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Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaDivine Forgiveness – Closing the Chapter on my Vengeance FantasiesThis is the most honest thing I’ve shared about forgiveness.For a long time, I didn’t understand why killing was considered a sin. Not from the Buddha, not from Christian theology. After recovering memories of sodomy from my perpetrator in 2022, I felt deeply justified in wanting to kill him. I even researched how. I made soul agreements with parts of me that were in agony. I thought I was bringing karmic judgment — cleanly. And then, I met Jesus. Not the idea of him — the presence. In the depths of my agony, I felt him suff...2025-06-0210 min
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaExploring the Collapse of Boundaries in AbuseIn this video, I’m exploring some tender territory around the collapse of boundaries in abuse. I’m reflecting on how hatred from strangers online has been stirring up deep old pain — and how it might connect to early experiences of boundary collapse, possibly even repressed trauma. I share honestly about the emotional waves that came up, the grief, the moments of suicidal flashes, and the practices that are helping me move through it — like crying instead of numbing, and allowing the tension to release. This isn’t a polished answer — it’s an open inquiry. If you’re navigating simil...2025-04-2626 minHealing Childhood Sexual TraumaMicrodosing Psychedelics for Healing Childhood Sexual Trauma w/ Will Harris(Skip to 0:00:45 for the start, apologies for the editing gaffe.)In this episode, Will Harris shares his journey of healing from childhood sexual abuse from his father using psychedelics.I met Will over a year ago here in Asheville and felt a resonance in our capacity to speak openly about our similar trauma history. In April of 2024, I did an Ayahuasca ceremony (my second one) with the intention of healing my subconscious misogyny – specifically as it relates to my mother. It was quite a wild journey. On the first night, I saw vivid im...2025-02-211h 21Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaExorcising childhood sexual abuse with Bob FalconerI hosted Bob Falconer today on my podcast Healing Childhood Sexual Trauma.
I really loved the simplicity of a theme that emerged in this conversation.
It's that love heals everything.
You don't need all these fancy tools and fancy trauma healing techniques and fancy conversational frameworks.
You just need to open your heart to love.
Of course the journey to a soft heart sometimes requires learning all these techniques – just so that the mind can finally lay down its defenses.
What a delight it is...2025-01-171h 03Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaHealing Indulgence in Vengeance FantasiesThis past weekend in Asheville was quite a grief portal for me, triggered by my first instance of being on the receiving end of verbal racism since I've moved here.
I trudged the now familiar road from shock, numbness to grief release to exhaustion, fatigue to suicidality to vengeance fantasization. In this video, I describe how allowing myself to fantasize about vengeance has helped relieve a lot of the tension that can emerge in moments of deep trauma triggers.
I reference a tool in the video called aspecting. Here's an essay describing how I used it to release all...2025-01-1340 min
Progressives for TrumpThe FinaleThe election season is behind us. Congrats to those of us who supported Trump and my sympathies to those who are filled with despair at the news. Long live the USA 🇺🇸
What a joy it has been to find a connection to an authentic source of creativity within, and then to find another with an independent but aligned connection to their own source and to have that energy come alive in connection and bounce back and forth between us. From the phone call I made to Luca from Amsterdam in August where I told him "yo, it feels wild to say...2024-11-1143 minProgressives for TrumpDiscussing Abortion with a Harris supporterFirstly, the dude I'm having this conversation with is more than just a "Harris supporter" and I am more than just a "Trump supporter", but the limited characters available on the Internet require such reductiveness but let that reductiveness not seep into you as you watch/listen to this conversation.
I have another video coming up on "abortion", where I share some reflections. This weekend I had a long chat with my sister where we discussed many things – one of which was the horrific 7 week abortion experience that one of her friends went through in LA. This subject is qu...2024-11-041h 11Progressives for TrumpAbortion – Understanding Single Issue VotersThis is the follow up on the conversation I had, emergently themed on abortion, with a brother who is voting for #kamalaharris this election.
I get single issue voters through this content creation journey. As much as I feel aligned with many things that #trump has proposed, I get it why people would want to punish him for being instrumental in overturning Roe v. Wade. If that's you, I support you.
