and practices. This first part tries to understand what neurodiversity and being diagnosed as autistic as an adult means in the context of Nepal. Content discussed in the episode s...
2024-11-2055 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 11: लेख्दै गर्नु ल!पत्रका कथा,शव्दका कथा,कागजका कथा,कलमका कथा,मित्रताका कथायसपालिको episode is an ode to letters. Thank you for making our expressions easier and intimate through paper and pen. This is our love letter to you and to the art of letter writing. सुन्नुस ल!Co-creators: Raji & Saru
Audio and Mixing: Rajan & Saru
Logo: SupriyaEpisode Art: KimFollow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:Instagram: www.instagram.com/utarchadhav/
Facebook: www.facebook.com/Utar-Chadhav-114213631578290
Youtube: www.youtube.com/@utarchadhav🌻🌿🍃🌱💛
2024-10-011h 17
2024-05-281h 08
Utar ChadhavEpisode 9: CheersCheers Ep. 9 on air!
In this episode we talk about the role of alcohol in our lives. Whether we drink or are sober, stories about alcohol impact all our lives.
Our intention here was to have a landing space to talk about these stories, some joyful, some funny and some sad. We had a lot of help from our friends in unpacking this topic, listening to each other and coming together to feel the उतारचढाव that often accompanies the journey when talking about alcohol.
Listen with your loved ones and tell us how it felt and let's con...
2024-03-2855 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 8: दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो“दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो OR the art of giving/receiving compliments.”
Our quest of finding answers to the above statement led us to loiter on compliments. We are pretty sure this has been a hustle for you as well!
How to give good compliments and how to more importantly gracefully receive and own compliments?
We were curious about these questions at the beginning of this journey to understand more deeply our relationship with compliments. With time many of you joined us in this journey and told us compliments that make you feel happy, joyful, sad, irritated………
Guess we figured it out or did we?
Listen to the...
2024-02-2357 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 7: Culture Shock“The paper planes in the drawing are to define we belong somewhere. We never know where the paper planes land though sometimes we decide where it should land. We decide and dream our lives to live in a certain way but we never know what comes forth as the time passes by. Everybody keeps running back and forth searching a place where they belong, their home. The paper planes flies to the direction of wind, likewise, human lives moves along with the flow of time - sometimes, uncertain and undecided”, says Yesung while tuning Ep. 7.
Ep...
2024-01-0140 min
Utar ChadhavIn Solidarity: Rescuing JOYOn August 12th, you came to listen to the rescuing joy episode. To see a room so fully packed gave us immense joy.
And today we bring you, in your own voices, all the things that give us joy.
Joy भनेको के हो त भन्ने प्रश्न अहिले झन् महत्वपुर्ण भएको छ।
We believe that joy is a form of resistance.
#UtarChadhav #JoyAsResistance #MentalHealthMatters #InSolidarity
2023-11-2437 min
Utar ChadhavEp. 6: अनि तपाई के गर्नु हुन्छ? "Episode on Work-life"This time we are going from “बसी बसाई” to “अनि तपाई के गर्नु हुन्छ?”
This episode is for everybody who has been thinking about how to maintain a work-life balance. We bring a lot of strengths to our work - whether that be our ability to balance differing perspectives, our ability to lead, our ability to see new solutions, our ability to deliver under pressure, our ability to energize those around us, and many many others. Even so, our work identity is only one of multiple identities we inhabit in this world. We have many other selves: as a family member, as a friend, as a citizen, as a member of chosen groups. The world tries...
2023-09-1240 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 5: Rescuing JoyThings that give us joy. Little things, big things. Stationery, barbecue, the first flower in spring, beautiful clothes…especially when given by a loved one. Sometimes, things that give us joy get buried in the mountain of things we end up collecting, and we find them one day when cleaning out our space. In our minds as well, things that give us joy get buried among the demands and stresses of daily living - this episode is a call to rescue the joy that lies waiting for us in and around us.
Co-creators & Hosts: Mamata & Raji
Exec...
2023-07-2136 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 4: माया त माया हो* … सर्त लागु छैन्June is Pride month. Pride Month is an entire month dedicated to uplifting LGBTQIA voices, celebrating LGBTQIA culture and supporting LGBTQIA rights. A month जहाँ entire year पर्दा पछाडी पारिएका stories and eventsबो लर्को लाग्छन् and त्यही लर्कोमा हामी पनि थपिएका छौँ।
In this episode we talk about love. We hear a lot of coming out stories, the preparation, the anticipation, the hopes and the eventual aftermath - a story that sometimes ends in tears, and sometimes in hugs. Navigating through several experiences, we wanted to look at the other side. The loved one that the queer person is coming out to: Who are they? What social expectations might be causing them to react the way they do? And, are there resources that could support them to show up with love, and care?आख
2023-06-2145 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad16 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 1)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1612 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad17 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 2)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1611 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad18 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 3)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1621 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad19 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 4)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1610 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad20 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 5)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1615 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad21 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 6)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1637 min
Kankal by Jaishankar Prasad22 - Tritiya Khand (Bhaag 7)Jeevan ke utaar chadhav ko kabhi koi rok nahi paya hai aur shayad hi koi rok bhi paayega, aaiye jante hai aise hi utar-chadhav se bhare jeevan ke baare mein aur samjenge ki aakhir kya hua Kishori ke sath? Kyun Vijay hua chintit apne bhavishya ko lekar? Aakhir kya Hua Mangaldev aur Yamuna ke sath? Kyun aaya Shri Chand wapas Kishori ke jeevan main aur kyun laga Ghanti par hatya ka aarop? Jaaniye inn sare sawalon ka jawab sirf “Audio Pitara” par.Stay Updated on our shows at audiopitara.com and follow us on Instagram and YouTube @audiop...
2023-06-1620 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 3: जय भोली "The Procrastination Episode"Procrastination has many of us in its grip. Looking for solutions, we end up in rabbit holes - reading up about 5 ways to beat procrastination, the secret recipe to become productive and so on. For many of us, these lists become a bigger source of distress, when these “cures” do not work, and they start to feel like nothing can help them.
Have you ever imagined what your procrastination would look like? Have you talked about your procrastination? Wouldn’t you love the opportunity to rant/vent to your procrastination? That’s exactly what we decided to do for t...
2023-05-1732 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 2: Online Spacesका उतार चढावIn our second episode, we talk about the ups and downs of online spaces.
Online spaces can bring us joy and connection when we feel sad and alone . We go on social media to share happiness with a wider audience. We laugh, we cry, we search, we play and so on. Going online and checking updates is often the first thing we do when we wake up, and last thing we do before bed. Simply put, online spaces are an extension of ourselves, our identities...
In this episode we...
2023-04-1949 min
Utar ChadhavEpisode 1: Break UpsOur first episode is here!
We start off the UtarChadhav series with a conversation on breakups.
Break Ups are difficult. We grieve the loss of so many possibilities, yet, that pain is not acknowledged in the spaces and conversations around us.
There is no word for "break up" in Nepali - and when the word doesn't exist, sometimes it is almost as if the experience itself does not exist. But we all know that that is not true.
Around us, we see breakups happen all the time, but we do not ha...
2023-03-2230 min