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The Fear Addict PodcastBetty: A Candid, Insightful Journey of One Woman's Path to Self Acceptance, Love and HopeIn this episode, Betty, who grew up in a household affected by generations of alcohol, substance abuse, gang activity and general dysfunction, coped with it by becoming a "scholastic perfectionist." To survive as a child and young adult in this emotionally chaotic household, she learned to have "zero needs." Betty talks bravely and candidly with Josh and Mark about how that belief system morphed into her making relationships, especially romantic ones her "drug of choice." Those relationship choices however were rooted in the distorted perception that love also had to be abusive to somehow be real. We go deep...
2023-07-151h 12The Fear Addict PodcastBryson: Being Addicted to Anxiety and How to Overcome it With a Personal Process of RecoveryWhen a super-genius from the recovery world stops by Josh's place for a genius session behind the pink microphone, some amazing things happen -- Bryson shares his unique perspective as a Son of the South who grew up in the family disease and developed some hyper-controlling behaviors and an addiction to anxiety to deal with the overwhelming feelings of unloveability. He shares his journey with the guys from being a grown-ass man suffering from abject daily fear, to discovering and practicing his version of long-standing hope and faith. Bryson takes us on a deep exploration into his wild, funny...
2023-07-011h 08The Fear Addict PodcastEddie: Re-directing Fear into Faith and Deepening your Relationship with a Higher Power to Overcome Family Patterns of DysfunctionEddie comes to the table to talk about his experience growing up with what he believed was an "idyllic" childhood as the only child in his East Coast family. What came to the fore in the conversation with Josh and Mark is his realization that while his father did the best he could with what he had, there was a generational response to alcholism in his past that created a dynamic of co-dependency. While his middle class family presented well to the outside world, there was unexpressed fear in the household of "losing it all" financially, which he internalized...
2023-06-141h 25The Fear Addict PodcastFielding Edlow: Finding Authentic Self by Shedding the Bullshit and Grief of "Self"Super special guest, Fielding Edlow, a smart, hilarious writer, actor, comedian and mom, takes us on a journey from her East Coast origins, coming of age in NYC, while dealing with body image, sugar-addiction and relationship obsession. When she discovered she had a problem with drinking, it was later revealed to her in Alanon that she suffered from that old familiar fear of being unloved and abandoned, but also having a deep-seated fear of actually being seen (we know, it's frikkin' complicated being us). Josh and Mark get down to their own problems with "self" and distorted perceptions, but...
2023-05-191h 07The Fear Addict PodcastSteve Serpas: Discovering the Journey, Heartbreak and Gift of Bipolar Disorder and Emotional SobrietyMay is Mental Health Awareness month and the Fear Addict has got you covered. In this deep dive of an episode, Josh and Mark talk to Steve Serpas, who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 18. Steve shares his earliest memories of growing up in Louisiana with the illness, including weight gain and full-blown mania as well as growing up around alcoholsim and untreated alanon behavior. He found safety and self-expression in his early creative work and writing, ultimately finding 12 step rooms at age 27, which saved his life. From there, his path to healing involved a multi-city journey that included...
2023-05-051h 10The Fear Addict PodcastJohnny Webster: Achieving True Authenticity and Hope From the Wreckage of Fear-Based Thinking and BehaviorJohnny Webster talks with Mark and Josh about his journey with emotional sobriety and the 12 steps, starting with growing up in Memphis as a young Black, gay man in a family affected by trauma and how he tried to cope with it after moving to Los Angeles... Unfortunately for us, that part of the podcast wasn't recorded due to a technical error! So, in an effort to not succumb to "perfectionism," we invited Johnny back to listen to the part of the episode that wasn't affected, and then looking back on what he heard some months later, catching us u...
2023-04-211h 09The Fear Addict PodcastJessica Graham: Recovery From Self Abandoning and Learning Sober Sex, Love and Life!Jessica Graham is a trauma resolution guide, specializing in complex-developmental trauma and post-traumatic growth. Jessica is also a meditation teacher, sex, relationship and guide for couples and individuals, international speaker. In this episode, Mark and Josh talk with Jess about her journey through growing up in a tough environment with a father who had addiction issues and a mother who was emotionally complicated. To survive the outer chaos in her life and the inner chaos of her body, she began smoking at 12 and escalated from there until finding Alanon and then A.A. During this time she explored the s...
2023-04-071h 16The Fear Addict PodcastKeith: Finding Your Way Into Physical and Emotional Sobriety is Messy and BeautifulJosh and Mark go in-depth with Keith, a great friend of Josh's, who found recovery when his relationship with his boyfriend ended during the pandemic. His attachment to his partner and desire to control uncontrollable outcomes broke him and pushed him to surrender. Keith shares openly about his past patterns of seeking self-worth externally and what is is like to begin to develop an inwardly derived self-esteem for the first time in his life. Mentioned: Alanon A.A. Cancer Relationships Break-ups Higher Power Rec...
2023-03-241h 09The Fear Addict PodcastAnise Goff: Growing From Tragedy by Learning to Love Yourself and Asking For HelpAnise Goff (Mark's wife) talks with he and Josh (Mark was super anxious having her on, p.s) about being a Black woman growing up with a mother who had serious mental health challenges and how that impacted her family while she and her sister were taken care of by a "village of women" who came to their aid. Anise shares how she dealt with feeling overwhelmed and guilty about not "being enough," and how a history of tragedy in her parent's background shaped her emotional learning curve. The episode goes deep into her spiritual practice, therapy, overcoming low...
2023-03-101h 14The Fear Addict PodcastRyan O Roy: Faith Over Fear and Finding a Safe Space To Be MessyMark and Josh welcome Ryan O Roy, an accomplished screenwriter and president of a behavioral health consultancy. Ryan talks candidly about the trauma that resulted from growing up in a home full of addiction and abuse and losing his brother to drugs. He shares how therapy and recovery changed his life, transforming his loneliness to feelings of freedom, and discovering true community, deep surrender, and a safe space to be messy.
2023-02-231h 14
The Fear Addict PodcastEpisode 1 with Diane FarrWelcome to the Fear Addict podcast. In each episode, hosts Mark G. and Josh B. explore our complicated relationships with fear, anxiety, depression and loved one's substance abuse by talking with behavioral experts and extraordinary people who have recovered in various 12-step programs. Together they hold an intimate space for an in-depth journey on how we can all live and thrive despite the very human fears we all share. In this episode, Mark and Josh welcome accomplished actor, screenwriter, artist and bad-ass mom, Diane Farr. Diane is also one of the stars of the CBS drama, "Fire...
2023-02-041h 05
APEX Featuring Ian C JordanTony Evers is going to raise taxes $1 billion Rebecca Kleefisch is running for Governor.So Tony Evers is going to raise taxes $1 billion. I don't know what else we have to say about Democrats, spending, and government. These guys are in a word pathetic. This is why I started my media company fearmedia.todayBut this is where we are. So I'm going to say it again just like I said to J Weber just like I did my videos on and my podcast on just like when I was on the caramel conservative. You fools that don't see what's happening you better support Rebecca clay fish when she runs...
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