At the same time, I hope that folks with a progressive orientation around abortion access – which is that humans should have the option to decide if they want to...2024-11-0415 minProgressives for TrumpIs Donald Trump a Fascist?... and other Spiritual Questions"Fascist" is a word that gets thrown around quite easily these days along with other words like "bigot", "racist" and "transphobic". These adjectives have become placeholders for "I feel upset about something that you said".
Our society has gotten so numbed out and expect so little actual change from politicians that someone who doesn't stick to prepared scripts and shows more dimensions of their human personality than puppet politicians who manage to maintain their one-dimensional image, is considered odd.
The establishment of politicians is about to crumble just like the numbed layers of a human being are ready to...2024-10-3155 min
Progressives for TrumpJD Vance’s interview with NYT an absolute masterclass!Reflections on how grateful I feel for having an impeccably quality man like JD Vance as the VP candidate and my prayers for the 300000 missing migrant children (who are likely being sex trafficked). Watch the full interview of JD Vance on NYT Podcasts YouTube channel before you cast the ballot. #Trump20242024-10-2611 minHealing Childhood Sexual TraumaThe Ridiculous Projection of Repressed Trauma into "Theories"The wounding we don't see within ourselves, tends to get intellectualized and projected out onto the world. I dig into the story of Dr. Elizabeth Loftus, the top most expert on the "falsity" of recovered memories of sexual abuse. She was fondled at the age of 6 and believes that that incident "did not affect her much". She has devoted her career as a psychologist to create bodies of scientific research to discredit recovery of repressed memories. How cosmically ironic and ridiculous!
It's high time that we discard "wisdom" from anyone who is unwilling to share what wounding they experienced...2024-10-1809 minProgressives for TrumpTrump & Climate Change, with love from post Hurricane Helene AshevilleIt's been a crazy week here in Asheville, NC. Hurricane Helene hit us hard. Naturally, this brought up the question of climate change and how to solve it and what is the right combination of policies and individual entrepreneurship necessary to bring us to a place where Capitalism can continue thriving and bringing forth individuation, sovereignty and upliftment while also not subjecting our beautiful planet to the Tragedy of the Commons.
In this video, we discuss climate change. Open to critique and feedback. I don't think this is a situation that can be fully resolved via polarized arguments, but...2024-10-101h 10Progressives for TrumpTrump: The Opportunistic Choice for the progressive causeIn this video, me and Luca break down the case for why Donald Trump is the opportunistic choice for the progressive cause in the upcoming elections. We unpack what it means to make 'opportunistic' choices in service of a long term vision. How when we are rooted in our values, we can allow ourselves the freedom to look at a wide range of present options to make choices that are aligned with the long term future we envision rooted in these values. We also unpack some negative connotations that folks might have with the term "opportunism".
We recorded this...2024-10-1044 minProgressives for TrumpUnpacking reactions to "They are eating the cats!"🎶 They're eating the cats
Eating the cats
Eat the cats
Eat, eat the cats 🎶
In this video, Luca and I share some thoughts on the Springfield Kitty Cat brouhaha.
#springfield #springfieldcats #maga #progressivesfortrump #trump #debate
Original video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDSeBGjidag&ab_channel=FreedomToons
Merchandise: https://progressives-for-trump.creator-spring.com/2024-10-1055 minProgressives for TrumpReacting to Vivek Ramaswamy reacting to the Presidential DebateVivek breaks down the meta game like nobody's business!
The game beneath the game beneath the words and the questions and the politics. Meta meta meta.
Full Vivek breakdown video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziaOUFVyASY&t=999s&ab_channel=VivekRamaswamy
Merchandise: https://teespring.com/stores/progressives-for-trump?page=1
#progressivesfortrump #liberalsfortrump #trump #maga #nomoresecrets #vivekramaswamy #vivek2028 #presidentialdebate2024-10-1049 minProgressives for TrumpThe progressive case for Donald TrumpIn this video, Luca and I share the progressive case for Donald Trump. We dive into the energetics of what a progressive society feels like. Where Hope truly comes from and how that differentiates from the Merchants of Despair that attempt to consumerize and sell hope. And we end with a provocation for everyone to love the parts of them that feel like pieces of shit so that they may vote from a place of hope and not shame. Expect some detours into Indian and Dutch political history.
Merchandise: https://teespring.com/stores/progressives-for-trump
#donaldtrump #trump #maga #liberalsfortrump #progressivesfortrump2024-10-101h 06Progressives for TrumpReacting to viral Trump Ayahuasca videoIn this video, I react and respond to the viral Trump Ayahuasca AI generated art video by Alexander Beiner, Jason Silva and Ari Kuschnir. Original here: https://www.instagram.com/alexander_beiner/reel/C--kIqnINjH/?hl=en
I talk about Why Reaction Videos rock, The Challenge of Sovereignty, the 5 Monkeys experiment, How to Live Purposefully without Needing to Heal, Money and the link between Trauma and Physicality.2024-10-1019 minProgressives for TrumpUnpacking Trump: Is Orange Man Bad?In this conversation, Luca and I attempt to create some political reaction content for the NBAJ interview of Trump but there's so much to unpack that we barely get through a minute of the video.2024-10-1049 min
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaRage Against the Caretaker – A commentary on the movie Eileen (2023)Often in the journey of an #adultsurvivor of #childhoodsexualabuse towards Wholeness, they have to face the Rage that lives within their bodies for the gross violation of boundaries that they experienced as a child. Rage is an emotion that exists to represent past violation of boundaries that have not been fully addressed and alchemized.It's a trope in the adult survivor world that often (not always), it's easier to access this Rage against the person who was supposed to be taking care of you instead of the perpertrator. There's a felt sense of deep betrayal. It's almost as if...2024-07-2722 minHealing Childhood Sexual TraumaUncovering Trauma through a journey of Vipassana, Pick Up Artistry and Yoga – Interview with WolfWolf is a fascinating human that I crossed paths with quite serendipitously through my travels. In this podcast interview recorded at Vondelpark in Amsterdam, NL, we dive into his uncovering of his childhood sexual trauma. Wolf is the first human I've directly spoken with who has experienced infantile sexual abuse. He is also one of the most open, creative and entrepreneurial human beings. I thoroughly enjoyed dropping in on this subject with him and hope you do too.
You can find him on Instagram: @_wolfb_ and YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/c/FlowOfConsciousness?app...2024-07-061h 09Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaOn overcoming trauma–induced porn & sex addiction with Tyson AdamsTyson Adams is a trauma-informed IFS men's coach, somatic bodyworker and psychedelic facilitator. After spending 20 years addicted to pornography, he outgrew it seven years ago and has found his passion and purpose in helping other men master their lifeforce energy. He also co-facilitates men's work leadership intensives and works with couples experiencing intimacy challenges. When he's not working you'll catch him on a rock wall or riding a slackline in sunny, San Diego.
You can find more of his work at IG: @tysonadams__2024-05-301h 05Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaOn the Capacity of your Hands to Soothe your Panic AttacksIn the previous episode, I talked about the panic I've experienced every time I've come close to or recovered a repressed memory of sexual abuse. In this episode, I share more about my direct experience with soothing my own panic attacks by holding different parts of myself with loving kindness every morning, along with regular self body oil massage rituals.
I don't get panic attacks anymore – unless I find myself watching a movie with a lot of jump scares – wild to think I was so numbed out that I used to love these before. Now...2024-02-0514 minHealing Childhood Sexual TraumaThe Panic of Recovering Repressed Memories of Sexual AbuseThe Panic of Recovery of #repressedmemoriesofchildhoodsexualabuse is rooted in the fallacious notion that what you are seeing is happening to you right now.Practice reminding yourself that anything you might see has already happened to you. Anything that you might be afraid of needing to do is a choice that you don’t have to make right now.I’ve found this reminder to self a wonderful way of soothing myself during #panicattacks and aiding the recovery process.2024-02-0206 minHealing Childhood Sexual TraumaExploring the subjectivity & objectivity of repressed childhood sexual traumaI share my journey of wondering whether it’s all real.2023-12-1309 min
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaThe Gradual Horror of Remembering that you've featured in Child Pornography"I'd really like to dance with the stories of my childhood sexually traumas without being treated like I'm fragile. I want the disrespectful, shitty, bullying. I want people to say the things no one would EVER say. I want to find any other places I might have unresolved bits leftover. I think I'll make it a game where I give out points for whatever I want and that clues us all into which directions to head."
I remember reading this post in a closed Facebook community for exploring triggers and feeling amazed that Carissa was actually inviting...2023-09-061h 28Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaThe Emasculation of Being Raped as a BoyIn this episode of the podcast, Liv Frank of https://www.mybodyprayer.com/ interviews me and explores my story of recovering repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse.
In this conversation, we touch upon the fascinating myth of Saturn, Uranus and Venus. Uranus was Saturn's father, the god of the unlimited Skies. Saturn was the God of limited space and time. Uranus was married to Gaia, the Goddess Earth and mistreated her. Gaia asked Saturn to take revenge on his father and Saturn castrated Uranus. Uranus's testicles fell into the ocean and from the frothy foam was born Venus, the...2023-08-301h 56Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaHealthy boundaries, healthy parenting and the systemic nature of childhood sexual abuse with Clinical Sexologist and Shaman, Francesca GentilleIn this episode, I talk to Francesca Gentille, a clinical sexologist and shaman. We discuss her own history of childhood sexual trauma and get glimpses of her own wonderful story of parenting her kids, along with some interesting frameworks to understand sexual healing through – the 5 steps of healing, understanding how the notion of children as property underlies the widespread nature of sexual abuse. The podcast builds up to a very tender reveal from her about what (in my perception) is one of the most bizarre stories I've encountered in my exploration of stories of childhood sexual abuse.
2023-08-151h 37Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaBoredom, suicidal ideation & repressed childhood sexual traumaIn this episode, I describe my own relationship to boredom and suicidal ideation and how the exploration of my repressed childhood sexual trauma has provided me with clarity into why I would constantly feel "bored" and engage in passive/mildly active suicidal ideation. I have not felt "bored" or experienced "suicidal ideation" over the past 6 months and I hope that this share will help you connect to a felt sense of preciousness of your own life and connect you to the magic that surrounds you every moment.
I cover–
How "boredom" is intensity experienced through a la...2023-04-2630 min
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaRecovering repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse, and life thereafterIn this episode, I talk briefly about my journey recovering repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse and the unique challenges that it's brought to my life. If you also live with recovered repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse and would love to write to me about your story, I'd love to hear – vighnesh.rege@gmail.com
I was originally intending this to be a reel on IG @heal.childhood.sexual.trauma, but then it got too long for that :)
Credit for episode art: https://www.behance.net/ArtByIzzy – this imag...2023-04-0833 min
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaUsing artistic expression to overcome paternal sexual abuse – a conversation with Elizabeth McConaghyA conversation with Elizabeth McConaghy, co-founder of OP(CO + CO)OP – a self-healing co-working community for sexual trauma survivors. We explore her story of surviving childhood sexual abuse by her father and her ongoing healing process. Elizabeth McConaghy is a writer, teacher, and artist who lives in Los Angeles.
Elizabeth's IG: https://www.instagram.com/ecmcconaghy/2023-03-012h 10
Healing Childhood Sexual TraumaIntroduction to the podcastThis podcast intends to be a space to share stories of healing childhood sexual trauma.
Childhood sexual abuse is widely prevalent (1 in 3 women, 1 in 6 men) and simultaneously, hardly spoken about. The taboo associated with the subject allows this disease to persist within our society. Over the last year, I have spoken to and read stories of hundreds of adult survivors. Traumas can’t be compared and yet, I believe that this is one of the deepest forms of trauma that exists. So learning about it holds the key to deep spiritual growth for both adult survivors and ot...2023-02-0710 min